《楊穎姿散文日誌》 - 《關於我的一週年》

一年了，361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡizlc6ta7hz
離開生活了二十多個年頭的地方，361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmjvV0UT1IE
移居到個從來都沒想過會居住的國家。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAztlS38avz
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有趣的是離開以前，361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyc0gd9cK5u
最後一個到訪的國家亦是這裡，361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIqEQ1yAGxA
當時還未想像到再次到訪會以這種方式。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSpBw7nixl0
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離開之前是想遠離那個只適合生存，361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaiFgiJ3n8i
不適合生活的地方。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdGvwsgQf7s
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但離開以後，361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡST0ku8q0iW
才發現一切仍然離不開那邊的人和事。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIJPaMYaHjH
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有想念，會掛念。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡosySIG45w9
掛念朋友，掛念原本的生活。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡozfgdUGa8O
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就算再努力嘗試適應，仍是會有點想念，361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjANsJK4YtI
會幻想沒有離開的話，自己會變得怎樣。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVueHbkskVl
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「離開以後有變得更開心嗎？」361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxaghIJrpVr
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這是來到以後經常被問到的問題。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPFfYB6Ln9k
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有⋯⋯吧？！應該有的吧。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ZVQ2LvTLV
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至少⋯⋯距離使我跟厭惡的一切阻隔開，361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe8xFM64ynf
不用經歷一出門口就大汗淋漓的夏天，361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO9CNhbIjsj
不用打開電視就聽到聽不進耳的新聞，361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkdUEP0FAiw
不用出門後就聽到卷舌音特別重的語言。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwmUuz0UjTY
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那時每樣都足以令我想趕快逃離，361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWRLkVNg8lh
但當我真正離開以後，361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMrMv0WC8nv
又一直透過媒體去了解。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2TcVTkK4F3
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只是作為離開了的人，361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZChTmiHgZ6
對於留下來的人和地方，361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuWKb1ra9Eb
總會有種隔閡，361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡafwkGHFCK7
像一道無形的牆，一直看不清。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpYnjagXXRM
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那邊還有人戴口罩出門嗎？361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZUS1ojkqDr
帶來的都沒用過。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzmigvgkBtY
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那邊的天氣又很高了嗎？361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXsMXyeKJbd
我都忘記大熱天是甚麼感覺了。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQKd8JrwpJ1
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那邊的那個地方那關店倒閉了嗎？361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkSj8OAqAGK
好可惜喔，怎麼那麼突然？361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmvwnhQxChL
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那邊新開了那間店呀？361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxoqZXDxs3I
回去以後要嘗嘗嗎？361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBUfBR4Gav6
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那邊掛颱風了呀？361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLpEGIR2mlX
我都忘記颱風是甚麼了。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoz4pgThmZF
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這些都是我只能憑媒體，從影片中得知，361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDGOvTtOVn1
每次都會有種距離感，361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLxTV8c7fAr
因為我全都接觸不到。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfjiRbVB42J
繼續跟那地方談我最討厭的遠距離戀愛。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX6TlM1OMbp
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離開以後認識到新的朋友，361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpglqjWmjC8
我還是會很驕傲地報上自己來自的地方。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgTY0XIlvmf
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但後面總會多帶一句：361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN89i8hJWx5
但那邊⋯⋯361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtuJHU16JyS
變很不一樣了，跟我小時候不一樣了。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNFQV0TfZrl
你早幾年有留意到新聞嗎？361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjbVjKZSKl8
嗯，一切都不一樣了。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡayFkMeq0Yq
很多人都離開了，去了不同的地方，361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpQRVoMCS8
有些像我這樣沒用的人，361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNMC5IjFAeE
還能隔幾年回去探訪。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxGynEMOgKf
但有些人一輩子都回不去了，361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtvkjhjlMF3
不是他們不想回去看看，361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7KnigDfA9x
是他們再也沒辦法回去了。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpkxzLRETW0
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再回去之後心態大概都會變了吧，361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc5NN3qtF6q
我就只是個遊客，361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlYTCtSacgL
走馬看花般，老一輩般，361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5SdBbKpMfH
只看到這邊那邊的不同樣貌，361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5RzRiFxTNj
內𥚃真正的核心價值改變了沒，361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡidNwDMdwpG
我卻無從得知。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFVtBJTowQp
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因為我就只是個過客，一切都跟我無關，361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbFNgzcV0e4
最多也只是下一代出生後多教他種語言，361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKGsjTLZ4GW
但他的一切都會在這邊生根發芽，361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgcvUzRT4KQ
這邊才會成為他的「故鄉」。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLWDGOGgGB
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到達了一年，361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWqViiVXwND
這邊的風土人情大概都感受過了，361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbjW4vk4usg
抹去小時候那層美好的濾鏡，361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpbCEjAc9DM
才真正體驗到生活與旅客的分別，361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnoywR3PCcW
會因為電費跟物價的上漲而抱怨，361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqudgIivdjz
因為在地人處事方式不同而抱怨，361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ilYlGEXf2
會因為同種族的人做了傻事而感到羞恥。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTUyk1hfwo3
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最可笑是，361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU43IYeWlai
即使在他鄉生活了一年，361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWAzzCwE2jk
我下意識都仍在以故鄉的思維去思考。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxdJ7m0Dpov
一切都跟原本的地方比較，361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyDzNCaXG3h
到現在每看到一件事物，361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbmib7Pyyu3
腦海還會自動把金額換成故鄉的貨幣。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyojUlsPLpL
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原來想離開的我，一年以後還是離不開。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwaNoPSeEyw
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那就給自己點時間吧，361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKcacJXlNop
明年今日再告訴自己吧。361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6BM4RSBnsX
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離開了的人，你有變快樂嗎？361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn2uqP9UTpG
留下來的人，你有變快樂嗎？361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4NyMfh91VB
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我的一週年紀念快樂．嗎？361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvFCqRrIqnE
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楊穎姿 2023年夏361Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ0psv6kni3