《楊穎姿散文日誌》 - 《關於我的一週年》

一年了，265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVGIQXgSNrf
離開生活了二十多個年頭的地方，265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2LiuX5uGuz
移居到個從來都沒想過會居住的國家。265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7V32qwRbFd
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有趣的是離開以前，265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv9wMhLgQgv
最後一個到訪的國家亦是這裡，265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtDThfcV5su
當時還未想像到再次到訪會以這種方式。265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCzd6A7Jmrr
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離開之前是想遠離那個只適合生存，265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEHTFgXLTRg
不適合生活的地方。265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjm8z9N9J7h
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但離開以後，265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡne0M1Ob518
才發現一切仍然離不開那邊的人和事。265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3hgAZOO5Ju
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有想念，會掛念。265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeqZ32YdmS4
掛念朋友，掛念原本的生活。265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfI8GrryB6T
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就算再努力嘗試適應，仍是會有點想念，265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEzt7pv820C
會幻想沒有離開的話，自己會變得怎樣。265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJkBYI3lF6D
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「離開以後有變得更開心嗎？」265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXRGufqxcTF
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這是來到以後經常被問到的問題。265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ74Iphn6WvC
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有⋯⋯吧？！應該有的吧。265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqXfwXpV4uV
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至少⋯⋯距離使我跟厭惡的一切阻隔開，265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXevsgEHHzU
不用經歷一出門口就大汗淋漓的夏天，265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpaxnQtVs4e
不用打開電視就聽到聽不進耳的新聞，265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEE9D3YKN3U
不用出門後就聽到卷舌音特別重的語言。265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgi6EiVidf3
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那時每樣都足以令我想趕快逃離，265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ1iQQJlLCN
但當我真正離開以後，265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMqNQCv6mSp
又一直透過媒體去了解。265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVQ9JUVoddL
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只是作為離開了的人，265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ac3561jwJ
對於留下來的人和地方，265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ61ljADHnCd
總會有種隔閡，265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrM8kpkliVu
像一道無形的牆，一直看不清。265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIflEPa3xWH
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那邊還有人戴口罩出門嗎？265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhcitqlDmAG
帶來的都沒用過。265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZNM4GFRFz6
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那邊的天氣又很高了嗎？265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcV4pCR652w
我都忘記大熱天是甚麼感覺了。265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP9OMpIAPRi
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那邊的那個地方那關店倒閉了嗎？265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQxk8oiOLoY
好可惜喔，怎麼那麼突然？265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDbz0qIA60
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那邊新開了那間店呀？265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL7eed37KNG
回去以後要嘗嘗嗎？265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMqRqHNY9QQ
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那邊掛颱風了呀？265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh2QUMvpdBJ
我都忘記颱風是甚麼了。265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcNkoiLaeto
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這些都是我只能憑媒體，從影片中得知，265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡslP6nRaMmM
每次都會有種距離感，265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhBwtM7pNh5
因為我全都接觸不到。265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqcPO55qXSF
繼續跟那地方談我最討厭的遠距離戀愛。265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVLBu7xHQ7Z
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離開以後認識到新的朋友，265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeRZDcuzfTW
我還是會很驕傲地報上自己來自的地方。265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBIxTgtGMXn
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但後面總會多帶一句：265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhiNYyF5TTo
但那邊⋯⋯265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8eWWUa6itV
變很不一樣了，跟我小時候不一樣了。265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr9daRbC5vh
你早幾年有留意到新聞嗎？265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI7sqgaxZNk
嗯，一切都不一樣了。265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXYaXmwmaec
很多人都離開了，去了不同的地方，265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnOYCAcyO2z
有些像我這樣沒用的人，265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRVk2fIrb59
還能隔幾年回去探訪。265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz2hMDEXcMP
但有些人一輩子都回不去了，265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz6EreFVzQg
不是他們不想回去看看，265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTyYJdFQk9T
是他們再也沒辦法回去了。265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDLiORClJhK
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再回去之後心態大概都會變了吧，265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOhmMqn1Tgj
我就只是個遊客，265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDXIFAukdDD
走馬看花般，老一輩般，265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCSEtelMu3
只看到這邊那邊的不同樣貌，265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLIE5ygeiiT
內𥚃真正的核心價值改變了沒，265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaDgZfr4McI
我卻無從得知。265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKHMJIghHeF
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因為我就只是個過客，一切都跟我無關，265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2RjDziwho1
最多也只是下一代出生後多教他種語言，265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC8dmpJuTa8
但他的一切都會在這邊生根發芽，265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcoh123jZec
這邊才會成為他的「故鄉」。265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmaLda6Wsju
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到達了一年，265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd9qZZ2NcG9
這邊的風土人情大概都感受過了，265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjwz3rzpk3s
抹去小時候那層美好的濾鏡，265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyvHLGLzk9p
才真正體驗到生活與旅客的分別，265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOIOQpshl5J
會因為電費跟物價的上漲而抱怨，265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQgjWxRtIS7
因為在地人處事方式不同而抱怨，265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLMDX2IHCEx
會因為同種族的人做了傻事而感到羞恥。265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpleRK0ptgC
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最可笑是，265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiizWhPFnie
即使在他鄉生活了一年，265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU39u7xTIbt
我下意識都仍在以故鄉的思維去思考。265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjAy8ZTXp4M
一切都跟原本的地方比較，265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdBiR3fkeKu
到現在每看到一件事物，265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbi5rT46WLQ
腦海還會自動把金額換成故鄉的貨幣。265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNo6cncNOuT
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原來想離開的我，一年以後還是離不開。265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI0gjLESNPK
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那就給自己點時間吧，265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIpm5YvrW2r
明年今日再告訴自己吧。265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWntV3R4e6l
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離開了的人，你有變快樂嗎？265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzmq9ZPb6Ni
留下來的人，你有變快樂嗎？265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTz9cfRK99H
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我的一週年紀念快樂．嗎？265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoLAI68k6TW
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楊穎姿 2023年夏265Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKxQ0yz28H