Who am I?212Please respect copyright.PENANAskg79p4Jv8
This question trills through my mind every second of the day.212Please respect copyright.PENANAdheTBQ6Ll3
For 23 years of my life, I used to be a follower—a good child to my sensitive family.
I was a husband to my mother and a son to my father—except for the duty of being a daughter to my mother.
I had forgotten my dreams. It felt like sacrificing myself just for my family.212Please respect copyright.PENANA2RQIvbQARY
But I couldn’t continue down that path, so I decided to choose myself for the first time and try to do something for me.
I came to Germany from a faraway country to study and find myself.212Please respect copyright.PENANAPptkPJ0hZq
It’s been a year here in this beautiful city,212Please respect copyright.PENANAbcfDufl3Fw
but I feel like I’m stuck.212Please respect copyright.PENANARZ0Dh82RH6
I don’t know what I want.212Please respect copyright.PENANAhFcy2wCW0I
I’m lost and filled with anger toward everything.
I used to sacrifice my dreams, but now—though I no longer want that—I’m still drowning in it...212Please respect copyright.PENANA08HuPWUr8u
I want to have a dream.212Please respect copyright.PENANAE7z0cLCQIx
Have a goal.212Please respect copyright.PENANAsp9x078VOl
Try to achieve it...212Please respect copyright.PENANAKbJdZPfGS7
But I can’t.
When I open my eyes, I don’t know what I want.212Please respect copyright.PENANAvG6AhQBG1n
I know I want to want something—but what?
In the silence of night, in the darkness,212Please respect copyright.PENANATAjrhXBlq5
I’m alone, trying to dream,212Please respect copyright.PENANA65pAMGLS3L
but my mind can’t seem to dream...
But I’m here,212Please respect copyright.PENANAAavulqzeqh
after a long journey,212Please respect copyright.PENANA5SYICJqwPx
that I’ll write in tiny, minuscule parts...212Please respect copyright.PENANAd5aSj2CAmB