4.2章說過,因康雯的「催促」(部份原因),我參加了青見。我的青見個案經理,是梁姑娘。133Please respect copyright.PENANAlW9DJJwoMe
133Please respect copyright.PENANAFakWNCcRPM
我就打電話給梁姑娘,訴說這些事:大埔4K工小圈子一夜之間莫名其妙地瓦解,很擔心父母離世......說到途中,居然又忍不著哭......133Please respect copyright.PENANAz2NDnxFJwS
133Please respect copyright.PENANAg7UMA8jsyG
我很想找快點找到新工作,以讓自己有點寄託,減少胡思亂想。133Please respect copyright.PENANATqiF1WO3yF
133Please respect copyright.PENANAcGADgf43oz
梁姑娘說,一些社福機構也有類似的半年4K工,著我到某些網站尋找。又說她工作的青少年中心,也有這些空缺,著我可申請。133Please respect copyright.PENANARknMsOgzbd
133Please respect copyright.PENANAkVfno3xHEU
郵寄了不下十多封這些半年4K工的求職信,有間甚至是近在我家樓下的青少年中心,結果就和當年向《 YES!》徵友欄索取女孩地址一樣,幾乎全部石沉大海(1章)。133Please respect copyright.PENANAFvg5rwqiGo
133Please respect copyright.PENANAvr2OUbwICS
唯一有回音的,是梁姑娘工作的青少年中心。很明顯,是梁姑娘背後動作,識人好過識字。133Please respect copyright.PENANAN1OX9rOUNy
133Please respect copyright.PENANA8AxzN0KOkf
不意外地,2004年4月中,成為了梁姑娘工作的青少年中心的員工,又一個半年4K(參考:阿源的TVB初次訪問出街後,有社工跟進他,也是帶了他進青少年中心做這些臨時工)。133Please respect copyright.PENANABhV6s8vwFa
133Please respect copyright.PENANA8lRKXxxYTo
起初,我情緒仍然低落,但一直告訴自己,這是嶄新的一頁,不要再情緒低落了。當然,這裡也有其他4K人,我盡力融入,希望結織朋友。133Please respect copyright.PENANAYZqZZMq37c
133Please respect copyright.PENANABiC0Ilfcbq
沒料到,這裡的,是比卓絲更仆街的仆街,更瘋狂的針對、孤立、邊緣化。133Please respect copyright.PENANAncKSnLQxBl
133Please respect copyright.PENANAD8pINck85x
之前大埔某政府部門那裡,還有個小圈子加入。青少年中心這裡,我完全被孤立完全被邊緣化,徹底社死(我到底社死了多少次呢?)。133Please respect copyright.PENANANGy1Bno4nW
133Please respect copyright.PENANA5c0oCLnasJ
沒事可做,揭一揭報紙,也被批評。不是批評一次,而是幾乎隔天便借故重提嘮叨。直到我遞辭職信,又被挽留,才沒再提。133Please respect copyright.PENANAew3giEQivK
133Please respect copyright.PENANAN6pW7Hz5CD
聽到有人對梁姑娘說:「總之我聽埋聽埋,我對佢印象就係唔好!佢喺呢度都攪成咁,將來出到去,我唔知佢點算....」,梁姑娘沒作聲,只有一臉無奈。這個「佢」,準是我,一定係。133Please respect copyright.PENANAaUudAnaaa9
133Please respect copyright.PENANASoYidzu1LS
連梁姑娘,也身受其害。相信因為我,她一定聽不少「你做乜帶隻咁嘅嘢入黎」之類說話。133Please respect copyright.PENANATQ940aRSKn
133Please respect copyright.PENANAweP9fW8ZL0
後期,甚至去到連眼尾看見同事填文件,也被照肺:「你唔係人哋上司,你冇權睇人哋做乜!你咁睇人哋填文件,係質疑同事工作,仲質疑埋同事既上司,雙重質疑,破壞呢度既融洽和諧......」133Please respect copyright.PENANAdh5LFglI7t
133Please respect copyright.PENANADesb8aWYqU
某人生日,全4K人高調吹雞去唱K,唯獨留下我一個。133Please respect copyright.PENANAcQtAaCaZ4v
133Please respect copyright.PENANAI7FWqShxh8
全4K人吹雞去台灣玩,當然又是.......133Please respect copyright.PENANAt1e2MwCPR3
133Please respect copyright.PENANAif3neNFx2n
2004年10月,又到半年約滿期了。臨別秋波,梁姑娘也很無奈,也說不出我到底做錯了甚麼、得罪了那些「人」甚麼。唯有推介我看《人性的弱點》,說是探討人際關係,對結識朋友、改善人緣有幫助。133Please respect copyright.PENANAU9r9TaVd02
133Please respect copyright.PENANAImdE0X06qQ
滿懷怒火地離開這裡後,本為期一年的青見服務,也超額結束,梁姑娘也沒再找我。133Please respect copyright.PENANAO4gv99zcHc
