或許是不能再聽到妳的聲音,抑或線上暑輔的開始搗亂了我們的生活節奏,有種若即若離的疏遠,而雙方卻保持沉默應對。8964 copyright protection90PENANAHWAiRBAkh7 維尼
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知道因為分班,我們的交集勢必會少了許多,但對我來說無所謂啊,我還是會分享今天發生了什麼,今天心情怎樣……可是在那暑輔剛開始的一個禮拜,很明顯的感受出妳對我的冷淡。8964 copyright protection90PENANAzTrqbMmniu 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANA7Fx1W4DQcE
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「嗯嗯。」夜晚睡前簡訊聊天時,妳句點了每一句話,留我一個人在原地。不知道我現在是該問妳今天過得如何,抑或直接道了晚安然後就寢?8964 copyright protection90PENANAWN3i9YRaTQ 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAmPgmRALDcA
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說真的勉強自己去維持以前的相處模式真的有些累呢,問妳今天做什麼,妳不再如以前會透露些妳今天對這些事物的情緒,而是冷冰冰的,條列式的,如同向長官報告,一一列成清單後傳送給我,就沒有了下文。8964 copyright protection90PENANAAbEYhbXGVM 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAS2L04HcBhx
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我真的害怕我究竟做錯了什麼。8964 copyright protection90PENANAoI5xpEhbfj 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAn0jS2GJOeJ
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但多想是徒然,我總是想著或許這段時間妳情緒不好,經歷太多生活壓力—裝撐牙器及剛進入新班級,我需要做的就是在妳低潮時,帶領這段感情繼續走著。8964 copyright protection90PENANA3JRermXa0H 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANACp5LMpsMwp
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94Please respect copyright.PENANAqLBMMA5fAi
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可是真的受不住了。8964 copyright protection90PENANAzOZkyWxybZ 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAn2GMLzxZ3X
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94Please respect copyright.PENANATkV1io5Hdh
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一個禮拜過去,兩個禮拜過去,而妳對我的態度依舊是忽冷忽熱,或許妳真的沒有那個意願要這樣吧,我也勸自己不要多想,多做點自己的事提升自己,多往自己的夢想邁進,而不是拘泥於這並無是非的情感問題。8964 copyright protection90PENANA5FZQG9B61q 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANA1ac8YGggWp
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有段時間,我努力應戰即將到來的數學競賽,我跟雲層的高手組成一個團隊參戰,而每個禮拜都有線上補習上課磨練。8964 copyright protection90PENANAagbzcLIaLQ 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAX1qsiJ6AdK
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數學模擬題目使我徬徨,讓我品嚐到時間的付出不一定正比於回饋。8964 copyright protection90PENANAtXrDiZAWme 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANA5nbMe22bK9
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就如同對妳一樣。8964 copyright protection90PENANAYtH44GtqiE 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANARM2fIy6Q8P
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常常有種不想要努力的念頭,偶爾會在假日的下午放空發呆,抑或去海邊吹吹風舒緩疲倦的心靈。8964 copyright protection90PENANApLEjKO8GVY 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAjyXeFyqdQ8
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而這些壓抑許久的情緒,在考試那一天,久違的小爆炸了。8964 copyright protection90PENANARutHWZKuFi 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAaXMxex6k3L
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94Please respect copyright.PENANACu1dec9AYt
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我是真的在車上回訊息回到哽咽。8964 copyright protection90PENANAniKEFmCfB9 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAOdN7rDP7yE
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94Please respect copyright.PENANAqLbasEwQ4U
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但妳的訊息給我的感覺是,妳對我當時的狀況漠視。8964 copyright protection90PENANAQs2vXXmoa4 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAARgdveKj8r
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我到了雲層的本部門口,等待遊覽車的發動前往考場。8964 copyright protection90PENANA0czMcY7luT 維尼
大家熱絡的討論數學跟聊日常(畢竟大家也很久沒見了),而我一個人顯得不是他們這一夥的,忐忑不安,原地徘徊,手上的手機放不下。8964 copyright protection90PENANAYukGVZeHdE 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAcMxAFrb0k4
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畢竟有些心緒不穩,明明沒有發生什麼事情我卻快要失控,從我將這些訊息打到妳的聊天室就可以知道了。8964 copyright protection90PENANAT1NSA2xZJF 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAbwpxGJZHc9
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「加油,希望你能自己成功走出。」8964 copyright protection90PENANArTUZclqrV3 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAFnw0g9zzZO
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很簡短,妳回覆了,不過本來我也不期望妳說些讓我安心的話語。8964 copyright protection90PENANALugijHWgFZ 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAOxWSjSQgrK
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因為我從那刻終於知道,或許我再也沒機會從妳那感到安心了。8964 copyright protection90PENANATOQbALBXtl 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAVhhuFu1Qp6
