第二章:教會
~ 哀哭的人有福了,因為你們必得安慰 ~
星期日的清晨,旭日煦煦映照窗邊,一片陽光暖洋洋灑進小臥房裡,難以言喻的一種幸福感。身體好似設定好的鬧鐘,六點鐘不到便全然甦醒,毫無偷睡懶覺的睏意,清早便從床窩裡爬出來。心頭兒惦記著與芷儀的約會,本人生平從未踏進教會,今日終於要踏進神聖的殿堂,心裡頭難免有些奇奇怪怪的感覺,也說不上來是什麼樣的感覺。總之,莫名其妙的悸動與興奮。
教會,是個什麼樣子的地方呢?印象之中,是新郎與新娘舉行婚禮的場所,聖潔莊嚴、清幽典雅……?一聯想到「愛人」、「婚禮」,心頭兒竟隱隱遽痛,腦海中浮現孟瀚的影像,忠厚憨直的臉龐,帶點兒男性魁梧的肌肉線條,彷彿嗅到他身上獨特的味道,清晰又模糊的味道……
原來,那一道深痕的傷口尚猶在,刻劃在心上。
它,仍隱隱作痛。
我氣自己的不爭氣,用力把長髮一甩,想要甩開一切憂傷回憶。但任憑我使盡全身力氣,也無法甩脫蔓延的痛楚。心想:「究竟有什麼治療『失戀症』的特效藥呢?只要服用一顆藥丸,藥效立即發作,失戀症候群立馬解除,我肯定買!買!買!」
我無力地換上恤、牛仔褲,餐桌上隨意抓了一個蔥花麵包,放進嘴裡咀嚼,一杯牛奶咕嚕咕嚕下肚,便匆匆出門,來到與芷儀相約的地點――大安森林公園對面的教會門口。
不知怎麼搞地,我被眼前人山人海的景象給震攝住了,心想:「這群人是閒閒沒事幹嗎?星期天一大早不在家裡睡大頭覺,爬枕頭山。居然跑到教會門口來排長隊,人生是沒事幹了嗎?」面對眼前黑壓壓的人潮,心裡打了個莫名其妙的大問號。我夾雜在人群隊伍之中,無奈等候芷儀的出現。
不一會兒,芷儀姍姍來遲,她臉色紅潤、精神飽滿,笑臉盈盈地走向我。
她看了一下手錶:「這麼準時?」
我沒好氣:「是妳慢騰騰地來晚了!」
她歉意地笑了笑,撥弄一下烏黑的長髮,露出漂亮臉蛋,走過來與我並肩排隊。
終於,人群開始慢慢移動了,我倆隨著人潮的流動前進。進入會堂,找到角落的位置,安靜坐下來。這間教會頗具規模,沒有想像中那樣莊嚴肅穆,倒有幾分輕鬆的自在感,與過去對教會嚴肅刻板的印象,截然不同。或許,我們參加的聚會是「青年崇拜」,來的大多是學生、年輕人。所以,氛圍特別青春活力、熱力四射!據說此間教會有許多牧區,有專門為老人、成人、學生、兒童、外籍新娘、遊民……設立的聚會崇拜,光是聚會與課程,就夠你眼花撩亂。
聚會終於開始了,講台上燈光一下子亮起來,一群年輕人站在舞台中央,儼然是專業有素的樂團,鋼琴手、貝斯手、吉他手、鼓手、歌手,角色一應俱全。樂手們活潑充滿朝氣,讓人第一眼就喜歡上他們。當電吉他手用力刷下第一聲弦音,瞬間在耳畔爆開「碰!咚!碰!咚!」的鼓聲,與電吉他「沙!嘶!沙!嘶!」的電音,相互交襯,宛如鏗鏘鏗鏘跳躍不止的音符,劃破整間教堂的天花板,氣勢磅礡。接著,年輕的女歌者緩緩出場,拉開天使般的天籟嗓音,引吭高歌,歌聲渾然天成,餘音在空氣之中迴旋又迴旋。
「哇!超乎水準的現場演唱,比起外面Live歌手的表演,真是有過之而無不及!太令人驚豔了!」我忍不住發出驚嘆:「此曲只應天上有,人間難得幾回聞。」
芷儀轉過頭來對我眨眨眼說:「我聽過最動聽、最具水準的現場演唱,是在教會裡,外面的歌手根本比不上!」我點頭表示完全同意。往舞台左邊一瞧,兩位年輕的舞者正在跳舞,充滿曲線肌肉的力與美,動感十足。心裡爆出一句話:「青春,就是無敵!」身體忍不住也跟隨節奏旋律舞動起來。舞台正後方,有兩位年輕人,對著白色畫布,專注揮灑畫筆,繪圖色彩鮮豔奪目,頗吸引人們的目光。現場即時的藝術創作,頗富有創意、活力,現場熱鬧滾滾,簡直要high翻天啦!
看來教會也得跟上時代潮流,與時俱進,才能吸引廣大的社會大眾。這個時代唯一不變的就是「變」,連教會也得創新革變。否則,就落伍了!更遑論個人囉!二十一世紀要立於不敗之地,就得審時度勢,求新求變,走在時代的最尖端。否則,很快就被千變萬化的市場淘汰了。
沉浸在天籟迴旋的音樂。忽爾,一股暖流由天而降,宛如一道潺潺不絕的泉源,緩緩地、深深地、柔柔地,滑進心窩。溫柔深沉的撫摸,好似一雙溫柔的手,深探入你的心、你的肝、你的肺,無言撫慰孤單的靈魂。那一股暖流猶似「愛的化身」,療癒了一顆受傷的心靈。我情不自禁開始輕輕啜泣。起初,只是微泣泫淚。但那股從宇宙而來――超級強大愛的力量,浩大的超自然能量,源源不絕,強行灌進身體每一細胞,幾乎難以招架得住,險些跌仆於地。最後,淚水終於在這一刻宣告潰堤地從眼眶中不能自抑地氾濫開來,如滔滔不絕的黃河江水。此生從未經歷的「狂哭」,一股腦兒掏肝掏肺似的,鼻嚏眼淚亂飛,上氣不接下氣,腦部有一點兒缺氧、暈眩。把這一段日子深藏胸中的委屈心酸,全然傾瀉於淚水之中。
放聲肆厥地大哭,哭呀、哭呀、哭呀,驚動了身旁左側的芷儀,與右側一名男子,他兩雙雙轉過頭,怔望著我。芷儀面帶憂愁:「喬昀,妳還好吧?」
我一把鼻涕、一把眼淚,哭得稀里嘩啦,不可遏抑全身抽咽,吐不出一句話來,只能從喉嚨發出「嗯……啊……嗯……啊……」的單音。
芷儀瞧我哭得似淚人兒,沒有停歇的徵兆,她臉上堆滿焦慮,一雙黑色的瞳眸擔憂地瞅著我。她遞過衛生紙來,溫柔輕撫我的背。最後,我哭癱趴臥椅背,整個人掏空似的,完全無法動彈。一場空前絕後的「情緒大釋放」,好像把一輩子該哭的眼淚,當下全哭完了。
眼淚,是上帝所設計的美麗珍珠,也是生命最好的療癒劑。
講台上的音樂停止了,樂手們一個個下台。緊接著,步上講台的是一位年輕的男牧師,約莫三十多歲,風度翩翩。我哭得淚眼婆娑,兩眼模糊不清,根本看不清講台上的人影。倒是芷儀發出微小的驚嘆:「哇!牧師怎麼長得這麼帥!與一般牧師長得不太一樣哩?印象中的牧師都『老成持重』。」
我好奇欲抬頭觀看,無奈實在哭得太厲害了,整個人尚浸泡在「狂哭的世界」裡,無力舉目。此際,身側的男士溫柔遞過手帕來,我頭也不抬地拿過手帕,不假思索地猛擤鼻涕、擦眼淚。那一張手帕,完全沾滿了我的鼻涕眼淚。
好不容易情緒平復下來,停止啜泣,舉目前觀,瞧見牧師正口沫橫飛證道,他滔滔不絕地講個不停。至於講些什麼內容,我是一頭霧水——霧煞煞!好似外太空來的語言,有聽沒有懂,耳邊嗡嗡地作響。整場證道約莫過了三十分鐘,依稀聽見講台傳來一番話,恰似利箭射入心臟,尖銳刺耳,字字句句撞敲心坎裡……
「神是光,神是愛,神是父,祂擁有宇宙萬物一切的答案,祂帶來人類生命的盼望……此時此刻,你坐在教堂裡面,你是否願饒恕那些曾經傷害你的人呢?他們可能是你此生最愛的人、最親密的人,卻也是傷你最深的人。如果你想從仇恨的牢籠裡釋放出來,擁有自由非凡的人生,原諒——是唯一最快捷的途徑。」
