在冬天里全身上下的伤口都得以藏匿在厚实的衣物下,这也是谭昕薇喜欢冬天的主要原因。
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不过,陆辰并不喜欢,他很畏寒,说冬天的白天很短暂,冬夜也总是很漫长,把人困在灰蒙蒙的季节里,很容易失去活力,觉得世界都变得冷漠了。
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“世界原本就是冷漠的啊。”
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她下意识想将这句话说出口,但不知为何每当对上陆辰那双小鹿般的眼睛时,她突然就说不出口了。
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他和自己不一样,他有向往这个世界的希望,他永远都是那么善良又美好,看向世界的眼神总是不失光明。
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她敢肯定,陆辰一直都会是温柔且善良的人。尽管见证了世界的丑陋,尽管受过伤,有他在的世界,不会是晦暗无光。
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她很羡慕,因为她做不到。怎么渴望也好,怎么努力也好,也做不到。
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也许,她是该接受自己的本性了。除了自己以外,没人知道的事实。
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学校放寒假了,谭昕薇换了新发型,当她顶着一头狼尾短发去见陆辰时,迎来了他满脸惊喜的表情。357Please respect copyright.PENANA0BqwwgRP06
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“怎么了?不好看?” 话是这么说,但她还是很有信心,“不好看也不能嫌弃我。”
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“哪会。”陆辰拉她进屋,端详她的新发型,想上手摸又怕弄乱,眼角微弯,笑道:“昕薇,你真的好好看。”
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少女注视着那双总是让自己动摇的眼睛,恍惚觉得屋里的光线亮了几分,情绪上产生了不明的变动,她揽过少年的腰,大拇指轻轻来回摩挲着碍眼的布料。
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“星星,叫声姐姐好吗。”
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是普普通通的语气,但陆辰知道眼前人是在撒娇,他一向很惯着她,她想要什么自己都会尽力满足,便放软语气,回抱住她,叫了一身“姐姐”。
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阳光的到来必定有阴影的跟随,在享受了阳光的温暖后,随之而来的便是突然间的阴暗。
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谭昕薇觉得自己快疯了,在如此温馨的时刻情绪也能失控。
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她急需要什么东西来接住坠落的自己,或许是镇定药物,或许是一些令人心安的承诺。
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“陆辰,以后......” 她不知为什么自己要强调这些,但此时此刻的她很需要这些在别人眼中看似无用的话语,“我是说,以后,以后你也会继续喜欢我,对吗?”
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她望进陆辰的目光越来越深,却不是深情,单单只是深深的固执,深深缠住对方的固执,一不小心就会将人绊倒。
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会的吧。你一定会这样说。
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“会的。我会一直喜欢你,每时每刻。” 陆辰的坚定抚平了她的层层褶皱,坚定不移的目光托着她起伏不定的心,慢慢将其归回原位。
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两人到街边的一间面馆解决了午餐,谭昕薇临时起意要带陆辰去游乐园约会,陆辰自然是高兴答应了。
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然而,在走出面馆的瞬间她就有些后悔了。头顶上的阳光不知何时变得那么刺眼,路边的人多了起来,心中蒸起一阵烦躁,太阳穴一阵阵钝痛,她不想暴露在阳光里,只想回到那个小小的卧室荒废整天。
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可是,她不想扫兴,说好了要去约会的。
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他们一起吃冰淇淋,一起玩了游乐设施,还看了一场小三和正宫互殴的闹剧。
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回到家后,谭昕薇强忍着的不适愈发严重,陆辰玩得心满意足,完全没发觉到她的不对劲。
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陆辰手里捧着花束,目光再次从玫瑰花和满天星上浅浅划过,小心地将其放好,“好可惜啊,店员说三天左右花就会枯了。”
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“但在我记忆里,它们一直都是最初的模样。这样就足够了,你说对吧?”
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“姐姐?” 他把脸转向她,见她略带疲惫的面色就说:“你睡会吧,我来做饭。”
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“好......” 她的声音含混,脑袋还在昏沉沉的发胀,倒在陆辰的床上很快就进入睡眠。
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陆辰叫醒她的时候,她忽然浑身一震,猛地惊醒过来。
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他也被吓了一跳,两人惊魂未定地相望了一会,他率先打破宁静,“做噩梦了吗?抱抱?”
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少年的怀抱像是一阵清风,吹走了少女内心的纷乱。
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“我没事了,吃饭吧。” 她笑了笑。
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“你吃好少。” 陆辰抚过眼前人的脸颊,有些担心地说。
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“冰淇淋吃多了,嘴里到现在还有些发腻。” 谭昕薇咳了咳,拳头抵在嘴前,“帮我买瓶柠檬茶吧。”
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他又看了她一眼,拿了钱出门买水去了。回来的时候他正好听见从卫生间里传来短促的呻吟,还有谭昕薇哑着嗓子的咳嗽声,接着是马桶冲水的声响。
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他心中一凛,快步走向前推开卫生间门。
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他在镜子中看见那双眼尾通红的眼睛,眉头一拧,“你怎么了?”
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谭昕薇有些心虚,眼光闪烁,走出卫生间扯出桌上的纸巾擦脸,没去看陆辰,“我都说了冰淇淋吃多了......”
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“昕薇,” 陆辰温和的声音压着严肃和不快,“我有那么好骗吗?”