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哽咽中,我假裝調侃的回道:8964 copyright protection90PENANAZ0ckV91P6R 維尼
「哈哈謝謝,我就把這句話當作妳對我的勉勵吧。」8964 copyright protection90PENANAl5v7QXlsMB 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAO3flwse9UY
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說真的很奇怪呢,明明妳也沒做什麼,妳也只是用跟平常一樣的方法回覆我的訊息。8964 copyright protection90PENANAJEnJM9Y0ha 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANA1TEEsqXG42
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可是我從心底可以深深的感受到,現在的我絕對是不得人看的慘樣。8964 copyright protection90PENANAKvXcQ5B6uM 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAwJVNLBm7tV
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94Please respect copyright.PENANAnac0wUnrLJ
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94Please respect copyright.PENANAXnX1A1GYU2
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我總是在對我們關係感到茫然的時候,才會打那些讓妳覺得莫名其妙的文。8964 copyright protection90PENANAJJg70nRG5a 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAvQfTEZOJfQ
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或許妳覺得那只是我平常的習慣。8964 copyright protection90PENANAJyMVKKZsXU 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAwaMhzhBkce
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我也跟妳說過,我好像只會對妳說這些話。8964 copyright protection90PENANA5MDOveQnS2 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAiTBgiW63M1
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總是在最後談完沒有結果的交談後,跟妳說那些是我多想時會有的負面情緒,希望妳不要將其放在心上。8964 copyright protection90PENANAy1X02xH0v8 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANA2w8ZpEi6vs
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真的,我真的很討厭這樣的自己。8964 copyright protection90PENANAOHzCKWPIMp 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAp6iPTLoPov
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明明自己已經快不行了,還要向妳示意我沒有事情,希望妳可以不要放在心上,繼續走著妳的日子。8964 copyright protection90PENANARlgpdKRmFd 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAakkGaOhNtv
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94Please respect copyright.PENANAiDyN4oE1Px
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不過現在憶起,只能說當時的自己很強韌。8964 copyright protection90PENANAalQ1nOWCfv 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAKYtyPSlWOO
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一個人撐著這若即若離的關係,很累,很累,每一次找妳談事情,都是我每一次的崩潰。8964 copyright protection90PENANAEHmgwdWLn9 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAe0CABbbpr0
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94Please respect copyright.PENANAeIUAV92yXE
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之後還有一個小插曲。8964 copyright protection90PENANAGoio2A7Lbt 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANADWt9fiR966
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某天深夜,我算著阿蘭交付的作業時,徐捷岳突然打了電話過來。8964 copyright protection90PENANAkoETIIEsuO 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAFQONoYesSn
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「喂,怎麼了。」8964 copyright protection90PENANAHBlsmW7T9r 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAvrF6ejIFeA
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「你怎麼不讀我訊息,受傷!」徐捷岳那邊看起來很火,但我聽得出來他語氣裏面帶有些玩味之心。「我給你連結,你來救我們數學!」8964 copyright protection90PENANAqk2PC8ncaE 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAqcXxBDZENu
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蛤……?8964 copyright protection90PENANA5Bh0753jNw 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAmBGY4PEi5b
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「等等,什麼狀況?」我還未反應過來時徐捷岳已經切掉通話,留下一臉狐疑的我。8964 copyright protection90PENANA3n8ua0SmbE 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANALTZm6K2cvo
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我嘆了口氣,看著頭頂的時鐘,好吧,就休息一下好了,今天也奮鬥很久了。8964 copyright protection90PENANAFxV3L1vZ5b 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANANZ5Tk5epJY
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我打開了訊息,在點開徐捷岳的聊天室時瞄到了下面熟悉的對話框。8964 copyright protection90PENANA3XGg4mvkCV 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAYjinX053mM
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妳還沒讀我訊息呢。8964 copyright protection90PENANAtKgt6kasn9 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAAIag1urXFK
