I feel like loneliness will never let me go.108Please respect copyright.PENANAAKmShv6h8l
I should adapt to it, but still—it bothers me deeply.
I ask myself: What does a girl really want?108Please respect copyright.PENANA4Pkgg799eI
Maybe I just need a person who will love me completely—not a princess on a white horse...
I want people who will prefer me over others,108Please respect copyright.PENANALccACOyRuj
people I can turn to—any time—108Please respect copyright.PENANAqEyW7aC6e8
whether I’m happy or sad.
I want someone who won’t sell me for their own benefits,108Please respect copyright.PENANAqniXX1lUBs
someone who likes me the way I like him.
You know, everyone around me has someone they trust,108Please respect copyright.PENANA2d1IhUYVgc
someone who chooses them,108Please respect copyright.PENANAg50yvgsvFz
but not me—as always.
When I was a child, during every fight with my parents, I was alone.108Please respect copyright.PENANAwSJb1m3Rjb
I don’t have siblings,108Please respect copyright.PENANAmHN7JIZLae
so I was always the one asking for forgiveness.108Please respect copyright.PENANAeEKhXGr0k2
I didn’t want to be alone.
In elementary school, they were my besties,108Please respect copyright.PENANA7Z8qlX5g2e
but I wasn’t their bestie.
It’s been like this ever since.108Please respect copyright.PENANAhjgd9mI4eR
Now, I’m not afraid of being alone,108Please respect copyright.PENANAFMHNze5K9X
but loneliness still lingers.
I was in a relationship for 2 years and 7 months,108Please respect copyright.PENANAuvXqgZINbM
and he still preferred his friends.
Now I’m in a new relationship—108Please respect copyright.PENANACxGSgjUwU3
but maybe it’s worse.108Please respect copyright.PENANA7bItoo1WWx
Maybe I mean nothing to him.
But every time I try to leave,108Please respect copyright.PENANAlXgGLsxiPD
I can’t.108Please respect copyright.PENANATRhwxDPZg7
Because if I go,108Please respect copyright.PENANAbqmmSkq1ox
I really won’t have anyone.
Sometimes I wish I had siblings—like a big brother.108Please respect copyright.PENANAs7505xJY9g
I would support him, and he would support me.108Please respect copyright.PENANARgzmVkWdJJ
But I don’t.
In the old days, I was a stone for my cousins to rely on.108Please respect copyright.PENANANX4i5bUI1F
I tried so hard to keep them strong through difficult paths.
But when it came to me—108Please respect copyright.PENANAjLmpzRf6b9
when it was my turn to enter adult life—108Please respect copyright.PENANA6uLrrLB3ID
I was alone.