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魚沒有辦法離開水生存。8964 copyright protection469PENANAbHtBoWU5hR 維尼
而泡沫啊…泡沫,終究不屬於海洋。無論你現在如何掙扎哭泣抗拒,最終都是要向上去到屬於光的地方。噓,所以我說啊,別哭了,有夠醜的你知道嗎?哈哈…真的是、別讓我在這種時候看到的記得的,是這樣的臉啊。8964 copyright protection469PENANAf7ECHhIp2F 維尼
這是命令。8964 copyright protection469PENANAOZvJu1L93D 維尼
去看看吧?以後有機會再告訴我——8964 copyright protection469PENANAKd7Zx5XHZG 維尼
藍色的天空,是不是真的像宣傳海報說的,值得用生命去奮鬥。8964 copyright protection469PENANApR7V9ktLx7 維尼
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『我有什麼資格書寫他人的故事呢?』茉莉有時,會忍不住問自身。8964 copyright protection469PENANAS264uLwqDQ 維尼
不。不是有時,而是一直——過去,多虧了馬不停蹄的生活模式暫且能夠忽視,近幾年進入實質退休的狀態,便一腳踩空垂直落下,陷入所謂的「老年危機」。
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她的職業開端,碰巧沾上了「最好的世代」的光,戰後重建的經濟起飛期,在消費力與娛樂需求之下,就算是平平無奇的文字,經年累月下來,倒也可笑的被人譽為經典。8964 copyright protection469PENANAw9E6xIC4tb 維尼
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——她始終是這麼認為的。自己的文字拙劣不堪,矯飾著謊言。8964 copyright protection469PENANAgkL1wlR2Oq 維尼
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「您一直忠實的紀錄著別人的故事,那麼茉莉女士,您呢?這麼說或許有些唐突了,但您有想過嗎?您的所見所聞,不編成書嗎?」8964 copyright protection469PENANAPHuFHxSExk 維尼
這是,充滿期待的年輕人試圖說服她的話,同行後輩們總是鍥而不捨,也讓她看見了一絲從前的影子。8964 copyright protection469PENANAAYxCKZLXKz 維尼
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「你要是肯出版自傳,我在這裡用我三十年的信譽跟你保證,一定動用所有人脈幫你做宣傳,如果食言,我的名字就倒過來寫。」8964 copyright protection469PENANAbcDNqe32xr 維尼
年末檢討會,霸氣的一揮手拍在桌上——這是,過去數十年來,對自己有恩的出版社老闆。8964 copyright protection469PENANA967TgHKZTG 維尼
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「想想吧,再想想吧?現在我們還能說,但二十年後呢?三十年後呢?不要讓記憶消失,這畢竟是我們這一代的使命。」8964 copyright protection469PENANAPeQ2LRZDfL 維尼
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曾經的工作客戶,語重心長說了這麼一段話,不忘拍拍她的肩膀,眼中滿是鼓勵的光芒。8964 copyright protection469PENANAkg7lXalWxx 維尼
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不能消失…嗎?8964 copyright protection469PENANAkjFIvUP2L4 維尼
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但茉莉始終覺得,有些事情要是能遺忘就好了。8964 copyright protection469PENANA6a7OZyaIpv 維尼
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距離共和國發布《和平宣言》,眨眼已過四十年,她卻總還是感覺,並不真實。8964 copyright protection469PENANACkUPxgCojU 維尼
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數十多年來,半夢半醒之際,她依舊會聽見砲火的聲音,在記憶與睡眠的邊緣哀嚎,轟鳴。8964 copyright protection469PENANAq1vvJF8ggP 維尼
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黃燈閃爍的十字路口,茉莉兀自搖了搖頭,加快腳步,雙手插在大衣的口袋裡,臉埋進舒適溫暖的酒紅色圍巾,在歲月中褪成雪白的長髮飛散,與雪花共舞。8964 copyright protection469PENANAYnte1muMus 維尼
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真正的「茉莉」是什麼樣的人?8964 copyright protection469PENANAcEIh1sDf3t 維尼
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為什麼明明誰都不了解,卻如此確信的說話呢?或許她只是追求名利,才用文字煽動了感情,才去販賣他人的悲傷,誰知道?為什麼能夠如此輕易的,用如此信任的眼神,看著自己?8964 copyright protection469PENANAKBZrX2KCgY 維尼
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她的所思所想,比起那些昇華傷痛的受訪者們來說,分明膚淺的可以。8964 copyright protection469PENANAqmSJz2UCMs 維尼
