“You don’t understand a thing about me. I have a part time job. I am going to be late for it, and I have to handle customers who would say lychee boba a bit too many times.”
“it s so sad u have to worry so much over something so small all the time. Darcy said. It almost make me tear up.” Darcy said.
“And there’s my family. My mom mom keeps complaining there is not enough food. and dad says it's good enough.”
“We could be like that too, and order only one meal per two of us. Look at how low maintenance you are.”
“Why are you like this? Why are you so kind to me? Do you realise this is so stupid?” I cried out.
"I like you" Darcy said, almost like stating the sky is blue.
My body moved in response. I slapped him.
"Are you shameless? to keep saying you like me? Do you know about me? I get so horny and angry when I menstruate! What are you saying that you like me? What do you like about me? I am embarrassed for you! and I almost want to implode with tears." Darcy shook and hugged me.
“I like that you know calculus, spoke cantonese with a funny indian accent and english with phillipino accent, can tell the difference between boba and jelly pearls, and above all i like you for being so unforgivingly yourself.”
That tenderness. That feeling. From his offering to accept me, whole. My heart skipped a beat. my body was honest. but my mouth wouldn't admit that my body, heart and mind were falling for Darcy. He told me he 's in love with me. and I don't know whether to believe him anymore. a lie told a million times is truth. everyone knows that. DId he truly love me? but I knew he had moved me, irrevocably, and something inside me had softened and changed, and accepted his noises, foolishness, roughness and stupidity.
“I don't know what to say. I can't say I am in love with you now. Sorry.” love was such a small thing. and worth so little.
“Please. Thank you.” Darcy said, dejected. “Can we go eat even after rejection? i miss, miss, miss you. Even when i am with you.”
“I don't know. I need some time alone.”
“I am really a catch, i do housework, cook, and buy m pad. I am not as rich as li ka shing, but I can afford a ok comfortable lifestyle for you, and go on holiday with you twice a year. You have all my painful attention and fantasy. I love every little bit of you unconditionally. forever. until eternity. till death do us apart.”
I started crying uncontrollably.
“You are logically invalid I know. But I can mend every bit of vacuum in your brain space. If you let me. You are the most blessed stain on my musical score. The most lucky imperfection in my life.” Darcy said.
“I don’t think I could that much right now. I have so much going on. Grades, part time jobs. I know nothing about love, life, or living. My brain space can only handle eating and trying to lose my virgin status.” I shook my head, sobbing. “Too much emotional sensibility, and I will handle it as well as a tea spoon could.”
“I just wished I could give you a hug.”
“It might be too much for now. Sorry.” I said, and stepped away.
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