《楊穎姿散文日誌》 - 《關於我的一週年》

一年了，205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIFpffcVZmU
離開生活了二十多個年頭的地方，205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJ1ctCwGr9
移居到個從來都沒想過會居住的國家。205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ82kez69mIK
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有趣的是離開以前，205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ56ZDuOzWLV
最後一個到訪的國家亦是這裡，205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPejCKHE2Fa
當時還未想像到再次到訪會以這種方式。205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFfCCAQQ4Sx
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離開之前是想遠離那個只適合生存，205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpFuI71DnQn
不適合生活的地方。205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzbSKmrWAU0
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但離開以後，205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5TUHT58q9B
才發現一切仍然離不開那邊的人和事。205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhLBtXbE8pv
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有想念，會掛念。205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlfVy2NgP6Y
掛念朋友，掛念原本的生活。205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgNzyf3yEs3
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就算再努力嘗試適應，仍是會有點想念，205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡblJVA5VYSJ
會幻想沒有離開的話，自己會變得怎樣。205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi4vN5vE0XF
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「離開以後有變得更開心嗎？」205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXfK22QxzsK
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這是來到以後經常被問到的問題。205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfaCnozX7qo
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有⋯⋯吧？！應該有的吧。205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIHuYVub1U1
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至少⋯⋯距離使我跟厭惡的一切阻隔開，205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡug6mmVfKGC
不用經歷一出門口就大汗淋漓的夏天，205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGRwrvGC1NE
不用打開電視就聽到聽不進耳的新聞，205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZPjPqJwhk1
不用出門後就聽到卷舌音特別重的語言。205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2mIvL7ErjV
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那時每樣都足以令我想趕快逃離，205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfsZb3DnNlg
但當我真正離開以後，205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiIz8QdvnIE
又一直透過媒體去了解。205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNzltFcInS9
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只是作為離開了的人，205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZgScRTKbZT
對於留下來的人和地方，205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgM4JEpOZne
總會有種隔閡，205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXx2YmJfN9i
像一道無形的牆，一直看不清。205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqg2XIg7C4Q
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那邊還有人戴口罩出門嗎？205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjAxqvywDgn
帶來的都沒用過。205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnKpjz6GKqo
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那邊的天氣又很高了嗎？205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo8ZlmyMUwi
我都忘記大熱天是甚麼感覺了。205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMRbtqjVd3D
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那邊的那個地方那關店倒閉了嗎？205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6quRvVECei
好可惜喔，怎麼那麼突然？205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡabUJP3BFUU
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那邊新開了那間店呀？205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwPjceYpdIT
回去以後要嘗嘗嗎？205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbC5N9i9rf1
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那邊掛颱風了呀？205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlSCc41gZXe
我都忘記颱風是甚麼了。205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAWUI9WqQ5y
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這些都是我只能憑媒體，從影片中得知，205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoRJWh0cCCa
每次都會有種距離感，205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2pjXF9JG5M
因為我全都接觸不到。205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡahtRBi3HW4
繼續跟那地方談我最討厭的遠距離戀愛。205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN62ZPUwGve
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離開以後認識到新的朋友，205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLFySOapF6F
我還是會很驕傲地報上自己來自的地方。205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI4V2csfgXZ
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但後面總會多帶一句：205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCw5JjiJKA7
但那邊⋯⋯205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy8KA9tDLdX
變很不一樣了，跟我小時候不一樣了。205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCJx89DFlkI
你早幾年有留意到新聞嗎？205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFtTo8et0nx
嗯，一切都不一樣了。205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZPPhpkNZ5h
很多人都離開了，去了不同的地方，205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqKPITRUIpP
有些像我這樣沒用的人，205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqMePwGFWBe
還能隔幾年回去探訪。205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMm1roeKVuq
但有些人一輩子都回不去了，205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8DgZebXmeC
不是他們不想回去看看，205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpTDkWk0i9t
是他們再也沒辦法回去了。205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgR1NT7mx7z
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再回去之後心態大概都會變了吧，205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe2mtwrHXSr
我就只是個遊客，205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwIGxkj0Z3X
走馬看花般，老一輩般，205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtxWw7anDoQ
只看到這邊那邊的不同樣貌，205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqLMusyDXx0
內𥚃真正的核心價值改變了沒，205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH084tHhpz4
我卻無從得知。205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6N7xlHvMHj
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因為我就只是個過客，一切都跟我無關，205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxPTy6Vk9Od
最多也只是下一代出生後多教他種語言，205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhj3IATxFRN
但他的一切都會在這邊生根發芽，205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPGlPKTLoJG
這邊才會成為他的「故鄉」。205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZnwUveN0F
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到達了一年，205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtPANI9AKoy
這邊的風土人情大概都感受過了，205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKx9FAnWjy
抹去小時候那層美好的濾鏡，205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo6DTNQA3OQ
才真正體驗到生活與旅客的分別，205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj7883t8BYe
會因為電費跟物價的上漲而抱怨，205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwXJuudYeBu
因為在地人處事方式不同而抱怨，205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4b48S4Ppbt
會因為同種族的人做了傻事而感到羞恥。205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4dre5tOakG
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最可笑是，205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHNnrSHOzOV
即使在他鄉生活了一年，205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxCqOO9YF3P
我下意識都仍在以故鄉的思維去思考。205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd7KNxJTiIa
一切都跟原本的地方比較，205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZB9MUluxQE
到現在每看到一件事物，205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwI6UbVseN5
腦海還會自動把金額換成故鄉的貨幣。205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyVmd4AflYq
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原來想離開的我，一年以後還是離不開。205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOQBUuGBR9
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那就給自己點時間吧，205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6QE6fwbtjJ
明年今日再告訴自己吧。205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSODAYBKM0L
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離開了的人，你有變快樂嗎？205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO1b79pRwV7
留下來的人，你有變快樂嗎？205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5yS3Ger1aD
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我的一週年紀念快樂．嗎？205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZLzeMcAA5W
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楊穎姿 2023年夏205Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDPIhETAF1i