『原來我從來…都不曾瞭解妳……』16Please respect copyright.PENANAHGIIXfqhfP
某個夜晚,研究所內16Please respect copyright.PENANA7X9WG9Svvu
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許墨坐在辦公桌前,筆電的螢幕映出冷色的光,映照著他略顯疲憊的側臉。這幾天,他不止一次地伸手撥通微瀾曾經的號碼,但每一次,都是冰冷的「此號碼已被註銷」。16Please respect copyright.PENANAkpRNDqJAwf
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他合上筆電,低頭揉了揉眉心。16Please respect copyright.PENANAs9FGnbfqWF
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她走了,走得乾乾淨淨。16Please respect copyright.PENANAKID9DCBHmF
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他不是沒試過找她。他去了她的公寓,但那裡早已換了新房客。他聯絡了她曾經的同事,但沒有人知道她的下落。16Please respect copyright.PENANAADi06bLZhG
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在試圖撥通微瀾的電話幾個月後,許墨停止尋找。16Please respect copyright.PENANA2qmTcjGLEp
他想,她不回來,對她也是好事。16Please respect copyright.PENANABoBlE4ntZg
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──可笑的是,這句話,他連自己都說服不了。16Please respect copyright.PENANALe2C0enWHG
某日,研究所16Please respect copyright.PENANAkRe7txRQ2F
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「許教授,這是最新的報告。」助理將文件遞給他,目光閃爍了一下,「還有……悠然小姐今天有約嗎?」16Please respect copyright.PENANAWZTj3309cD
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許墨翻閱著文件,淡淡地回應:「她和李澤言約了下午茶。」16Please respect copyright.PENANAGb8MBvyaqB
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「……」助理沒再多說什麼,只是離開前忍不住看了他一眼。16Please respect copyright.PENANACI8h0CtIcd
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這陣子,許教授的情緒變化雖然細微,但仍舊讓熟悉他的人察覺了些端倪。16Please respect copyright.PENANAn6ZvmQOsN0
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他依然準時進出研究所,依然做著嚴謹的實驗,依然是所有學生與研究員口中的「許教授」,可他似乎變得更加沉默,也變得……不再那麼專注了。16Please respect copyright.PENANAyyd8wQXhMS
那天,他與悠然約在咖啡廳見面。16Please respect copyright.PENANAt9FXNRIofG
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悠然是個細心的人,即使他沒有特別說什麼,她仍然察覺到了異樣。16Please respect copyright.PENANAIm0mfVbgEs
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「許墨,你最近……心情不太好?」16Please respect copyright.PENANAfmXVx6th59
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他聞言,抬起眼看她,語氣淡淡:「沒有。」16Please respect copyright.PENANAwUZMam7LPn
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悠然沒有說話,只是飲了一口面前的果汁,然後才像是隨口提起似的:「我之前聽說,微瀾離開了?」16Please respect copyright.PENANAkmfYPAZgNW
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許墨的手微不可察地頓了一下,但很快恢復正常:「嗯。」16Please respect copyright.PENANAcQzxE9gwRU
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「……你沒有試著去找她嗎?」16Please respect copyright.PENANAQTDZsI1PTy
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「她會回來的。」他的語氣仍然淡漠,仿佛這是一件再自然不過的事。16Please respect copyright.PENANA3RGTBOKlws
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悠然看著許墨,沉默了一會,像是在思索著什麼。16Please respect copyright.PENANA2pIgsoYO3w
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「許墨,微瀾很好,不是嗎?」16Please respect copyright.PENANAsHwYgFVdQg
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許墨抬眼看她,沒有否認。16Please respect copyright.PENANATKiNWOqut8
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「我一直以為,你們很穩定、很幸福。」悠然語氣很輕,像是在陳述一個簡單的事實,「但你現在的樣子,並不像是一個剛分手的人,反倒像是……」16Please respect copyright.PENANAR0XIxScAjK
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她頓了一下,微微傾身,低聲道:「你像是一個失去習慣的人。」16Please respect copyright.PENANAe6zJK9axCD
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許墨的指尖不自覺地蜷了一下。16Please respect copyright.PENANAOTpgjLsVLQ
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「所以,許墨——你是真的愛她,還是只是習慣有她的存在?」16Please respect copyright.PENANA2vhmfOqwil
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這句話,讓許墨的呼吸頓了一拍。16Please respect copyright.PENANAWvk1Q1upd3
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「愛,應該不會是這種狀態的吧?」悠然輕輕笑了一聲,語氣帶著一點憐惜,「如果你真的愛她,怎麼可能到現在才開始想要挽回?」16Please respect copyright.PENANA2FCYaShgtR
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許墨沒有回答,只是低頭輕啜了一口咖啡。16Please respect copyright.PENANA4hxRlga7Yr
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悠然看著他的沉默,最後只是搖搖頭,語氣淡然:「算了,這是你的事,我只是提醒你,確保你想清楚自己在做什麼。」16Please respect copyright.PENANAyO9WVpg4u3
