為了逃開那個處處充斥著向冬陽身影的城市,官玄默狠了心,雖然明明說好走的時候要和楚襄冉打聲招呼,可最後他卻只留了張字條,裝在白色信封裡,投進了楚襄冉家的信箱。71Please respect copyright.PENANALNu7gR2lZ5
71Please respect copyright.PENANAohBf8TytRr
向冬陽留給兩人的記憶都太深刻,他不願意自己的離開帶給楚襄冉再一次的面對分離,所以才會選擇無聲的走。71Please respect copyright.PENANAkKrA12VMv9
71Please respect copyright.PENANA2syyrfBxDz
但是他不知道,從他走出家門、投信、上車等等一連串的舉動,楚襄冉都站在那扇被淺藍色窗簾嚴嚴實實遮住了的窗戶背後,從窗簾的縫隙之中,看的一清二楚。71Please respect copyright.PENANAYwYpyQtSL9
71Please respect copyright.PENANATQyogV8He5
他也不會知道,楚襄冉那時扯住窗簾的手,抓的有多緊……71Please respect copyright.PENANALbDX0OEP0s
71Please respect copyright.PENANABbLxsPrtQn
為什麼要這麼一聲不響的走?71Please respect copyright.PENANAvH66tVREJJ
71Please respect copyright.PENANAUxG7ANgdEl
不是約好了嗎?明明、約好了的。不要讓他連失去都沒有機會道別,所以那天,他特意懇求他的。71Please respect copyright.PENANAndSLxdHq42
71Please respect copyright.PENANAv95bLVwaOd
走的時候,請告訴他,這是他唯一能開口拜託官玄默替他做的事,他也只願意這麼做。71Please respect copyright.PENANAtrGwhk4i2C
71Please respect copyright.PENANAkND68fG5iP
但是……他還是被拋下了,連說再見的機會都沒有……71Please respect copyright.PENANAoAjEwqcBHa
71Please respect copyright.PENANAImUta7vxaM
是因為向冬陽不在了嗎??如果不是他當初的安排,或許向冬陽不會從官玄默身邊離開,雖然留在這裡會遭到反對,但是他們見得到面,也能知道彼此都還好好的活著。71Please respect copyright.PENANAvZdoskOS1E
71Please respect copyright.PENANA9p2jJVHE6n
不會有像現在這樣的生離死別。71Please respect copyright.PENANAnIVLp42WtH
71Please respect copyright.PENANANMBEJhOL1r
所以……他恨他嗎?是恨他了吧?71Please respect copyright.PENANAYmfuQFL7P3
71Please respect copyright.PENANAt3S5zcJDIQ
或許就算不恨,但是他也不想再看見他了。71Please respect copyright.PENANABmd7eejhK3
71Please respect copyright.PENANA2Nid8jT53M
不然怎麼會連最後一句話都不願意跟他說,明明答應了、約定好了的事情,這是官玄默第一次對他失約。71Please respect copyright.PENANAGTWsJlMlSw
71Please respect copyright.PENANAHcsPmhWWrI
除了恨或討厭,或是類似於此的負面情緒,楚襄冉想不出更好的理由,而這一切,都是他咎由自取,怪不得別人。71Please respect copyright.PENANAND6myQBjZ8
71Please respect copyright.PENANAgXBDn8k1vt
如果他沒有鼓勵兩人離開,或許,一切都不會發生……71Please respect copyright.PENANAYIyXegvAro
71Please respect copyright.PENANAVwCoqZ1g3l
直到載著一切的車子遠去,連揚起的塵埃都再看不清之後,楚襄冉才安靜的下了樓,走出大門打開信箱,把剛才自己看著對方投入的白色信封取了出來。71Please respect copyright.PENANAEguyC9sDzI
71Please respect copyright.PENANA1Ag6voZrr6
沒有打開信封,因為他不想看見官玄默為了不告而別所找的藉口,只是來到了廚房,打開瓦斯爐,讓青白色的火燄爬上那封信,燃出豔麗的紅。71Please respect copyright.PENANAMfd33w47OK
71Please respect copyright.PENANA7E04OYOkhM
藉著火光,楚襄冉在一片黑暗的空間裡,看著自己映在廚房窗上的倒影,面容平靜,什麼表情也沒有。71Please respect copyright.PENANAhFFVG0igHo
71Please respect copyright.PENANAKT9UWNAZgI
不是第一次被拋下了,但是難過或傷心的情緒都無法在胸口中醞釀,只是空蕩蕩的,什麼也沒留下。71Please respect copyright.PENANA18C51fjIzw
71Please respect copyright.PENANAlCwgWX38HE
他該要難過,該要傷心,但是自從出事之後,他連眼眶都沒紅過,流不出眼淚。71Please respect copyright.PENANARvuY22ag2O
71Please respect copyright.PENANAK92G7BgzWt
