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在她去上班後,我照常的收拾好碗筷,整理著自己的東西,我不敢亂想,可能只是像以前一樣,住個院,抽點血,大不了一場手術,我就能再次活蹦亂跳。8964 copyright protection23PENANApeXTn1w2RF 維尼
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我笑著點開對話框,她就像一直在聊天界面等著一樣,馬上又傳了一則新的訊息。8964 copyright protection23PENANAYQ9snZQm2v 維尼
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我在鍵盤上正打著,廣播便開始叫號,最後只送出了一句[要睡啦,我愛你]8964 copyright protection23PENANAxsAqjnINzm 維尼
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我將手機轉入無聲,走進診療室,身後的自動門關上,周遭充滿了熟悉的消毒水味,明明我應該要習慣的,但卻還是不安,我的手緊緊握著那枚訂婚戒指,似乎這樣能讓我沒這麼害怕。8964 copyright protection23PENANAbeA8EKVssg 維尼
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一個月後報告出來,我一直告訴自己沒什麼事,但心中建起的城牆,最後仍然徹底坍塌。8964 copyright protection23PENANAIrF1wYZBsI 維尼
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「杏妍女士,您的癌細胞目前已經擴散,並且以往的療法對您無效,但由於您患有先天性心臟病,我們得先評估過後才能決定是否要使用標靶治療」8964 copyright protection23PENANAHxFQXeTYec 維尼
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其實在癌細胞擴散以後的話我根本聽不進去,除了檀若允該怎麼辦以外的事,我都不在乎。8964 copyright protection23PENANAgVXfVGzsQx 維尼
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「如果我可以標靶治療的話,死亡率多高?」8964 copyright protection23PENANAC25bMfm76s 維尼
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「恕我直言,您的死亡率比普通人更高,癌細胞一年前就已經擴散了,我想您應該是有所察覺的」8964 copyright protection23PENANAkow2izvW10 維尼
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一年前,那時時常會頭暈耳鳴,但我一直認為是手術的後遺症,而我也不敢認清事實,便一直逃避。8964 copyright protection23PENANAZIyn64yzrK 維尼
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「但您也不必太擔心,評估過後若能標靶治療,成功機率也並不低」8964 copyright protection23PENANAwZBVb3XzlI 維尼
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「但我得先和您簽一些文件,您的家屬方便到場嗎?」8964 copyright protection23PENANAYjCBXoil9D 維尼
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「..方便,但..您能不能答應我一件事?」8964 copyright protection23PENANAICXX0HY7r5 維尼
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「別和她說死亡率的事」8964 copyright protection23PENANAlAvQunwIAm 維尼
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電話通知過後不到十五分鐘,匆忙的腳步聲便傳來,她將門推開,我裝作不在乎的對她笑道8964 copyright protection23PENANAqDlntToufo 維尼
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「你來啦,醫生出去拿資料了,還沒有回—」8964 copyright protection23PENANAGuoAzBJsKr 維尼
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她扶著門框喘著氣,我話還未說完她便三步併兩步的衝上前擁住我。8964 copyright protection23PENANAwbyOeCp0Ca 維尼
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「你怎麼到這個時候才願意告訴我呢..」8964 copyright protection23PENANA2ni2OQV4Kv 維尼
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她哭的很難過,一直在責怪自己,可這不是她的錯,當年我寧願一個人病死也不願找人依靠便是因此,他們總會把我的疾病當作是自己的原因,就像爺爺奶奶一樣,都說是因為自己老了沒有錢才沒辦法給我完善的治療,是因為他們想抱小孩,媽媽才會死在手術台上。8964 copyright protection23PENANAGrXzqCCfF0 維尼
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自責和愧疚,永遠無法改變現狀。8964 copyright protection23PENANAN3aqrT2BJM 維尼
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「若允,你聽我說,好嗎?」8964 copyright protection23PENANAWhKyArSjPE 維尼
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她抬起頭,滿是淚痕。8964 copyright protection23PENANAhvuuwUdzPK 維尼
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「我沒什麼事,就和之前一樣,治療一下,住個院,我們就可以回家了」8964 copyright protection23PENANAnSkaeuYkus 維尼
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過沒一會醫生將門推開,資料簽署完,就是持續的等待,我們要走後檀若允被醫生叫住,我也只能先走到門外等著。8964 copyright protection23PENANAf10FSPwqY7 維尼
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「檀若允,你好歹也是我教出來的,就算我不說,你自己看那些資料心裡也應該要有個底了」8964 copyright protection23PENANAlai78TZmWx 維尼
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「我只能盡我所能,病患最需要的就是陪伴,你再怎麼難過,也不准在她面前崩潰」8964 copyright protection23PENANAi9TUdeSJmp 維尼
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「嗯」8964 copyright protection23PENANAkDsq5ZEeoA 維尼
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「她是一個很勇敢的姑娘,這次,她也一定能挺過去」8964 copyright protection23PENANA0XZCO1SedV 維尼
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門被推開,我起身走近問她8964 copyright protection23PENANAHQP3SH59qP 維尼
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「說什麼呢?」8964 copyright protection23PENANAcyLAs7mT2D 維尼
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「沒什麼,就說你最近要清淡飲食,不能壓力太大」8964 copyright protection23PENANADI7T4SZBG7 維尼
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「這不是剛才說過了嗎?」8964 copyright protection23PENANA04urvuqQoA 維尼
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「可能因為我是你家屬,所以再叮嚀一次」8964 copyright protection23PENANAnHTk7QrdCt 維尼
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她摸著我的頭,不再有剛才的無助和悲傷,我們就像從未發生過什麼一般,一直等到回診那天。8964 copyright protection23PENANAYSrD8mRdEQ 維尼
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「評估過後,您可以接受標靶治療」8964 copyright protection23PENANA6X91vt9QJc 維尼
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後來,我開始接受治療,但頭髮開始脫落,其實我早有心理準備,但在每次洗頭後見到那一把一把的長髮,頭上一塊塊的空缺,我是不是,變醜了。8964 copyright protection23PENANA1XgdZbVS9I 維尼
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理髮機從頭頂滑過,稀疏的髮絲落下,堅強好難,我不想哭,可鏡子裡的我眼淚止不住的滑落。8964 copyright protection23PENANACdMGRcvq3h 維尼
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那天,我抱著她哭了一整晚,她講了無數次我愛你,她不曾和我說過沒關係、別在意,她是醫生,最了解這些疾病的風險,安慰的話太過頭,只會讓期待落空,摔的更痛。8964 copyright protection23PENANAy8WOWHIzam 維尼
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