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“你到底怎么了?有什么不能和我说的吗?”
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谭昕薇没回话,自顾自地坐到沙发上,选择沉默和他对峙。
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见她没反应,陆辰先是放软态度,坐在她身边,握住她的手,“和我说好吗?”
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她淡淡望了身边人一眼,还是不说话。
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一股无力从骨头里膨胀起来,他咬着下唇,不知该拿她怎么办。
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她很爱装,也很怕孤独。从第一次见面那刻,他就感知到了。
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六七岁的女孩独自一人坐在一边,面朝向游乐园的旋转木马,注视欢声笑语的人们,眼中满是困意却还是要装作很精神的样子,后背始终不靠在椅背上,倔强挺直后背,眼神始终追随着幸福的人们。
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她比谁都渴望幸福,所以比任何人还要珍惜他,但为什么......
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为什么在他这里,她紧闭的心门已经开锁了却还不要再敞开一点点,开出一个适当的距离让他进去。
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他要的,从来不是她的全部,他只不过只想看清那把通往她内心世界的钥匙罢了。
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这份寂静持续了几秒,陆辰突然伸手去夺她兜里的小盒子,里面的药片跟着发出几分声响,空气似乎凝结了。
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“我都知道。但你不想让我知道,我就不说。”
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“你的副作用已经很明显了,还严重影响到生活,你为什么还要继续吃?” 他没法再维持表面上的平静,不自觉提高声量质问眼前人。
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“说话。”
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谭昕薇双唇抿成一线,撇开头,余光还是瞥见陆辰攥着盒子的手在微微发抖。
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“你不说是吗?” 他停顿了一下,手垂在身侧,哽咽吐了两个字,“够了......”
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“星星,我错了。” 看到他这个模样,她不忍又头疼,用掌心按压头的两侧,抬头要抱他。
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然而,陆辰躲开了。
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她一愣,愣了很久,双手就这样悬在半空中,直到陆辰进到房间不想与她沟通,直到不再能在空中闻到他的气息。
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不知在苦涩和心痛中来回游离了多久,疼痛和难受不断地翻腾,随之而来的满腔愤怒让她抑制不住想要呐喊,混杂零乱的情绪填满了她这具空壳子。
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“啪嚓——”
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桌上的玻璃杯被她一手挥到地面上。
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陆辰闻声走了出来,望着一地的玻璃目瞪口呆。
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他犹豫着向前,却被人推到沙发上,眼前人倾身压在他的上方,双眼涨起血红色,如同离开水面的鱼大口大口呼吸着,神情是他未见过的愤懑,眼里的是他承受不住的涛涛恨意。
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那些被深藏在身体很深处的丑陋无所遁形,谭昕薇第一次以这副最接近真实的模样面对陆辰,对上他惊恐的目光,突然就笑了起来,笑声又被截断在喉咙里。
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“够了?我才应该讲够了!你以为我很想要吃药吗?我比谁都讨厌吃,但又比谁都痛苦!我能怎样做?我只能吃!”
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她低下身子,攒住陆辰的衣领,狰狞地朝他吼道:“我不死心!你不懂,每次体内的病魔苏醒时,我几乎是百战百败。就算再怎么不舒服我都逼自己吞下那些药,因为我不想承认自己好不起来!”
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“我能怎样......我只想好起来。” 她松开衣领上的手,视线由于过于激动而有些模糊,她可能落泪了吧,因为她看见陆辰衣服上的水痕。
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“滴答”的一声,雨滴逐渐密集起来,天空下起雨了。
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她很想冲进雨里冷静,她背着沙发上的人,刚想离开就被人拉住衣袖。
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她的男孩泪流满面,止不住的泪水啪嗒啪嗒流下,砸得她心脏一阵阵刺痛。
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她从没这么疼过。本以为自己早就习惯疼痛,痛感一点点变成麻木,可是在看到陆辰对着她伤心流泪时,她却疼得像是肉体被撕裂一般,很缓慢的,但比什么攻击都来得更痛。
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陆辰抽噎着,用哭得干哑的嗓子努力说道:“不要折磨自己了好不好。”
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他紧紧抓住谭昕薇的手,不放她走,靠蛮力把人抱住,用她的肩膀接住还在涌出的眼泪。
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“我其实想要的并不是你赶快痊愈,我想要的只是希望你不要放弃自己,不要放开我的手。”
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“我有在努力,但我发现我所谓的努力,都是徒劳无功。”她一下下抚摸着怀里人顺滑的头发,声音很轻地说着,很轻易就被雨声打散。
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“不,不会的。”陆辰倏然抬头看向她,充满血丝的眼眸晃着惶恐,“我可以陪你,我一直都会在。”
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谭昕薇嘴角一抽,默默轻拍眼前人的后背,一下又一下,让陆辰恍然间觉得她是在告别,却又不舍得再躲开。
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他不想再拒绝谭昕薇给予自己的一切了。无论是好或坏,他都愿意接纳。
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但是接下来她所说的话,让陆辰再次意识到,他并没有自己想象中的还要理解眼前人。
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“你太看得起自己了,陆辰。”
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“你救不了我。”
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在响亮的雨声中,缓缓呼出的呼吸声是多么的沉重,五官感知被雨声反反复复屏蔽住,只感觉到心脏在一点一点碎裂,碎成很多块。
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他该如何告诉眼前人,恋爱不是这样谈的。
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