或許是不能再聽到妳的聲音,抑或線上暑輔的開始搗亂了我們的生活節奏,有種若即若離的疏遠,而雙方卻保持沉默應對。8964 copyright protection83PENANAkJQraO4odX 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAMIu6g1dBBo
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知道因為分班,我們的交集勢必會少了許多,但對我來說無所謂啊,我還是會分享今天發生了什麼,今天心情怎樣……可是在那暑輔剛開始的一個禮拜,很明顯的感受出妳對我的冷淡。8964 copyright protection83PENANA5YZVQDK3VC 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAegXsdRA8oM
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「嗯嗯。」夜晚睡前簡訊聊天時,妳句點了每一句話,留我一個人在原地。不知道我現在是該問妳今天過得如何,抑或直接道了晚安然後就寢?8964 copyright protection83PENANA53jfsnUa9b 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAPkwd5B4aEK
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說真的勉強自己去維持以前的相處模式真的有些累呢,問妳今天做什麼,妳不再如以前會透露些妳今天對這些事物的情緒,而是冷冰冰的,條列式的,如同向長官報告,一一列成清單後傳送給我,就沒有了下文。8964 copyright protection83PENANA5aTwaJxV3S 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAuKzYgsGLzo
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我真的害怕我究竟做錯了什麼。8964 copyright protection83PENANArv05sCSM8v 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAUTgNGb3JBS
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但多想是徒然,我總是想著或許這段時間妳情緒不好,經歷太多生活壓力—裝撐牙器及剛進入新班級,我需要做的就是在妳低潮時,帶領這段感情繼續走著。8964 copyright protection83PENANAluiAuQ4CBd 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAWMxKHkEmdZ
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87Please respect copyright.PENANAPQeOXv3ZZf
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可是真的受不住了。8964 copyright protection83PENANA1lDts2qVdk 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAvkFngsNWyt
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87Please respect copyright.PENANAiScLXSbGxG
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一個禮拜過去,兩個禮拜過去,而妳對我的態度依舊是忽冷忽熱,或許妳真的沒有那個意願要這樣吧,我也勸自己不要多想,多做點自己的事提升自己,多往自己的夢想邁進,而不是拘泥於這並無是非的情感問題。8964 copyright protection83PENANAPJpWt1RryD 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANASFuYQorAok
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有段時間,我努力應戰即將到來的數學競賽,我跟雲層的高手組成一個團隊參戰,而每個禮拜都有線上補習上課磨練。8964 copyright protection83PENANA85m6JCqlTY 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAumQoDaf1YC
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數學模擬題目使我徬徨,讓我品嚐到時間的付出不一定正比於回饋。8964 copyright protection83PENANAOj5D3Gcpqr 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAoq7NXXxEY4
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就如同對妳一樣。8964 copyright protection83PENANASvuHZ4ROjG 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAMKVaMcMaju
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常常有種不想要努力的念頭,偶爾會在假日的下午放空發呆,抑或去海邊吹吹風舒緩疲倦的心靈。8964 copyright protection83PENANARJTv7MA7gy 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAvVhIAP5Vm6
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而這些壓抑許久的情緒,在考試那一天,久違的小爆炸了。8964 copyright protection83PENANAmBM4oEnw7t 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAJ6rqH1RFXu
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87Please respect copyright.PENANA3dMuDhv0p8
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我是真的在車上回訊息回到哽咽。8964 copyright protection83PENANAYMEvwer7bi 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAWR8mstqLyS
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87Please respect copyright.PENANAdKLoibYvaT
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但妳的訊息給我的感覺是,妳對我當時的狀況漠視。8964 copyright protection83PENANAn8Wg3iFwzL 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAEWy8JIV3oc
8964 copyright protection83PENANAOHTjQLLT9I 維尼
我到了雲層的本部門口,等待遊覽車的發動前往考場。8964 copyright protection83PENANAGiRV3SXnhN 維尼
大家熱絡的討論數學跟聊日常(畢竟大家也很久沒見了),而我一個人顯得不是他們這一夥的,忐忑不安,原地徘徊,手上的手機放不下。8964 copyright protection83PENANAXzcb8MEOp0 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAktQgjhkC3Q
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畢竟有些心緒不穩,明明沒有發生什麼事情我卻快要失控,從我將這些訊息打到妳的聊天室就可以知道了。8964 copyright protection83PENANA1I6sfKLg2J 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAOfRUHdmz9p
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「加油,希望你能自己成功走出。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAc4uqze7Ull 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAHFIVKbukbZ
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很簡短,妳回覆了,不過本來我也不期望妳說些讓我安心的話語。8964 copyright protection83PENANAFyb8osnrrh 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANALusdeQ6p0K
