《楊穎姿散文日誌》 - 《關於我的一週年》

一年了，198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU8vSHYt3Ud
離開生活了二十多個年頭的地方，198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡogAUGOvQmM
移居到個從來都沒想過會居住的國家。198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeduHcnPJ1L
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有趣的是離開以前，198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbC1CCR6ijH
最後一個到訪的國家亦是這裡，198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb7cx21UVTi
當時還未想像到再次到訪會以這種方式。198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIOUSkZPRb9
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離開之前是想遠離那個只適合生存，198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKEEZvQiMlv
不適合生活的地方。198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVxUcxHBd0q
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但離開以後，198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcQAcNUrjxr
才發現一切仍然離不開那邊的人和事。198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKFrrhtu8JS
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有想念，會掛念。198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSz0WdCGUgz
掛念朋友，掛念原本的生活。198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6LoEMbOqxh
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就算再努力嘗試適應，仍是會有點想念，198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1G07pXe4cP
會幻想沒有離開的話，自己會變得怎樣。198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvFFMwKRdr4
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「離開以後有變得更開心嗎？」198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSMSO9TyNTn
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這是來到以後經常被問到的問題。198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvY0Hf7UKqs
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有⋯⋯吧？！應該有的吧。198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFpT2hx5zxz
198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9uJg7hjFX4
至少⋯⋯距離使我跟厭惡的一切阻隔開，198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpukM6j3f5A
不用經歷一出門口就大汗淋漓的夏天，198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMsbzRHmqLz
不用打開電視就聽到聽不進耳的新聞，198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDrPeNKo1RS
不用出門後就聽到卷舌音特別重的語言。198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8SlNODba7s
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那時每樣都足以令我想趕快逃離，198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡctwFQqW2Ic
但當我真正離開以後，198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGa7hQ2Npmu
又一直透過媒體去了解。198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSyhbUSvgmv
198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRx3lbis1nX
只是作為離開了的人，198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSAhdAol8U9
對於留下來的人和地方，198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡehtnbXAZ2z
總會有種隔閡，198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJJDuSpAB53
像一道無形的牆，一直看不清。198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡddgIaPrv67
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那邊還有人戴口罩出門嗎？198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEwuOPIRp1j
帶來的都沒用過。198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYTcbk88TOd
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那邊的天氣又很高了嗎？198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmpcqulG8Fu
我都忘記大熱天是甚麼感覺了。198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxSPSfGNCzz
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那邊的那個地方那關店倒閉了嗎？198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡektj2JPnG2
好可惜喔，怎麼那麼突然？198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzg5glJKgaX
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那邊新開了那間店呀？198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtsS88GsrB9
回去以後要嘗嘗嗎？198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp84Um9xknK
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那邊掛颱風了呀？198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7qWiV5H8gG
我都忘記颱風是甚麼了。198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBUROxcAUe6
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這些都是我只能憑媒體，從影片中得知，198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡak57CWWz6J
每次都會有種距離感，198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7gl2Dt5g4Z
因為我全都接觸不到。198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjaaYDthZBN
繼續跟那地方談我最討厭的遠距離戀愛。198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRgMqB3pI6q
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離開以後認識到新的朋友，198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOdhrvEbkmy
我還是會很驕傲地報上自己來自的地方。198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtOqPYfdRV0
198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiDUwQT1bNM
但後面總會多帶一句：198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu9siuKiOX0
但那邊⋯⋯198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcGXwLKckcO
變很不一樣了，跟我小時候不一樣了。198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk5vilFfTRA
你早幾年有留意到新聞嗎？198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCNEsM6OOwk
嗯，一切都不一樣了。198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKs5vufcEYi
很多人都離開了，去了不同的地方，198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi2MrjXdJG1
有些像我這樣沒用的人，198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkQOSrRC1Xk
還能隔幾年回去探訪。198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFpK0u4W2uw
但有些人一輩子都回不去了，198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRPRaR6ggmg
不是他們不想回去看看，198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBDBw18uvKy
是他們再也沒辦法回去了。198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPzVc84jWwn
198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYxcpqmIRii
再回去之後心態大概都會變了吧，198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy5PhoqZ378
我就只是個遊客，198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyz14uX0vqZ
走馬看花般，老一輩般，198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeMosrq1JYV
只看到這邊那邊的不同樣貌，198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaotIMtKnrZ
內𥚃真正的核心價值改變了沒，198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYhRsr0bAe7
我卻無從得知。198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpMF4aNbyCU
198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAkmUblAqaP
因為我就只是個過客，一切都跟我無關，198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLUeAIkTt7n
最多也只是下一代出生後多教他種語言，198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo8x5ke1liv
但他的一切都會在這邊生根發芽，198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAkhKd0vBXm
這邊才會成為他的「故鄉」。198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeOchcgmb1G
198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHVRRYxeISd
到達了一年，198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe5bseVONC9
這邊的風土人情大概都感受過了，198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbCmrMvFPHH
抹去小時候那層美好的濾鏡，198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4akrKIA9Vd
才真正體驗到生活與旅客的分別，198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡniNnP9tJTC
會因為電費跟物價的上漲而抱怨，198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP0RUkEBlSS
因為在地人處事方式不同而抱怨，198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmOQKDzUitI
會因為同種族的人做了傻事而感到羞恥。198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIaJACJZTMK
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最可笑是，198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEuEPsp58ep
即使在他鄉生活了一年，198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmBTn3NTUxd
我下意識都仍在以故鄉的思維去思考。198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOEAXyB16OR
一切都跟原本的地方比較，198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDtFdCfnn6t
到現在每看到一件事物，198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5A3jOEG5i1
腦海還會自動把金額換成故鄉的貨幣。198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwScZFZhuBw
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原來想離開的我，一年以後還是離不開。198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWVBSwYK49c
198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNh8bGhum2F
那就給自己點時間吧，198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC6Ak9j9kmA
明年今日再告訴自己吧。198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGHuyo6RvkV
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離開了的人，你有變快樂嗎？198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqcNIal8qpJ
留下來的人，你有變快樂嗎？198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdtKcKWid9x
198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbnOlPlo1is
我的一週年紀念快樂．嗎？198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYYidNAsuz7
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楊穎姿 2023年夏198Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx2FhEr0njK