「什麼?簡直是屁話!」心中不可遏抑一陣怒吼:「吼!牧師現在是在講天方夜譚嗎?行了!行了!這群牧師是瘋子嗎?」胃裡湧襲一陣作嘔,覺得想吐。
「饒恕背叛你的人?哼!門兒都沒有!沒有踏上報復一途,已經算是仁至義盡了,還要原諒他們,這算是哪門子的教訓?笑話!」我不屑地嗤之以鼻。
忽然之間,唇齒間無意識狠狠地迸出:「最愛的人,往往也是最不可原諒的人!」
被自己吐出來的話嚇醒,怎會吐露出這般猙獰的話?原來,靈魂深處隱藏不為人知的仇恨,如此恐怖!它,似小魔鬼般躲藏在身體裡面,隱密寄身,慢慢腐蝕啃噬你的身、心、靈,直到仇恨完全將你占據,讓你受其黑暗擺布,然後,靈魂慢慢死去。除非生命體刻意察覺它、挖掘它,把它如垃圾剷除,否則,仇恨的種子將如影隨形,折磨你至死方休。
我不屑地瞪著牧師,嘴裡輕啐:「哼!牧師都是一群不食人間煙火的傢伙!不知人間疾苦。」
牧師接著說:「以牙還牙、以眼還眼,絕非報復的上好手段,只會兩敗俱傷。最高明的報復手腕是讓自己活得更美好!更精彩!在你的仇敵頭上堆炭火,對待他更有恩慈、更仁愛。因為,仇恨只會製造更多的仇恨,仇恨像是一座無形的大監牢,監禁你一輩子在苦毒的桎梏裡,就像枯坐監獄的死囚犯,永無出獄的一天!這是你想要的人生嗎?」
猛然,這一句話深深刺痛了我。
內心千頭萬緒,陷入長時間的凝思,牧師的話語,不斷反覆在心底翻騰,攪動心腸。字字句句,狂烈撞擊我的情感、我的邏輯、我的價值觀。
接下來的證道,我完全無心聆聽,滿腦子被剛才牧師的話語所占據,腦子另一面記憶,還停留在孟瀚與那女子親熱的畫面,反覆上演。頓然,心中又燃起熊熊的怒火,焚燒身心,不可遏抑。那勾起熱滾燙燙的恨意,冒出頭,強烈的情緒如海嘯般不斷翻攪,胃裡又感覺到一陣噁吐的不舒服。
「我恨他們……真恨他們……巴不得他倆遭受天譴——天打雷劈,甚至下地獄。但究竟是什麼理由讓我不願放手?無法釋懷?」心底冒出無數個問號。
也說不上來清楚的原因,也許就是「不甘心」三個字吧!緊緊地桎梏牢籠住人心,走不出仇恨的枷鎖,繞不出迷宮,無意識地消耗生命,在一片荒蕪的曠野,盲目地亂轉,轉呀!轉呀!轉呀!始終轉不出解脫的出口。
這算是一種「祕密憤怒」嗎?被背叛、被剝奪、被羞辱……對生命中無法抓住的東西,只能眼睜睜見它無可奈何的失去,隱藏於內在恐懼,一種持續性壓抑的憤怒。對自己無力感的憤怒,對他人渴望的憤怒,也是生命深沉的憤怒。當牧師的講道狠狠撞擊我的感官記憶,內心劇烈的敲叩衝擊,所顯現出來的情緒便是「祕密憤怒」。那是生命中受傷的記憶再一次被攪動出來,宛如躲在黑暗裡受傷的小男孩,硬是被大人給拖出來曝曬在太陽光底下。
不清楚證道何時結束,直到芷儀用手推了一下我的臂膀,示意要離開,才發現講台上早已空無一人。環視四周,人潮已逐漸向大門口方向散去。我倆雙雙起身,整理衣裳,將滿地用過的衛生紙拾起,預備步出會堂。
