為了逃開那個處處充斥著向冬陽身影的城市,官玄默狠了心,雖然明明說好走的時候要和楚襄冉打聲招呼,可最後他卻只留了張字條,裝在白色信封裡,投進了楚襄冉家的信箱。75Please respect copyright.PENANA6lQ6HIUJHa
75Please respect copyright.PENANA9hV4fc0n7F
向冬陽留給兩人的記憶都太深刻,他不願意自己的離開帶給楚襄冉再一次的面對分離,所以才會選擇無聲的走。75Please respect copyright.PENANAQ6n4L7yTTv
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但是他不知道,從他走出家門、投信、上車等等一連串的舉動,楚襄冉都站在那扇被淺藍色窗簾嚴嚴實實遮住了的窗戶背後,從窗簾的縫隙之中,看的一清二楚。75Please respect copyright.PENANAWNb6Jx1iGA
75Please respect copyright.PENANAAiU35KJBTR
他也不會知道,楚襄冉那時扯住窗簾的手,抓的有多緊……75Please respect copyright.PENANAneHd5IRz0j
75Please respect copyright.PENANAykUZ8wCa1c
為什麼要這麼一聲不響的走?75Please respect copyright.PENANATPPDG11zTx
75Please respect copyright.PENANAIpmWn1IgT9
不是約好了嗎?明明、約好了的。不要讓他連失去都沒有機會道別,所以那天,他特意懇求他的。75Please respect copyright.PENANAYiZdn0KT2q
75Please respect copyright.PENANABnIx4GBy11
走的時候,請告訴他,這是他唯一能開口拜託官玄默替他做的事,他也只願意這麼做。75Please respect copyright.PENANAf0P4oE4WaP
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但是……他還是被拋下了,連說再見的機會都沒有……75Please respect copyright.PENANAYPFZvPV4JZ
75Please respect copyright.PENANAP0EdRk47e0
是因為向冬陽不在了嗎??如果不是他當初的安排,或許向冬陽不會從官玄默身邊離開,雖然留在這裡會遭到反對,但是他們見得到面,也能知道彼此都還好好的活著。75Please respect copyright.PENANAjihbz4HLie
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不會有像現在這樣的生離死別。75Please respect copyright.PENANAuLPIS2Debp
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所以……他恨他嗎?是恨他了吧?75Please respect copyright.PENANA1eDsOuOBeR
75Please respect copyright.PENANATOctQ9NZ8C
或許就算不恨,但是他也不想再看見他了。75Please respect copyright.PENANAZ1rjfIhViT
75Please respect copyright.PENANAIPofae4CgB
不然怎麼會連最後一句話都不願意跟他說,明明答應了、約定好了的事情,這是官玄默第一次對他失約。75Please respect copyright.PENANAaNIA3D7cqR
75Please respect copyright.PENANAcNehivBrND
除了恨或討厭,或是類似於此的負面情緒,楚襄冉想不出更好的理由,而這一切,都是他咎由自取,怪不得別人。75Please respect copyright.PENANAnEAtgXcWvW
75Please respect copyright.PENANAvrP9bHiCU5
如果他沒有鼓勵兩人離開,或許,一切都不會發生……75Please respect copyright.PENANAEZr6uNGPZU
75Please respect copyright.PENANA67gf9viO6B
直到載著一切的車子遠去,連揚起的塵埃都再看不清之後,楚襄冉才安靜的下了樓,走出大門打開信箱,把剛才自己看著對方投入的白色信封取了出來。75Please respect copyright.PENANAH1D9mhk93H
75Please respect copyright.PENANAkf19vzAwOH
沒有打開信封,因為他不想看見官玄默為了不告而別所找的藉口,只是來到了廚房,打開瓦斯爐,讓青白色的火燄爬上那封信,燃出豔麗的紅。75Please respect copyright.PENANAx300rtZXdk
75Please respect copyright.PENANAKGZwculvM0
藉著火光,楚襄冉在一片黑暗的空間裡,看著自己映在廚房窗上的倒影,面容平靜,什麼表情也沒有。75Please respect copyright.PENANATqrZnSIHEX
75Please respect copyright.PENANA14j30J7RlC
不是第一次被拋下了,但是難過或傷心的情緒都無法在胸口中醞釀,只是空蕩蕩的,什麼也沒留下。75Please respect copyright.PENANACnNKxJTWj8
75Please respect copyright.PENANAabYsYa6f5l
他該要難過,該要傷心,但是自從出事之後,他連眼眶都沒紅過,流不出眼淚。75Please respect copyright.PENANAVhB1OPGXcL
