I never thought i could truly hate someone again but apparently i do and its Paul you set back and think to your self what in the fuck happen and you ask your self was it me or was it him cause its never both of you it came down his lies and broken promises the betrayal he did to me from watching me almost die and just being mean to me, I just saw the truth in him after that , after having so much complication with my last surgery i was on the edge of death and i was so much in a dark place that he went to work and did not think about me at all he did not ask me how i was doing never called to check up on me I was in this big house by my self and i just felt like screaming all the time falling apart and i hid my pain really well and the illness that was left behind from this nightmare of a surgery . There was days i just wanted to end it all but I had to think of my son and my mom and my brother but at the same time i just felt lost and empty inside cause all the doctors and test i went through was rough and will not lie about it but also was was always scared being around Paul he was not really supportive at all, All i knew i had to get better for what ever reason and when i do Paul ass will be gone and i be filing divorce with him again cause he did not love me at all and i know it was not true love cause i don't think Paul knew what true love really was if it hit him in the face. Paul made me feel worthless about my self he made fun of my OCD he would drink a full bottle of buffalo trace all by him self in one setting and if you dont know what that is well its bourbon and i could not get away from the pain or the fear or the worry around me. Paul made me feel worthless and he wanted to be controlling everything , All i know was he had control over the money and if i wanted something i had to ask to use the debit card all the time but yet i was with him for 15 yrs and if i needed him to get something for me at the store he would make excuses not to do it but yet i had to go out of my way for him. But some how i got my shit together some what and i did get out but yet 15 yrs being with someone is hard to get over but i can get over him from the pain he caused me and not giving a shit he did this to me and he don't even care.53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAycrFjMw2I
I had to deal with the pain and the nightmares and horror that he did to me and he don't even give a shit . I feel like he took my self esteem away from me and so much more. I am angry with my self cause i should of seen the signs but i did not , I know he was lying about women he was seeing behind my back but i was honest as hell with him about me seeing my first husband again and i even gave Paul the divorce papers but i knew it was over with me and Paul when i decided to sleep in different bed rooms cause he kept the room to cold and did not care if i got cold or not . If i ran out of something that i needed he would bitch about it and when a man makes me feel like a burden than you know now he is just using you.
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