倏忽,一個黑人影跨前大箭步,一名男子擋在我和芷儀面前,他高大修長的身影,頓然衝出,讓人有些不知所措。
「小姐,請妳把剛才用過的手帕還給我!」男子擺明衝著我來。
「啊?」我一臉茫然。
他誇張地指著我手裡握住的手帕,微笑示意。
目光轉向我的一雙小手掌:「喔!對耶!差一點兒忘記了!記性真差呢!」我不好意思地看著揉成一團的髒手帕,沾滿眼淚鼻涕,怯生生遞給那名男士:「嗯……真不好意思,把你的手帕弄髒了!」
「沒關係!」他禮貌紳士地回答。
我害羞地端詳眼前這位男士,長相俊秀斯文,氣宇軒昂,眉宇之間有傲然之氣,流露一股神祕的貴族氣息。他屬於一流帥哥等級之輩,堪稱「人間極品」!我一向害羞,尤其遇到帥到要死的帥哥,更不敢正迎目光。
我不好意思地吞吞吐吐:「謝謝你喔!」
他,目光炯炯有神、神色自若,盯了我幾秒鐘,便揮揮手笑道:「不客氣!咱們後會有期!」語罷便轉身離去。
「呃?」
望著他離去的修長身影,我還真不知該說些什麼。
「他是誰呀?」芷儀好奇問道。
我皺了一下眉頭,抓抓腦袋:「好像是……剛才坐在隔壁的男生啊!他瞧我哭得厲害,把手帕借給我使用,哪知……我竟忘了還人家啦!」
芷儀「噗哧」一聲笑出來,俏皮說道:「嘿!他長得蠻帥!被這樣的帥哥盯上,願意借給妳手帕,妳豔福不淺喔!」
「拜託!」我瞪了芷儀一眼。
再次瞧瞧,人群幾乎已全部散去,教堂內寥落無幾。我和芷儀雙雙步出教堂,邊走邊聊。
「妳剛才哭得好厲害喔!究竟發生了啥事?」芷儀好奇發問。
我倆散步於大安森林公園裡,漫步林蔭大道內,一排老榕樹枝葉繁茂,樹影葉隙層層交疊,葉隙中透出金色陽光。樹上的麻雀快樂地嘰嘰喳喳叫個不停,「啾啾啾!喞喞喞!啾啾啾!喞喞喞!」彼此呼應。
心底有千萬個奇怪的念頭,說不上來的奇妙經歷,難以用語言形容。文字,完全不足以形容今天的神奇經歷,除非親身體驗。
「妳相信上帝的存在嗎?」我幾乎是用自言自語的微小聲音。
雖是極微弱的聲音,依舊被芷儀聽見了。
「當然相信囉!妳放眼觀看所見的大千世界,山河大地、日月星宿、四時節替、飛禽走獸、萬物之靈,就不得不相信冥冥之中有一隻主宰萬物的手,在背後主宰一切。不是嗎?」她極其自信。
「是嗎?」我停頓了一會兒,略有所思:「過去,我從不相信上帝的存在,老覺得那是人類自己憑空想像出來的神,人類總是先無助而後迷信。老實說,從前我對於信仰上帝這檔事兒——嗤之以鼻,只有懦弱無能的人才會去信上帝。」
芷儀怔望著我。
「而如今……」我欲言又止:「我……我……」
「唉!也說不上來……總而言之,在理性邏輯上受到相當大的衝擊。今天之前相信的很多東西,今天之後一件一件變成不相信;今天之前認為很重要的事情,今天之後覺得都不那麼重要。那些被世俗奉為圭臬的主流思想,究竟帶給人類是幸福還是災難?天曉得!我開始懷疑過去所深信不疑的道理,是否存在許多虛假?理性的高牆,是邏輯一磚一瓦建構而成,在今天卻逐一崩然瓦解。也就是說,過去生命所相信的一切,如今全然瓦解。」心裡頭千頭萬緒,猶如多輛馬車東西南北的亂竄拉扯,完全失去了準頭,思緒糾結紊亂。
