White sheets stained red in a hotel bed77Please respect copyright.PENANAKdbrmjSv6D
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone77Please respect copyright.PENANAn49ECJ9fEb
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing77Please respect copyright.PENANAXnoQ7xR92Q
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping77Please respect copyright.PENANA6dByA90quq
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 77Please respect copyright.PENANAvfezCs3HVI
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 77Please respect copyright.PENANAXWSB0t8c0M
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head77Please respect copyright.PENANAEpZAihzE3a
Vivid visions invading my rest 77Please respect copyright.PENANACncDUgiaUb
I can't sleep because all I see is death77Please respect copyright.PENANAJjzNnBeP5w
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 77Please respect copyright.PENANAR4tfR9k6Hd
Thinking about death at such an early age77Please respect copyright.PENANA4V0pqmZSRQ
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 77Please respect copyright.PENANAJ5agxjDVcD
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest77Please respect copyright.PENANAetcxHMT7Ju
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 77Please respect copyright.PENANAAwi7XlAMyO
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end77Please respect copyright.PENANA7jQWVdttsi
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again77Please respect copyright.PENANA87N0DGjatw
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying77Please respect copyright.PENANA7wnwo6yTtT
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries77Please respect copyright.PENANARsHmbsgb4V
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"77Please respect copyright.PENANADQNABjDeRu
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 77Please respect copyright.PENANA8p0gBthK2O
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends77Please respect copyright.PENANAMxiT2EwIAA
Nobody actually cares until you're dead77Please respect copyright.PENANAoujhZps3uM
Until you're another headline in the news77Please respect copyright.PENANAWBJO1BTJie
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 77Please respect copyright.PENANAWYIdnjJWTg
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 77Please respect copyright.PENANAONr1Q8twG0
"I miss you today" 77Please respect copyright.PENANAMB1cxiASN3
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around77Please respect copyright.PENANAMJPDBxtlyl
But they care now, 77Please respect copyright.PENANAeGpMtOqkSw
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 77Please respect copyright.PENANAfYJEZesU09
Mixed signals is all they send77Please respect copyright.PENANApdmTzYP2DZ
One day I matter to them 77Please respect copyright.PENANACBva7dCO22
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine77Please respect copyright.PENANAK73Bpx03xk
A few months ago, I felt like flying 77Please respect copyright.PENANAKSvdbNTpPX
A few months ago, I truly felt alive77Please respect copyright.PENANA8szW5GOs8d
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 77Please respect copyright.PENANAz2G9VMQhyG
It's hard to explain with words,77Please respect copyright.PENANAyidhRqcFne
How the silence kills 77Please respect copyright.PENANAY4KvhtT2LS
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 77Please respect copyright.PENANA9WBhDoLu5j
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 77Please respect copyright.PENANAlmFvgsEApN
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 77Please respect copyright.PENANA7rBy5RdodF
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow77Please respect copyright.PENANA6QEECWmF0n
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 77Please respect copyright.PENANAAB3c4DUIU3
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 77Please respect copyright.PENANAyCQ7WfD2ru
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it77Please respect copyright.PENANAKKqMmu3hHF
The little voice in my head, it screams it77Please respect copyright.PENANA9g3GceFd9y
"This was their choice"77Please respect copyright.PENANA7XNJRsrkAX
And to be lonely all the time is mine77Please respect copyright.PENANAD19umTFDAN
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly77Please respect copyright.PENANAo5n1gmvVuX
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains77Please respect copyright.PENANA2Xf70vdObG
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned77Please respect copyright.PENANA2VdykJFgoR
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 77Please respect copyright.PENANAc4TuU9TDf6
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 77Please respect copyright.PENANAB1MI9LvcHI
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying77Please respect copyright.PENANAUhtCYqnkAO
I wish somebody would call77Please respect copyright.PENANAMvfC9Q2fHF
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 77Please respect copyright.PENANAyg4BphyoXg
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 77Please respect copyright.PENANAflIhZ27cUY
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden77Please respect copyright.PENANAgx0ZH5uLrH
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 77Please respect copyright.PENANAJyx6Tkqp4M
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 77Please respect copyright.PENANAEB1EGkXcjf
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 77Please respect copyright.PENANAgaF5MaY8do
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried