『原來我從來…都不曾瞭解妳……』15Please respect copyright.PENANAW5Hr0SGXh8
某個夜晚,研究所內15Please respect copyright.PENANAJYXIZq6gKE
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許墨坐在辦公桌前,筆電的螢幕映出冷色的光,映照著他略顯疲憊的側臉。這幾天,他不止一次地伸手撥通微瀾曾經的號碼,但每一次,都是冰冷的「此號碼已被註銷」。15Please respect copyright.PENANAAnfEesEB0F
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他合上筆電,低頭揉了揉眉心。15Please respect copyright.PENANAuyM5xVkCfh
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她走了,走得乾乾淨淨。15Please respect copyright.PENANAtpFof6VSVG
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他不是沒試過找她。他去了她的公寓,但那裡早已換了新房客。他聯絡了她曾經的同事,但沒有人知道她的下落。15Please respect copyright.PENANAefDXyN2pqj
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在試圖撥通微瀾的電話幾個月後,許墨停止尋找。15Please respect copyright.PENANAz2XGsb3Sud
他想,她不回來,對她也是好事。15Please respect copyright.PENANALZNn13Z90Y
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──可笑的是,這句話,他連自己都說服不了。15Please respect copyright.PENANAZj0wsLwq12
某日,研究所15Please respect copyright.PENANAf9GDx5oa5e
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「許教授,這是最新的報告。」助理將文件遞給他,目光閃爍了一下,「還有……悠然小姐今天有約嗎?」15Please respect copyright.PENANARO7vFpz4KS
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許墨翻閱著文件,淡淡地回應:「她和李澤言約了下午茶。」15Please respect copyright.PENANAZcL5QamcNV
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「……」助理沒再多說什麼,只是離開前忍不住看了他一眼。15Please respect copyright.PENANArcds8M8nke
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這陣子,許教授的情緒變化雖然細微,但仍舊讓熟悉他的人察覺了些端倪。15Please respect copyright.PENANARPnEwfw3d9
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他依然準時進出研究所,依然做著嚴謹的實驗,依然是所有學生與研究員口中的「許教授」,可他似乎變得更加沉默,也變得……不再那麼專注了。15Please respect copyright.PENANAqISgnurbkR
那天,他與悠然約在咖啡廳見面。15Please respect copyright.PENANAFAzPKOTj0v
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悠然是個細心的人,即使他沒有特別說什麼,她仍然察覺到了異樣。15Please respect copyright.PENANAtdHsIIyPxp
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「許墨,你最近……心情不太好?」15Please respect copyright.PENANAXccuNbcAE6
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他聞言,抬起眼看她,語氣淡淡:「沒有。」15Please respect copyright.PENANABi6EuBzrE0
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悠然沒有說話,只是飲了一口面前的果汁,然後才像是隨口提起似的:「我之前聽說,微瀾離開了?」15Please respect copyright.PENANA0VIg13Jrep
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許墨的手微不可察地頓了一下,但很快恢復正常:「嗯。」15Please respect copyright.PENANAAnciGYOT2Q
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「……你沒有試著去找她嗎?」15Please respect copyright.PENANArvdBPZ6JtX
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「她會回來的。」他的語氣仍然淡漠,仿佛這是一件再自然不過的事。15Please respect copyright.PENANAG6JHkvsOC2
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悠然看著許墨,沉默了一會,像是在思索著什麼。15Please respect copyright.PENANAKH4VSq9GEk
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「許墨,微瀾很好,不是嗎?」15Please respect copyright.PENANApQ2no1mY9a
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許墨抬眼看她,沒有否認。15Please respect copyright.PENANAnLsBXR0NOy
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「我一直以為,你們很穩定、很幸福。」悠然語氣很輕,像是在陳述一個簡單的事實,「但你現在的樣子,並不像是一個剛分手的人,反倒像是……」15Please respect copyright.PENANAkmt5G1n9np
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她頓了一下,微微傾身,低聲道:「你像是一個失去習慣的人。」15Please respect copyright.PENANAzCjcCtVfTB
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許墨的指尖不自覺地蜷了一下。15Please respect copyright.PENANAY97d9DQN9a
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「所以,許墨——你是真的愛她,還是只是習慣有她的存在?」15Please respect copyright.PENANA7loLnPDdER
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這句話,讓許墨的呼吸頓了一拍。15Please respect copyright.PENANAjMAxDKEmVE
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「愛,應該不會是這種狀態的吧?」悠然輕輕笑了一聲,語氣帶著一點憐惜,「如果你真的愛她,怎麼可能到現在才開始想要挽回?」15Please respect copyright.PENANAQdUoIiHjNV
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許墨沒有回答,只是低頭輕啜了一口咖啡。15Please respect copyright.PENANAB4c1KIMYX3
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悠然看著他的沉默,最後只是搖搖頭,語氣淡然:「算了,這是你的事,我只是提醒你,確保你想清楚自己在做什麼。」15Please respect copyright.PENANAJCnmNAWt2D