兩人對望沉默半晌,各自低頭繆思。
「芷儀!」輕喚一聲。
「嗯!」
「我也不知道該如何形容!芷儀,妳了解那種感覺嗎?」我嘗試開口敘述剛才發生的一切。
芷儀狐疑地望著我,丈二金剛摸不著頭腦:「什麼感覺啊?」
我皺了一下眉頭:「噢!就明明無人觸摸妳,卻清晰感覺到天上而來一雙溫暖的手,溫柔輕撫妳深處的靈魂,暖暖地、厚厚地,包裹妳的心、妳的靈,妳完全融化於這一股愛的暖流,好似被一團愛的雲彩包圍。生命裡一切的枯竭乾萎,瞬間得到愛的泉源滋潤,就像一株快枯萎凋零的紅玫瑰,一下子又鮮活過來了。」
「唷?這麼神奇呢!」芷儀投以羨慕的眼光。
我歪著頭問:「咦?這算是超自然的經歷嗎?」
「算吧!」
「哈!我怎麼如此幸運呢?生平第一次踏進教會,就經歷不可思議的超自然醫治!老天爺真是待我不薄呀!」我有些得意洋洋。
芷儀仔細端詳我的臉龐,左看右瞧,她驚異嚷道:「哇!妳的臉是怎麼回事?」
「怎麼啦?」我一臉茫然。
芷儀用手指著我的臉蛋,詫異叫道:「妳的臉好像被熨斗燙平了!臉部的線條變得好柔和喔!整張臉變得十分清澈、好透亮喔!宛如小娃兒一樣粉嫩童顏,像剛做完臉部除皺SPA!」
「妳在胡說八道啦?」我撇過頭去,滿臉不信。
「真的!」芷儀不死心地捉住我的手腕:「妳自己照照鏡子,瞧瞧我說的是不是真的?」她從皮包裡取出一面小鏡子,遞到我面前。
我左顧右盼,東瞧西瞧,果然視出一些端倪:「嘿!果真有變得不一樣哩!以前的臉色是黃濁色的,現在整張臉變得透亮起來了。」我興奮地在小鏡子前顧影自盼。
我開懷笑道:「哈!以後都不用去醫美診所整形了,只要來到教會坐坐,就可以全人煥然一新囉!哇!實在太划算了!省了不少荷包錢。」
芷儀的臉色沉下來,久久不發一語,小小抗議道:「不公平!不公平!為什麼只有妳經歷超自然的醫治,而我卻沒有呢?」
望著芷儀失落的神情,心底升起微微歉疚感,儘快安慰道:「可能是……上帝比較憐憫我,覺得我從小命運坎坷,更需要被醫治呀!」我拍拍芷儀的肩膀:「妳的愛情、工作那麼順利,人生風平浪靜,實在不需要上帝的手幫助妳一把。」
「說得也是!」芷儀若有所思,點點頭表示認同。
我倆繼續往大安森林公園中央走去,沿路上見著幾隻小松鼠,跳躍於樹幹之間,在綠色草地跑來跑去,模樣逗趣。我們邊走邊聊,無話不談。走累了,便在大池塘邊的涼亭裡,席坐休息。
池塘裡有許多的鴨子、白鷺鷥、天鵝、烏龜、魚群……牠們自成一個生物鏈,悠游於天地之間。幾隻白鷺鷥從頭頂上飛過,竟然無預警排洩鳥糞,好似轟炸機空投飛彈,讓人驚懼鳥糞會突然從天而降!更多的白鷺鷥棲息於池塘邊的樹上,樹林裡隱約繁多的白點,都是一隻隻白鷺鷥的嬌影。