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但接下來的畫面讓我情緒波動。8964 copyright protection90PENANAs2oazZl2kU 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANASYAJaUinN4
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會議室裡面,有徐捷岳,珠姐,以及……8964 copyright protection90PENANA1RBdbtft1R 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAyzYQjNoWSs
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妳……?8964 copyright protection90PENANAF8kYmwhGWq 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAJIR9KGJPDg
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妳們三個人都在裡面。8964 copyright protection90PENANAvMG0kq5dhc 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANA32so62Ah4q
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忽視了徐捷岳跟珠姐在語音的吵雜聲,我按下了掛掉鍵。8964 copyright protection90PENANAfW8lcIV7av 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAbyE6pWhExW
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我愣在原地不發一語。8964 copyright protection90PENANAxQWztIw84T 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAYWuy5KSTRf
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剛剛那是……?8964 copyright protection90PENANARKzfnxixMS 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAm2nXUUqx32
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過了兩三分鐘,像是做好了萬全準備,我又再度進去了會議室。8964 copyright protection90PENANABjYfzR31hl 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAz9WC10NeGM
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可是只剩下徐捷岳跟珠姐兩人的頭框。8964 copyright protection90PENANAHYaTv7vvir 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAmGbTT6VO9u
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「欸你回來了呀!!!嚇死我了你剛剛怎麼退出了啊。」8964 copyright protection90PENANAJkn2SrVo8j 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAHjja7czHdE
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「你好你好歡迎~」8964 copyright protection90PENANAkkTiQ46Cp1 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANArfoWTU9Lql
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徐捷岳和珠姐似乎挺歡迎我的到來。8964 copyright protection90PENANAPJcEHPrZJS 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAayCrUlwXdQ
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「嗨嗨……所以你們現在在……寫數學?」我試圖忘記剛剛第一次進會議室的畫面,向他們兩個詢問。8964 copyright protection90PENANAuv2Nqg98VZ 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAvCKJlhasPj
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「唉唉對啊…。」徐捷岳嘆了長氣。8964 copyright protection90PENANA97PL1VSlij 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAVL7rqCOZ2F
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「維軍你要救救我們呀……」珠姐哀嚎。8964 copyright protection90PENANAtN98674Jjr 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAZkj6cX8MbB
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「好啦…就二十分鐘。不過…」8964 copyright protection90PENANAByjCcig6ZP 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAYeioPI3TKY
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「 「 「 啊啊啊啊啊啊! 」 」 」我還沒說完他們兩個就興奮的大叫了。8964 copyright protection90PENANAAp3TOzs6QI 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAtukUKVQpGL
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「欸…等等先不要激動啊你們兩個!重點是我會嗎?」8964 copyright protection90PENANAax7Je8huzi 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAqnBdWQERx4
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「哎呀放心啦這個你輕鬆。那我先傳給你題目,然後我們要問的是……」徐捷岳娓娓道來他們面臨的數學挑戰,聽著的同時,我打開了訊息。8964 copyright protection90PENANAoGYp0DwYS4 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAJ8eliBN3mV
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94Please respect copyright.PENANA4brq6fmNVu
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「剛剛好像看到妳了呢。在會議室。」傳送出去。8964 copyright protection90PENANAizotvYqjTM 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANA2xBp9tMfGh
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94Please respect copyright.PENANAdU7sYednjo
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我掛了通話,開拾收拾起了凌亂的桌子。8964 copyright protection90PENANA5nHwizxzTW 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAWRblSVvItf
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不知道過了多久,我的手機訊息鈴聲響了。8964 copyright protection90PENANAU6LylR4BY9 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANA5BXD5RQPqc
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「嗯?」8964 copyright protection90PENANAsziGSHPh6d 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAzQCBvxGEp7