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⋯⋯實在沒什麼好說的。8964 copyright protection469PENANACKSyM6ilTm 維尼
茉莉堅定的這麼認為,於是,年復一年,拒絕邀請,持續逃避熱切好奇的目光。8964 copyright protection469PENANAIuLOHxBr3L 維尼
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直到今天,久違的工作委託,打破了她內心的寧靜。8964 copyright protection469PENANAwQSinFTYsG 維尼
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茉莉認得採訪的對象,甚至為之錯愕的一時失去了呼吸。8964 copyright protection469PENANAOxOof5uAL9 維尼
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她認得這個,名為楓樹的老軍人。8964 copyright protection469PENANA9670LVpr7J 維尼
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楓樹…是比她稍早一輪世代、舊帝國從首都到鄉村爛大街的名字,因此,光是名字並不能直接證明什麼,但來自對方的請託信中,卻掉出了古早火象燒印的照片。8964 copyright protection469PENANABSOXFeIYvz 維尼
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燒印照遠不如現今的電極投影生動有色,卻仍舊深深衝擊了她,陽光下,炫目的不知是灰還是金的淺色頭髮,毒辣的日光和無數令咒疤痕吻過,卻依然不減出眾的外貌,同事間興奮的竊竊私語……8964 copyright protection469PENANAdGTDqZvJjH 維尼
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當時年輕的士官長拉起她的手,說:「你很像我認識的一個人。」8964 copyright protection469PENANAepy6lnyBMG 維尼
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那雙眼是那麼的認真而銳利,分明淺薄到快要消失了的灰藍瞳色,卻在她久遠的記憶中,刻下了存在的痕跡。 8964 copyright protection469PENANA6qjXFF8n2O 維尼
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他們不熟,真的,但是…今天,彷彿歷史重演一般,他將幫忙調整燈架照明的孫女,認作記憶裡的那個人。8964 copyright protection469PENANApl4evjaW2s 維尼
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『⋯是你啊。』8964 copyright protection469PENANANB07myg3WG 維尼
『你來了,這麼多年了,你還是這麼的美麗。只有我老去了啊,真是不公平呢。』8964 copyright protection469PENANAcdpThN21Rz 維尼
『我沒死,驚訝嗎?變成這樣連動都不能自己動的臭老頭,驚訝嗎?』8964 copyright protection469PENANAHq0MUWxkvm 維尼
『⋯⋯抱歉。』8964 copyright protection469PENANAMELkSbqije 維尼
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聽不清,但是,她確認,那是一個名字。8964 copyright protection469PENANAkeiIFRPIUU 維尼
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故作抽離而冷漠的心與腦,全都為此動搖。8964 copyright protection469PENANAjirSl3Rt8d 維尼
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「鈴鈴鈴,蹦蹦蹦,兔子一個坑,蘿蔔兩個坑,拔呀拔,啵啵啵!」8964 copyright protection469PENANATkIhDTCB4G 維尼
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心情浮躁的開了燈,在寫字桌上凌亂的扔下口袋裡的皮夾鑰匙,客廳的傳送儀便激盪作響,茉莉深呼吸,平撫幾秒,才將指尖對準小圓咒陣的中心,接通。8964 copyright protection469PENANASBuLoraSwH 維尼
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「欸!是我!有沒有驚喜?有沒有驚訝?」8964 copyright protection469PENANAC0NU24jjQA 維尼
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茉莉的眼角擠壓出了微小的弧度。8964 copyright protection469PENANAtwoMNLbNdL 維尼
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「什麼風把你給吹來啦。」每週固定的電話提前了一天,多半⋯是因為孫女跟兒子說了今天的事情吧?8964 copyright protection469PENANAomxmbaHILj 維尼
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其實,聲音未出,甚至不用看浮紋,她就知道是兒子傳來的咒陣,專為他們一家而特殊設定的柔和節奏,十幾年沒變了,是孫女就讀幼兒院的時候挑選的兒歌呢。8964 copyright protection469PENANASBNoUf1vYR 維尼