133Please respect copyright.PENANANzU1ceEYZe
我找了《人性的弱點》這本書看,一邊看,一邊認真反思檢討。只覺得,這本書寫的,若完全做足,簡直是完全失去自我,確沒可能。但我以往,七八成怎也有做,又怎樣?只是一次又一次的「你對人好,唔好望人對返你好」。133Please respect copyright.PENANAkl8cVqQu4p
133Please respect copyright.PENANAY4ZCmDd31b
這本書,看了約七成,便棄了。133Please respect copyright.PENANAEQwRPXpW9I
133Please respect copyright.PENANAL8108u5tag
數年後,認識了某人,她的脾氣性格,完全是這本書的反面教材:極自我中心、嚴人寬己,但朋友、桃花,還是一蘿蘿飛來蜢。133Please respect copyright.PENANAFBr4eTYb9V
133Please respect copyright.PENANA39cocCyrhH
此時已是2004年底,如4.3章述,2003年那短期課程結識的傻男和康雯,也在這時反面(康雯,「輪班」喎、「工時長」喎,「很忙」喎、「時間難夾」喎),朋友僅餘肥妹。133Please respect copyright.PENANA5cbDh7gzkf
133Please respect copyright.PENANAHOghmEtclC
短期課程的康雯。133Please respect copyright.PENANAY5hLPul7Xy
133Please respect copyright.PENANAB1MOomG0YQ
大埔4K工的卓絲、小圈子的3個「朋友」:一輝、地下情侶。133Please respect copyright.PENANA6fD7axBafk
133Please respect copyright.PENANAjzLatSe7pp
青少年中心的4K同事。133Please respect copyright.PENANArFlYX38XMO
133Please respect copyright.PENANAoOIOMGqzbO
一個又一個,全部.........133Please respect copyright.PENANAgJyle3Nhys
133Please respect copyright.PENANAm9N1U5gZ6m
冥冥之中、天意、宿命,全部係冥冥之中、天意、宿命。133Please respect copyright.PENANAEWJPwsvFLi
133Please respect copyright.PENANAutiyhNBvhx
2003年在那短期課程得到的少許自信,經過這一年半,已消滅殆盡。133Please respect copyright.PENANABSQyzCvK8Y
ns3.12.104.80da2133Please respect copyright.PENANAFakWNCcRPM
我就打電話給梁姑娘,訴說這些事:大埔4K工小圈子一夜之間莫名其妙地瓦解,很擔心父母離世......說到途中,居然又忍不著哭......133Please respect copyright.PENANAz2NDnxFJwS
133Please respect copyright.PENANAg7UMA8jsyG
我很想找快點找到新工作,以讓自己有點寄託,減少胡思亂想。133Please respect copyright.PENANATqiF1WO3yF
133Please respect copyright.PENANAcGADgf43oz
梁姑娘說,一些社福機構也有類似的半年4K工,著我到某些網站尋找。又說她工作的青少年中心,也有這些空缺,著我可申請。133Please respect copyright.PENANARknMsOgzbd
133Please respect copyright.PENANAkVfno3xHEU
郵寄了不下十多封這些半年4K工的求職信,有間甚至是近在我家樓下的青少年中心,結果就和當年向《 YES!》徵友欄索取女孩地址一樣,幾乎全部石沉大海(1章)。133Please respect copyright.PENANAFvg5rwqiGo
133Please respect copyright.PENANAvr2OUbwICS
唯一有回音的,是梁姑娘工作的青少年中心。很明顯,是梁姑娘背後動作,識人好過識字。133Please respect copyright.PENANAN1OX9rOUNy
133Please respect copyright.PENANA8AxzN0KOkf
不意外地,2004年4月中,成為了梁姑娘工作的青少年中心的員工,又一個半年4K(參考:阿源的TVB初次訪問出街後,有社工跟進他,也是帶了他進青少年中心做這些臨時工)。133Please respect copyright.PENANABhV6s8vwFa
133Please respect copyright.PENANA8lRKXxxYTo
起初,我情緒仍然低落,但一直告訴自己,這是嶄新的一頁,不要再情緒低落了。當然,這裡也有其他4K人,我盡力融入,希望結織朋友。133Please respect copyright.PENANAYZqZZMq37c
133Please respect copyright.PENANABiC0Ilfcbq
沒料到,這裡的,是比卓絲更仆街的仆街,更瘋狂的針對、孤立、邊緣化。133Please respect copyright.PENANAncKSnLQxBl
133Please respect copyright.PENANAD8pINck85x