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「妳剛剛不是在跟徐捷岳他們語音?」我將東西擺放好後,向妳回覆。8964 copyright protection90PENANAiyOKmoqxi0 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANArZWbnmMHKH
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「嗯嗯對呀,用數學。」8964 copyright protection90PENANA78t45UjVz1 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANA67CGBQnUdp
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「剛剛我有進去呢。」8964 copyright protection90PENANAwjL5stBytJ 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAmUtq85GJXO
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「嗯?我沒有發現呢,而且我也很早就掛了,洗澡。」看到妳的回覆後我愣了一下。8964 copyright protection90PENANAFDhBQ0SA2e 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAJ7QVTp64Kq
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真的,沒有看到我嗎?8964 copyright protection90PENANANOdy550MVN 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAQ03Gwcavu6
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而且不是說這陣子都沒有打算,跟任何人打語音電話了嗎?8964 copyright protection90PENANAeRXLM6JOEN 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAZ01D4nITCJ
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「不過妳不是說不太想講話嗎?」很試探性,有些刻意我知道,但這個是我當時能想到最委婉的表達方式了。8964 copyright protection90PENANAn5rpVUUb94 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAk0x1zVVpxq
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「嗯嗯所以我只有聽他們講話而已啊。」8964 copyright protection90PENANABeok6ssvYv 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAr6aCx7bxUo
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94Please respect copyright.PENANAoBjArtXchi
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有種奇妙的情緒使我打了個冷顫。8964 copyright protection90PENANABUkqs4gaE8 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAK1QUe58nD0
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或許我不該繼續問下去了。8964 copyright protection90PENANAVFEHM5msli 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAyWt97gFo8K
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還好我有做到,也轉移了當下的話題,就像是什麼都沒發生。8964 copyright protection90PENANAivBUrNkFTD 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANA9Hw3aDGknb
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畢竟,再問下去,好像對彼此都沒有好處。8964 copyright protection90PENANAIs7CiJ1jB0 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAfY1Zo4sKhB
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我相信妳,可是,我怕我又會多想。8964 copyright protection90PENANAAvP1spURGU 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAL5LYlEHLQU
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以為妳在躲我。8964 copyright protection90PENANA7yjXiruUqf 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANArSK9t94Lkz
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94Please respect copyright.PENANAh5STexs71K
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94Please respect copyright.PENANAN3h2sKdtpm
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距離開學降臨僅剩幾天。8964 copyright protection90PENANAb9mcRDz153 維尼
可能是習慣了,我對妳有時的忽冷忽熱也無所謂了,妳冷淡,我也跟著冷淡,妳分享事情,我也跟著分享事情,變成了這種被動的相處模式。8964 copyright protection90PENANAJRGCxtXZeD 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANANTIaEs8hh8
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我知道我在做違背自己意願的蠢事,但我真的別無他法了。8964 copyright protection90PENANAgj2du2jpUY 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAYnls26RqaV
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就這樣到了開學前幾天。8964 copyright protection90PENANAiDyCfLtMVM 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAl0zqokUW4U
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鑒於寒假的經驗,我對我們接下來的相處模式有種迷茫感。8964 copyright protection90PENANAZ2aWH94HkK 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAER0fc2Vrsu
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更何況當時那種局面。分班,高二課業變忙,挑戰性越來越高。8964 copyright protection90PENANAfyqI1MnhZS 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAZbVw4necLC
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所以我提議了中午跟妳去拿餐。8964 copyright protection90PENANA6f2TvCcSgl 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAcxbYJHoLnK
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至少這樣每天都有見面的機會了,也排除之前困惑我們很久的誰找誰的問題(說真的這個只能說當時我們兩個不太成熟吧)。8964 copyright protection90PENANAzHjPwb2G73 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAcFSRkZoag5
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希望有了個保障才能安心入睡。8964 copyright protection90PENANAvtaPM5vLhG 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAbOZ870A61w