75Please respect copyright.PENANA0oi9HEoHiT
死了就是死了,向冬陽不會再感到痛苦,可是活著留下來的人,煎熬才正等著他們。75Please respect copyright.PENANA5FCladMkP4
75Please respect copyright.PENANA8yElG97Hfu
閉上眼,楚襄冉放任幾乎燃上手的火焰飄落在水槽裡,碰到了潮濕之後發出細微聲響。75Please respect copyright.PENANAE9ciwVYLyv
75Please respect copyright.PENANAsQ583oiPlb
他很清楚的記得,自己是在什麼時候發現那種異樣的感情,也很清楚的記得,自己的目光是從什麼時候開始,總停留在那個人身上,久久無法轉移。75Please respect copyright.PENANAsvLBaNjPtf
75Please respect copyright.PENANAL66tICQlHu
可是他更清楚的記得,在他察覺有關於自身種種的同時,他也看到了那人眼中的影子是誰。75Please respect copyright.PENANAwV9GYq6zCe
75Please respect copyright.PENANA1kx2NuqsEj
自己深深眷戀著的官玄默,目光卻總是追隨著和他們一起長大的人——向冬陽。75Please respect copyright.PENANAIenfXKVRla
75Please respect copyright.PENANAc48Fm8xK2m
向冬陽就真的如同冬天的太陽一般,總是燦爛的笑著,把溫暖帶給他身邊所有的人。75Please respect copyright.PENANAmXqgMuBYpf
75Please respect copyright.PENANAQ3g2CJ354f
充滿活力又擁有自信的人……75Please respect copyright.PENANAr1sM2zFCqr
75Please respect copyright.PENANAw1TaPTcneq
楚襄冉完全能明白官玄默為什麼會喜歡上他。75Please respect copyright.PENANAWuFYIJ9Bnh
75Please respect copyright.PENANAVsEh2FcnAO
他和官玄默是同一類人,總是習慣性的會把擔子扛在肩上,只是官玄默是出於責任感,而楚襄冉則是因為不想讓別人失望。75Please respect copyright.PENANA8nTGZB6Ulx
75Please respect copyright.PENANAnxEv0MmY3T
兩人同為壓抑自己又理智的個性,所以官玄默會被向冬陽那種跳脫活潑,總把別人的事當自己的事一樣的性子給吸引,他真的一點也不意外。75Please respect copyright.PENANAwFcFL2HEcj
75Please respect copyright.PENANA5u3LRCxQQv
早在一切發生之前,他就知道了他們兩人相愛的事情。75Please respect copyright.PENANAYWXnspSnXQ
75Please respect copyright.PENANAkFoaJ78R3Y
所以常常假藉各式名義留那兩個人單獨相處,楚襄冉從不曾把向冬陽視為情敵,而是很高興他能回應官玄默的感情。75Please respect copyright.PENANAzvMsbdcsV9
75Please respect copyright.PENANA6MYDeN6IsQ
只是他現在很後悔,後悔自己沒能多保護那兩人的感情一點,如果他當時能守護好那兩人,那麼說不定什麼都不會發生。75Please respect copyright.PENANAY8ZMRO4Dl0
75Please respect copyright.PENANAtXwxoysK7x
不過說這些都已經太遲,世界已經只剩下他一個人。75Please respect copyright.PENANAVWv1QokfWd
75Please respect copyright.PENANA8JUVqOysvq
曾經得到的,都有一天會失去。75Please respect copyright.PENANAzGQDYxYJId
75Please respect copyright.PENANAmvvnLH4ZmL
75Please respect copyright.PENANALaZ6KYJ3cB
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時光荏苒,高二時的風波已經平靜到連漣漪都沒有剩下,這似乎該歸功於師長們的努力。75Please respect copyright.PENANAnVTQOT5LU6
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或許是害怕楚襄冉成了下一個意外,等他回到學校後,沒有人再對他提起那喧囂過許多日子的事件,事情的經過連同向冬陽和官玄默曾經存在過的事實一起被所有人抹煞,就連名字都不再被提起。75Please respect copyright.PENANADUqDcTys8w
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楚襄冉冷冷的笑了。75Please respect copyright.PENANAqaKKXCKUHa
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很久以前就嚐過人情冷暖的他,並不想去責備這些人的現實,只是像是懲罰自己般的隔絕整個世界。75Please respect copyright.PENANAIhILc3ANnQ