此刻,一隻水鴨游過湖面,灰黑色的羽毛,扁平的鴨嘴,「嘎嘎嘎」的沙啞叫聲,有點兒難聽,水鴨的樣子實在不起眼!我嘆了一口氣:「唉!」
芷儀問:「好端端地,妳嘆什麼氣?」
「沒什麼啦!只是有感而發……」我眺望那隻灰色鴨子,漫漫悠悠游過去。
「咱們大詩人,哪樁事又撩動妳觸景傷情了?」芷儀半捉弄的口吻。
「唉!也沒什麼啦!只是看到鴨子……聯想到自己,不禁悲從中來……」
「我的大小姐!妳發什麼神經呀!見到鴨子會令妳觸景傷情,妳是有病呦?」芷儀受不了我無由地為賦新辭強說愁。
我嘟起嘴:「嗚……說了妳可能也不會懂。算了!還是別說了。」
「說嘛!」她慫恿我。
此際,兩隻白天鵝優雅地緩緩滑過湖面,亮白美麗的羽毛,在陽光下顯得亮眼。她倆懶懶地張合著龐然透明的柔羽,從容得不激起一痕微波,我的眼目完全離不開她們。
「她們很高雅美麗,是吧!」我的視線依舊停留在兩隻白天鵝。
「是啊!」芷儀點頭。
我帶著欣羨的口吻:「不知何時自己能變成一隻美麗的天鵝!」
「哈!妳此話意有所指!妳的意思是——自己是一隻醜小鴨囉?」
我,不發一語。
湖面上有許多的水鳥與鴨子,成群結伴悠游,唯獨只有兩隻白天鵝穿插其中,格外引人顯目,她們天生優雅美麗而獨特。
注視池塘邊特殊的景幕,不由地我緩緩道來:「從小就覺得自己是一隻醜小鴨……長得既不漂亮,也不引人注目,又不會讀書,自然得不到長輩們的疼愛。爸媽心目中的焦點,永遠在弟弟身上!尤其生長在重男輕女的家庭,女孩往往容易被父母忽略,來到這世上像是多餘的。沒人在乎妳,因為妳是nobody。所以,童年時的我,經常躲在角落裡暗自發呆……」
「那是一種來自心靈深處——極深、極深、極深的孤獨感。」我惆悵地說。
「哦?」芷儀狐疑地望著我。
我望向遠方的天空,有感而發的慨歎:「家原本是一個人成長養分的來源,是一個人生命的根。但是,太多的家庭由於愛被錯誤的示範,孩子從小就被錯誤的對待,造成我們沒有安全感、歸屬感,即便人在家中,依然感覺很孤單……沒有人了解我們、接納我們。而當愛被錯誤示範時,我們就想要自我保護,把自己築在高牆之內,許多負面情緒:懼怕、焦慮、孤單、沮喪的感覺,經常占據我們這個人,進而發展出成人時期的人格特質。」
「難怪妳大學時代老是一個人搞自閉……」芷儀略有所思:「咦?怎麼從未聽妳提起這段成長過往……原來,妳也有不為人之的一面喔!」芷儀同情地望著我。
我苦笑以對。
其實,每個人都是一篇故事,我們都用生命在寫一本書,只是故事內容情節各有不同,其中有喜樂、哀傷、憂慮、興奮、折騰……無論生長在權貴富賈或市井小民;無論是光鮮耀眼的大人物或不起眼的無名小卒,活在世間上,誰也擺脫不了命運的枷鎖。當你欲在成人世界爭一席之地,勢必經歷「社會化」——你必須戴上一副假面具,偽裝自己,掩藏本身的脆弱恐懼,表現出最堅強完美的一面。真實的自己卻猶如逃避世俗的小孩,躲藏在面具底下,不能見光。我們想活出心目中的自己,卻又活不出來?為什麼呢?道理很簡單:選擇逃避面對真實的自己,是害怕自己見不得光的部分,被人發現了!害怕別人覺得我們是一個沒用的人;害怕別人覺得我們是一個毫無價值的人;害怕別人用世俗的眼光來衡量我們。
