我托住頭,呆望住個電腦Mon;視覺上知道Mon入面有畫面、有嘢郁緊,亦都聽到個喇叭播緊音樂。80Please respect copyright.PENANA4PXNQzNHkZ
但係注意力一早飛咗去唔知邊度。80Please respect copyright.PENANAfJhMbw1Ehh
而家我個神態,大概同撞咗邪或者靈魂出竅無乜分別;如果何晞媛見到我呢個樣,應該會嚇到縮。80Please respect copyright.PENANAFRiYH6laMw
……或者會好興奮咁開始研究我。80Please respect copyright.PENANAuyfwLBeSjp
我都唔知條癲雞會諗啲乜嘢。80Please respect copyright.PENANAqR0TKrNvwT
有一個好撚Social嘅屋企人,加上生活喺一個無乜消遣嘅地方,就會得一個災難級嘅聖誕節。80Please respect copyright.PENANAJqp0QtmDfq
我屋企唔算好大,一家四口住勉強算係有各自私人空間;但係佢今晚約咗佢男朋友同成班大學同學上嚟,我大約點算咗一下差唔多有十個人。80Please respect copyright.PENANA5rHXfGuhw0
到而家都Get唔到,點解聖誕節就係要玩要High Energy要狂歡要開心,先至叫做有「節日氣氛」。80Please respect copyright.PENANAm8P86NqInI
所以我通常都只會靜靜地匿埋喺屋企,同嗰啲覺得要熱烈慶祝嘅人河水不犯井水;點估到今年我家姐竟然會主動將個「氣氛」帶返屋企?80Please respect copyright.PENANAb1WsjzRuoe
還好只要我閂埋門,就唔會太受影響——80Please respect copyright.PENANABYxEhfsLyI
「何晞賢!」80Please respect copyright.PENANAhEhjVVLzot
緊接住呢聲咆哮,我房門同時俾人轟開——何晞媛大模斯樣咁走入嚟,懶係親切咁「啪」一聲從後雙手搭落我膊頭度。80Please respect copyright.PENANAtAYGfG7JDQ
「陣間一齊出去睇戲!」佢笑得好開心,一路亂摷我個頭一路講。80Please respect copyright.PENANA66CZTVhlbe
——妖……我一手撥開佢:「咩戲……?」80Please respect copyright.PENANAU50Hb0cFn7
無人答我,何晞媛講完呢句嘢,已經直接出返去。80Please respect copyright.PENANAFhRiFa8Gu4
OK,原來佢唔係「問」我一唔一齊睇,係「通知」我一齊睇。80Please respect copyright.PENANA5OoEWpeJNA
陪佢哋去戲院我無所謂,只不過我近排啲注意力好差,入親戲院都一定會瞓覺。80Please respect copyright.PENANAssLI1a9Hp2
而且……聖誕節呢種日子,依然會令我有啲唔太自在。80Please respect copyright.PENANA89QnrxR1Tj
除咗楊悅盈之外,應該無乜人會明我呢個感受。80Please respect copyright.PENANAat7njL0LNu
唔知佢而家喺邊,做緊乜嘢。80Please respect copyright.PENANAwyyX4dUuoi
不自覺咁打開個電話,喺Contact List搵返佢個名——原來距離上次我同佢Text,已經過咗半年。80Please respect copyright.PENANAdw8joQ79Ic
我唔係無搵佢,而係佢對上一次有回覆我,已經係半年前。80Please respect copyright.PENANA5fA5oSFVqh
簡單一句「嗯」。80Please respect copyright.PENANAqX4GyzSxha
好想而家Send個Message,甚至乎打俾佢;只係我知有90%機會佢唔會覆同唔會聽,然後我心情就會變得更差。80Please respect copyright.PENANACKjwn7wh00
——搏唔過。80Please respect copyright.PENANAVg5ztFh2HB
我諗起啱啱入大學嗰年……五年前?嗰個聖誕,我唔知自己哪來的勇氣,居然主動約佢一齊去啲同學搞嘅Party;佢又唔知咩原因,竟然應承咗。80Please respect copyright.PENANAiGpJ2Kv8cf
在場識楊悅盈嘅人得我同賴智勇,其他人見到我帶住佢嚟,都順理成章咁當咗佢係我女朋友。80Please respect copyright.PENANA9sRhryMaMs
