I wish I could understand why I feel this way280Please respect copyright.PENANAweMGYD1OCC
Why flying doesn't feel the same 280Please respect copyright.PENANAaLLIjFoox2
And the lows don't seem to fade280Please respect copyright.PENANA0apizwkJFI
They just linger and remain
I find myself trapped with no incentive to fix it, to rewrite the narrative 280Please respect copyright.PENANAszC580Gfxa
Instead my mind picks it apart, going straight for the heart280Please respect copyright.PENANAykNl3uCBTz
I gotta give it to them, they play it pretty smart
I wish I could tell you everything that makes me hurt 280Please respect copyright.PENANAg56kpsnjBi
I wish I could convert it into something better, avert from the inevitable 280Please respect copyright.PENANAAEQIfRl6tR
I'll convert this pain into something that works 280Please respect copyright.PENANAPcmLzYSLi9
Something that works to be charitable to my health, make my pain more revocable and severable 280Please respect copyright.PENANAEuNxj1kVLs
Because after several years of being rendered inseparable from this feeling 280Please respect copyright.PENANAjVawDKcQ7G
I finally feel like I'm worth freeing 280Please respect copyright.PENANAUUmALS95mL
That this pain made me bleed, but it can't keep me280Please respect copyright.PENANApD0NGBdhxh
I'm finally fleeing
But my superficial confidence is fleeting as my heart slows its beating 280Please respect copyright.PENANArrRI6qzSVS
The breathing turns to drowning 280Please respect copyright.PENANAdqHEpuW5Lw
The seconds I'm counting, turns to shouting 280Please respect copyright.PENANAhHShmNvEnG
I'm pounding on the walls, sounding my alarms280Please respect copyright.PENANAzX8Jlhd2Tb
But no one welcomes me with open arms280Please respect copyright.PENANAnrgJdGguwZ
Their love is fictitious 280Please respect copyright.PENANAkB0b0XamCn
So thus, restarts the vicious cycle280Please respect copyright.PENANAymWv49jxYN
I try to focus on my survival, but I never see its arrival 280Please respect copyright.PENANAbBy7Kz00CM
So I lay here, my body limp and my heart slowing 280Please respect copyright.PENANAsmQXfN5GKz
The deprival of blood, of color, of feeling 280Please respect copyright.PENANAcVsLDbdRO6
My life is fleeting, like the confidcence I once had 280Please respect copyright.PENANAK5dalKH673
I never meet my revival
But no one understands, no one offers a hand 280Please respect copyright.PENANAuHSi7rBxIY
I try to stand, my lungs expand, only to to be stuck in secondhand smoke280Please respect copyright.PENANA2olm16BdDx
My voice broke as the smoke filled my lungs and covered my eyes like some sort of cloak 280Please respect copyright.PENANAFnVLA9zReO
I tried to yell, to call out for help, but all I did was choke
Falling on my knees, right back to the ground, I look around 280Please respect copyright.PENANA4mBpNZ6Efg
Listening to the elaborate planning of everything demanding a change 280Please respect copyright.PENANApqWR639jfp
They get their way, nothing remains the same280Please respect copyright.PENANAIngF1na0kq
All I feel is shame as I call out every name, hoping for someone to see everything slipping away 280Please respect copyright.PENANADbEL7Yw77g
But no one comes my way, I'm disregarded and pushed away 280Please respect copyright.PENANAeOSyqVVzK3
I guess no one wanted me around anyway
I give in to the deadly game, as if I was ever given a choice 280Please respect copyright.PENANAkllfiTn81S
But maybe my only claim to fame would be that I'm pretty damn good at playing this game 280Please respect copyright.PENANAMHFOiBlrIZ
Even if it feels like I'm locked in a cage280Please respect copyright.PENANABJ6Fc4Ovfk
The game of push and pull with the demons in my mind280Please respect copyright.PENANA0Ljwihu7Kb
Darkness covering my eyes, I'm blind 280Please respect copyright.PENANAA2cL6ZEGuN
But full of myself and always on time 280Please respect copyright.PENANAItpftfujUj
I admit that the crime is mine 280Please respect copyright.PENANAlS1YJtnNyi
Now I'll serve my time
I thought, maybe if I quit it280Please respect copyright.PENANAzBvGmgLJz7
The devil will lose his incentive 280Please respect copyright.PENANAhbiNl6rmr1
The weak little girl, poisoned 280Please respect copyright.PENANAJ60O9M6Uq7
Too bad for his game of tainting the good
But even then he just pulled down my walls 280Please respect copyright.PENANArkFTMt3cLj
Brick by brick 280Please respect copyright.PENANArtSkCiQO1g
And now I'm back in this smoky pit, the light drained from it 280Please respect copyright.PENANAzkDFfJICXj
Smoke filling my lungs and ripping the sight from my eyes 280Please respect copyright.PENANA6I8vwHIfL4
Once again, I'm blind
Even when I believe it's over280Please respect copyright.PENANAHnzBzzta7X
That the thunder has passed me by, the storm subsiding 280Please respect copyright.PENANAP183sW8iYJ
It's still right there 280Please respect copyright.PENANAgZA6YraTmu
The devil on my shoulder