現代人「身」、「心」如此疲累不堪的原因,就是我們的身與心分離,不斷用外在的環境和身體來對抗裡面的靈魂,簡稱「靈魂自殘」。因為老覺得自己「不夠好」,所以拚了命要證明自己存在的價值,無法忍受別人瞧不起我們、貶低我們!「面子」這一張假面具,讓我們活得很辛苦!我們活在別人的眼光底下,咬緊牙關拚搏的結果――早已遺忘人性最初的單純、自由、快樂。而身處名利洪流的巨大壓力之下,常有「人在江湖,身不由己」的感慨!最終,我們成了自己最熟悉的陌生人。然而,人的價值豈是用「功能」可以衡量?亦或用「年薪」、「地位」、「美貌」來判斷?若果是這樣,未免也太膚淺了。
芷儀,拾起泥土中一粒小鵝卵石,奮力擲向池塘裡,小石子向空中拋物線的飛旋,「噗通」一聲,濺起一片水花漣漪。
她凝視腳前的一隻小烏龜,墨綠色的龜殼,小巧的龜腳,伸出小龜頭,爬呀爬呀!爬呀爬呀!芷儀蹲下身子,頑皮地逗弄著小烏龜。她半開玩笑說道:「其實,當鴨子也不錯啊!正因為牠長得醜,不夠亮眼,所以沒人注意牠,也就沒人打擾牠,更沒人想利用牠。你看牠!自個兒活得多麼自由自在!不用一天到晚擔心羽毛會不會髒汙,因為天生就是灰黑色的呀!有時想想……長得醜、不夠出色,也未嘗不是件好事,反而是老天爺給你的保護色。你可以心無罣礙地悠活於天地之間,不必理會別人的眼光,不必擔心被人類抓走,多麼逍遙自在!不像白天鵝,老要整理漂亮的白羽毛,深怕一身亮白被沾汙了,就失去光環了。」
芷儀接著說:「老子說:『禍福相倚,禍兮,福之所倚;福兮,禍之所伏。』想一想,不無道理。」
「咦?」腦袋瓜好像被一塊大石頭給重擊:「我以前從未逆向思考過,這倒挺有意思!或許,每一個人生命中的缺憾,正是老天爺送給他的特別禮物,只是當下我們無法察覺罷了!正可謂『一陰一陽之謂道』,道理即在此。」
當下,我心生佩服:「哇!芷儀不愧是哲學系的高材生,不言則已,一鳴驚人!」
芷儀搔頭,不好意思笑笑:「也沒甚麼啦!只是順口溜溜。假若一連串衰事真發生在自己身上,也不見得能淡然處之!」她向我扮個鬼臉:「就像我——也有解不開的煩惱呀!我最大的煩惱就是不知何時把自己嫁出去?別再當『敗犬女王』囉!」
我翻了個白眼瞪她,心想:「拜託!這算哪門子的煩惱?真令人吐血……」
突然之間,一陣亂騷動,池塘裡的水鳥、鴨子、白鷺鷥,眾鳥嘎叫不止,「嘎嘎嘎!呱呱呱!嘓嘓嘓!」叫聲此起彼落,驚動了夏天午後的寧謐。
我和芷儀對視而笑。
風,吹來涼涼的;人,也清爽起來。
「今天真是特別的一日啊!」我幽幽說道。
遠眺藍天,心情為之一振,一掃陰霾。心靈的汙垢好像被洗滌一空,變得清澈無比!
