童桐回到自己的家中後，我著她好好休息，由我過去我家那邊把枕頭拖鞋之類搬回去她這邊。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS8FxrFP5wM
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正當我收拾好準備回去時，我媽卻攔住了我。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH3GjBYMwZB
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「過黎傾傾。」我媽說。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeU86GqQ822
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUXjsNMiBb0
我爸在書房關著門，大概是因為颱風來襲而在家工作，所以廳中只有我和我媽二人，至於亞基看到我坐到沙發上，馬上躍到我膝上扭摸扭抱。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDV2vrrMscJ
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我笑一笑然後抱抱牠，再給牠滿滿的撫摸，不只牠享受著，我也感到心中的壓力藉著手中的毛茸茸感覺釋放了不少。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZzulfbu2G
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好可愛…1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ439lgfkA0P
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參考圖 IG:bordercollie_08141096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrulcHDaVBJ
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「呀遊，你對PTSD有幾多認識？」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAtDnEIShNz
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBkEsk8eyaz
「睇戲睇過。」我說，「就…有咩創傷事件後，會好驚相關既野，發惡夢，見到鬼之類，你想話童桐就係咁？」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrTILfBtZYZ
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzaeJVk6CeE
「你既算係克板印象。」我媽就，「我之前做ＨＲ個時，試過有同事出過事，升降機工業意外，成個頭扁左。」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4TRB8kyztx
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我就不去想像了。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlPu9lSQ1ss
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6LG0vfYCV3
「事後在場目擊者，或多或少都有PTSD既傾向。童桐佢依加咁樣既情況，令我諗返起個時。」我媽說。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZn9JAlPEey
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8YBMS0dVER
「…你講下係點。」我說，「我想幫童桐。」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyrUmDs9hKn
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEFjbaNyZXe
「童桐可能係PTSD，亦可能係PITS，詳情既你帶佢去睇心理治療師，但兩者都似。」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSRvb9dbDWS
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0yEAigbLUb
「又咩PITS…咩16型人格測驗？」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdt9p5Uq5ig
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHaolI82Urf
「唔係。」我媽白我一眼，「PTSD多數係受害者身上出現，而PITS叫加害者創傷壓力，多數出現係加害者身上，例如戰場上殺敵既軍人，屠房宰殺動物既員工，合法開槍制止暴行既警察之類。」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzcpeO3NeWe
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0oEc9hp7Zt
「童桐明明唔係加害者，利律師係差館同我講…」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9oadRMef2Q
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ80zgRncNbj
「呀遊，佢係唔係都好，問題係佢覺得自己係。」我媽說。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwvNF50DTD6
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyPUfm9nryt
「童桐…已經係第二次遇到呢種事。」我心中一沉。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡerFlfu0Kr0
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2S6Q6CRpqK
「嗯。」我媽說，「PITS患者一般黎講會比起普通PTSD更嚴重，呀遊，你明唔明，童桐依加係被好好好嚴重既心理問題困擾。」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc7EuOjLgiL
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwkeyIQz5Ay
「嗯…我知道。」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfkk0OrVF3b
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZwhnZtGnGx
「但你唔可以怪佢，佢都唔想，就好似普通傷風感冒咁，你無只係你好彩，總之…係症狀上先當成係PTSD解釋，只係更嚴重，亦更難醫。」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9BFNuPFrHC
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接著我媽以她當年還是超級HR時處理過的經驗，向我解決童桐現在的情況。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFvXAhgdpsM
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR7S2vYzjnQ
PTSD可以在創傷事件後馬上爆發，或在數月後平息，但也可能持續，變成慢性綜合症。無論是當年工業意外翌日，在升降機內抱頭痛哭的員工，還是看到一向黏自己的亞基而恐慌發作的童桐。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDSnJB7Fn7b
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而創傷又可以被貯藏在程序記憶中，患者即使看起來沒甚麼異樣，但一但做出相關的動作，便會馬上病發，那個員工好像是聽到升降機超重的「嗶嗶嗶」警告聲而馬上情緒崩潰。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAhNctlPBi6
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkeL7IJZSdE
至於做惡夢，性情大變，失眠，逃避或對相關人事物感到恐懼，暴躁易怒，過度警戒，易受驚嚇，再次處於相似情境會感到不安，恐懼，呼吸困難，發抖等，便和電影拍的大同小異。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdbtY2S0iKi
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也和童桐現在身上一樣。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5t1BfVX5bs
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjRpLmXoKO4
「但即使係點，呢個係病，童桐仲係你認識，你鐘意既童桐，你既青梅竹馬童桐。」我媽說，「佢只係病左，而呢個病係有得醫，就同厭食症一樣。」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdFNdThSm4L
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA8WtTN39X5
「一打完風我就會帶佢去睇醫生。」我說，「錢方面，阿媽…」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3AvdkSIh8T
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxC6thLBlLa
「得啦，我本來就當童桐係我地個女咁，依加更加當佢係新抱，錢方面你唔使擔心。」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCTb9joJWSP
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfMoh6WbLMt