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因為我從那刻終於知道,或許我再也沒機會從妳那感到安心了。8964 copyright protection83PENANAxWdOSex5qw 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANA7EiwOol4C5
8964 copyright protection83PENANAMeT9pHdHKk 維尼
哽咽中,我假裝調侃的回道:8964 copyright protection83PENANAX2xef1zdc6 維尼
「哈哈謝謝,我就把這句話當作妳對我的勉勵吧。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAsIcwykhuVN 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANA0wgqvg3FQJ
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說真的很奇怪呢,明明妳也沒做什麼,妳也只是用跟平常一樣的方法回覆我的訊息。8964 copyright protection83PENANAY8oeuhz9Ok 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANApByqhamXyT
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可是我從心底可以深深的感受到,現在的我絕對是不得人看的慘樣。8964 copyright protection83PENANAUX9ue2dg1k 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAAaKuRxM9pZ
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87Please respect copyright.PENANAsJoVjzzVnK
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87Please respect copyright.PENANAyEnuNL4Yso
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我總是在對我們關係感到茫然的時候,才會打那些讓妳覺得莫名其妙的文。8964 copyright protection83PENANATRKTUm6ulY 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANA4Ilojf1DtB
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或許妳覺得那只是我平常的習慣。8964 copyright protection83PENANAobssBIuaT2 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANA9Jb7S7CDPp
8964 copyright protection83PENANA2f2tfngUK0 維尼
我也跟妳說過,我好像只會對妳說這些話。8964 copyright protection83PENANAlYqkSWt2QE 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANA5gle50HvEj
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總是在最後談完沒有結果的交談後,跟妳說那些是我多想時會有的負面情緒,希望妳不要將其放在心上。8964 copyright protection83PENANA2vRaupxgyo 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAWa7WVWoqxh
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真的,我真的很討厭這樣的自己。8964 copyright protection83PENANAl3xjWNJgfT 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANA8PybT6rpwi
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明明自己已經快不行了,還要向妳示意我沒有事情,希望妳可以不要放在心上,繼續走著妳的日子。8964 copyright protection83PENANAv0JLhuxQ7p 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAwYPQqSyZk1
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87Please respect copyright.PENANAZbGbS7YJSl
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不過現在憶起,只能說當時的自己很強韌。8964 copyright protection83PENANAk3qfsD6db7 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAnRqTLfeYb5
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一個人撐著這若即若離的關係,很累,很累,每一次找妳談事情,都是我每一次的崩潰。8964 copyright protection83PENANAgapY7D1Urk 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAIcrIn8Cgju
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87Please respect copyright.PENANApUr5sLJZRq
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之後還有一個小插曲。8964 copyright protection83PENANAFqeIEa2SVP 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAQgxv1G3MuG
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某天深夜,我算著阿蘭交付的作業時,徐捷岳突然打了電話過來。8964 copyright protection83PENANANfIwbtBrVC 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANADoY6i3I03I
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「喂,怎麼了。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAyK4yG130UM 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAUOVzV1alKy
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「你怎麼不讀我訊息,受傷!」徐捷岳那邊看起來很火,但我聽得出來他語氣裏面帶有些玩味之心。「我給你連結,你來救我們數學!」8964 copyright protection83PENANAUluZaJWo0p 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANA4tPe33zOty
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蛤……?8964 copyright protection83PENANAOY9c88QtsJ 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAjQ33Krmu8s
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「等等,什麼狀況?」我還未反應過來時徐捷岳已經切掉通話,留下一臉狐疑的我。8964 copyright protection83PENANALgMGmNOXqG 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANANJ1mYbNpkv
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我嘆了口氣,看著頭頂的時鐘,好吧,就休息一下好了,今天也奮鬥很久了。8964 copyright protection83PENANAm47BcEqISQ 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAigVtBGfSWE
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我打開了訊息,在點開徐捷岳的聊天室時瞄到了下面熟悉的對話框。8964 copyright protection83PENANAhsOKamAA5Z 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAM3VcHLIsuJ
8964 copyright protection83PENANAlVNBoDhRWY 維尼
妳還沒讀我訊息呢。8964 copyright protection83PENANASkLat55acP 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAifOcN1oStx