賴智勇當然不在話下,奇怪嘅係,80Please respect copyright.PENANAwaH48XdMiD
我同楊悅盈,80Please respect copyright.PENANAnMrKFZv0eC
都係不置可否。80Please respect copyright.PENANACUXiNrhMe0
好似我同佢之間有個共識,覺得我哋嘅關係,與其講清講楚,不如由得佢撲朔迷離仲好。80Please respect copyright.PENANAw71GHiYAh5
成日都覺得,楊悅盈喺我心入面係一個好細嘅傷口,唔會殺得死我,淨係會間唔中隱隱作痛;每次就嚟結焦嗰陣,自己又會犯賤搣返開佢。80Please respect copyright.PENANAMf3H5rgKgC
連疤痕都算不上,只係個永遠唔會好返嘅傷口……80Please respect copyright.PENANAuhpUX7fhcg
——做乜鳩忽然間諗咁多嘢?80Please respect copyright.PENANA8e2cZQrGWZ
我苦笑住擺返低個電話。80Please respect copyright.PENANA9Wu4FlbcDL
自從何晞媛呢條仆街同我提過乜嘢係「聖誕綜合症」之後,每年呢個節日……唔係,每年年尾,我都會有呢種心神恍惚嘅感覺。80Please respect copyright.PENANAPa1QGwbH3a
好似潘朵拉的盒子咁。
打開嘅人明明係何晞媛,但係瀨嘢嗰個係我。
仆街……80Please respect copyright.PENANAkX46vU34Ut
然後,部電話好似想嚇我一跳咁,忽然間響起。80Please respect copyright.PENANAReoJKSPHM9
楊悅盈80Please respect copyright.PENANAXlPNd60Cz5
來電80Please respect copyright.PENANApZ9bx2iC37
毫無先兆咁收到佢電話,我有啲不知所措。80Please respect copyright.PENANAQDg8UCRK3D
聽唔聽好?80Please respect copyright.PENANAWEzyJqCbjx
佢本身就唔係嗰種會主動Contact人嘅女仔,今日仲要係聖誕。80Please respect copyright.PENANANkWTmoEK06
係咪撳錯掣?80Please respect copyright.PENANAlMPYDugRtr
聽咗會好撚尷架喎?80Please respect copyright.PENANA4REvEEJMLO
萬一佢真係打俾我?80Please respect copyright.PENANAeHwHJ0rUNw
我Miss咗佢Call咪好柒?80Please respect copyright.PENANAAJHwmnlzpH
但係……佢連機都唔覆,會主動打俾人?80Please respect copyright.PENANAqqmn1PHrqL
「屌你老母……」我屌住老母壯膽,毅然決定撳掣接聽。80Please respect copyright.PENANA3rHI5qPQ2F
尷尬又好、柒又好,我唔想Miss咗呢個機會。80Please respect copyright.PENANA8Fp3QyLPfU
接通咗之後個畫面好黑,隱約見到楊悅盈個樣。我同佢大家都唔知講乜好,隔住個Mon互望咗一陣。80Please respect copyright.PENANAy0Zr5SfkOm
「楊悅盈……?」80Please respect copyright.PENANAP3UZnGJQ5a
講完之後心諗大鑊——應該會俾佢話我講廢話?80Please respect copyright.PENANAdT0FonL4uq
好在,楊悅盈無出聲屌鳩,淨係繼續粒聲唔出,瞇起眼睥住我……搞到我有啲緊張。80Please respect copyright.PENANAFYbhi4ETo1
「好耐無見……」情急之下,只能夠再講一句廢話打破沉默……80Please respect copyright.PENANAXnowCZh88b
「有幾耐?半年咋嘛。」楊悅盈終於開聲。80Please respect copyright.PENANACVMC2JbxsN
我扮晒不經意咁望住個Mon,其實好努力咁嘗試緊喺嗰一片漆黑入面,搵少少線索出嚟,想知道楊悅盈喺邊度。80Please respect copyright.PENANA6dPECl5pXg