死了就是死了,向冬陽不會再感到痛苦,可是活著留下來的人,煎熬才正等著他們。71Please respect copyright.PENANAS2tN2ucbmc
71Please respect copyright.PENANAH2SqvxCHPg
閉上眼,楚襄冉放任幾乎燃上手的火焰飄落在水槽裡,碰到了潮濕之後發出細微聲響。71Please respect copyright.PENANAKlasx8Apn5
71Please respect copyright.PENANAfwi1xL56lG
他很清楚的記得,自己是在什麼時候發現那種異樣的感情,也很清楚的記得,自己的目光是從什麼時候開始,總停留在那個人身上,久久無法轉移。71Please respect copyright.PENANAJqiAzDDb8D
71Please respect copyright.PENANA9hJC2XGVol
可是他更清楚的記得,在他察覺有關於自身種種的同時,他也看到了那人眼中的影子是誰。71Please respect copyright.PENANAzwBFLfM6yH
71Please respect copyright.PENANAfFDUUmm3dw
自己深深眷戀著的官玄默,目光卻總是追隨著和他們一起長大的人——向冬陽。71Please respect copyright.PENANAMfbbmqroYp
71Please respect copyright.PENANAGOKDugAvLy
向冬陽就真的如同冬天的太陽一般,總是燦爛的笑著,把溫暖帶給他身邊所有的人。71Please respect copyright.PENANAgv3Wm5Z1g8
71Please respect copyright.PENANAkAYC2tNr82
充滿活力又擁有自信的人……71Please respect copyright.PENANAAHXa2fuWur
71Please respect copyright.PENANAbeDAR97uLK
楚襄冉完全能明白官玄默為什麼會喜歡上他。71Please respect copyright.PENANAcLNP5gseuJ
71Please respect copyright.PENANADqQs6tXA72
他和官玄默是同一類人,總是習慣性的會把擔子扛在肩上,只是官玄默是出於責任感,而楚襄冉則是因為不想讓別人失望。71Please respect copyright.PENANAlUt00Jw44P
71Please respect copyright.PENANADS4A2k4jLH
兩人同為壓抑自己又理智的個性,所以官玄默會被向冬陽那種跳脫活潑,總把別人的事當自己的事一樣的性子給吸引,他真的一點也不意外。71Please respect copyright.PENANAgXrlItsyR4
71Please respect copyright.PENANA1SFx3ZMdUv
早在一切發生之前,他就知道了他們兩人相愛的事情。71Please respect copyright.PENANA2Hhzbext6y
71Please respect copyright.PENANAGHFAqzW9rm
所以常常假藉各式名義留那兩個人單獨相處,楚襄冉從不曾把向冬陽視為情敵,而是很高興他能回應官玄默的感情。71Please respect copyright.PENANAjYiqROx79K
71Please respect copyright.PENANAGuK7LCLmh7
只是他現在很後悔,後悔自己沒能多保護那兩人的感情一點,如果他當時能守護好那兩人,那麼說不定什麼都不會發生。71Please respect copyright.PENANAhLPi2rOFMX
71Please respect copyright.PENANAmUVMYZtNzs
不過說這些都已經太遲,世界已經只剩下他一個人。71Please respect copyright.PENANAKWkLDMUI9P
71Please respect copyright.PENANAiWIiZ0FjVU
曾經得到的,都有一天會失去。71Please respect copyright.PENANApKqCij8dqn
71Please respect copyright.PENANAGfnChPn9mi
71Please respect copyright.PENANAbC29HcnP3d
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時光荏苒,高二時的風波已經平靜到連漣漪都沒有剩下,這似乎該歸功於師長們的努力。71Please respect copyright.PENANAMQ4z50OJiB
71Please respect copyright.PENANAV8P7WapizG
或許是害怕楚襄冉成了下一個意外,等他回到學校後,沒有人再對他提起那喧囂過許多日子的事件,事情的經過連同向冬陽和官玄默曾經存在過的事實一起被所有人抹煞,就連名字都不再被提起。71Please respect copyright.PENANAEUexlTfgIm
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楚襄冉冷冷的笑了。71Please respect copyright.PENANATg4tz1VqSJ
71Please respect copyright.PENANA5pI86NANbr
很久以前就嚐過人情冷暖的他,並不想去責備這些人的現實,只是像是懲罰自己般的隔絕整個世界。71Please respect copyright.PENANAif5pptt9sg
71Please respect copyright.PENANAmUL8iRJduH