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但接下來的畫面讓我情緒波動。8964 copyright protection83PENANA0tvUmDGHOp 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANApsKcNdR2Bd
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會議室裡面,有徐捷岳,珠姐,以及……8964 copyright protection83PENANABpIBlP2yG7 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAaKrB0ZbEjR
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妳……?8964 copyright protection83PENANAqbVoPbEB2c 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAxHICj0hPGi
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妳們三個人都在裡面。8964 copyright protection83PENANAr2C2MSlRfQ 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAlmR9EQOeNQ
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忽視了徐捷岳跟珠姐在語音的吵雜聲,我按下了掛掉鍵。8964 copyright protection83PENANAWJxoEz8Jim 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAHPmFK0gmf7
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我愣在原地不發一語。8964 copyright protection83PENANAQCdGC7HAzU 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAPFJ01sNUPe
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剛剛那是……?8964 copyright protection83PENANAI80ty4qc50 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANA19R1xocXIt
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過了兩三分鐘,像是做好了萬全準備,我又再度進去了會議室。8964 copyright protection83PENANA5cUGeb0SUV 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAjYUxWd3g1e
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可是只剩下徐捷岳跟珠姐兩人的頭框。8964 copyright protection83PENANArjaROwPgyT 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANA6rsI0KTm2O
8964 copyright protection83PENANAzOt9YQEdPJ 維尼
「欸你回來了呀!!!嚇死我了你剛剛怎麼退出了啊。」8964 copyright protection83PENANA1TZXzSRtfB 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAiHu50kguQu
8964 copyright protection83PENANABgOLBztSdE 維尼
「你好你好歡迎~」8964 copyright protection83PENANABJCNUPZHvF 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAeKd265X3SO
8964 copyright protection83PENANAQNQ2jkwSxX 維尼
徐捷岳和珠姐似乎挺歡迎我的到來。8964 copyright protection83PENANAhuePbWWFMh 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAYqIGaW32h1
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「嗨嗨……所以你們現在在……寫數學?」我試圖忘記剛剛第一次進會議室的畫面,向他們兩個詢問。8964 copyright protection83PENANAiO8iEVfN0P 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANA5wXEc5XRfO
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「唉唉對啊…。」徐捷岳嘆了長氣。8964 copyright protection83PENANAIE21htiBbt 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANA5wUsPPQX2G
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「維軍你要救救我們呀……」珠姐哀嚎。8964 copyright protection83PENANA7KBSqgMfog 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAZwTjJl2AFk
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「好啦…就二十分鐘。不過…」8964 copyright protection83PENANA8GxFOcJnnp 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAtnHHpNO4DZ
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「 「 「 啊啊啊啊啊啊! 」 」 」我還沒說完他們兩個就興奮的大叫了。8964 copyright protection83PENANAdrx5dzcmPk 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAQVLTcpv2Os
8964 copyright protection83PENANAUFkg6xB1hk 維尼
「欸…等等先不要激動啊你們兩個!重點是我會嗎?」8964 copyright protection83PENANA5ZskguxPJm 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAWxQGDfW0Fm
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「哎呀放心啦這個你輕鬆。那我先傳給你題目,然後我們要問的是……」徐捷岳娓娓道來他們面臨的數學挑戰,聽著的同時,我打開了訊息。8964 copyright protection83PENANA45icdKUmRz 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAV3yLvpYOK7
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87Please respect copyright.PENANAlE1Nq4pXMk
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「剛剛好像看到妳了呢。在會議室。」傳送出去。8964 copyright protection83PENANA5MRWC8BISM 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAC4wsEiITti
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87Please respect copyright.PENANAIotaLYcnru
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我掛了通話,開拾收拾起了凌亂的桌子。8964 copyright protection83PENANAwWEegtOWvt 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANANdsd8zMfrQ
8964 copyright protection83PENANAQYMrjksYoz 維尼
不知道過了多久,我的手機訊息鈴聲響了。8964 copyright protection83PENANAFMKnfAhUho 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAGjbjILyw9a
8964 copyright protection83PENANAz11pFVPtIh 維尼
「嗯?」8964 copyright protection83PENANALGqhkVy9wN 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAyLnsnFCG63
