White sheets stained red in a hotel bed529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡemctJgvKrv
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxmZdOu5f01
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8lvPtDdSxH
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs3JbAbWR7o
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtncU7p5JaA
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsU49zOe9Ol
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡerLCS8Deuq
Vivid visions invading my rest 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡySKjQvqc7w
I can't sleep because all I see is death529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡATFv6yVXL0
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHAZVsUtrNs
Thinking about death at such an early age529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV59bGGMCVe
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsMqOF5eTNJ
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl90tMZ9QJ0
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKwJJrvfpQ
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn8xUH31FHu
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡelI6dHoK7C
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9VCuy4KEiG
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRUu4D59P4T
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgF5XXM838G
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFv1zHGHORe
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPyWDzYO6bM
Nobody actually cares until you're dead529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGDFJ39gn43
Until you're another headline in the news529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT9yXRCnX2x
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ9CJoPOPcm
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvTdf8ElbY1
"I miss you today" 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUKu7uHbgzs
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaGudXQJitg
But they care now, 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFUEIoyRB5o
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzcpHC3d65c
Mixed signals is all they send529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJnNrZwdYEt
One day I matter to them 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjPBznW9Tzg
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB3TKD6ts2q
A few months ago, I felt like flying 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2MbqcUXZCN
A few months ago, I truly felt alive529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGuPu0ArXrB
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuB6JYp8Kem
It's hard to explain with words,529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqWUhQ9AB6R
How the silence kills 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQGqfOjqSIg
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5uLCAVfVCR
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgqwzsO8LHe
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg13wqJC35v
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPa3rwVvZzN
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbhBO1VtHtA
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3m7mMnYTtX
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ013Um7Gwis
The little voice in my head, it screams it529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡesBtTlieWu
"This was their choice"529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxaC4ngpesq
And to be lonely all the time is mine529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoWZQEWnC6D
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1IDHAod3IL
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd2zZ67r8n6
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzo5BU1UmdS
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUDD0i62H7v
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwbHNO7Axyj
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrIXJxQNJCH
I wish somebody would call529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtkGhrHRZls
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG0Wg5453JB
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOsBtwv32K5
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyaP0bDjY3m
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0iFhG9wPXN
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7oJ1Tvabp
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjwmVrWZKwN
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
and then Add to home screen.