I wish I could understand why I feel this way282Please respect copyright.PENANAh6XJwiY60d
Why flying doesn't feel the same 282Please respect copyright.PENANAcNPsETe8FL
And the lows don't seem to fade282Please respect copyright.PENANAHpBBTc74Ft
They just linger and remain
I find myself trapped with no incentive to fix it, to rewrite the narrative 282Please respect copyright.PENANAbRCrqiIw7l
Instead my mind picks it apart, going straight for the heart282Please respect copyright.PENANAqeE0M15Z81
I gotta give it to them, they play it pretty smart
I wish I could tell you everything that makes me hurt 282Please respect copyright.PENANARHoRTfFCmJ
I wish I could convert it into something better, avert from the inevitable 282Please respect copyright.PENANAvratk8REVh
I'll convert this pain into something that works 282Please respect copyright.PENANAgjpjwYRhPy
Something that works to be charitable to my health, make my pain more revocable and severable 282Please respect copyright.PENANA0eBvnEOf9U
Because after several years of being rendered inseparable from this feeling 282Please respect copyright.PENANAxne6xQLnNk
I finally feel like I'm worth freeing 282Please respect copyright.PENANA8k3w2S1xru
That this pain made me bleed, but it can't keep me282Please respect copyright.PENANA11QW2jGIhF
I'm finally fleeing
But my superficial confidence is fleeting as my heart slows its beating 282Please respect copyright.PENANARDLbg11tz4
The breathing turns to drowning 282Please respect copyright.PENANAo44KlRSJyQ
The seconds I'm counting, turns to shouting 282Please respect copyright.PENANAcyty2M6YD6
I'm pounding on the walls, sounding my alarms282Please respect copyright.PENANAf4tOom3bwn
But no one welcomes me with open arms282Please respect copyright.PENANAHRJKQ9sGEc
Their love is fictitious 282Please respect copyright.PENANAfSCIr9DXmX
So thus, restarts the vicious cycle282Please respect copyright.PENANAeZxJIYBuWS
I try to focus on my survival, but I never see its arrival 282Please respect copyright.PENANA6PCIykcyIX
So I lay here, my body limp and my heart slowing 282Please respect copyright.PENANAs62khOvth7
The deprival of blood, of color, of feeling 282Please respect copyright.PENANAZehY41GVBY
My life is fleeting, like the confidcence I once had 282Please respect copyright.PENANA94OZ1ZiAFK
I never meet my revival
But no one understands, no one offers a hand 282Please respect copyright.PENANAy8rCzTVR8u
I try to stand, my lungs expand, only to to be stuck in secondhand smoke282Please respect copyright.PENANAIl58SKWjpn
My voice broke as the smoke filled my lungs and covered my eyes like some sort of cloak 282Please respect copyright.PENANAhz55bcQPyd
I tried to yell, to call out for help, but all I did was choke
Falling on my knees, right back to the ground, I look around 282Please respect copyright.PENANA0zGT2fITmq
Listening to the elaborate planning of everything demanding a change 282Please respect copyright.PENANAbNXPj93aDL
They get their way, nothing remains the same282Please respect copyright.PENANA0lLQEx4zbd
All I feel is shame as I call out every name, hoping for someone to see everything slipping away 282Please respect copyright.PENANAA6lhAnyRFg
But no one comes my way, I'm disregarded and pushed away 282Please respect copyright.PENANA87HnG3zjXg
I guess no one wanted me around anyway
I give in to the deadly game, as if I was ever given a choice 282Please respect copyright.PENANAsoj9Kok5ak
But maybe my only claim to fame would be that I'm pretty damn good at playing this game 282Please respect copyright.PENANApTZfydEIql
Even if it feels like I'm locked in a cage282Please respect copyright.PENANAvTXbQxZvqh
The game of push and pull with the demons in my mind282Please respect copyright.PENANAAbY2QzP1yz
Darkness covering my eyes, I'm blind 282Please respect copyright.PENANA9lv5SViAjl
But full of myself and always on time 282Please respect copyright.PENANArdGVswUlta
I admit that the crime is mine 282Please respect copyright.PENANALeQHjpycaD
Now I'll serve my time
I thought, maybe if I quit it282Please respect copyright.PENANApHS3ADOIWh
The devil will lose his incentive 282Please respect copyright.PENANAWgB1IAwICn
The weak little girl, poisoned 282Please respect copyright.PENANAq8ypJBoCYj
Too bad for his game of tainting the good
But even then he just pulled down my walls 282Please respect copyright.PENANAiU2JLchpTt
Brick by brick 282Please respect copyright.PENANA5ZI6oHmo9v
And now I'm back in this smoky pit, the light drained from it 282Please respect copyright.PENANAQ2V1tCIyAX
Smoke filling my lungs and ripping the sight from my eyes 282Please respect copyright.PENANADRlpqLtmFt
Once again, I'm blind
Even when I believe it's over282Please respect copyright.PENANAp144JqsHDI
That the thunder has passed me by, the storm subsiding 282Please respect copyright.PENANAM3fiW7dxyy
It's still right there 282Please respect copyright.PENANAfBhpJIwmWT
The devil on my shoulder