我伸個大懶腰,慵懶地趴在芷儀的肩頭上,聞著她清爽的髮香味,心頭無限感恩。若非她說服我,邀請我踏入教會,此時此刻,我倆也不會併坐於此,更不可能有如此特殊的經歷,生命好像經歷一百八十度的大轉彎。
道不出口的感謝,只能留待以後慢慢說,人生還漫長得很呢?不急於一時。友情,宛如久釀的葡萄酒,愈醇愈香,愈久愈甘甜,值得用一生來細細品味。
芷儀用手推了推我,她輕喚我的名字:「喬昀!」
「嗯!」我動了一下肩膀。
「我想時候不早了,咱們該離開了,明天還要上班呢!」芷儀說。
「喔!」隨口回答之後,忽然腦筋來個急轉彎,整個人跳起來叫嚷道:「才怪!妳是想和學長約會,才拋下咱孤家寡人,對不對?」
芷儀見心事被猜穿,一臉難為情。
「啊哈!妳這個見色忘友的傢伙!還虧我當妳是莫逆之交!」我得理不饒人,藉機故意損她一頓。
「事情不是妳想像的那樣啦!」芷儀潮紅著臉解釋:「學長出差兩個禮拜,昨晚才剛從德國回來,好不容易今天才擠出時間約會……嗯……」
「好啦!好啦!甭解釋了!咱就認定妳是個見色忘友的朋友!有了愛情,就沒了友情;有了男人,就忘了友人。」我故意調侃她。
「喬昀!」芷儀急了。
「好了!好了!大小姐,我是和妳開玩笑的!」我調皮地指著芷儀的鼻尖。
芷儀紅著臉:「討厭!」
芷儀泛紅的臉龐,洋溢幸福的笑容。心中不禁生起一股羨慕,心想:「芷儀和學長愛情長跑多年,還能保持穩定甜蜜的滋味,實屬不易!時下年輕人流行速食愛情,三天兩頭換男女朋友,換男女朋友的速度比換皮包還快!他們高喊『愛情萬歲』的口號,卻常常迷失在愛情裡,在肉體情慾的掙扎中,搞得自己遍體麟傷,然後獨自躲在黑暗角落,自舔傷口。回頭思索,難道這是年輕必須付上的昂貴代價嗎?或許是吧!人不瘋狂枉少年,年輕總得幹過一些傻事、瘋事!你我都是在跌跌撞撞中長大的呀!」
我拉著芷儀的手,往大安森林公園的出口方向走去。現在是下午四點一刻,應該要提早「放人」囉!免得學長、芷儀二人犯「相思之苦」。屆時,我可成了千古罪人囉!所謂「識時務者為俊傑」,這句話的道理咱是懂得。
來到大安森林公園的出口,芷儀掩藏不住的歸心似箭,讓我忍不住笑了出來。
忽爾,芷儀朝馬路邊的方向奔去。
「柏倫,你來了!」芷儀眉開綻笑,掩藏不住地喜躍,快步迎上。
原來,學長親自跑來接風,捨不得女朋友多走幾步路去找他呢!
長相斯文的柏倫,將芷儀拉進懷中,忍不住在她額上輕吻,小倆口久別勝新歡!看了令人真嫉妒。芷儀嬌笑盈盈,輕摟著學長的臂彎,滿臉幸福。不一會兒,兩人消失在公園的盡頭。
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