《楊穎姿散文日誌》 - 《關於我的一週年》

一年了，220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡomUbqAZUav
離開生活了二十多個年頭的地方，220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz0phxnrUjo
移居到個從來都沒想過會居住的國家。220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDo9XBezVYq
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有趣的是離開以前，220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuAUsUzxmgr
最後一個到訪的國家亦是這裡，220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBt2t3mx1cO
當時還未想像到再次到訪會以這種方式。220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡObsr6a4prd
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離開之前是想遠離那個只適合生存，220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoZii2telaw
不適合生活的地方。220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzavTKkJLHy
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但離開以後，220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0gLy5FRUFg
才發現一切仍然離不開那邊的人和事。220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsFq8PP63a2
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有想念，會掛念。220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVmLEvMn7II
掛念朋友，掛念原本的生活。220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnWf05yW4di
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就算再努力嘗試適應，仍是會有點想念，220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1L7E7dCWan
會幻想沒有離開的話，自己會變得怎樣。220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH9UleSmNBG
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「離開以後有變得更開心嗎？」220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOMVoJyEeYy
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這是來到以後經常被問到的問題。220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4TIqJMXzcZ
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有⋯⋯吧？！應該有的吧。220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX6s7woccJl
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至少⋯⋯距離使我跟厭惡的一切阻隔開，220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEJOmI65bC1
不用經歷一出門口就大汗淋漓的夏天，220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzoNmBXeUUH
不用打開電視就聽到聽不進耳的新聞，220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPejxPw2Nsv
不用出門後就聽到卷舌音特別重的語言。220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG8alvtlNJg
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那時每樣都足以令我想趕快逃離，220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCvZGomSKTI
但當我真正離開以後，220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd8a9OXGzgO
又一直透過媒體去了解。220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW2dFKnIwKa
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只是作為離開了的人，220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnQ6jDREw5z
對於留下來的人和地方，220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5r7PZ5RloD
總會有種隔閡，220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAgYw0VNdFm
像一道無形的牆，一直看不清。220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhmhgCV2Wx5
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那邊還有人戴口罩出門嗎？220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVUW9S9URSM
帶來的都沒用過。220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBa4G6bbvuX
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那邊的天氣又很高了嗎？220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7YC9HrgagL
我都忘記大熱天是甚麼感覺了。220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq8ApTWq7gU
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那邊的那個地方那關店倒閉了嗎？220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc0tRfOxrpf
好可惜喔，怎麼那麼突然？220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdtcxvimwEd
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那邊新開了那間店呀？220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1gXA52uZVm
回去以後要嘗嘗嗎？220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM7ATh5efku
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那邊掛颱風了呀？220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2AAm3ZUnlx
我都忘記颱風是甚麼了。220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjVHgaPZdBr
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這些都是我只能憑媒體，從影片中得知，220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9TNXkhr2Zr
每次都會有種距離感，220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy52mjmgC9y
因為我全都接觸不到。220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1QpCXlLtqu
繼續跟那地方談我最討厭的遠距離戀愛。220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkBbfKvXQko
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離開以後認識到新的朋友，220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFXKTzlfYvR
我還是會很驕傲地報上自己來自的地方。220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9VxYSJc8b1
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但後面總會多帶一句：220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdRlC2MEpEb
但那邊⋯⋯220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3g45lvD0qO
變很不一樣了，跟我小時候不一樣了。220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhcQLHe5B4t
你早幾年有留意到新聞嗎？220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY0q7TNxh9o
嗯，一切都不一樣了。220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO0epQxmz3x
很多人都離開了，去了不同的地方，220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkvPc8nhnh5
有些像我這樣沒用的人，220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcp4Vn2MHyC
還能隔幾年回去探訪。220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrLE2mBgqC4
但有些人一輩子都回不去了，220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs4U6CYmMlP
不是他們不想回去看看，220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡllgYc4xYw3
是他們再也沒辦法回去了。220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡquICevOyex
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再回去之後心態大概都會變了吧，220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9RDYfRvdNs
我就只是個遊客，220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2XRXcdOUBJ
走馬看花般，老一輩般，220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQfwCXjkrGD
只看到這邊那邊的不同樣貌，220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7DGdvo9IJx
內𥚃真正的核心價值改變了沒，220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt9sQqZzk0R
我卻無從得知。220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2SIio9cllU
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因為我就只是個過客，一切都跟我無關，220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZPYt2j3kFv
最多也只是下一代出生後多教他種語言，220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXAFFmz3uXo
但他的一切都會在這邊生根發芽，220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2BMoJNpSol
這邊才會成為他的「故鄉」。220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZo4wSfIiRD
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到達了一年，220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGiVots9qCs
這邊的風土人情大概都感受過了，220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFKGVYIqYcm
抹去小時候那層美好的濾鏡，220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbPiT7FgPd4
才真正體驗到生活與旅客的分別，220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8GUBsoWe7z
會因為電費跟物價的上漲而抱怨，220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNMm39v5W8f
因為在地人處事方式不同而抱怨，220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiHL6q9eERW
會因為同種族的人做了傻事而感到羞恥。220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF55m9VipHS
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最可笑是，220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrGlirSdFTo
即使在他鄉生活了一年，220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ77N2TpTXnq
我下意識都仍在以故鄉的思維去思考。220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfsEOP15oWG
一切都跟原本的地方比較，220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWi9UkcdInU
到現在每看到一件事物，220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC2NEXg0TtD
腦海還會自動把金額換成故鄉的貨幣。220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQutjoSPszI
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原來想離開的我，一年以後還是離不開。220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTUuC9Unvpo
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那就給自己點時間吧，220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzNg5ycTYID
明年今日再告訴自己吧。220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzbhIttqpNv
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離開了的人，你有變快樂嗎？220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGu2kdHUB7f
留下來的人，你有變快樂嗎？220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH0GSuRqbJl
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我的一週年紀念快樂．嗎？220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD1ovIJD8hS
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楊穎姿 2023年夏220Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtQcswm6yCK