White sheets stained red in a hotel bed569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkRrgjfzvNJ
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM2C9OJYhVt
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1tZusc5dS6
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzxrBNCtMOs
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrqQ5D8k3xE
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSuWsJS4v2g
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHAk8H8UNSl
Vivid visions invading my rest 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnsVTKzCDGt
I can't sleep because all I see is death569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnh7V20NUco
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4eGFBv90uu
Thinking about death at such an early age569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2D4E7kbCxc
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyP2XWqWmVs
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrn9HI38L3c
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCtgnduBmm1
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPqjnCVEeyK
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfcnVebA6gv
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo7GuVfsOhh
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLMio0aggh
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7BbLCCwrMN
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAhI0q7swR4
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0lsPHPgjgh
Nobody actually cares until you're dead569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0OM6xB3psl
Until you're another headline in the news569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrPxuB6tclC
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMfOTXcHutc
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlmT4hOnYSo
"I miss you today" 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrjYthNA8S9
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr7RkmauB1D
But they care now, 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ11ZpQzOl55
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE1zL59jcZd
Mixed signals is all they send569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBx1V9roQ2E
One day I matter to them 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQhSXzleush
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN1Ab4ycMIC
A few months ago, I felt like flying 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgLlJngKwuy
A few months ago, I truly felt alive569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw7mnGbUqQh
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6pmy8ZsCys
It's hard to explain with words,569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0QYuPU9GVD
How the silence kills 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY1rt1HI5P4
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG6le1K8zaf
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6MDqfbiVeN
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡygQ4DAzyId
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDOnIIQZxB8
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjfTKqW7dUn
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAo8rDcfm2Q
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZeFDTPHWV8
The little voice in my head, it screams it569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX9ty0rXoxa
"This was their choice"569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtxxZV3rUzs
And to be lonely all the time is mine569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIjICpluiap
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡarszvjGqst
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuuX9cZGhR5
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmm0s8NUkgS
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuVQZaKZHXc
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡedOACzdkvs
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxt8fjMt4zj
I wish somebody would call569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWlZgvVuvhU
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiGJz5BFgwX
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ29bWgkHEN
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQjZQkt2c28
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkkCJmvfK21
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK2mw8ff9Oy
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa1iwWTPrcG
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
and then Add to home screen.