一家人合照、用過的筷子碗碟、她最愛多啦A夢公仔⋯⋯ 有關阿媽貼身用品及心頭好，均一一齊全，幾乎沒有遺漏。 263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUJ4s3QqHev
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgOalwNHgoh
物品可以循環再造，生命卻無起死回生。 263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91UYGG8yNL
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡojOarT05hV
兩年來，我依然不曾發現，甚至誤認為他無情，為其加施出軌「罪行」。 263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWRwlL4M31n
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLYMmM4lXUm
也許，真正無情的，是我。 263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5w7CkhQABr
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3uU4IrXofY
「除咗你之外，無人可以幫佢。」她拿起其中一隻多啦A夢公仔，輕力拍去塵埃，再小心放回原位。 263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE9OJH0L1qg
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7xqo0Iuu9k
此話一出，有種無形壓力壓在雙肩，恐懼自己無法勝任：「點解得我一個？」 263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4sj4wtZRHP
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9I19naUuCz
阿媽沒作解釋，而是隨手拿起其中一幀家庭照，放到我眼前。 那是阿媽測出癌症前，我們一家三口，最後一次到日本旅行。 263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBISlsdQgrh
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBnFvLicyxK
照片中，我擺出一個冷漠微笑表情，他們兩人則圍住我，於富士山山尾拍照。 昔日畫面，頓時湧上心頭。 263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1paCcHY9Vp
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl4LxHG2W81
那時，沒有知曉未來能力的我，還傻更更哼着《富士山下》，裝作睿智問道，應為「要擁有，必先等失去怎接受。」抑是「要擁有必先等失去，怎接受。」 263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzzy3uLIJI1
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOqYqvqbg9W
我想，無論是前者或後者，結果同樣沒法接受。 有時候，我會羨慕別人，自己不過是二十多歲，竟已失去母親，被迫面對死亡。 263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwa5n6i8S8f
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡolFv35VE2J
喪禮當日，不少親戚長輩，均輕拍我肩膊，要我好好孝順阿爸，表示未來就靠我支撐。 263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1UE2RjiycE
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtGioCwjTp1
每下輕拍，都如巨石般重壓，有種無形壓力，要我一下子負起所有責任。我只能點頭苦笑，敷衍他們說話。 263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYs13pLNXsa
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhIn1xEOYDB
若果自己再年長點，會否有足夠成熟及智慧，能夠承受這一切。 仔細再想，無論何時發生，年輕或年老，均無法淡然接受，豁達面對。 263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ5J6tRNxbu
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu4wZqjO1Gj
可我竟認為，阿爸年紀大，能成熟應對，懂走出傷痛，輕視他痛苦。 263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡScYzSsocDV
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDN5Ub2DHFQ
他會否與我一樣，渴望有人關心，而非獨自承受？ 263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiB3MKylEqC
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnRcf4FIjxt
「呢段時間，佢將所有心機放喺我哋身上，最能夠相信嘅人，就喺曬相入面。」 263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKQxbEWP4cy
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRHvYazuxws
「但阿爸會信得過我？」畢竟從那天開始，他就決心隱瞞事實，不讓所有人知道，打算獨自承受一切。 時隔兩年才示好，就連如何開口，我都無從入手。 263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3u353CaLrH
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6NWnaSjEtJ
「呢張相，你話呢度好睇，佢先Set腳架影，我話另一邊清啲，佢就點都聽唔入耳。咁你話佢信你定信我多啲？」她反問。 263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡENOvbohXED
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyofodDGVYH
我沉默不語，內心卻冒出答案。 263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgUqVOdf0Al
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGVUeCrw1Hn
「佢一直信你，只係你唔信佢。」阿媽直接了當說，我下意識立即反駁，卻無法自圓其說。 263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBO1D3UgkAg
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDFIReGrZUc
「年紀差太遠，呢啲叫代溝。」我推搪着。 263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCB7EzLS36q
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡffZsebraRv
「車，又唔見我哋代溝。」 263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnbNUBkeyai
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡifd5Nd2RG3
「都有㗎，但你明我講咩。」 263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXBiI8N7DC1
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiwo1GSA4Va
「你都無同佢講嘢。」263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvpnudqPQKK
