《楊穎姿散文日誌》 - 《關於我的一週年》

一年了，219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuvfQE1DgpW
離開生活了二十多個年頭的地方，219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgx3auc1Uod
移居到個從來都沒想過會居住的國家。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhpmrgfzZvZ
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有趣的是離開以前，219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiTSzisSHMO
最後一個到訪的國家亦是這裡，219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ31ZsWmSIaq
當時還未想像到再次到訪會以這種方式。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcXEprMOWKI
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離開之前是想遠離那個只適合生存，219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa95OkX5FZX
不適合生活的地方。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxMaL0u3BNc
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但離開以後，219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkxmdzmz2BQ
才發現一切仍然離不開那邊的人和事。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhPXVlUNaHk
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有想念，會掛念。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYfZlOnNWdL
掛念朋友，掛念原本的生活。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrQuyY3WIXN
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就算再努力嘗試適應，仍是會有點想念，219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6N5ZzOvigy
會幻想沒有離開的話，自己會變得怎樣。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC3RC2hgJ5S
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「離開以後有變得更開心嗎？」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW0xu2G6Q95
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這是來到以後經常被問到的問題。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9rzHZDJcp0
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有⋯⋯吧？！應該有的吧。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2mBCEC4zDl
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至少⋯⋯距離使我跟厭惡的一切阻隔開，219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfYVJJtfv8J
不用經歷一出門口就大汗淋漓的夏天，219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ZIs2N1HYm
不用打開電視就聽到聽不進耳的新聞，219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFLyAZJr2BF
不用出門後就聽到卷舌音特別重的語言。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡewFBelfU4n
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那時每樣都足以令我想趕快逃離，219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQp3WtM8dN
但當我真正離開以後，219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDrg5KTifHm
又一直透過媒體去了解。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWneAijAJcz
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只是作為離開了的人，219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP0Vi0gq51F
對於留下來的人和地方，219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw8ZNXcPYj1
總會有種隔閡，219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7LJq8lwQNa
像一道無形的牆，一直看不清。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpwxO06nFXB
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那邊還有人戴口罩出門嗎？219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXoJYfYxiPt
帶來的都沒用過。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG2wHyRKXbw
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那邊的天氣又很高了嗎？219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Ub0fM3vL8
我都忘記大熱天是甚麼感覺了。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAfePLJxO4H
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那邊的那個地方那關店倒閉了嗎？219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7E1x4wYGtR
好可惜喔，怎麼那麼突然？219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMuQ71k0kp4
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那邊新開了那間店呀？219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDnpAX7JswE
回去以後要嘗嘗嗎？219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHdxPaSR1dm
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那邊掛颱風了呀？219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkOiTbnBEi2
我都忘記颱風是甚麼了。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDAvgSlLl97
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這些都是我只能憑媒體，從影片中得知，219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgFC37lbIzX
每次都會有種距離感，219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjDMBDK3QP6
因為我全都接觸不到。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Rlqm73RVq
繼續跟那地方談我最討厭的遠距離戀愛。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZhC8K0KCMI
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離開以後認識到新的朋友，219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn3FpKLU0rf
我還是會很驕傲地報上自己來自的地方。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgTP5dkp4ZO
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但後面總會多帶一句：219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK4rASsxmoI
但那邊⋯⋯219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwdUl6Qx3BL
變很不一樣了，跟我小時候不一樣了。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLu42hsRmM9
你早幾年有留意到新聞嗎？219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGoR8dLKj0i
嗯，一切都不一樣了。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOIthkkOgQX
很多人都離開了，去了不同的地方，219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡobwqBA6ief
有些像我這樣沒用的人，219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxYvWx6m3X4
還能隔幾年回去探訪。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK2SsJj9Z6B
但有些人一輩子都回不去了，219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTFWB3S5lgW
不是他們不想回去看看，219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5LgORV19vk
是他們再也沒辦法回去了。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNMRe5x4W7I
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再回去之後心態大概都會變了吧，219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKqSYeT9ioO
我就只是個遊客，219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL8ZeIc2MIx
走馬看花般，老一輩般，219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBnc3g61SwN
只看到這邊那邊的不同樣貌，219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQQbE2O2HnD
內𥚃真正的核心價值改變了沒，219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoQ3bKvJoG5
我卻無從得知。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEi8Ajfk1yp
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因為我就只是個過客，一切都跟我無關，219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsuWQtheYqW
最多也只是下一代出生後多教他種語言，219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJBIWXtfP3
但他的一切都會在這邊生根發芽，219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeAlVHRCG58
這邊才會成為他的「故鄉」。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX72Jm50hWo
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到達了一年，219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9oRzeU1arp
這邊的風土人情大概都感受過了，219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0YQLLtll9u
抹去小時候那層美好的濾鏡，219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡExCRGS6Q2o
才真正體驗到生活與旅客的分別，219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS700qsMgV1
會因為電費跟物價的上漲而抱怨，219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsVPRgr3ho6
因為在地人處事方式不同而抱怨，219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0WRv0F6B8r
會因為同種族的人做了傻事而感到羞恥。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXK545geMmM
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最可笑是，219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLVRA4aZTi7
即使在他鄉生活了一年，219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡse5iFte8Ex
我下意識都仍在以故鄉的思維去思考。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4wcYyJ4GS0
一切都跟原本的地方比較，219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK1eAV0vkX3
到現在每看到一件事物，219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKWIfBz34vz
腦海還會自動把金額換成故鄉的貨幣。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoUD0RdtwQ3
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原來想離開的我，一年以後還是離不開。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9smN8YcPVg
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那就給自己點時間吧，219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡku23rPNc1H
明年今日再告訴自己吧。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjZq8o3WR1T
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離開了的人，你有變快樂嗎？219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡha5DBEdnWi
留下來的人，你有變快樂嗎？219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSW9yWBM9eo
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我的一週年紀念快樂．嗎？219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFKeV0FqUzu
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楊穎姿 2023年夏219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5qRkOkcwr4