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昏暗的走廊上,腳邊擦過暖流。473Please respect copyright.PENANAZtH0hZt4hz
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現在她已經不能像以前一樣,輕易地彎腰開啟暖爐,茉莉卻並不慌張,右手的健康環一晃,熟練地用腳趾尖蹭開,彈指點亮了客廳的燈。8964 copyright protection469PENANAV1W4TaTT60 維尼
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「媽,你有在聽嗎?」8964 copyright protection469PENANAc8PUJAg09O 維尼
「嗯?嗯,抱歉,你再說一次吧?人老了,都要重聽啦——」8964 copyright protection469PENANAbjv1jaEm7l 維尼
「真是的,上次說要帶你去測量耳形,幫你配一副專屬的加音咒,你就不聽、」8964 copyright protection469PENANAmyTGcn0PDq 維尼
「好好好,下次去,下次一起去啊,別念別念。」8964 copyright protection469PENANA53SvR6UzW1 維尼
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總說孩子怕父母念,但茉莉總覺得有時自家簡直相反,她苦笑著,站在結了霜花的窗邊,手指抹過冰涼的玻璃,又回神抽手。8964 copyright protection469PENANAgX2iANVM86 維尼
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兒子果不其然地尋問了養老院的事,採訪了什麼人,對他來說,發生的任何事情就是件新奇卻普通的趣聞。8964 copyright protection469PENANAyEkKhNUheR 維尼
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茉莉一面聽著,一面在廚房轉悠,打算快速泡杯茶平定內心,卻無心調製,便用了普通的沖泡粉包裝。8964 copyright protection469PENANAepaUa4e44N 維尼
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入口,卻更讓她回想起記憶中廉價而顆粒明顯的乾澀味道。8964 copyright protection469PENANAF7vevbrcmh 維尼
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海邊小屋的窗外,傳來陣陣平穩的海潮之聲,濕氣也隨之而至,轉身按下除霜器的按鈕,茉莉嘆了口氣,無心整理今日記錄下的文檔,她決定提早上床。8964 copyright protection469PENANALjnX41QoI7 維尼
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「晚安啦,媽,噢對媽我警告你絕對不能熬夜哦?到底誰才是小孩啊真是的,這個年紀了還當工作狂、」8964 copyright protection469PENANAvzKsuZv3bm 維尼
「是,是——」茉莉溫和的笑著回應。8964 copyright protection469PENANAE12YjTe2FK 維尼
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掛上電話,她悄悄拉開櫥櫃。8964 copyright protection469PENANAF426LBcX29 維尼
指尖自最頂層溝落了罐裝的睡眠藥,仰頭,一飲而盡。473Please respect copyright.PENANAznSBdRoznf
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這壞習慣兒子一無所知,畢竟,肯定會擔心的吧?8964 copyright protection469PENANA3TrGr1RNPY 維尼
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而這也並非唯一的秘密,茉莉心想著,仰躺在柔軟的床鋪上,看向空無一物的天花板。8964 copyright protection469PENANA64u0U6xGH6 維尼
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⋯⋯是啊。8964 copyright protection469PENANAIOU9jaPyA8 維尼
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「茉莉」這個人,真正的過去,隱匿的真實,無人知曉,她從來就不只是個紀錄者、無辜的旁觀者,甚至相反。8964 copyright protection469PENANAba07yWpOjd 維尼
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隱藏戰犯的身份苟活至今,一天又一天地,罪無可赦的靈魂,倒數著時間。8964 copyright protection469PENANAAFYckjtZTu 維尼
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這一生,獲得了本不該擁有自己的幸福,終有一日,她要將秘密帶進棺材裡,讓火焰燒毀一切。8964 copyright protection469PENANArmzsmchjCx 維尼
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漆黑的單人房內,牆上的指針歸零。8964 copyright protection469PENANAKzYvUjTrfV 維尼
喧囂砲火逐漸逼近,戰鼓自夢境的深處響起,藥物的人工睡意催眠,茉莉投入了,火光熾烈的——8964 copyright protection469PENANAgrwd8TUHtC 維尼
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