《楊穎姿散文日誌》 - 《關於我的一週年》

一年了，253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKc21LdbbSG
離開生活了二十多個年頭的地方，253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuI7XltaMKz
移居到個從來都沒想過會居住的國家。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ429IWXlUK8
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有趣的是離開以前，253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6bWkLMGyKM
最後一個到訪的國家亦是這裡，253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtBEBuL1BbW
當時還未想像到再次到訪會以這種方式。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ41qCYlGY47
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離開之前是想遠離那個只適合生存，253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO67cf7lwYY
不適合生活的地方。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLcgZYziXPu
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但離開以後，253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkwgBA1Gcya
才發現一切仍然離不開那邊的人和事。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIk8vFWfULm
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有想念，會掛念。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbzfPab8RtF
掛念朋友，掛念原本的生活。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe9l1aXU2kq
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就算再努力嘗試適應，仍是會有點想念，253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5MSoVgUTLQ
會幻想沒有離開的話，自己會變得怎樣。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdKqPYOcdKk
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「離開以後有變得更開心嗎？」253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9wJe147pHq
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這是來到以後經常被問到的問題。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc67hNvzWYq
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有⋯⋯吧？！應該有的吧。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWvD7XMjxcV
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至少⋯⋯距離使我跟厭惡的一切阻隔開，253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMLRAHCo6Na
不用經歷一出門口就大汗淋漓的夏天，253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ081YaTYWwl
不用打開電視就聽到聽不進耳的新聞，253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxLiUp5QaK6
不用出門後就聽到卷舌音特別重的語言。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8s0YXznJJ3
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那時每樣都足以令我想趕快逃離，253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1cCZGewO4b
但當我真正離開以後，253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgcGbdKZ5Me
又一直透過媒體去了解。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPOfc7diDdj
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只是作為離開了的人，253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQbB8oYCYVU
對於留下來的人和地方，253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP4NxL2B9E1
總會有種隔閡，253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSe0FEksZDj
像一道無形的牆，一直看不清。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNi25dCvo8F
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那邊還有人戴口罩出門嗎？253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSWHq2AXV72
帶來的都沒用過。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi9pqQb1IM6
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那邊的天氣又很高了嗎？253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlsylKJrgH0
我都忘記大熱天是甚麼感覺了。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDTyfrax7hX
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那邊的那個地方那關店倒閉了嗎？253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVJLS1b0EQi
好可惜喔，怎麼那麼突然？253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvSHaEG3X2G
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那邊新開了那間店呀？253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBWE6QBlhde
回去以後要嘗嘗嗎？253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwWswfW4MG6
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那邊掛颱風了呀？253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyeBkyjnnR5
我都忘記颱風是甚麼了。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLok4Vqs8i
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這些都是我只能憑媒體，從影片中得知，253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg73HtspWmf
每次都會有種距離感，253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi4VojkBgLp
因為我全都接觸不到。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNVANtP7XEA
繼續跟那地方談我最討厭的遠距離戀愛。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxd4uKj0jAP
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離開以後認識到新的朋友，253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1N2VXnTAxo
我還是會很驕傲地報上自己來自的地方。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdpT1B9rXMG
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但後面總會多帶一句：253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPcD05S67oD
但那邊⋯⋯253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgx4YVcD4zN
變很不一樣了，跟我小時候不一樣了。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhD503ong8H
你早幾年有留意到新聞嗎？253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfPzuraS30h
嗯，一切都不一樣了。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN0opQUWsEq
很多人都離開了，去了不同的地方，253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ00sjz5toNI
有些像我這樣沒用的人，253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6kxdifS9Qz
還能隔幾年回去探訪。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUAKerwXgmL
但有些人一輩子都回不去了，253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLHK9Fmjo8c
不是他們不想回去看看，253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaBMYr7twvf
是他們再也沒辦法回去了。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOuTUOtFJ2Q
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再回去之後心態大概都會變了吧，253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4nbslGCteu
我就只是個遊客，253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnA0jr1lzIT
走馬看花般，老一輩般，253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWNk8N9YmzQ
只看到這邊那邊的不同樣貌，253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCbKIjeXEOR
內𥚃真正的核心價值改變了沒，253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnWwWgB1SR2
我卻無從得知。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuD7IXtCUnf
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因為我就只是個過客，一切都跟我無關，253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuu3eBAMPNP
最多也只是下一代出生後多教他種語言，253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFMsa72u4A1
但他的一切都會在這邊生根發芽，253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5VWs6Ip4j4
這邊才會成為他的「故鄉」。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGN0F2l5Zxm
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到達了一年，253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnthr4WC84H
這邊的風土人情大概都感受過了，253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyfEq05seys
抹去小時候那層美好的濾鏡，253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl4EF3rdfeF
才真正體驗到生活與旅客的分別，253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMpa3JVbY0
會因為電費跟物價的上漲而抱怨，253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWdYtntOOLn
因為在地人處事方式不同而抱怨，253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ676MypIeGL
會因為同種族的人做了傻事而感到羞恥。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwG4EI2HMWj
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最可笑是，253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS4ZUZIzVEr
即使在他鄉生活了一年，253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ590RlEDkxD
我下意識都仍在以故鄉的思維去思考。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgPsz9MUUH2
一切都跟原本的地方比較，253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡskXPNOZSQp
到現在每看到一件事物，253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuXSvYtImGC
腦海還會自動把金額換成故鄉的貨幣。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFZIekMSyBw
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原來想離開的我，一年以後還是離不開。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNKaYR29kPe
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那就給自己點時間吧，253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJWiIJFOLq
明年今日再告訴自己吧。253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡloqvsepHqN
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離開了的人，你有變快樂嗎？253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjXlpSCwovZ
留下來的人，你有變快樂嗎？253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiLcAaQuFLV
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我的一週年紀念快樂．嗎？253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0johFOKdh2
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楊穎姿 2023年夏253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN3Cl7OTrrK