利申,呢個時間、呢個日子可以見到佢,我其實好驚喜——好想即刻出街、甚至乎直接穿過個電話Mon去佢身邊。80Please respect copyright.PENANArCcVXnTJyN
「無出去玩?」80Please respect copyright.PENANATAidV8xikJ
聽到呢個問題,我忍唔住笑咗一笑,因為——80Please respect copyright.PENANAWnnXuBotWy
「如果係我問嘅話,你一定會話……」我壓低把聲,專登扮佢嗰種死老豆Tone:「『廢話,睇都睇到我喺屋企啦』。」80Please respect copyright.PENANAJcqsnkQe2g
「你唔好去死?」楊悅盈有啲兇狠咁屌咗我一句。80Please respect copyright.PENANAAY0VVsq8Gn
雖然一閃即逝,但係我發誓——佢啱啱笑咗一下。80Please respect copyright.PENANAYqe4cS8TfF
心情放鬆咗少少,我攤返落床度。80Please respect copyright.PENANAjtZ9eE6jpG
「平安夜仲出去玩……未逼過咩……不過家姐約咗啲人返嚟玩。」80Please respect copyright.PENANAymFZGbb3Ie
我好耐都未試過咁近距離望住佢。
畢咗業五年,楊悅盈依然好似無長大過咁,同我記憶入面嗰個大風少少都吹得走嘅中學生,無乜太大分別。80Please respect copyright.PENANA7xYMGtFfcD
「你出咗街?邊度嚟?」80Please respect copyright.PENANAhvd5fcoV4X
電話Mon畫面,由楊悅盈大頭,變咗做一條陰暗、完全無辨識度嘅後巷。80Please respect copyright.PENANAJydeDoVwBz
「某條後巷。」80Please respect copyright.PENANABVwzGMMTAk
我冷笑一聲,睇死佢係因為怕人多,先搵個咁嘅地方匿埋。80Please respect copyright.PENANAYmPCg876HE
快手Cap低咗個畫面。80Please respect copyright.PENANAFfSsPnDFjm
明知無可能憑張咁嘅圖搵到佢喺邊。80Please respect copyright.PENANAYZcAuIquFs
純粹係留個希望。80Please respect copyright.PENANA3GETDxAN6q
可能你會話:「直接問佢咪得囉,柒頭!」80Please respect copyright.PENANAH4imLrj97u
你啱。
不過我係雙子座。
無論啲嘢幾想講出口都好,未篤中個Keyword,我都只會將所有嘢吞返落肚。80Please respect copyright.PENANA013QaqqpF4
「你最近點?」所以我唯有繼續用啲無營養嘅廢話,延長呢段對話。80Please respect copyright.PENANArznAllYhPA
楊悅盈聽到之後呆咗。80Please respect copyright.PENANAvfCPsms3jJ
好似我問咗個世紀大難題咁。80Please respect copyright.PENANAqjsnR1OVhi
隔咗一陣,先至含糊其辭咁搖搖頭。80Please respect copyright.PENANAqbjkFCwCCV
「你記唔記得乜嘢係『聖誕綜合症』?」80Please respect copyright.PENANAb7BdqMBfkV
我微笑住點點頭——呢樣我當然記得。80Please respect copyright.PENANAO2S2Cekzpx
我唔記得咗嘅係……楊悅盈同我一樣都係雙子座,而我Feel到自己都未篤中佢嘅Keyword。80Please respect copyright.PENANAgZZZPrLgug
「記得,你病發呀?」80Please respect copyright.PENANAsGL4wgIayd
「關你撚事?」佢衝口而出大聲講咗一句。80Please respect copyright.PENANAu3sgJ1RuIk
一瞬間,終於搵返以前同佢相處嗰陣,唔使顧慮咁多嘅感覺。80Please respect copyright.PENANAEjHIJ32BMf
雖然隔住個Mon,現實中亦都唔知相隔咗幾多公里。80Please respect copyright.PENANA6FZAHoNeH1
但係我居然見到呢個罕見過世界奇觀嘅景象——楊悅盈真心對住我笑。80Please respect copyright.PENANAEJkYNkRRs7