我愛我媽。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs2j6uOXRK5
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhBB5U5a4sQ
「你要好好照顧佢，PTSD又好, PITS都好，都係有得醫，只緊要係你陪佢，照顧佢，俾安全感佢。」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvvFxzKrATL
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyDAqsDee2O
我點點頭，雖然不知道我能不能辦到。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSINS4rr0T2
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT7h8NNXEJ6
「喂，你有幾鐘意童桐？」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAZXI4l5fGJ
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmJ80eAHuM9
無需任何思考。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡISnvn9pG7F
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrxo4EHHLWD
「要幾鐘意就有幾鐘意。」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYoXdjSRohX
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbVv8l45mjh
我媽問：「照顧佢一世，用一世人陪佢對抗呢個病你願唔願意？講緊既係一生一世。」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdQrBkATQji
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ06eLcjg39l
「幾多世都願意。」我口出狂言，但我的確有這份覺悟。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBWj1koqW0G
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFXdxfxbzck
已經經歷了這麼多歡笑，跨越了這麼多眼淚，這份決意我背負得起。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkjKGmHHO9o
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也必須要由我背負。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXPzbJTPNGP
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8f4EzUdYJk
即使我再弱小，這點我也不會讓步。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDaEOe6MjYl
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsaYScPkZKD
「既然係咁。」我媽舉起右手，「就交呢個俾你。」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhXBkHMxg9F
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回到童桐那邊，我首先拿出一個狗玩具。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyh7wpqZHjU
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm2JXr22rIn
「呀遊…？」躺在床上的童桐問。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdx5GSbtgUK
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ4knee0lTr
「係亞基俾你。」我說，「佢似乎覺得自己做錯，叼左佢最鐘意個舊骨去我地房門口，應該係想送俾你想你原諒佢。」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIDcK7tUsTF
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi6RJ7IZjkc
「……佢真係好可愛。」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdQgbPhdcxf
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「佢好唔開心。」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe2b5ypZIRp
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmrJWjiu5Ey
「我…我知道…」童桐痛心地搖頭說，「係佢救左我地，計埋之前，佢已經救左我地第三次，但我…我一見到亞基，我就聽到架車撞落Kay既聲，聽到煞車聲，我仲聽到Kay既慘叫聲，我唔應該放開亞基，一日都係我……」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEUJJJbtH4k
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYTA87C0AkL
她深深地在自責。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyK7esmm4BN
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1U5nxvW5Nv
別忘了，Kay在襲擊我們之前，是童桐的組員，二人在大學也是好朋友。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ64JYRx8wud
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ212RBy4z0r
而Kay不但變成拿刀砍我的女人，更加在童桐面前被貨車撞成血肉模糊。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJhWDHBTr2z
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5l2Y0pUOqk
「佢唔會嬲你啦。」我把狗骨頭放到床頭，輕輕擁住童桐，「佢一定等緊你返去同佢玩，搓佢肚肚。」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFbGXCfW2bc
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk91szslKDI
「我係唔係癲左？呀遊，我…」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC3S4ZaXiQN
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2y8RibUM1a
「你唔係。」我親吻她的頭髮，「等打完風我會同你去睇醫生。」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6cmkf0X3E0
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEp11numJnw
「…我唔想入青山…」童桐是認真的感到恐懼。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡImsE90yILe
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQPeyJLIbcn
我笑道：「點會，只係見下社工，心理咨詢之類，記唔記得睇戲個種，坐係度同你傾計就收你貴一貴個種，哈哈。」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRldBdlYSLO
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0UC7d7IFUi
「…嗯…呀遊，今晚可唔可以開燈訓？」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyO7Dfq0SAc
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBTIPT3WFqa
「梗係可以。」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL5CaAsJepS
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwuNDJvkAjT
「講個秘密你知。」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdlRSuPDCvV
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCf6IAxpsqS
「仲有咩秘密我係唔知？」我說。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡANjFlllRq4
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBhKaYEiMUR
「其實我驚狗。」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlTSkvwZBRL
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfKtCQ2kSRg
「下？」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxtA6ooYoty
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童桐說：「記唔記得細個，有一次我媽咪黎探我，我覺得佢唔想見我就離家出走出左後山個度涼亭度？」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOUQeSxLb0
