回到曦原的隔天，沈渝只讓自己休息了二十四小時。
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沒有過度放空，也沒有特別放縱，只是讓身體徹底沉進床墊、讓腦袋短暫空白，然後，重新開機。
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星期一一早，他準時走進辦公室，穿著一貫的俐落黑西裝、素面白T、髮絲整齊，和平時沒什麼不同。
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他打開筆電，熟練地篩信、標記、回覆，切換專案資料夾、安排內部會議流程。出差前後的落差他早已習慣，那些被延後的簡報與代辦清單也如預期地推山倒海而來。
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但今天的沈渝，其實不太一樣。
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因為他心裡藏著一個還沒說出口的決定。
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午休前，他敲了段如菱的門。
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「我想排個時間，跟你談一下未來的工作規劃。」他語氣一如往常平穩。
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段如菱抬頭看他，眉頭微挑：「要離職？」
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沈渝搖頭，笑了一下：「不是，是想申請留職停薪。……一年。」
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那一秒空氣安靜了下來。
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他沒解釋太多，也沒舉出一堆理由。因為那晚與白湛的對話，他終於承認——自己不是撐不住，是不想再一直撐了。
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「我想休息一陣子，真正地，休息。」
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不是轉職，不是請假，而是一次主動退出日常循環的選擇。
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不是逃避，而是沈渝第一次允許自己——不當那個什麼都能解決的人。
段如菱沉默了幾秒，低頭翻了翻沈渝的工作排程。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQaBJ3t0CmN
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「你是真的需要休息，這我看得出來。」她語氣難得放軟。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8TcUailxNd
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但下一句還是帶著難以割捨的無奈：「只是……有些案子，真的沒有人能替你處理。」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPDXQzZT7H5
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沈渝早有準備，平靜地點頭：「我知道。那幾個客戶如果有變動，我會線上支援。簡報、技術資料或進度會議也都可以線上參與，其他的部分我會交接清楚。」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpIG19K1if9
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段如菱抬頭看他，眉頭仍皺著。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFBe8nB3Hhp
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「這種『放一半』的假，對你來說會不會根本休息不了？」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiTuOQ6fiPb
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沈渝微笑：「我會自己拿捏底線。但如果不先讓自己停下來，我可能永遠不會有機會停。」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXRn2erCInT
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房間一陣靜默，最後，段如菱點了點頭。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhujIOZxIPx
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「給你一個月時間交接，休假從下個月開始。」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgUtWf2aPhX
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沈渝微微一笑，語氣誠懇：50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7h0j9W5Wzt
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「謝謝你。」
夜深，城市安靜下來。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7S3VgZtvFA
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視訊那頭的沈渝披著一件薄毯，背景是他熟悉的公寓沙發，還能看見桌上的底片罐與一盞半熄的檯燈。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5e8hx866vJ
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「我主管今天批准了留職停薪。」沈渝開場的語氣雲淡風輕，像說著某個會議結果，「一個月後，我會有一整年的假期。」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGVPhJb1eRQ
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白湛在片場休息室裡，靠著牆坐著，還穿著戲服，臉上有未卸的妝，但笑意真實。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuXUBkfiXG2
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「哇……直接消失一年啊？」他半調侃地說。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqGAhuM08jV
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「不是真的消失啦，只是……想做一些一直拖著沒做的事。」沈渝笑了笑，語氣第一次沒有職場銳氣，而是某種孩子氣的憧憬。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBRY05sDG39
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「像是把我堆積三年的底片洗出來、掃進電腦……」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡstvV5WfoMZ
「也想一個人去旅行……環遊世界那種……雖然太理想化。」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwf6yN8Eqt3
「我還想走一次朝聖之路，從法國那邊走過去。」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsCuQbItB1T
「也想去學衝浪。說不定會被浪打爛，但想試試。」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHt0wogJx3x
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他一邊說，一邊低頭翻著筆記，像是在讀自己的夢給他聽。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbSytEbB2Qh