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只是,我那時候才意識到,真的不太像在談感情了呢,反而有點像是在破遊戲關卡,每一步都如此戰戰兢兢。8964 copyright protection90PENANAIZHJWZ9ebl 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAXxvrsMXm3a
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94Please respect copyright.PENANAC04prF1zVW
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幸好開學時我們的氣氛緩和了不少。8964 copyright protection90PENANAHMhKB9vMZc 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAnXqNRZ8asj
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一來,妳向我說妳最近憶起那些糾纏妳許久不好的煩惱,所以一直處在鬱卒的狀態。8964 copyright protection90PENANAvrLDocX0vJ 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAhdH6SQWB5y
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二來,收到了妳送我的生日禮物,這陣子疲倦的心靈舒緩了不少,感動及感激的正面情緒湧現。8964 copyright protection90PENANAaqj3OUdpB3 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANATVVBOvqc5K
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三來,或許吧,我接受事實了。8964 copyright protection90PENANACdEkgZ1N0U 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANANKzhS6ENc5
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至少自己是這麼認為的。8964 copyright protection90PENANABIccDwQhQ3 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANA7HiMokPXBm
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但九月十月這段時間我越來越不知道我是誰了。日記寫的凌亂,中飯吃不下去,有時會放空整天,而且越來越頻繁,胃的惡化嚴重到,我還去照胃鏡,還被醫生說可能要吃一整年的胃藥。8964 copyright protection90PENANAh4nMmNPu1i 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAtZyeQ7HoVT
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心情也吞噬著唸書的本分。8964 copyright protection90PENANAwltLtlLrw7 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAGdAPXLv5a9
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儘管複習考,第一次段考我考的其實不差,但我已經摸不著唸書的感覺了,心情的鬱卒吞噬了唸書的慾望。8964 copyright protection90PENANApSTlP3VUhc 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANA90utLDIJZJ
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我這兩次段考前的週末是整天放空的,不過我沒有把這個事實告訴過任何人。8964 copyright protection90PENANAEBwEBJPaEV 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAypWghNbtK4
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因為很丟臉阿……。原本最該認真的時刻應該就是段考前的時刻,我卻在那段時間荒廢,沉浸在苦苦的哀愁中。8964 copyright protection90PENANApduJnR2teA 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAIphi2CDRVC
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現在的我真的很想回到過去給自己一巴掌。8964 copyright protection90PENANAlvJtYdRDeo 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANA2uurSvwq0D
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真的很可笑呢,當時的我,或許妳也是這麼認為才有了疏離感吧?8964 copyright protection90PENANAdESqYwtmKm 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAloKvtt9qWv
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只是我沒有悔恨的意思,因為那是我的必經路程,只可惜當時妳的情況,也沒法給我適時拉一把吧。8964 copyright protection90PENANA4AZqIiJWwi 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANA71zN7Wz1ws
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於是我走火入魔了。8964 copyright protection90PENANAqChmD4WqGz 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAch4Ha3bliR
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94Please respect copyright.PENANAPo4peZwFNM
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94Please respect copyright.PENANAsxwOGIJWUs
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我不該一直傳訊息跟妳討論我的情緒的,只是不這麼做,我那天的唸書計畫就會荒廢。8964 copyright protection90PENANACX32UVgOCX 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANANtrbPP2xDy
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我不該太在意妳在妳的朋友圈跟在我的身上付出的多寡,不過真的很難啊…,妳說妳撐牙器拆掉後才打算跟人出去玩,我也期盼著可以跟妳出去的機會,四個月未見的心情真的很難掩飾妳知道嗎?…我真的只希望,只希望,就妳我兩個能獨自聚在一起,聊聊天,做做自己的事也好,我只是想要這樣而已…就這樣而已…8964 copyright protection90PENANA7DVQmPOOfU 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANASeedSekUj7
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但我們的聊天內容中充斥著妳跟妳朋友的各個計畫,各個出去遊玩的規劃。8964 copyright protection90PENANAhvdiiE6BMq 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAPEZgNygFkr
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儘管我很喜歡聽妳的日常分享,內心卻時而有些隱痛。8964 copyright protection90PENANAd4jXC5VXzU 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAywpDH8guWD
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失望……嗎?倒也不是呢,就只是一種心痛罷了吧。8964 copyright protection90PENANA2b8unQ5l06 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAnOUB3Q0tZN