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ78md2wpom6
「哦個次，你仲偷偷地收埋學校個種膠水飯盒添。」我說，那次我上山找童桐，結果和她一起被狗追，還好我爸找到我們。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmmuFXKqN65
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRosgGPNWHJ
「個次咪俾野狗追既，好在叔叔救左我同你…我個次之後就好驚狗。」童桐說，「所以我好珍惜亞基，難得我唔會驚佢，但我諗都應該係因為你…所以我唔想自己以後都驚佢…」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlknMH0GWUE
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaKKEHwfEnL
「慢慢克服。」我說，「我…我細個都驚坐過山車喇，依加咪又唔驚。」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ65Y5YAu2jQ
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDstY7Tlkgm
不過原理應該不一樣。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQfnwUvDw8p
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ82XxKV1Wz7
「咕嚕…」童桐肚子悶響。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcck1ZYQ42I
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDQH0tz9AaG
「…童桐，你上次食野係幾時？」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdKw45EkD4h
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUkIA3Kccth
「係差館，菁婷小姐買左兩餸飯俾我。」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKjIdET1o1L
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgQ1fYkt6QP
「你依加肚餓？我去煮野俾你食。」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJhqj4Yb4U
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9uD70gVwyh
「唔啦。」童桐搖搖頭，「刷左牙，唔想刷多次。」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ldQBAc5DQ
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOE8oQicHE1
看她心情也吃不下吧，還是不要強逼她好。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuEnK4SzPqE
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhjTtt5CMt9
童桐成個人都憔悴了不少，很難想像一個人在一晚之間能這樣落魄，下午和她去放亞基時她還精神奕奕，傍晚出事到現在凌晨，童桐卻已經變成了一個愁眉不展，鬱鬱不歡的少女，看著我便心痛。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ41q1WwTWwN
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYibjZN18ub
我真的好想她能高高興興，像過去十多年一樣。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4IxOVIiDlw
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB8exTkgvO4
我緊緊抱住她，她沒有回抱，但也沒有抗拒。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEjxAvRKpc6
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJEzo7weDg7
「唔好有事，童桐，求下你。」我在她耳邊說。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzvpvQTqR2z
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「……」她卻沒有回應。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmJanW2KoqF
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBh0BFYmx3e
只要颱風一過去，便帶童桐去看醫生。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDIswoXH5dn
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5mBm7eVOBJ
這和傷風感冒是一樣的，都只不過是病。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTAEZtIm4E5
1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53Z5jZ0tYu
只要是病而不是甚麼不治之症，便能治，也必需要治。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3VF8mCLVV2
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「…三號風球預計於明日日間大部分時間維持，天文台預計超強颱風氣槽將於明晚凌晨時份改掛八號風球。天文台形容，超強颱風氣槽風力強勁，速度緩慢，結構完整，堪稱完美風暴Prefect Storm.」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBQOdUGo9vn
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只要風球一過，我便要帶童桐去看醫生。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavTOT0304l
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「…繼續返黎我地既節目。」電台主持人接話。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ3ekH57IOQ
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「即使風暴再強，即使風暴再完美，都唔好忘記晴天就在烏雲之後守候。」他帶有磁性的聲音格外叫我聽得入神。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTnnNzDPlUr
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「世界上或者有所謂既完美風暴。但係唔會有永恆既暴風雨。風暴再完美，都會消散既一日。」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjZxLK77I5W
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「風暴再完美，我地都要記住總會再次見到晴天。」1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6v4hzAPWZj
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眼角泛淚。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYPhiYRuxcX
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「呀遊？」童桐問。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡck01NHAxG6
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「…無事。」我把眼角輕蹭到童桐身上，感受著她的心跳，她的脈動。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvtmSsKlXYJ
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在我失去意識墜入夢鄉前我聽到電台在放著一首歌，最後的歌詞也呼應著窗外的完美風暴，我也擅自將之代入到我們的困境中。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOM4KL886W7
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／／還能互安慰1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZQPWt9rKEP
不必天氣多清朗1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXYmoxpr1Np
狂雨暴雪一起對抗1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnfcE5WKzIV
任歲月再壞 不致心慌／／
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第二天早上，屋中卻只有冷清。1096Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkXAEWPS3oR
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床上只剩我一個人，我打開童桐家中每一扇門，爺爺嫲嫲在聽著粵曲，卻沒有童桐的身影。甚至有亞基在的我家，也沒有童桐的身影。
童桐不見了。
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