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本來就習慣藏身於向冬陽和官玄默光芒下的陰影之中,楚襄冉回到學校後只有變得更沉默,更不願意與其他人交談。75Please respect copyright.PENANAW9XvJ7FqVT
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原本還會帶著溫文爾雅的笑容回應其他人的話語,而現在彷彿失去了微笑的對象一般,總是冰冷的面無表情。75Please respect copyright.PENANAmOZ3fhiBZN
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就算笑,也是冷冷的,嘲諷般的笑容。75Please respect copyright.PENANA6uilRjgU4c
75Please respect copyright.PENANAUum3oHD5He
拒絕所有人的關心,也拒絕所有人的探問,他在熟悉的地方獨自過著生活。75Please respect copyright.PENANAJEjNZUhWif
75Please respect copyright.PENANAPuZRZDm0FU
不看,不聽,不聞,他在意的已經失去,剩下來的他不在意。75Please respect copyright.PENANAsG4iOIlGFI
75Please respect copyright.PENANA6tMOKt9XYl
世界依舊喧鬧,而楚襄冉生存在世界之外。75Please respect copyright.PENANA5e87aXxJWs
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那裡是一片寂靜的空白。75Please respect copyright.PENANA1A8Ccnl9jW
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他不知道官玄默在搬了家之後是否忘了那些曾經發生過的一切,他只知道,他什麼也忘不掉。75Please respect copyright.PENANAeOXfV3VFm0
75Please respect copyright.PENANADvzrfms1V2
總是睜眼到天亮,失眠已經成了習慣,他每天的睡眠不超過兩小時,藏在厚重制服下的身型已經瘦骨嶙峋。75Please respect copyright.PENANA6oxM04lqrl
75Please respect copyright.PENANAyUNhLzLmRD
這一切,已經遠離了的官玄默都不知道,他不知道楚襄冉不再笑了,也不知道楚襄冉只能夜不成眠,然後每天再用數不清的黑咖啡來提振自己的精神,更不知道,雖然他在信中留下了聯絡的方法,告訴對方,雖然他現在因為不願意勾起傷心的記憶而離開,但是他希望能一直和他保持連絡。75Please respect copyright.PENANAi7XUZUvjjP
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只是,他從來沒接到過楚襄冉撥給他的電話。
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向冬陽留給兩人的記憶都太深刻,他不願意自己的離開帶給楚襄冉再一次的面對分離,所以才會選擇無聲的走。75Please respect copyright.PENANAQ6n4L7yTTv
75Please respect copyright.PENANAKvTYle2Iba
但是他不知道,從他走出家門、投信、上車等等一連串的舉動,楚襄冉都站在那扇被淺藍色窗簾嚴嚴實實遮住了的窗戶背後,從窗簾的縫隙之中,看的一清二楚。75Please respect copyright.PENANAWNb6Jx1iGA
75Please respect copyright.PENANAAiU35KJBTR
他也不會知道,楚襄冉那時扯住窗簾的手,抓的有多緊……75Please respect copyright.PENANAneHd5IRz0j
75Please respect copyright.PENANAykUZ8wCa1c
為什麼要這麼一聲不響的走?75Please respect copyright.PENANATPPDG11zTx
75Please respect copyright.PENANAIpmWn1IgT9
不是約好了嗎?明明、約好了的。不要讓他連失去都沒有機會道別,所以那天,他特意懇求他的。75Please respect copyright.PENANAYiZdn0KT2q
75Please respect copyright.PENANABnIx4GBy11
走的時候,請告訴他,這是他唯一能開口拜託官玄默替他做的事,他也只願意這麼做。75Please respect copyright.PENANAf0P4oE4WaP
75Please respect copyright.PENANAxIhoeiZqKm
但是……他還是被拋下了,連說再見的機會都沒有……75Please respect copyright.PENANAYPFZvPV4JZ
75Please respect copyright.PENANAP0EdRk47e0
是因為向冬陽不在了嗎??如果不是他當初的安排,或許向冬陽不會從官玄默身邊離開,雖然留在這裡會遭到反對,但是他們見得到面,也能知道彼此都還好好的活著。75Please respect copyright.PENANAjihbz4HLie
75Please respect copyright.PENANAilrGtGKrsS
不會有像現在這樣的生離死別。75Please respect copyright.PENANAuLPIS2Debp
75Please respect copyright.PENANA8ilsgjiBXZ
所以……他恨他嗎?是恨他了吧?75Please respect copyright.PENANA1eDsOuOBeR