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94Please respect copyright.PENANAwYKLYVVbLZ
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94Please respect copyright.PENANAHF2rTlnMhC
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我不該一直在拿餐時的走廊上刻意牽起妳的手,不適當的時機這麼做,顯得我需求感很重。8964 copyright protection90PENANApw6Y3n1zqn 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAEbOjMB1h7o
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在走廊上抱妳的那次,我真的內心快要崩潰了。8964 copyright protection90PENANATHyJBBD412 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAiqMXZjsrVr
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94Please respect copyright.PENANAIYTrEZS93t
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而牽手這些親密舉動是兩情相悅吧,讓我憶起了妳曾經說的那句話:8964 copyright protection90PENANAn0yzAxDyBS 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAD1Hdy2wGaB
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94Please respect copyright.PENANAiDRawtmyUD
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訊息上每天固定說晚安是一種習慣,但牽手擁抱卻不是相同的概念呢。8964 copyright protection90PENANARe8lY4keBo 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAo9OLPHcf3H
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94Please respect copyright.PENANA192WvfvaKH
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當下我對妳這句話無動於衷,抑或是無法理解吧。8964 copyright protection90PENANAZxWV9zWbi5 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAyW1gTvTy55
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94Please respect copyright.PENANAeByjXFtmkO
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不過現在回想起來,挺中肯的呢。互道晚安只是尊重我們是情侶的關係,而牽手,僅僅只是因為,一種感覺。8964 copyright protection90PENANAbHL86WkuzU 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAivzujI4o1l
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或許有些現實吧,但挺感同身受的。一直以來困擾過為何妳從沒主動牽我過這個事實,我能理解前期是基於害羞,基於羞赧,基於新知,基於尊重。8964 copyright protection90PENANA4voBHua0Zr 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANA9x5yfZWi5Z
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但後期,沒有了兩個獨自相處的時間,這些真的,真的不值得一提。8964 copyright protection90PENANAWPwo1RqhTs 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANALrsHDkfyCi
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而為什麼我當時會想跟妳探討這類問題?8964 copyright protection90PENANAOcF7FaJ8i2 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANA7AjFF46OnK
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不知道,可能我發瘋了吧。8964 copyright protection90PENANAvMOIfvW0oC 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAliclYrAXQO
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可惜妳也沒有阻止我,而是靜靜地聽著,靜靜地短訊息回覆,靜靜地當作一切都沒發生。8964 copyright protection90PENANAhCwOsPiKno 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAeLeB1xnSbf
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94Please respect copyright.PENANAI9wdAPHW23
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在段考前,我提議:8964 copyright protection90PENANA1iWOl0MYuA 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAV2JRSE9NgU
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這個週末一起出去走走吧。8964 copyright protection90PENANA6Xe6f8yuS9 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANANdYQVidkje
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嗯嗯。8964 copyright protection90PENANA0KLpL8TCiA 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAp5HWfFsBvN
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我也自己約法三章,在這一個禮拜,專心於第一次段考的課業,不再試著向妳回那些沒有結論的溝通訊息。8964 copyright protection90PENANAp9j0CEpfsv 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAXzZwTWgJJF
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我努力的克制。8964 copyright protection90PENANAY4HgiLoN9P 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAZZiX4DnOD3
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成功的秘訣是什麼,那就是做絕。8964 copyright protection90PENANA55HenAnpCn 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAQohcPte9ep
8964 copyright protection90PENANAgnDmroW1ip 維尼
要是我沒有達成我給自己的任務,我就決定要給我們的關係一個了斷。8964 copyright protection90PENANAZIlooPzWqa 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAUkWvsR7W3o
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很絕情我知道,但正是因為不想要失去妳,我才會這樣做的。8964 copyright protection90PENANAgQ8Rz0yywn 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAAQZYJJdK6r
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因為不想失去,所以就能克制了。8964 copyright protection90PENANADCbuOp7Qmg 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAGyF7Gv8XsT