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「妳剛剛不是在跟徐捷岳他們語音?」我將東西擺放好後,向妳回覆。8964 copyright protection83PENANAUKogC9RYbq 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAZDEBVwzfgF
8964 copyright protection83PENANAMSGNDSr2XN 維尼
「嗯嗯對呀,用數學。」8964 copyright protection83PENANABDMTGYhp0W 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAmgctEIBrS6
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「剛剛我有進去呢。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAWXUuTMhgEy 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANA2X3n3IWEVV
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「嗯?我沒有發現呢,而且我也很早就掛了,洗澡。」看到妳的回覆後我愣了一下。8964 copyright protection83PENANAV3r1rBBThv 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAbGJmAjUYty
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真的,沒有看到我嗎?8964 copyright protection83PENANA1ADXme9Jjb 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAaEqR2TrdBa
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而且不是說這陣子都沒有打算,跟任何人打語音電話了嗎?8964 copyright protection83PENANAgFEL5mW0Oy 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAY8RacpO7D8
8964 copyright protection83PENANA5UjkBLI8bz 維尼
「不過妳不是說不太想講話嗎?」很試探性,有些刻意我知道,但這個是我當時能想到最委婉的表達方式了。8964 copyright protection83PENANAp7VepQd7xH 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANApmhVgBs5ga
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「嗯嗯所以我只有聽他們講話而已啊。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAUBNk6YapSO 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAf9bdMZTDU0
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87Please respect copyright.PENANA0JexluwYtz
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有種奇妙的情緒使我打了個冷顫。8964 copyright protection83PENANA9E64mVXMcG 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAoeLYaf6AHl
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或許我不該繼續問下去了。8964 copyright protection83PENANApWUOHK7zHs 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAzz0BJ05EXQ
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還好我有做到,也轉移了當下的話題,就像是什麼都沒發生。8964 copyright protection83PENANAkMJxoFoM2Q 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAWSNJEL8xnw
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畢竟,再問下去,好像對彼此都沒有好處。8964 copyright protection83PENANAPQ4CvbAx9K 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANARnbkve7W12
8964 copyright protection83PENANAZtaKi9zxpF 維尼
我相信妳,可是,我怕我又會多想。8964 copyright protection83PENANAUF9ApG0o0m 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAeUKZK48VzE
8964 copyright protection83PENANAodPYSJHmOi 維尼
以為妳在躲我。8964 copyright protection83PENANA4AqlzoIdtS 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANA4dfGOdeoex
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87Please respect copyright.PENANA5s9emouBqi
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87Please respect copyright.PENANALVU1DtSLOx
8964 copyright protection83PENANAgv172j0ATz 維尼
距離開學降臨僅剩幾天。8964 copyright protection83PENANAAFj62vRddD 維尼
可能是習慣了,我對妳有時的忽冷忽熱也無所謂了,妳冷淡,我也跟著冷淡,妳分享事情,我也跟著分享事情,變成了這種被動的相處模式。8964 copyright protection83PENANAH8ZM34sp7T 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAIuzCgXZVKD
8964 copyright protection83PENANAOKk8E86M59 維尼
我知道我在做違背自己意願的蠢事,但我真的別無他法了。8964 copyright protection83PENANAGGDwr0KVYf 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANA718ZUXEGJP
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就這樣到了開學前幾天。8964 copyright protection83PENANAvGCfcku8j3 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAfJ9IfpFJfq
8964 copyright protection83PENANAPYXBZmcXV2 維尼
鑒於寒假的經驗,我對我們接下來的相處模式有種迷茫感。8964 copyright protection83PENANAOCWN3aZfUc 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAUiIHXMXorQ
8964 copyright protection83PENANAOUbJGxTvEX 維尼
更何況當時那種局面。分班,高二課業變忙,挑戰性越來越高。8964 copyright protection83PENANAzjsQWyAdTQ 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANA8Iumb0QsD7
8964 copyright protection83PENANACztnqgQtjK 維尼
所以我提議了中午跟妳去拿餐。8964 copyright protection83PENANAACg7f4xb0G 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAndxCut4aYN
8964 copyright protection83PENANAAPZETAldk7 維尼
至少這樣每天都有見面的機會了,也排除之前困惑我們很久的誰找誰的問題(說真的這個只能說當時我們兩個不太成熟吧)。8964 copyright protection83PENANAzw34xxaDrd 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANA2mShwjZZJU
8964 copyright protection83PENANAgWxF7KejbW 維尼