之前大埔某政府部門那裡,還有個小圈子加入。青少年中心這裡,我完全被孤立完全被邊緣化,徹底社死(我到底社死了多少次呢?)。133Please respect copyright.PENANANGy1Bno4nW
133Please respect copyright.PENANA5c0oCLnasJ
沒事可做,揭一揭報紙,也被批評。不是批評一次,而是幾乎隔天便借故重提嘮叨。直到我遞辭職信,又被挽留,才沒再提。133Please respect copyright.PENANAew3giEQivK
133Please respect copyright.PENANAN6pW7Hz5CD
聽到有人對梁姑娘說:「總之我聽埋聽埋,我對佢印象就係唔好!佢喺呢度都攪成咁,將來出到去,我唔知佢點算....」,梁姑娘沒作聲,只有一臉無奈。這個「佢」,準是我,一定係。133Please respect copyright.PENANAaUudAnaaa9
133Please respect copyright.PENANASoYidzu1LS
連梁姑娘,也身受其害。相信因為我,她一定聽不少「你做乜帶隻咁嘅嘢入黎」之類說話。133Please respect copyright.PENANATQ940aRSKn
133Please respect copyright.PENANAweP9fW8ZL0
後期,甚至去到連眼尾看見同事填文件,也被照肺:「你唔係人哋上司,你冇權睇人哋做乜!你咁睇人哋填文件,係質疑同事工作,仲質疑埋同事既上司,雙重質疑,破壞呢度既融洽和諧......」133Please respect copyright.PENANAdh5LFglI7t
133Please respect copyright.PENANADesb8aWYqU
某人生日,全4K人高調吹雞去唱K,唯獨留下我一個。133Please respect copyright.PENANAcQtAaCaZ4v
133Please respect copyright.PENANAI7FWqShxh8
全4K人吹雞去台灣玩,當然又是.......133Please respect copyright.PENANAt1e2MwCPR3
133Please respect copyright.PENANAif3neNFx2n
2004年10月,又到半年約滿期了。臨別秋波,梁姑娘也很無奈,也說不出我到底做錯了甚麼、得罪了那些「人」甚麼。唯有推介我看《人性的弱點》,說是探討人際關係,對結識朋友、改善人緣有幫助。133Please respect copyright.PENANAU9r9TaVd02
133Please respect copyright.PENANAImdE0X06qQ
滿懷怒火地離開這裡後,本為期一年的青見服務,也超額結束,梁姑娘也沒再找我。133Please respect copyright.PENANAO4gv99zcHc
133Please respect copyright.PENANANzU1ceEYZe
我找了《人性的弱點》這本書看,一邊看,一邊認真反思檢討。只覺得,這本書寫的,若完全做足,簡直是完全失去自我,確沒可能。但我以往,七八成怎也有做,又怎樣?只是一次又一次的「你對人好,唔好望人對返你好」。133Please respect copyright.PENANAkl8cVqQu4p
133Please respect copyright.PENANAY4ZCmDd31b
這本書,看了約七成,便棄了。133Please respect copyright.PENANAEQwRPXpW9I
133Please respect copyright.PENANAL8108u5tag
數年後,認識了某人,她的脾氣性格,完全是這本書的反面教材:極自我中心、嚴人寬己,但朋友、桃花,還是一蘿蘿飛來蜢。133Please respect copyright.PENANAFBr4eTYb9V
133Please respect copyright.PENANA39cocCyrhH
此時已是2004年底,如4.3章述,2003年那短期課程結識的傻男和康雯,也在這時反面(康雯,「輪班」喎、「工時長」喎,「很忙」喎、「時間難夾」喎),朋友僅餘肥妹。133Please respect copyright.PENANA5cbDh7gzkf
133Please respect copyright.PENANAHOghmEtclC
短期課程的康雯。133Please respect copyright.PENANAY5hLPul7Xy
133Please respect copyright.PENANAB1MOomG0YQ
大埔4K工的卓絲、小圈子的3個「朋友」:一輝、地下情侶。133Please respect copyright.PENANA6fD7axBafk
133Please respect copyright.PENANAjzLatSe7pp
青少年中心的4K同事。133Please respect copyright.PENANArFlYX38XMO
133Please respect copyright.PENANAoOIOMGqzbO
一個又一個,全部.........133Please respect copyright.PENANAgJyle3Nhys
133Please respect copyright.PENANAm9N1U5gZ6m
冥冥之中、天意、宿命,全部係冥冥之中、天意、宿命。133Please respect copyright.PENANAEWJPwsvFLi
133Please respect copyright.PENANAutiyhNBvhx
2003年在那短期課程得到的少許自信,經過這一年半,已消滅殆盡。133Please respect copyright.PENANABSQyzCvK8Y