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原本事情都很順,而我們也走在正軌上。8964 copyright protection90PENANAPlkaWKwCVR 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAU41nYerU2D
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而就在某天拿餐的路程中聊天時,妳跟我說妳要跟刷刷禮拜六出去遊玩。8964 copyright protection90PENANAlc9NYyOmH8 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANABkI4CU5d3L
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我愣住了,說不出話來。8964 copyright protection90PENANAYtXyqsTK9t 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAYsER1KAZZS
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那是我約妳的那一天啊,那一天啊…8964 copyright protection90PENANAU3bNG0yZ1z 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAc7TIgUIidD
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我跟妳提醒到,不過我們那天不是有約嗎?8964 copyright protection90PENANAqEGPydkHjj 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAyFYJl3SIQ2
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妳轉過身來,跟我說,那就隔天啊,禮拜天啊。8964 copyright protection90PENANASxylwMuFyY 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAxJ6aO85dxf
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94Please respect copyright.PENANA1GDx9qAAQL
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94Please respect copyright.PENANAvz317Qtsuz
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我承認我過去也有跟妳毀約過。只是明明妳可以理解那是逼不得已的…我不像妳們家一樣,我爸絕對不會同意我們在一起的。8964 copyright protection90PENANAM1ENKrLvIg 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAJmrYE2strI
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也許妳還記得實驗課說要去小七唸書的邀約?我說的就是這個毀約。8964 copyright protection90PENANArRz6ZekIyS 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAuvKJcwnEBF
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我很抱歉,記那麼久是因為,我也覺得我很不應該,應該要等我爸允許假日去看書後,再跟妳提起邀約。8964 copyright protection90PENANAf6DhvgyvLT 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAikSfePavq2
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94Please respect copyright.PENANArkfHSe7AwB
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94Please respect copyright.PENANA0NYmJnsm6n
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對不起,是我的錯。8964 copyright protection90PENANAoHn6x9rg88 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAqueGS4xhPT
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94Please respect copyright.PENANAIPE0PDppq0
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但眼前的妳給了我一種茫然。8964 copyright protection90PENANAfPo9rDEebW 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAs4NItXxiyc
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說真的不會很在意妳跟朋友的邀約跟我撞期,那都是可允許的,倒不如我很樂意調時間。8964 copyright protection90PENANAGqtSIQ1mkA 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAlM0wl3IYV2
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只是妳那時真的讓我很不知所措呢。8964 copyright protection90PENANAjVSerSp5Ln 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANA0ercMswD1s
8964 copyright protection90PENANAcp6JEKtCJX 維尼
妳的語氣像是要一筆帶過,更何況……8964 copyright protection90PENANA18BdQElcqk 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAa27Jm1xXwq
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94Please respect copyright.PENANAtVUsogsalK
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在一起這麼久了,我們什麼時候禮拜日出去過呢?8964 copyright protection90PENANA7hdHfeTUoc 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANALrOdLQmUAG
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94Please respect copyright.PENANALhm10Sd7st
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隨後,妳也沒有再多講,對這個邀約也沒有了下文。8964 copyright protection90PENANArbXcP1QMDR 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAVlxVYhzJHD
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幾天後,我淡淡的道:8964 copyright protection90PENANAbeA2ifWGGe 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANA4hLO6Xyrxa
8964 copyright protection90PENANAz2mIPmrKdm 維尼
「不然,就原本約的那週的下個禮拜吧。」8964 copyright protection90PENANA4TDpQ0ReGo 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAz9BdP0J1F5
8964 copyright protection90PENANAaKVMI9MhK7 維尼
「嗯嗯。」8964 copyright protection90PENANARSyAggPM3K 維尼
94Please respect copyright.PENANAcowcS0QFK9
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94Please respect copyright.PENANAll0wF7fsDl
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