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他放下杯子,緩緩開口:「悠然,妳跟李澤言約得時間快到了。」15Please respect copyright.PENANAtnKexEd6F3
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這句話等於是間接終止了這場對話。15Please respect copyright.PENANAvvk2TawRwE
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悠然低低地笑了一聲,搖搖頭,她明白許墨大約是不想跟她談了。15Please respect copyright.PENANANP4eZrJHIa
只是看著許墨的目光中,多了一絲可惜的情緒。15Please respect copyright.PENANAwhq5mASds4
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「許墨,」她最後說道,「希望你是真的確定自己想要什麼,而不是等到失去了,才發現原來你根本不曾擁有過。」15Please respect copyright.PENANAJuFCt1CkpC
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那一刻,許墨心底像是被一隻無形的手緊緊抓住了。15Please respect copyright.PENANAXVwbkgcona
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悠然起身離開了。15Please respect copyright.PENANA2z0RaTIZ5U
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許墨靜靜坐在咖啡廳裡,久久沒有動作。15Please respect copyright.PENANAknKTaE7THV
杯中的咖啡早已涼透,他卻沒有察覺。15Please respect copyright.PENANAHkDscb5SLx
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悠然的話在腦海中盤旋不去。15Please respect copyright.PENANA1OhIIwiFHm
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——你是真的愛她,還是只是習慣有她的存在?15Please respect copyright.PENANA0MdgKWDzyH
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他指尖微微收緊,低頭看著桌面,嘴角彷彿要笑,卻又沒能笑出來。15Please respect copyright.PENANAxuP4ZeeIbQ
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——如果你真的愛她,怎麼可能到現在才開始想要挽回?15Please respect copyright.PENANAxANKjdg7Pb
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許墨閉了閉眼,指腹輕輕揉了揉眉心。15Please respect copyright.PENANAqnWaw198RK
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原來,他一直在等她回來。15Please respect copyright.PENANAGexLRquZKP
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可是——15Please respect copyright.PENANAwtNqlo2jrb
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她真的還會回來嗎?15Please respect copyright.PENANAtxqpJZipiR
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還是,她這次,不要他了?15Please respect copyright.PENANAUu20imZ5uA
幾個月後,當他以為一切會恢復正常的時候……15Please respect copyright.PENANAjgvqwJGHLt
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那天,他通宵了幾日的實驗,回到家中,準備稍作梳洗再回研究所。15Please respect copyright.PENANAqcwz6mjgXV
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當他踏入公寓,房間的燈亮了,他一楞。15Please respect copyright.PENANARQAA7atwI7
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快步走進房裡,卻發現──15Please respect copyright.PENANAuImpQm49cp
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──只是被一隻闖入的野貓無意開啟的燈。15Please respect copyright.PENANAVXQlYgGXwe
……還踢倒了他的盆栽。15Please respect copyright.PENANAAK2wb8cDrv
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許墨沉默地收拾著散落的書頁,正要將它們重新放回書架時,一張夾在書中的書籤飄落在地。15Please respect copyright.PENANAsfHIkNqKIu
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他彎腰撿起,目光落在上面的字跡。15Please respect copyright.PENANAoAKZXD20ff
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許墨指尖微顫,心底像是有什麼被狠狠刺了一下。15Please respect copyright.PENANAM4FXvA6uu1
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那時的她,到底是抱著怎樣的心情,寫下這句話的?15Please respect copyright.PENANAJLsRlowsnP
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……而他,又曾如何回應?15Please respect copyright.PENANAirt9DcBVav
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那晚,他睡不著了。15Please respect copyright.PENANAP2c2GvOQqv
「……」15Please respect copyright.PENANAbKmGT4eKod
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第二天清晨,許墨站在窗邊,望著城市的天色慢慢變亮。15Please respect copyright.PENANAQDK94HzVWI
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他終於意識到,這種空蕩蕩的日子,已經讓他無法忽視內心的缺口。15Please respect copyright.PENANASPmiomOg0N
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他想,他還是得知道微瀾究竟在哪。15Please respect copyright.PENANAzzcRIZgWpA
如果她能回來,他還能照顧她。15Please respect copyright.PENANA6TYLdhmHqA
但這一次,他不能再等著她回來了。15Please respect copyright.PENANA5GpJFNPn0A
他得自己去找。15Please respect copyright.PENANA551ZhfTv1f