I love you. God, I love you so much. I don’t know how to stop, or if I even want to. Loving you still feels like the most natural thing in the world, even if you’re not here anymore. I love the way you’d talk about Tarkov like it was gospel. Like every update and every raid held the key to the universe. I’d just sit there and listen- half-lost, but never bored- because it was you. Because your voice made everything feel softer, even when you were cursing at your teammates. You’d get so into it, and I’d sit there muted on Discord, just smiling at the sound of you being fully alive in something. It was stupidly beautiful. I love the way we could be silent for hours- me listening, you playing, both of us just there. 223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqLCpam4Lfg
No pressure. No pretending. Just you, me, and whatever world you were trying to survive in that night. And somehow, I always felt like I belonged right there beside you. I love how you took care of Spike. Like, actually cared. You tucked him in. You gave him his own little spot. You gave him more consistent affection than most people ever gave me- and I mean that in the best way. 223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwJC6SY88FT
It meant something. The way you treated him said everything about how big your heart really was, even when you pretended to be cold. I love the stupid nicknames. The way you’d call me rat or pig, half-laughing, half-serious, but always laced with something that felt… safe. Like you were trying to be annoying on purpose just to keep me close. And it worked. I’d roll my eyes and call you worse, and we’d go right back to being wrapped up in each other. 223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqok65UwvmM
That weird little language we had- no one else would get it. But I did. And I miss it. I miss you. But more than that, I still love you. I love how you woke me up from naps- gentle, but rushed, like you couldn’t wait for me to be conscious again. Like you missed me in real time. You’d kiss my nose so quick, so soft. Just these fluttering little moments of affection, like you were trying to memorize me every time. 223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9rsvgjI1y3
I love that you called me your voluminous pup. It was such a ridiculous nickname, but it came from you, so I held onto it like it was sacred. And it was. Because it meant I was yours. I still want to be. I think a part of me always will. You made me feel like I was the only person on earth you could ever want. And even when you didn’t say it, I felt it. I felt it in the way you pulled me into your chest. I felt it in the silence. I felt it in every stupid joke and every soft goodbye. 223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkUuyZOi1EM
I don’t know where we go from here. I don’t even know if we go anywhere. But I needed you to know, with no pressure and no expectations: I still love you. All of you. Even the part that called me a rat while making me feel like a treasure. And if some part of you still loves me too… just know that the door in my heart is still open. Quietly. Always.223Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8I6wQyZ6iX
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