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他放下杯子,緩緩開口:「悠然,妳跟李澤言約得時間快到了。」16Please respect copyright.PENANAGZySwrS2o1
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這句話等於是間接終止了這場對話。16Please respect copyright.PENANAHh7J5n3uQb
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悠然低低地笑了一聲,搖搖頭,她明白許墨大約是不想跟她談了。16Please respect copyright.PENANAd7EBPa2Vso
只是看著許墨的目光中,多了一絲可惜的情緒。16Please respect copyright.PENANAQrYf5eRERj
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「許墨,」她最後說道,「希望你是真的確定自己想要什麼,而不是等到失去了,才發現原來你根本不曾擁有過。」16Please respect copyright.PENANARh6hNXJoaD
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那一刻,許墨心底像是被一隻無形的手緊緊抓住了。16Please respect copyright.PENANA0iPIRCkyJZ
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悠然起身離開了。16Please respect copyright.PENANAAvroUIVxSb
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許墨靜靜坐在咖啡廳裡,久久沒有動作。16Please respect copyright.PENANAKJZvK3E85x
杯中的咖啡早已涼透,他卻沒有察覺。16Please respect copyright.PENANAe9ICDTxntk
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悠然的話在腦海中盤旋不去。16Please respect copyright.PENANA8uvsmfrWPO
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——你是真的愛她,還是只是習慣有她的存在?16Please respect copyright.PENANAip7LI0P081
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他指尖微微收緊,低頭看著桌面,嘴角彷彿要笑,卻又沒能笑出來。16Please respect copyright.PENANAI2igGzXTUx
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——如果你真的愛她,怎麼可能到現在才開始想要挽回?16Please respect copyright.PENANA4T5RVVHgXg
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許墨閉了閉眼,指腹輕輕揉了揉眉心。16Please respect copyright.PENANAId8IrBbiLH
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原來,他一直在等她回來。16Please respect copyright.PENANAHvM08bI4nt
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可是——16Please respect copyright.PENANA6WXv70Qfjw
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她真的還會回來嗎?16Please respect copyright.PENANA7gwrYv10iF
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還是,她這次,不要他了?16Please respect copyright.PENANAAiez2lIpwq
幾個月後,當他以為一切會恢復正常的時候……16Please respect copyright.PENANAAzEYJy9Tfi
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那天,他通宵了幾日的實驗,回到家中,準備稍作梳洗再回研究所。16Please respect copyright.PENANAmOwyvugPNX
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當他踏入公寓,房間的燈亮了,他一楞。16Please respect copyright.PENANA6sCJcE0bXX
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快步走進房裡,卻發現──16Please respect copyright.PENANAfUBhrKQDBS
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──只是被一隻闖入的野貓無意開啟的燈。16Please respect copyright.PENANAcR6abF4mLp
……還踢倒了他的盆栽。16Please respect copyright.PENANAfj2gcATkrb
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許墨沉默地收拾著散落的書頁,正要將它們重新放回書架時,一張夾在書中的書籤飄落在地。16Please respect copyright.PENANAM9Msp9aSlQ
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他彎腰撿起,目光落在上面的字跡。16Please respect copyright.PENANAj9bJg6glKV
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許墨指尖微顫,心底像是有什麼被狠狠刺了一下。16Please respect copyright.PENANAA5VGTamkKO
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那時的她,到底是抱著怎樣的心情,寫下這句話的?16Please respect copyright.PENANAOk0blzRiB0
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……而他,又曾如何回應?16Please respect copyright.PENANAFS4rieDV4G
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那晚,他睡不著了。16Please respect copyright.PENANAb1bauRoYD6
「……」16Please respect copyright.PENANAGpaSuQb0yX
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第二天清晨,許墨站在窗邊,望著城市的天色慢慢變亮。16Please respect copyright.PENANAKmv5cf9QQ1
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他終於意識到,這種空蕩蕩的日子,已經讓他無法忽視內心的缺口。16Please respect copyright.PENANAs7hX4oV7Bz
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他想,他還是得知道微瀾究竟在哪。16Please respect copyright.PENANAdWZNW205T9
如果她能回來,他還能照顧她。16Please respect copyright.PENANAs417C6m5q4
但這一次,他不能再等著她回來了。16Please respect copyright.PENANAUq4edtAPDm
他得自己去找。16Please respect copyright.PENANA9WpGn0e3iQ