我見到楊悅盈個笑容,忽然間有種想流眼淚嘅衝動。71Please respect copyright.PENANAiIPg1n9ZP2
「唔關我事你就唔會打俾我啦。」我逼自己笑笑咁串返佢一句。71Please respect copyright.PENANAvGDWKaET4p
「得閒無嘢做先打……唔好諗得咁複雜。」71Please respect copyright.PENANAMb5iMFLx9U
——以你平時脾性,主動打電話嗰一刻已經輸咗。我收住掣,無將呢一句講出口。71Please respect copyright.PENANAq3pFN1cRYv
呢啲嘢根本無得分輸贏,我唔想咁幼稚。71Please respect copyright.PENANAFmIPP43Zmp
無言以對之際,有人打開咗我房門,出面佢哋玩緊起緊哄啲聲滲咗入嚟。71Please respect copyright.PENANAfoRBRtwXI4
「喂。」71Please respect copyright.PENANATAW5X6aXJO
我望向門口嗰邊,Kyle——何晞媛男朋友走咗入嚟。71Please respect copyright.PENANAewscsI0qAN
佢同家姐拍拖之前,間唔中會搵下我吹水、叫下我同家姐一齊去玩;但係兩個拍咗拖之後,佢就好少會同我講嘢。71Please respect copyright.PENANANRgNpcwjkF
我唔係想指控佢啲乜嘢,佢咁樣可能係人之常情?我都係講個事實出嚟啫。71Please respect copyright.PENANALhQVuk8yfl
「咩事?」我問。71Please respect copyright.PENANAHX2DHQ0PMk
「外賣到,你家姐叫你出嚟食嘢。」71Please respect copyright.PENANAxLxzo8KF9F
「你哋食先。」外面咁大棚人,我寧願夜少少落便利店求其買個飯嚟叮。71Please respect copyright.PENANAk2DW7CYgq7
「溝緊女呀?」Kyle行近少少,偷偷地望向我部電話。71Please respect copyright.PENANAHwCzBmFGqe
幾肯定楊悅盈聽到我哋呢段對話。如果我話「係」,佢會唔會冷笑一聲否認?但如果我話「唔係」……佢又會點諗?71Please respect copyright.PENANAOt23vFQ4KE
唯有將個話題帶走。71Please respect copyright.PENANAo6xS6k3k8m
「我家姐男朋友。」我撳掣轉咗去前Cam,影住Kyle。71Please respect copyright.PENANA9L1kV1K4N1
Kyle對住我個電話——楊悅盈——好公式化咁微笑住揮揮手。71Please respect copyright.PENANAMbmEgWYcaZ
唔知佢一陣又會同何晞媛講乜嘢。71Please respect copyright.PENANAMMfWqRhtwF
「一陣出去睇戲,叫埋你女朋友一齊?」佢又問。71Please respect copyright.PENANA4OWfeL7yzd
我轉返去前Cam,望住電話入面嘅楊悅盈,聽住佢呢個問題。71Please respect copyright.PENANA1Eo6lEENc7
——佢唔係我女朋友。好似應該咁樣糾正佢。71Please respect copyright.PENANAuiXWoVBh25
但係楊悅盈望住我,好似有啲期待我會點答。71Please respect copyright.PENANAuvwWYeqlj8
「唔喇。」所以,我唔敢俾個好確實嘅答案出嚟。71Please respect copyright.PENANA5ZSUlapj7L
的而且確,楊悅盈唔係我女朋友。老實講,我覺得佢比較似個好硬頸、好倔嘅阿妹,鍾意就出現,唔鍾意就消失。71Please respect copyright.PENANAHcPhJm9aqo
我與其自己亂講嘢打破而家呢個平衡,不如敷衍了事搪塞過去。71Please respect copyright.PENANA7cjgF0ULiQ
Kyle點點頭,離開咗我間房,閂返門。71Please respect copyright.PENANAo77M8H5p4D
終於靜返。71Please respect copyright.PENANAUmDih1HVXe
「你家姐叫你出去食嘢。」我仲未開口,楊悅盈已經劈頭講咗一句。71Please respect copyright.PENANA4vR73efaq0
「其實佢啲Friend我大部份都唔熟……好撚尷……」喺自己屋企都要同人搭枱嗰種感覺,真係好撚閪:「我寧願夜啲自己落街買嘢食。」71Please respect copyright.PENANAosavCRost8
「打俾你唔係聽你呻。」佢語氣變得有啲冷冰冰:「我有嘢做,唔講住——」71Please respect copyright.PENANAf3yj4CTayX
Feel到佢嬲嬲地想收線,我做錯咗乜嘢?71Please respect copyright.PENANAaEvWFzJJcx
「你又話得閒——」71Please respect copyright.PENANAHlzfDIHMA3
「唔得閒,我其實約咗人食飯。差唔多要過去。」71Please respect copyright.PENANAeWpx2n9OpW
「咩人?」有少少對唔住佢,但係聽到楊悅盈有人約,我有啲驚訝。71Please respect copyright.PENANAgpOq66i9KL
「返Part-time啲同事。」71Please respect copyright.PENANAobrkU9kLj7
「……男定女?」71Please respect copyright.PENANAZsjiRm9Ine
問完我立即開始後悔,因為以楊悅盈性格,應該會同我講「你問夠未」,或者更直接地講「關你撚——71Please respect copyright.PENANAtjynZkDCuk
「男嘅。」71Please respect copyright.PENANAkXH5rtATGx