本來就習慣藏身於向冬陽和官玄默光芒下的陰影之中,楚襄冉回到學校後只有變得更沉默,更不願意與其他人交談。71Please respect copyright.PENANAEVzk9VFXWK
71Please respect copyright.PENANAAs2vQcwXUQ
原本還會帶著溫文爾雅的笑容回應其他人的話語,而現在彷彿失去了微笑的對象一般,總是冰冷的面無表情。71Please respect copyright.PENANAYn3wCbrTgF
71Please respect copyright.PENANAWD8F9MdlyZ
就算笑,也是冷冷的,嘲諷般的笑容。71Please respect copyright.PENANAEPEzLZg1Pq
71Please respect copyright.PENANAfGEK8tTXlO
拒絕所有人的關心,也拒絕所有人的探問,他在熟悉的地方獨自過著生活。71Please respect copyright.PENANAvEmOb0x3Ct
71Please respect copyright.PENANAdWi9ox1kU2
不看,不聽,不聞,他在意的已經失去,剩下來的他不在意。71Please respect copyright.PENANAdL6hkwpu5J
71Please respect copyright.PENANAJQDRmbVG3l
世界依舊喧鬧,而楚襄冉生存在世界之外。71Please respect copyright.PENANAJm9tcJVTkQ
71Please respect copyright.PENANAZRfQa5Qai7
那裡是一片寂靜的空白。71Please respect copyright.PENANAZQIPfLMFta
71Please respect copyright.PENANAeIU35ObQaR
他不知道官玄默在搬了家之後是否忘了那些曾經發生過的一切,他只知道,他什麼也忘不掉。71Please respect copyright.PENANAVOWq3ZkNkX
71Please respect copyright.PENANADdI4Kd4mtf
總是睜眼到天亮,失眠已經成了習慣,他每天的睡眠不超過兩小時,藏在厚重制服下的身型已經瘦骨嶙峋。71Please respect copyright.PENANAETxOgNhmsn
71Please respect copyright.PENANAVDDmqk6P0O
這一切,已經遠離了的官玄默都不知道,他不知道楚襄冉不再笑了,也不知道楚襄冉只能夜不成眠,然後每天再用數不清的黑咖啡來提振自己的精神,更不知道,雖然他在信中留下了聯絡的方法,告訴對方,雖然他現在因為不願意勾起傷心的記憶而離開,但是他希望能一直和他保持連絡。71Please respect copyright.PENANAlDgFRzeUt5
71Please respect copyright.PENANAMXGheJD1dX
只是,他從來沒接到過楚襄冉撥給他的電話。
ns216.73.216.32da2 71Please respect copyright.PENANAohBf8TytRr
向冬陽留給兩人的記憶都太深刻,他不願意自己的離開帶給楚襄冉再一次的面對分離,所以才會選擇無聲的走。71Please respect copyright.PENANAkKrA12VMv9
71Please respect copyright.PENANA2syyrfBxDz
但是他不知道,從他走出家門、投信、上車等等一連串的舉動,楚襄冉都站在那扇被淺藍色窗簾嚴嚴實實遮住了的窗戶背後,從窗簾的縫隙之中,看的一清二楚。71Please respect copyright.PENANAYwYpyQtSL9
71Please respect copyright.PENANATQyogV8He5
他也不會知道,楚襄冉那時扯住窗簾的手,抓的有多緊……71Please respect copyright.PENANALbDX0OEP0s
71Please respect copyright.PENANABbLxsPrtQn
為什麼要這麼一聲不響的走?71Please respect copyright.PENANAvH66tVREJJ
71Please respect copyright.PENANAUxG7ANgdEl
不是約好了嗎?明明、約好了的。不要讓他連失去都沒有機會道別,所以那天,他特意懇求他的。71Please respect copyright.PENANAndSLxdHq42
71Please respect copyright.PENANAv95bLVwaOd
走的時候,請告訴他,這是他唯一能開口拜託官玄默替他做的事,他也只願意這麼做。71Please respect copyright.PENANAtrGwhk4i2C
71Please respect copyright.PENANAkND68fG5iP
但是……他還是被拋下了,連說再見的機會都沒有……71Please respect copyright.PENANAoAjEwqcBHa
71Please respect copyright.PENANAImUta7vxaM
是因為向冬陽不在了嗎??如果不是他當初的安排,或許向冬陽不會從官玄默身邊離開,雖然留在這裡會遭到反對,但是他們見得到面,也能知道彼此都還好好的活著。71Please respect copyright.PENANAvZdoskOS1E
71Please respect copyright.PENANA9p2jJVHE6n
不會有像現在這樣的生離死別。71Please respect copyright.PENANAnIVLp42WtH
71Please respect copyright.PENANANMBEJhOL1r
所以……他恨他嗎?是恨他了吧?71Please respect copyright.PENANAYmfuQFL7P3
71Please respect copyright.PENANAt3S5zcJDIQ