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyxeaeQM4q2
  「一講咪嘈交。」 263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFDVZIZOY4b
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhsKBjaZ8n1
「你唔講佢點明。」 263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeWoF9TgV86
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdFrTazkGPn
「佢聽得入耳先得㗎。」263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6LJ9WeLW6h
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrmRf5oc6VD
 「你未試就知佢聽唔入耳？」 263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGDFmeMEiVG
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXa9yKCSwo5
「我試過，但⋯⋯」我欲言又止。263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQrRJPYXXFE
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnXLNrxs7fQ
 「試吓原諒佢？」阿媽的三寸不爛之舌，出口快狠準，簡短卻精準，令我啞口無言，不得不屈服。263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd9dkEDFVnb
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEphnYg5IIs
 儘管每次落敗，我依舊懷念鬥嘴時光，好比沉默不語。阿媽回來，頓覺整間屋充滿活力，非死氣沉沉，沉靜無聊。 263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ZQjFoys1p
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTvGXdqRgyS
不知何時開始，我害怕面對阿爸，連說一句晚安，都經多番掙扎，每次說到嘴邊，便打消念頭，直接上床訓覺。 263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpDQjYcDpEh
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdjSbVGDCAI
漸漸地，彼此不再交流對話，同坐餐桌，各有修行，卻曉有默契，互不搭嘴。 若他與阿媽說話，我則專注食飯，他安靜下來，就由我與阿媽閒聊。263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK89Hqf1tq3
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ39AoVijP3d
 彼此傾訴對象，就只有阿媽一個。 263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRjOI1qC1gt
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE82p8t5vs0
這兩年來，大家對答次數，應該也有百多句，如果「哦」及「嗯」這些答覆也包括在內。263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeQznMJfZrZ
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS9ZqsV3yNG
 但真正交流，可謂少之又少。 對上一次直視他、講出心底話，要追溯到四年前爭執。263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwte6ICHIgV
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlhVAefP1Jm
 那時候，阿媽為勸交，竟勸得流眼淚，可阿爸並無動容，無情說出一句話，令我感心寒可怕，自此對他心死。263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZOoveazQ35
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡREa38L4Jaq
 「你走咗唔好再翻嚟。」 263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnTergOQXLX
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo4YUynbisH
他說得字字鏗鏘，像是我踏出家門半步，就馬上斷絕關係。263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Jsf1XEgSj
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHnlo5gPMQq
 原來，於價值觀面前，關係也不過脆弱如紙。 263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRo2mMe51Yy
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpyUAgiu4xH
我只不過，希望他能理解我想法，而非站在電視前，隔住螢幕指手劃腳，喝罵批評我們的不是。 263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFTy9B71AWs
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWEMXaT8o24
我怕，他變成我最討厭一群人，我更怕，我就是他所指的混蛋。 263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPOET3rOTRP
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5QxqMnjmEv
當雙方處於對立立場，彼此都渴望對方歸邊，誤以為激辯一番，世界就會變好，我們就能和好。 263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGUsTuIlnQ2
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCBhEmq5C2t
但最終，我仍淪為，他口中的混蛋；他終成為，我內心最討厭的人。 也許，我們都有錯，錯在想拗贏對方，錯在想得到對方認同。 263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw7cW0ykQS1
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5HGidf5qOZ
如今，彼此不再交流半句，這結果，又如他所願、如我所想嗎？ 263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtiD910KEin
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA99Pt316rM
我不知道。263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxPnYebpUU6
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1vF4smlk8x
我只知道，他能輕易說出那句話，輕視我倆相處回憶，輕鬆捨棄彼此關係。263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA9lRlD6O7f
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡif3zEQEaN8
263Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrdT30IF1g4
1234 copyright protection259ＰＥＮＡＮＡR3i13Mt2oo 尼

216.73.216.244