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而另一端的白湛，雖然整天拍戲累得不行，卻沒打斷，只是靜靜聽著，眼神柔得不像螢幕裡的人。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9swb2loW5a
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「你這些……我都想聽你一個一個實現。」他輕聲說。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ90I9fatR8n
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沈渝停下來，看著螢幕，眼神帶一點困意，又有點笑意。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbItgclNalg
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「等我開始行動時，再一個個報告給你。」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvFWF2Jx46t
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白湛點頭，嘴角一抹微不可察的笑：50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxypj2DyaA4
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「那我也要趕快拍完，才能有時間當你的聽眾。」
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沈渝說完他的計畫，語氣慢慢平靜下來。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4JBQN4Tbvd
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他望著螢幕裡還在笑的白湛，忽然換了個姿勢，靠得更近了一點，語氣像是隨口一問，但眼神是認真的：50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCUoHuPd4Gr
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「那你呢？」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMVSTMWtGWc
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白湛一愣，似乎沒想到沈渝會問得這麼直接。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgnpwoR6YkY
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「你不是說戲拍完有半年假期？那你打算做什麼？」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYEEUmmOENc
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白湛低頭笑了笑，手指在咖啡杯邊緣轉了一圈，像是在想該怎麼說——50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAU90BRfcCN
該說「休息」嗎？該說「想見你」嗎？還是該說「其實我還沒想好」？50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKBfqMqI1K2
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最後，他抬起眼看著沈渝，語氣輕得像風：50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPGRDIN00Ga
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「我原本沒有什麼特別的計劃。」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9lJuX206H6
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「但現在……」他頓了一下，笑著補了一句：50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkJXyzqMrPj
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「好像開始想看看你說的那些地方長什麼樣子了。」
沈渝聽完白湛那句「想看看你說的地方」，嘴角勾起一抹玩味的笑。
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他撐著臉，語氣漫不經心地說：
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「那你要好好規劃一下喔，畢竟我可是打算環遊世界的人。」
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他頓了頓，眼神閃了下，像是順手點燃一根語言的火柴：
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「說不定在某個海邊會遇到個高富帥的潛水教練喔。」
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白湛皺眉：「你這樣對一個還在趕通告的人說這種話，不覺得太殘忍嗎？」
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「只是先提醒你有競爭者的風險。」沈渝攤手，一臉無辜。
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白湛瞇眼笑了，語氣帶著咬牙切齒的寵溺：
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「那我只能先請導演幫我把戲提早殺青了。」
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兩人隔著螢幕笑起來，語言的針鋒相對裡，藏著某種真實的牽掛。
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夜裡，片場燈光依舊明亮，工作人員忙進忙出，白湛坐在一個角落裡，化完第二次妝，手邊放著冷掉的咖啡。
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螢幕那頭的沈渝還開著鏡頭。
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「你現在要拍夜戲了吧？我陪你一下。」
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沈渝靠著沙發，聲音有些倦，但眼神還清醒。他一邊說，一邊拉了拉毯子，把手機擺在桌角對著自己。
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「沒關係，你去睡吧。」白湛低聲說。
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「我不睏……」
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話還沒說完，對面的人已經開始長時間沒出聲。
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白湛看著畫面裡那張漸漸沉靜下來的臉，眼神柔了下來。
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沈渝睡著了。
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那種毫無防備的睡，讓他有些不習慣，也有些感動。螢幕微亮，映在白湛的臉上像一道不敢碰碎的光。
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他沒有掛斷視訊，只是將手機稍微靠近，像是能離他更近一點。
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然後，他終於打開了手機備忘錄。
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輸入幾個字：
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「曦原。朝聖之路。潛水教練。」
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他笑了笑，低聲說：
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「你先睡吧……我慢慢想你，也慢慢想我的假期該怎麼排。」
然後按「加至主畫面」