希望有了個保障才能安心入睡。8964 copyright protection83PENANAp4t2qrg0A4 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANACofq7qEh1q
8964 copyright protection83PENANAazx1C2AAje 維尼
只是,我那時候才意識到,真的不太像在談感情了呢,反而有點像是在破遊戲關卡,每一步都如此戰戰兢兢。8964 copyright protection83PENANAlrM7ouinXp 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAPzPyQp2cSr
8964 copyright protection83PENANAvDb41ocjMO 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAue4BUvRdHF
8964 copyright protection83PENANASeFVRVvzZn 維尼
幸好開學時我們的氣氛緩和了不少。8964 copyright protection83PENANAdbCYKaeGTC 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANALbQmRnDcse
8964 copyright protection83PENANA8LHEzEbOlj 維尼
一來,妳向我說妳最近憶起那些糾纏妳許久不好的煩惱,所以一直處在鬱卒的狀態。8964 copyright protection83PENANAGdS2FlvBIJ 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANABaCXgQPrxa
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二來,收到了妳送我的生日禮物,這陣子疲倦的心靈舒緩了不少,感動及感激的正面情緒湧現。8964 copyright protection83PENANAEDmIkmCvSQ 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAbMjLGlN0aw
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三來,或許吧,我接受事實了。8964 copyright protection83PENANAFSBPj8pHCV 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAMrIkXlwHRJ
8964 copyright protection83PENANAV8esHHbxK5 維尼
至少自己是這麼認為的。8964 copyright protection83PENANAEjGAIwxe7g 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAyoo0W8KB9O
8964 copyright protection83PENANA6Sf0pWMRLm 維尼
但九月十月這段時間我越來越不知道我是誰了。日記寫的凌亂,中飯吃不下去,有時會放空整天,而且越來越頻繁,胃的惡化嚴重到,我還去照胃鏡,還被醫生說可能要吃一整年的胃藥。8964 copyright protection83PENANAQUqCSVhxwm 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANA6SKRLYuvis
8964 copyright protection83PENANAim1j32pOKS 維尼
心情也吞噬著唸書的本分。8964 copyright protection83PENANAVhPKKa6LSQ 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAhn3pYy0ECq
8964 copyright protection83PENANAV1DHWVG5jg 維尼
儘管複習考,第一次段考我考的其實不差,但我已經摸不著唸書的感覺了,心情的鬱卒吞噬了唸書的慾望。8964 copyright protection83PENANAdAj7AvuxfX 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAPI6RItQFDL
8964 copyright protection83PENANAu0sUEVDLp3 維尼
我這兩次段考前的週末是整天放空的,不過我沒有把這個事實告訴過任何人。8964 copyright protection83PENANAgCICeKfbnP 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANA2eMNg5AhnJ
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因為很丟臉阿……。原本最該認真的時刻應該就是段考前的時刻,我卻在那段時間荒廢,沉浸在苦苦的哀愁中。8964 copyright protection83PENANAApUkRLY969 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAcCvujea0Ue
8964 copyright protection83PENANA0OGla0PuQz 維尼
現在的我真的很想回到過去給自己一巴掌。8964 copyright protection83PENANAnb5IGpdqb0 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAmkn86JCDBH
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真的很可笑呢,當時的我,或許妳也是這麼認為才有了疏離感吧?8964 copyright protection83PENANA2mrd4gadhH 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAzTaMPHHnpr
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只是我沒有悔恨的意思,因為那是我的必經路程,只可惜當時妳的情況,也沒法給我適時拉一把吧。8964 copyright protection83PENANArlZX679g8k 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAXln8JdG1Zu
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於是我走火入魔了。8964 copyright protection83PENANAFVPqa3yx6m 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAyQqSBzfSTu
8964 copyright protection83PENANAeg8ZJ5omB8 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAK6rKOnWUHx
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87Please respect copyright.PENANAmH7h02CUyR
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我不該一直傳訊息跟妳討論我的情緒的,只是不這麼做,我那天的唸書計畫就會荒廢。8964 copyright protection83PENANA9rhIpEpYzu 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAyqLDncuf4d
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我不該太在意妳在妳的朋友圈跟在我的身上付出的多寡,不過真的很難啊…,妳說妳撐牙器拆掉後才打算跟人出去玩,我也期盼著可以跟妳出去的機會,四個月未見的心情真的很難掩飾妳知道嗎?…我真的只希望,只希望,就妳我兩個能獨自聚在一起,聊聊天,做做自己的事也好,我只是想要這樣而已…就這樣而已…8964 copyright protection83PENANASDcu4XVGRf 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAcki1hWQhEi
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但我們的聊天內容中充斥著妳跟妳朋友的各個計畫,各個出去遊玩的規劃。8964 copyright protection83PENANASdmgObzvVn 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANARyho2izELj
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儘管我很喜歡聽妳的日常分享,內心卻時而有些隱痛。8964 copyright protection83PENANAtgxnsFB1mH 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANA5suHK6ChqU
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失望……嗎?倒也不是呢,就只是一種心痛罷了吧。8964 copyright protection83PENANAP3d4qV9y6V 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAwMhb4fdCZJ
