一家人合照、用過的筷子碗碟、她最愛多啦A夢公仔⋯⋯ 有關阿媽貼身用品及心頭好，均一一齊全，幾乎沒有遺漏。 262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnVMzZYuosh
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物品可以循環再造，生命卻無起死回生。 262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5gwHEpbhR2
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兩年來，我依然不曾發現，甚至誤認為他無情，為其加施出軌「罪行」。 262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ77HEj0Tfe0
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也許，真正無情的，是我。 262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxGA3AfTV0G
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「除咗你之外，無人可以幫佢。」她拿起其中一隻多啦A夢公仔，輕力拍去塵埃，再小心放回原位。 262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnG0x3BylEU
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此話一出，有種無形壓力壓在雙肩，恐懼自己無法勝任：「點解得我一個？」 262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7X8CGNLRwG
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阿媽沒作解釋，而是隨手拿起其中一幀家庭照，放到我眼前。 那是阿媽測出癌症前，我們一家三口，最後一次到日本旅行。 262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPt2MPUPmlb
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照片中，我擺出一個冷漠微笑表情，他們兩人則圍住我，於富士山山尾拍照。 昔日畫面，頓時湧上心頭。 262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo568iAyt9k
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那時，沒有知曉未來能力的我，還傻更更哼着《富士山下》，裝作睿智問道，應為「要擁有，必先等失去怎接受。」抑是「要擁有必先等失去，怎接受。」 262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpTPBeN22o3
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我想，無論是前者或後者，結果同樣沒法接受。 有時候，我會羨慕別人，自己不過是二十多歲，竟已失去母親，被迫面對死亡。 262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9KIVd8h8ii
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喪禮當日，不少親戚長輩，均輕拍我肩膊，要我好好孝順阿爸，表示未來就靠我支撐。 262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyK7Zuv4EWM
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每下輕拍，都如巨石般重壓，有種無形壓力，要我一下子負起所有責任。我只能點頭苦笑，敷衍他們說話。 262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRClwDkEpYU
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若果自己再年長點，會否有足夠成熟及智慧，能夠承受這一切。 仔細再想，無論何時發生，年輕或年老，均無法淡然接受，豁達面對。 262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI1aXMHxqUz
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可我竟認為，阿爸年紀大，能成熟應對，懂走出傷痛，輕視他痛苦。 262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMXF8XwoltN
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他會否與我一樣，渴望有人關心，而非獨自承受？ 262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvf2ZqeDdMW
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「呢段時間，佢將所有心機放喺我哋身上，最能夠相信嘅人，就喺曬相入面。」 262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT0CRhE5cHN
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「但阿爸會信得過我？」畢竟從那天開始，他就決心隱瞞事實，不讓所有人知道，打算獨自承受一切。 時隔兩年才示好，就連如何開口，我都無從入手。 262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡghLo3kAJLf
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「呢張相，你話呢度好睇，佢先Set腳架影，我話另一邊清啲，佢就點都聽唔入耳。咁你話佢信你定信我多啲？」她反問。 262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRP0T922UR4
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我沉默不語，內心卻冒出答案。 262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlRmsWm6LjK
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「佢一直信你，只係你唔信佢。」阿媽直接了當說，我下意識立即反駁，卻無法自圓其說。 262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW71PE5g3Ur
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「年紀差太遠，呢啲叫代溝。」我推搪着。 262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRCp45ldiS4
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「車，又唔見我哋代溝。」 262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXXy18S9HxC
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「都有㗎，但你明我講咩。」 262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡagP6P6bXWk
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「你都無同佢講嘢。」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKMPyXPWkFk
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  「一講咪嘈交。」 262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbq51ZsdmC6
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「你唔講佢點明。」 262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgiwHr4vAL4
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「佢聽得入耳先得㗎。」262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY6FYK6e5aK
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 「你未試就知佢聽唔入耳？」 262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNqqtOnI1sc
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「我試過，但⋯⋯」我欲言又止。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDmGM67iU66
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 「試吓原諒佢？」阿媽的三寸不爛之舌，出口快狠準，簡短卻精準，令我啞口無言，不得不屈服。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlNyChDQR3e
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 儘管每次落敗，我依舊懷念鬥嘴時光，好比沉默不語。阿媽回來，頓覺整間屋充滿活力，非死氣沉沉，沉靜無聊。 262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWx3cCZ7WLu
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不知何時開始，我害怕面對阿爸，連說一句晚安，都經多番掙扎，每次說到嘴邊，便打消念頭，直接上床訓覺。 262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtCVz2eIcFT
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漸漸地，彼此不再交流對話，同坐餐桌，各有修行，卻曉有默契，互不搭嘴。 若他與阿媽說話，我則專注食飯，他安靜下來，就由我與阿媽閒聊。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJoA0a6KS0u
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 彼此傾訴對象，就只有阿媽一個。 262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcUwr5KSRRr
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這兩年來，大家對答次數，應該也有百多句，如果「哦」及「嗯」這些答覆也包括在內。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrleSh48M2y
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 但真正交流，可謂少之又少。 對上一次直視他、講出心底話，要追溯到四年前爭執。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSOFjVbucmK
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 那時候，阿媽為勸交，竟勸得流眼淚，可阿爸並無動容，無情說出一句話，令我感心寒可怕，自此對他心死。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuRC01Rwt4u
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 「你走咗唔好再翻嚟。」 262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm3xCcIeZQs
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他說得字字鏗鏘，像是我踏出家門半步，就馬上斷絕關係。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtFoqN5t3My
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 原來，於價值觀面前，關係也不過脆弱如紙。 262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcDtLeK4DRp
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我只不過，希望他能理解我想法，而非站在電視前，隔住螢幕指手劃腳，喝罵批評我們的不是。 262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5fOt17Bq65
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我怕，他變成我最討厭一群人，我更怕，我就是他所指的混蛋。 262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMtB4AIFhO5
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當雙方處於對立立場，彼此都渴望對方歸邊，誤以為激辯一番，世界就會變好，我們就能和好。 262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqLcwPPSQI9
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但最終，我仍淪為，他口中的混蛋；他終成為，我內心最討厭的人。 也許，我們都有錯，錯在想拗贏對方，錯在想得到對方認同。 262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Oew8jzou5
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如今，彼此不再交流半句，這結果，又如他所願、如我所想嗎？ 262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXksnDZUl34
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我不知道。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQGCIhbAlAe
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我只知道，他能輕易說出那句話，輕視我倆相處回憶，輕鬆捨棄彼此關係。262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPEuSOmp5dm
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