或許就算不恨,但是他也不想再看見他了。71Please respect copyright.PENANABmd7eejhK3
71Please respect copyright.PENANA2Nid8jT53M
不然怎麼會連最後一句話都不願意跟他說,明明答應了、約定好了的事情,這是官玄默第一次對他失約。71Please respect copyright.PENANAGTWsJlMlSw
71Please respect copyright.PENANAHcsPmhWWrI
除了恨或討厭,或是類似於此的負面情緒,楚襄冉想不出更好的理由,而這一切,都是他咎由自取,怪不得別人。71Please respect copyright.PENANAND6myQBjZ8
71Please respect copyright.PENANAgXBDn8k1vt
如果他沒有鼓勵兩人離開,或許,一切都不會發生……71Please respect copyright.PENANAYIyXegvAro
71Please respect copyright.PENANAVwCoqZ1g3l
直到載著一切的車子遠去,連揚起的塵埃都再看不清之後,楚襄冉才安靜的下了樓,走出大門打開信箱,把剛才自己看著對方投入的白色信封取了出來。71Please respect copyright.PENANAEguyC9sDzI
71Please respect copyright.PENANA1Ag6voZrr6
沒有打開信封,因為他不想看見官玄默為了不告而別所找的藉口,只是來到了廚房,打開瓦斯爐,讓青白色的火燄爬上那封信,燃出豔麗的紅。71Please respect copyright.PENANAMfd33w47OK
71Please respect copyright.PENANA7E04OYOkhM
藉著火光,楚襄冉在一片黑暗的空間裡,看著自己映在廚房窗上的倒影,面容平靜,什麼表情也沒有。71Please respect copyright.PENANAhFFVG0igHo
71Please respect copyright.PENANAKT9UWNAZgI
不是第一次被拋下了,但是難過或傷心的情緒都無法在胸口中醞釀,只是空蕩蕩的,什麼也沒留下。71Please respect copyright.PENANA18C51fjIzw
71Please respect copyright.PENANAlCwgWX38HE
他該要難過,該要傷心,但是自從出事之後,他連眼眶都沒紅過,流不出眼淚。71Please respect copyright.PENANARvuY22ag2O
71Please respect copyright.PENANAK92G7BgzWt
死了就是死了,向冬陽不會再感到痛苦,可是活著留下來的人,煎熬才正等著他們。71Please respect copyright.PENANAS2tN2ucbmc
71Please respect copyright.PENANAH2SqvxCHPg
閉上眼,楚襄冉放任幾乎燃上手的火焰飄落在水槽裡,碰到了潮濕之後發出細微聲響。71Please respect copyright.PENANAKlasx8Apn5
71Please respect copyright.PENANAfwi1xL56lG
他很清楚的記得,自己是在什麼時候發現那種異樣的感情,也很清楚的記得,自己的目光是從什麼時候開始,總停留在那個人身上,久久無法轉移。71Please respect copyright.PENANAJqiAzDDb8D
71Please respect copyright.PENANA9hJC2XGVol
可是他更清楚的記得,在他察覺有關於自身種種的同時,他也看到了那人眼中的影子是誰。71Please respect copyright.PENANAzwBFLfM6yH
71Please respect copyright.PENANAfFDUUmm3dw
自己深深眷戀著的官玄默,目光卻總是追隨著和他們一起長大的人——向冬陽。71Please respect copyright.PENANAMfbbmqroYp
71Please respect copyright.PENANAGOKDugAvLy
向冬陽就真的如同冬天的太陽一般,總是燦爛的笑著,把溫暖帶給他身邊所有的人。71Please respect copyright.PENANAgv3Wm5Z1g8
71Please respect copyright.PENANAkAYC2tNr82
充滿活力又擁有自信的人……71Please respect copyright.PENANAAHXa2fuWur
71Please respect copyright.PENANAbeDAR97uLK
楚襄冉完全能明白官玄默為什麼會喜歡上他。71Please respect copyright.PENANAcLNP5gseuJ
71Please respect copyright.PENANADqQs6tXA72
他和官玄默是同一類人,總是習慣性的會把擔子扛在肩上,只是官玄默是出於責任感,而楚襄冉則是因為不想讓別人失望。71Please respect copyright.PENANAlUt00Jw44P
71Please respect copyright.PENANADS4A2k4jLH
兩人同為壓抑自己又理智的個性,所以官玄默會被向冬陽那種跳脫活潑,總把別人的事當自己的事一樣的性子給吸引,他真的一點也不意外。71Please respect copyright.PENANAgXrlItsyR4
71Please respect copyright.PENANA1SFx3ZMdUv
早在一切發生之前,他就知道了他們兩人相愛的事情。71Please respect copyright.PENANA2Hhzbext6y
71Please respect copyright.PENANAGHFAqzW9rm