75Please respect copyright.PENANATOctQ9NZ8C
或許就算不恨,但是他也不想再看見他了。75Please respect copyright.PENANAZ1rjfIhViT
75Please respect copyright.PENANAIPofae4CgB
不然怎麼會連最後一句話都不願意跟他說,明明答應了、約定好了的事情,這是官玄默第一次對他失約。75Please respect copyright.PENANAaNIA3D7cqR
75Please respect copyright.PENANAcNehivBrND
除了恨或討厭,或是類似於此的負面情緒,楚襄冉想不出更好的理由,而這一切,都是他咎由自取,怪不得別人。75Please respect copyright.PENANAnEAtgXcWvW
75Please respect copyright.PENANAvrP9bHiCU5
如果他沒有鼓勵兩人離開,或許,一切都不會發生……75Please respect copyright.PENANAEZr6uNGPZU
75Please respect copyright.PENANA67gf9viO6B
直到載著一切的車子遠去,連揚起的塵埃都再看不清之後,楚襄冉才安靜的下了樓,走出大門打開信箱,把剛才自己看著對方投入的白色信封取了出來。75Please respect copyright.PENANAH1D9mhk93H
75Please respect copyright.PENANAkf19vzAwOH
沒有打開信封,因為他不想看見官玄默為了不告而別所找的藉口,只是來到了廚房,打開瓦斯爐,讓青白色的火燄爬上那封信,燃出豔麗的紅。75Please respect copyright.PENANAx300rtZXdk
75Please respect copyright.PENANAKGZwculvM0
藉著火光,楚襄冉在一片黑暗的空間裡,看著自己映在廚房窗上的倒影,面容平靜,什麼表情也沒有。75Please respect copyright.PENANATqrZnSIHEX
75Please respect copyright.PENANA14j30J7RlC
不是第一次被拋下了,但是難過或傷心的情緒都無法在胸口中醞釀,只是空蕩蕩的,什麼也沒留下。75Please respect copyright.PENANACnNKxJTWj8
75Please respect copyright.PENANAabYsYa6f5l
他該要難過,該要傷心,但是自從出事之後,他連眼眶都沒紅過,流不出眼淚。75Please respect copyright.PENANAVhB1OPGXcL
75Please respect copyright.PENANA0oi9HEoHiT
死了就是死了,向冬陽不會再感到痛苦,可是活著留下來的人,煎熬才正等著他們。75Please respect copyright.PENANA5FCladMkP4
75Please respect copyright.PENANA8yElG97Hfu
閉上眼,楚襄冉放任幾乎燃上手的火焰飄落在水槽裡,碰到了潮濕之後發出細微聲響。75Please respect copyright.PENANAE9ciwVYLyv
75Please respect copyright.PENANAsQ583oiPlb
他很清楚的記得,自己是在什麼時候發現那種異樣的感情,也很清楚的記得,自己的目光是從什麼時候開始,總停留在那個人身上,久久無法轉移。75Please respect copyright.PENANAsvLBaNjPtf
75Please respect copyright.PENANAL66tICQlHu
可是他更清楚的記得,在他察覺有關於自身種種的同時,他也看到了那人眼中的影子是誰。75Please respect copyright.PENANAwV9GYq6zCe
75Please respect copyright.PENANA1kx2NuqsEj
自己深深眷戀著的官玄默,目光卻總是追隨著和他們一起長大的人——向冬陽。75Please respect copyright.PENANAIenfXKVRla
75Please respect copyright.PENANAc48Fm8xK2m
向冬陽就真的如同冬天的太陽一般,總是燦爛的笑著,把溫暖帶給他身邊所有的人。75Please respect copyright.PENANAmXqgMuBYpf
75Please respect copyright.PENANAQ3g2CJ354f
充滿活力又擁有自信的人……75Please respect copyright.PENANAr1sM2zFCqr
75Please respect copyright.PENANAw1TaPTcneq
楚襄冉完全能明白官玄默為什麼會喜歡上他。75Please respect copyright.PENANAWuFYIJ9Bnh
75Please respect copyright.PENANAVsEh2FcnAO
他和官玄默是同一類人,總是習慣性的會把擔子扛在肩上,只是官玄默是出於責任感,而楚襄冉則是因為不想讓別人失望。75Please respect copyright.PENANA8nTGZB6Ulx
75Please respect copyright.PENANAnxEv0MmY3T
兩人同為壓抑自己又理智的個性,所以官玄默會被向冬陽那種跳脫活潑,總把別人的事當自己的事一樣的性子給吸引,他真的一點也不意外。75Please respect copyright.PENANAwFcFL2HEcj
75Please respect copyright.PENANA5u3LRCxQQv
早在一切發生之前,他就知道了他們兩人相愛的事情。75Please respect copyright.PENANAYWXnspSnXQ