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87Please respect copyright.PENANADHJJHA48j1
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87Please respect copyright.PENANAgz55ud4cFO
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我不該一直在拿餐時的走廊上刻意牽起妳的手,不適當的時機這麼做,顯得我需求感很重。8964 copyright protection83PENANAkw2atTNgEq 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAGyBWn06pOC
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在走廊上抱妳的那次,我真的內心快要崩潰了。8964 copyright protection83PENANAyGV2gVrdPi 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANA1mNAfCG3Cc
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87Please respect copyright.PENANAMgaT9DiwYU
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而牽手這些親密舉動是兩情相悅吧,讓我憶起了妳曾經說的那句話:8964 copyright protection83PENANAPCtkpb8MIU 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAmYGaljJWBR
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87Please respect copyright.PENANAExnYUdcJUs
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訊息上每天固定說晚安是一種習慣,但牽手擁抱卻不是相同的概念呢。8964 copyright protection83PENANA6SBxoHXVX6 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAFoahkqkH31
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87Please respect copyright.PENANAAoPYqTJIPZ
8964 copyright protection83PENANA6fNzzfOSl4 維尼
當下我對妳這句話無動於衷,抑或是無法理解吧。8964 copyright protection83PENANAhfOY6jeyhg 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANA9ZcXDHl5PJ
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87Please respect copyright.PENANAJe7vSgH0Ac
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不過現在回想起來,挺中肯的呢。互道晚安只是尊重我們是情侶的關係,而牽手,僅僅只是因為,一種感覺。8964 copyright protection83PENANAIghfgplby0 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANANSd5kzSzXX
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或許有些現實吧,但挺感同身受的。一直以來困擾過為何妳從沒主動牽我過這個事實,我能理解前期是基於害羞,基於羞赧,基於新知,基於尊重。8964 copyright protection83PENANAYvgY9xWEgt 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAw2iKuL4lli
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但後期,沒有了兩個獨自相處的時間,這些真的,真的不值得一提。8964 copyright protection83PENANAVEqaW97Xn9 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANA3agMDRrHGA
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而為什麼我當時會想跟妳探討這類問題?8964 copyright protection83PENANA5oTUTjLTFQ 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAChNdJRLXUu
8964 copyright protection83PENANAY4mUmcNPM7 維尼
不知道,可能我發瘋了吧。8964 copyright protection83PENANAX1mT3OcZ2Q 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAKHBvd3izg1
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可惜妳也沒有阻止我,而是靜靜地聽著,靜靜地短訊息回覆,靜靜地當作一切都沒發生。8964 copyright protection83PENANA3ayfd7P94r 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANA1gR5PgHeOv
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87Please respect copyright.PENANAZ0scs619UI
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在段考前,我提議:8964 copyright protection83PENANAuh77eDjPAz 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAXNAJk6wFDB
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這個週末一起出去走走吧。8964 copyright protection83PENANA96cbgFBpJ7 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAU3IOrULrYm
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嗯嗯。8964 copyright protection83PENANAkRHlSvhIpy 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAalHEtjy0dV
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我也自己約法三章,在這一個禮拜,專心於第一次段考的課業,不再試著向妳回那些沒有結論的溝通訊息。8964 copyright protection83PENANAvQZLpzlFbh 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANA3zcEeGaOtw
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我努力的克制。8964 copyright protection83PENANAI6AFAWszSD 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAvQFRkVf5Yd
8964 copyright protection83PENANAXPANeDxUrn 維尼
成功的秘訣是什麼,那就是做絕。8964 copyright protection83PENANAIlnGATpdim 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAvR59C4sh2W
8964 copyright protection83PENANA4Fspvcr5KN 維尼
要是我沒有達成我給自己的任務,我就決定要給我們的關係一個了斷。8964 copyright protection83PENANA07RgP6Z2i5 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAGn3Br15CJ0
8964 copyright protection83PENANAwgWqX8Zoz2 維尼
很絕情我知道,但正是因為不想要失去妳,我才會這樣做的。8964 copyright protection83PENANA9dQC2n0M3U 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAsohiWgBcJR
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因為不想失去,所以就能克制了。8964 copyright protection83PENANAeCQHtVo15o 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAX44K0F6R71