所以常常假藉各式名義留那兩個人單獨相處,楚襄冉從不曾把向冬陽視為情敵,而是很高興他能回應官玄默的感情。71Please respect copyright.PENANAjYiqROx79K
71Please respect copyright.PENANAGuK7LCLmh7
只是他現在很後悔,後悔自己沒能多保護那兩人的感情一點,如果他當時能守護好那兩人,那麼說不定什麼都不會發生。71Please respect copyright.PENANAhLPi2rOFMX
71Please respect copyright.PENANAmUVMYZtNzs
不過說這些都已經太遲,世界已經只剩下他一個人。71Please respect copyright.PENANAKWkLDMUI9P
71Please respect copyright.PENANAiWIiZ0FjVU
曾經得到的,都有一天會失去。71Please respect copyright.PENANApKqCij8dqn
71Please respect copyright.PENANAGfnChPn9mi
71Please respect copyright.PENANAbC29HcnP3d
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時光荏苒,高二時的風波已經平靜到連漣漪都沒有剩下,這似乎該歸功於師長們的努力。71Please respect copyright.PENANAMQ4z50OJiB
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或許是害怕楚襄冉成了下一個意外,等他回到學校後,沒有人再對他提起那喧囂過許多日子的事件,事情的經過連同向冬陽和官玄默曾經存在過的事實一起被所有人抹煞,就連名字都不再被提起。71Please respect copyright.PENANAEUexlTfgIm
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楚襄冉冷冷的笑了。71Please respect copyright.PENANATg4tz1VqSJ
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很久以前就嚐過人情冷暖的他,並不想去責備這些人的現實,只是像是懲罰自己般的隔絕整個世界。71Please respect copyright.PENANAif5pptt9sg
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本來就習慣藏身於向冬陽和官玄默光芒下的陰影之中,楚襄冉回到學校後只有變得更沉默,更不願意與其他人交談。71Please respect copyright.PENANAEVzk9VFXWK
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原本還會帶著溫文爾雅的笑容回應其他人的話語,而現在彷彿失去了微笑的對象一般,總是冰冷的面無表情。71Please respect copyright.PENANAYn3wCbrTgF
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就算笑,也是冷冷的,嘲諷般的笑容。71Please respect copyright.PENANAEPEzLZg1Pq
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拒絕所有人的關心,也拒絕所有人的探問,他在熟悉的地方獨自過著生活。71Please respect copyright.PENANAvEmOb0x3Ct
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不看,不聽,不聞,他在意的已經失去,剩下來的他不在意。71Please respect copyright.PENANAdL6hkwpu5J
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世界依舊喧鬧,而楚襄冉生存在世界之外。71Please respect copyright.PENANAJm9tcJVTkQ
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那裡是一片寂靜的空白。71Please respect copyright.PENANAZQIPfLMFta
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他不知道官玄默在搬了家之後是否忘了那些曾經發生過的一切,他只知道,他什麼也忘不掉。71Please respect copyright.PENANAVOWq3ZkNkX
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總是睜眼到天亮,失眠已經成了習慣,他每天的睡眠不超過兩小時,藏在厚重制服下的身型已經瘦骨嶙峋。71Please respect copyright.PENANAETxOgNhmsn
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這一切,已經遠離了的官玄默都不知道,他不知道楚襄冉不再笑了,也不知道楚襄冉只能夜不成眠,然後每天再用數不清的黑咖啡來提振自己的精神,更不知道,雖然他在信中留下了聯絡的方法,告訴對方,雖然他現在因為不願意勾起傷心的記憶而離開,但是他希望能一直和他保持連絡。71Please respect copyright.PENANAlDgFRzeUt5
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只是,他從來沒接到過楚襄冉撥給他的電話。