75Please respect copyright.PENANAkFoaJ78R3Y
所以常常假藉各式名義留那兩個人單獨相處,楚襄冉從不曾把向冬陽視為情敵,而是很高興他能回應官玄默的感情。75Please respect copyright.PENANAzvMsbdcsV9
75Please respect copyright.PENANA6MYDeN6IsQ
只是他現在很後悔,後悔自己沒能多保護那兩人的感情一點,如果他當時能守護好那兩人,那麼說不定什麼都不會發生。75Please respect copyright.PENANAY8ZMRO4Dl0
75Please respect copyright.PENANAtXwxoysK7x
不過說這些都已經太遲,世界已經只剩下他一個人。75Please respect copyright.PENANAVWv1QokfWd
75Please respect copyright.PENANA8JUVqOysvq
曾經得到的,都有一天會失去。75Please respect copyright.PENANAzGQDYxYJId
75Please respect copyright.PENANAmvvnLH4ZmL
75Please respect copyright.PENANALaZ6KYJ3cB
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時光荏苒,高二時的風波已經平靜到連漣漪都沒有剩下,這似乎該歸功於師長們的努力。75Please respect copyright.PENANAnVTQOT5LU6
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或許是害怕楚襄冉成了下一個意外,等他回到學校後,沒有人再對他提起那喧囂過許多日子的事件,事情的經過連同向冬陽和官玄默曾經存在過的事實一起被所有人抹煞,就連名字都不再被提起。75Please respect copyright.PENANADUqDcTys8w
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楚襄冉冷冷的笑了。75Please respect copyright.PENANAqaKKXCKUHa
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很久以前就嚐過人情冷暖的他,並不想去責備這些人的現實,只是像是懲罰自己般的隔絕整個世界。75Please respect copyright.PENANAIhILc3ANnQ
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本來就習慣藏身於向冬陽和官玄默光芒下的陰影之中,楚襄冉回到學校後只有變得更沉默,更不願意與其他人交談。75Please respect copyright.PENANAW9XvJ7FqVT
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原本還會帶著溫文爾雅的笑容回應其他人的話語,而現在彷彿失去了微笑的對象一般,總是冰冷的面無表情。75Please respect copyright.PENANAmOZ3fhiBZN
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就算笑,也是冷冷的,嘲諷般的笑容。75Please respect copyright.PENANA6uilRjgU4c
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拒絕所有人的關心,也拒絕所有人的探問,他在熟悉的地方獨自過著生活。75Please respect copyright.PENANAJEjNZUhWif
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不看,不聽,不聞,他在意的已經失去,剩下來的他不在意。75Please respect copyright.PENANAsG4iOIlGFI
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世界依舊喧鬧,而楚襄冉生存在世界之外。75Please respect copyright.PENANA5e87aXxJWs
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那裡是一片寂靜的空白。75Please respect copyright.PENANA1A8Ccnl9jW
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他不知道官玄默在搬了家之後是否忘了那些曾經發生過的一切,他只知道,他什麼也忘不掉。75Please respect copyright.PENANAeOXfV3VFm0
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總是睜眼到天亮,失眠已經成了習慣,他每天的睡眠不超過兩小時,藏在厚重制服下的身型已經瘦骨嶙峋。75Please respect copyright.PENANA6oxM04lqrl
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這一切,已經遠離了的官玄默都不知道,他不知道楚襄冉不再笑了,也不知道楚襄冉只能夜不成眠,然後每天再用數不清的黑咖啡來提振自己的精神,更不知道,雖然他在信中留下了聯絡的方法,告訴對方,雖然他現在因為不願意勾起傷心的記憶而離開,但是他希望能一直和他保持連絡。75Please respect copyright.PENANAi7XUZUvjjP
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只是,他從來沒接到過楚襄冉撥給他的電話。