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原本事情都很順,而我們也走在正軌上。8964 copyright protection83PENANAQtxTcLt2oQ 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAvvV51urh3M
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而就在某天拿餐的路程中聊天時,妳跟我說妳要跟刷刷禮拜六出去遊玩。8964 copyright protection83PENANAlqbp3mFZxp 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANA7WPIwyFmdg
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我愣住了,說不出話來。8964 copyright protection83PENANA4CJ7y30xtD 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANA9ayLRSmoxd
8964 copyright protection83PENANAJx7QZ5kCEI 維尼
那是我約妳的那一天啊,那一天啊…8964 copyright protection83PENANAiULi2eoFeA 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANANvmFPAEbNb
8964 copyright protection83PENANADgYz8amV2z 維尼
我跟妳提醒到,不過我們那天不是有約嗎?8964 copyright protection83PENANAr6DzVkryG9 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAz3NkfotQPv
8964 copyright protection83PENANAwGwntjAKX3 維尼
妳轉過身來,跟我說,那就隔天啊,禮拜天啊。8964 copyright protection83PENANAJgFy7J9U4X 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAp9tANt60L8
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87Please respect copyright.PENANAYMsmTDzH84
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87Please respect copyright.PENANAiRbcMmJdx8
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我承認我過去也有跟妳毀約過。只是明明妳可以理解那是逼不得已的…我不像妳們家一樣,我爸絕對不會同意我們在一起的。8964 copyright protection83PENANAjwjV89a6pM 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAlnDxv1r3mc
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也許妳還記得實驗課說要去小七唸書的邀約?我說的就是這個毀約。8964 copyright protection83PENANAK5Ri6PvNn1 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANA79AMKcjFEm
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我很抱歉,記那麼久是因為,我也覺得我很不應該,應該要等我爸允許假日去看書後,再跟妳提起邀約。8964 copyright protection83PENANAfbN8ejhmNu 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANADA1LmIC7Kc
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87Please respect copyright.PENANAPas1HdWkB9
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87Please respect copyright.PENANAjUjOwzDMPf
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對不起,是我的錯。8964 copyright protection83PENANASXr7AotllC 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANA4off6FWBAS
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87Please respect copyright.PENANAsjwdmOV5nf
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但眼前的妳給了我一種茫然。8964 copyright protection83PENANAEzhOIoWkfR 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAQkZlLALbnJ
8964 copyright protection83PENANAP09tWubEzV 維尼
說真的不會很在意妳跟朋友的邀約跟我撞期,那都是可允許的,倒不如我很樂意調時間。8964 copyright protection83PENANARWYlhnqxg3 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAWnKMRIMpt3
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只是妳那時真的讓我很不知所措呢。8964 copyright protection83PENANA3QMcMp5y5z 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAjfpWcgVdxp
8964 copyright protection83PENANAYyNXSQo2f0 維尼
妳的語氣像是要一筆帶過,更何況……8964 copyright protection83PENANAGchpJMJp7d 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANANBXFdXhw5R
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87Please respect copyright.PENANA1hWZUo8rKI
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在一起這麼久了,我們什麼時候禮拜日出去過呢?8964 copyright protection83PENANANaXugjXDUa 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANA7Mm9ptmVjA
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87Please respect copyright.PENANAg2BqwD96cP
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隨後,妳也沒有再多講,對這個邀約也沒有了下文。8964 copyright protection83PENANAfte1wggusG 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAyXq5BmunsE
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幾天後,我淡淡的道:8964 copyright protection83PENANAtbV36GW5IB 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANArWyp44ZQ3L
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「不然,就原本約的那週的下個禮拜吧。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAUB8dPrlPxi 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAIC8bz4xUxd
8964 copyright protection83PENANAXp9U0838An 維尼
「嗯嗯。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAfzS4eZOxgK 維尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAPS6ly0vqh1
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87Please respect copyright.PENANAseWtev5ewR
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