佢語氣決絕到似乎唔想再傾落去。71Please respect copyright.PENANA9DHguLYZTn
我忍唔住呆咗幾秒。71Please respect copyright.PENANAzPeOjTF2hZ
好快逼自己冷靜返,笑一笑,希望佢睇唔出我啱啱有動搖。71Please respect copyright.PENANAyWAZzYGIUF
楊悅盈捽一捽眼,無再望住鏡頭——無再望住我。71Please respect copyright.PENANATBsw42RO8F
縱使唔知原因,但係睇到佢呢個樣,我直覺佢係講緊大話呃我。71Please respect copyright.PENANA7XSjIaT9Zv
定係……我其實呃緊自己?佢已經有佢自己嘅生活,係得我仲喺度季節性發愁,自以為同佢有種切唔斷嘅Connection,大家都覺得對方嘅存在有啲特別?71Please respect copyright.PENANALk6ukKUPAf
「好呀……咁……我哋遲啲再傾……?」試探性咁問佢一句。71Please respect copyright.PENANAMHKiWORrFC
因為,呢一刻收咗線,我唔知下次幾時先有機會同佢見面。71Please respect copyright.PENANATdfVko11xR
「嗯。」佢咁爽快,我反而唔知點俾反應。71Please respect copyright.PENANA8z0UoQtHLM
不嬲都唔擅長同女仔溝通,尤其是呢個我完全唔知佢諗乜嘅女仔。71Please respect copyright.PENANAnQn0wE5yrY
「聖誕快樂。」71Please respect copyright.PENANAMRpx94kVn0
我未講完呢句,佢已經收咗線。71Please respect copyright.PENANASuIFrZBxgF
隨手將部電話掉咗上床,好苦惱咁揞住面低聲咆哮——我明知佢最撚憎聖誕……點解要同佢講聖誕快樂……?71Please respect copyright.PENANAT4f5A4Kyn4
隔咗個零鐘,房外面終於靜咗。71Please respect copyright.PENANApDb7Q9ivcC
我打開少少門望出去,家姐佢哋全部出晒去;阿爸阿媽應該已經瞓咗。71Please respect copyright.PENANAZfP0r8hfbp
拎住部電話行出廳,坐咗落梳化度。71Please respect copyright.PENANAX3YzSuQTvi
望住頭先打俾楊悅盈十幾次嘅通話記錄。71Please respect copyright.PENANA3YEWxG0w2S
佢一次都無聽到。71Please respect copyright.PENANAdzyID3qgFI
隨手喺枱面拎起一塊Pizza想食,不過個口感凍到有啲核突。71Please respect copyright.PENANAB123FzMGlb
我歎一歎氣,掉返低塊Pizza;再一次嘗試打俾楊悅盈。71Please respect copyright.PENANAeCd0VEhbHx
聽到電話接通嗰啲「嘟嘟嘟」聲,同頭先一樣滿心期待。71Please respect copyright.PENANAHrXgALCAxg
然後聽到響到斷線嗰陣「嘟……嘟……嘟……」聲,再一次心情沉入谷底。71Please respect copyright.PENANAPztrLooJ4B
我記得舊年有套戲,描述聖誕老人係個酗酒成性嘅廢老,去咗間俾人劫持嘅大屋嗰度殺恐怖份子。71Please respect copyright.PENANAa0Cgg32ep2
套戲其實幾得意。71Please respect copyright.PENANAjfVoncqOtV
而且……我好羨慕外國人,細個會真心以為聖誕老人係真實存在。71Please respect copyright.PENANAk97nyJg2RK
到大個咗之後,會用「Santa is not real」呢句說話,嚟表達嗰種失去某種信念嘅心態。71Please respect copyright.PENANAWsEW3S36gk
有啲無力咁喺梳化度瞓低咗,唔忿氣咁再打俾楊悅盈。71Please respect copyright.PENANA9wQD2DxFbv
——嘟嘟嘟……71Please respect copyright.PENANAWqmIut1VTo
你叫我用一句說嚟形容而家個心態,我真係無能為力。71Please respect copyright.PENANA0ZjtlfCo12
——嘟嘟嘟……71Please respect copyright.PENANA3TVqM1gDce
比較接近嘅講法,大概係好似有個超新星核心塌縮,變咗做個巨型黑洞……71Please respect copyright.PENANAguv7yDlFxs
——嘟嘟嘟……71Please respect copyright.PENANAfF0jwc4V1N
將所有嘢吸晒入去吞噬殆盡。71Please respect copyright.PENANAbttaTcatVp
——嘟……71Please respect copyright.PENANAE11yDwYUw5
唯一一個可以填補呢個空洞嘅人,71Please respect copyright.PENANA4yqQFEa0nk
——嘟……71Please respect copyright.PENANAIxMg0ChNC1
而家匿咗喺唔知邊度,71Please respect copyright.PENANAKxL35WZIq5
——嘟……71Please respect copyright.PENANA3FmmKIsIA7
同佢想像出嚟嘅男同事,71Please respect copyright.PENANANFcau0z18B
——嘟……71Please respect copyright.PENANAuiUQH0vont
喺某條陰暗後巷度過緊聖誕。71Please respect copyright.PENANAxvmiMNOZRU
—《聖誕綜合症×2》 完—71Please respect copyright.PENANAfvCz0tFDlD