《楊穎姿散文日誌》 - 《關於我的一週年》

一年了，345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3OlGjeZJr1
離開生活了二十多個年頭的地方，345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcpuBTQMr6r
移居到個從來都沒想過會居住的國家。345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaJDqEk7JKJ
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有趣的是離開以前，345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgBqOc5JK7x
最後一個到訪的國家亦是這裡，345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLOn1otO3ZL
當時還未想像到再次到訪會以這種方式。345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0j4PxgsPbU
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離開之前是想遠離那個只適合生存，345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi4m3YVEWJK
不適合生活的地方。345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAKfdEKf9vy
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但離開以後，345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKiireA2dkc
才發現一切仍然離不開那邊的人和事。345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjbSjyWyVfD
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有想念，會掛念。345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPGd0Gonsib
掛念朋友，掛念原本的生活。345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtP1WBseqxT
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就算再努力嘗試適應，仍是會有點想念，345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwZRxYzPvYx
會幻想沒有離開的話，自己會變得怎樣。345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNIbdBxGS6p
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「離開以後有變得更開心嗎？」345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuXRHn3N0ku
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這是來到以後經常被問到的問題。345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWbaAwfi61S
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有⋯⋯吧？！應該有的吧。345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJXVnp4shXO
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至少⋯⋯距離使我跟厭惡的一切阻隔開，345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ8Ho1ULBjM
不用經歷一出門口就大汗淋漓的夏天，345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzg5Ir5Uann
不用打開電視就聽到聽不進耳的新聞，345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMAlzeNaCXF
不用出門後就聽到卷舌音特別重的語言。345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtoiqoLwbTf
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那時每樣都足以令我想趕快逃離，345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW7xKZsTYyI
但當我真正離開以後，345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxRZCfMm8pr
又一直透過媒體去了解。345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEF6X6HyCS9
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只是作為離開了的人，345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡodmneqGpgI
對於留下來的人和地方，345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs5W0S3c1Zy
總會有種隔閡，345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLvOTmkllh9
像一道無形的牆，一直看不清。345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZvjSb6axH
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那邊還有人戴口罩出門嗎？345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBASN3ciuF4
帶來的都沒用過。345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLRSGrlWW7m
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那邊的天氣又很高了嗎？345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzLl0RtJh28
我都忘記大熱天是甚麼感覺了。345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpRTNcZK0Gw
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那邊的那個地方那關店倒閉了嗎？345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡITKzgaswWt
好可惜喔，怎麼那麼突然？345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZUaCnbVnNa
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那邊新開了那間店呀？345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡniHnSagGrO
回去以後要嘗嘗嗎？345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoyHpnBKX1u
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那邊掛颱風了呀？345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyDcHWsrpeo
我都忘記颱風是甚麼了。345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMzdyyhfPGg
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這些都是我只能憑媒體，從影片中得知，345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcempeMFAGq
每次都會有種距離感，345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1gJP6FAmwe
因為我全都接觸不到。345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMbRkUBADek
繼續跟那地方談我最討厭的遠距離戀愛。345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC4xHV56Wni
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離開以後認識到新的朋友，345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP9j4NS8q1b
我還是會很驕傲地報上自己來自的地方。345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEckvXXZ58C
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但後面總會多帶一句：345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1MmQpqjBjl
但那邊⋯⋯345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpUPTRYZryM
變很不一樣了，跟我小時候不一樣了。345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF8SDiWKRvD
你早幾年有留意到新聞嗎？345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPUSDpnys6Z
嗯，一切都不一樣了。345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgFzHKeM2Th
很多人都離開了，去了不同的地方，345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN7vx1Weood
有些像我這樣沒用的人，345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrfgd07Xmyj
還能隔幾年回去探訪。345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcb4e7jLN3Z
但有些人一輩子都回不去了，345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIRRataRtBF
不是他們不想回去看看，345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkFsDW35frN
是他們再也沒辦法回去了。345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh5hhms1frD
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再回去之後心態大概都會變了吧，345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyQLUcjQsas
我就只是個遊客，345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFKGxpTuR9U
走馬看花般，老一輩般，345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBBRJYilwgI
只看到這邊那邊的不同樣貌，345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlUyqSmQZVA
內𥚃真正的核心價值改變了沒，345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUqJfJbSK3I
我卻無從得知。345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN6qSbuJ7ic
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因為我就只是個過客，一切都跟我無關，345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQqDbiWiBFw
最多也只是下一代出生後多教他種語言，345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ933d8MwEJZ
但他的一切都會在這邊生根發芽，345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW6aEivyUQ6
這邊才會成為他的「故鄉」。345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgzCK7hPV17
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到達了一年，345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5th69YsalI
這邊的風土人情大概都感受過了，345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFY5yHaBXUX
抹去小時候那層美好的濾鏡，345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvvIk0m4DeL
才真正體驗到生活與旅客的分別，345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWJdW0HN5aY
會因為電費跟物價的上漲而抱怨，345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwbOTdTcIwQ
因為在地人處事方式不同而抱怨，345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1wR2xKipAP
會因為同種族的人做了傻事而感到羞恥。345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5HxLkeQAU2
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最可笑是，345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdy8ebIjU4T
即使在他鄉生活了一年，345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3xcln3Kggs
我下意識都仍在以故鄉的思維去思考。345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE7UtvjWxSH
一切都跟原本的地方比較，345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj4k5BNkhya
到現在每看到一件事物，345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdWAeu6ESej
腦海還會自動把金額換成故鄉的貨幣。345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXcC02SabzE
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原來想離開的我，一年以後還是離不開。345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡohYF6UdGPb
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那就給自己點時間吧，345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWpq8AlI21Z
明年今日再告訴自己吧。345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfOt42GmaPv
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離開了的人，你有變快樂嗎？345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrUDAVAd7zA
留下來的人，你有變快樂嗎？345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSsf9YvBxz3
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我的一週年紀念快樂．嗎？345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI4IT7KHPD2
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楊穎姿 2023年夏345Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK7AB4jrXzg