童桐回到自己的家中後，我著她好好休息，由我過去我家那邊把枕頭拖鞋之類搬回去她這邊。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXzJOQezozq
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正當我收拾好準備回去時，我媽卻攔住了我。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9AuzfsiZRP
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「過黎傾傾。」我媽說。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFLXv94oaBN
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我爸在書房關著門，大概是因為颱風來襲而在家工作，所以廳中只有我和我媽二人，至於亞基看到我坐到沙發上，馬上躍到我膝上扭摸扭抱。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDHxq92SqpE
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我笑一笑然後抱抱牠，再給牠滿滿的撫摸，不只牠享受著，我也感到心中的壓力藉著手中的毛茸茸感覺釋放了不少。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ6af5ZOmuF
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好可愛…1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrU7Qnj5A6N
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參考圖 IG:bordercollie_08141171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPvgo1hNLK0
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「呀遊，你對PTSD有幾多認識？」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmKDfvyl3YA
1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaDdpko7vWV
「睇戲睇過。」我說，「就…有咩創傷事件後，會好驚相關既野，發惡夢，見到鬼之類，你想話童桐就係咁？」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcTNOei8mQC
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「你既算係克板印象。」我媽就，「我之前做ＨＲ個時，試過有同事出過事，升降機工業意外，成個頭扁左。」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGY2iH8KXCA
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我就不去想像了。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvw4a2n4nvd
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「事後在場目擊者，或多或少都有PTSD既傾向。童桐佢依加咁樣既情況，令我諗返起個時。」我媽說。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrJ7VjqfbLe
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「…你講下係點。」我說，「我想幫童桐。」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxPRMG6J84l
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「童桐可能係PTSD，亦可能係PITS，詳情既你帶佢去睇心理治療師，但兩者都似。」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Hiui8usEJ
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「又咩PITS…咩16型人格測驗？」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbDqDaVwb6q
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「唔係。」我媽白我一眼，「PTSD多數係受害者身上出現，而PITS叫加害者創傷壓力，多數出現係加害者身上，例如戰場上殺敵既軍人，屠房宰殺動物既員工，合法開槍制止暴行既警察之類。」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe6TDNPHPIS
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「童桐明明唔係加害者，利律師係差館同我講…」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpsMpGNiO7L
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「呀遊，佢係唔係都好，問題係佢覺得自己係。」我媽說。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzOms5VSGtu
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「童桐…已經係第二次遇到呢種事。」我心中一沉。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrqofZsRkMf
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「嗯。」我媽說，「PITS患者一般黎講會比起普通PTSD更嚴重，呀遊，你明唔明，童桐依加係被好好好嚴重既心理問題困擾。」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡntjZHtZZCI
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「嗯…我知道。」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9GBN2BIUz6
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「但你唔可以怪佢，佢都唔想，就好似普通傷風感冒咁，你無只係你好彩，總之…係症狀上先當成係PTSD解釋，只係更嚴重，亦更難醫。」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuH70OFcMNw
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接著我媽以她當年還是超級HR時處理過的經驗，向我解決童桐現在的情況。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhloUgkZWie
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PTSD可以在創傷事件後馬上爆發，或在數月後平息，但也可能持續，變成慢性綜合症。無論是當年工業意外翌日，在升降機內抱頭痛哭的員工，還是看到一向黏自己的亞基而恐慌發作的童桐。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGpwqz4XqcN
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而創傷又可以被貯藏在程序記憶中，患者即使看起來沒甚麼異樣，但一但做出相關的動作，便會馬上病發，那個員工好像是聽到升降機超重的「嗶嗶嗶」警告聲而馬上情緒崩潰。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Rh1KBxwmo
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至於做惡夢，性情大變，失眠，逃避或對相關人事物感到恐懼，暴躁易怒，過度警戒，易受驚嚇，再次處於相似情境會感到不安，恐懼，呼吸困難，發抖等，便和電影拍的大同小異。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZjJLNxbf7U
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也和童桐現在身上一樣。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMtjJtxglW2
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「但即使係點，呢個係病，童桐仲係你認識，你鐘意既童桐，你既青梅竹馬童桐。」我媽說，「佢只係病左，而呢個病係有得醫，就同厭食症一樣。」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCFV0IPuXQO
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「一打完風我就會帶佢去睇醫生。」我說，「錢方面，阿媽…」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBQmD0X91NS
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「得啦，我本來就當童桐係我地個女咁，依加更加當佢係新抱，錢方面你唔使擔心。」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpnpi2Twdo2
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我愛我媽。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6FMMtmFAa0
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「你要好好照顧佢，PTSD又好, PITS都好，都係有得醫，只緊要係你陪佢，照顧佢，俾安全感佢。」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXdwHTneOz1
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我點點頭，雖然不知道我能不能辦到。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoXyPXhlpEi
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「喂，你有幾鐘意童桐？」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ajBnfT89h
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無需任何思考。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Q2qzUuhwM
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「要幾鐘意就有幾鐘意。」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQxKL4JioOu
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我媽問：「照顧佢一世，用一世人陪佢對抗呢個病你願唔願意？講緊既係一生一世。」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk2ZUdjuhbs
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「幾多世都願意。」我口出狂言，但我的確有這份覺悟。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUCiYA6teOj
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已經經歷了這麼多歡笑，跨越了這麼多眼淚，這份決意我背負得起。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCUOgARccjO
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也必須要由我背負。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu1fH5oo1Kb
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即使我再弱小，這點我也不會讓步。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5rA20RGyWO
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「既然係咁。」我媽舉起右手，「就交呢個俾你。」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBC5r7Nt8kj
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回到童桐那邊，我首先拿出一個狗玩具。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgJqtNg3KGR
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「呀遊…？」躺在床上的童桐問。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD6wDWeiKLE
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「係亞基俾你。」我說，「佢似乎覺得自己做錯，叼左佢最鐘意個舊骨去我地房門口，應該係想送俾你想你原諒佢。」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzeEfBpGCTe
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「……佢真係好可愛。」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXIHOEtiLES
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「佢好唔開心。」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbmCj5EoAQf
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「我…我知道…」童桐痛心地搖頭說，「係佢救左我地，計埋之前，佢已經救左我地第三次，但我…我一見到亞基，我就聽到架車撞落Kay既聲，聽到煞車聲，我仲聽到Kay既慘叫聲，我唔應該放開亞基，一日都係我……」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ27ZWW7IoTC
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她深深地在自責。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpFaeMMFO74
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別忘了，Kay在襲擊我們之前，是童桐的組員，二人在大學也是好朋友。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhqjKBVD87F
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而Kay不但變成拿刀砍我的女人，更加在童桐面前被貨車撞成血肉模糊。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPOQ4TIYWOq
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「佢唔會嬲你啦。」我把狗骨頭放到床頭，輕輕擁住童桐，「佢一定等緊你返去同佢玩，搓佢肚肚。」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYPG9aXsQ44
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「我係唔係癲左？呀遊，我…」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQHZF0Jy8NF
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「你唔係。」我親吻她的頭髮，「等打完風我會同你去睇醫生。」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLO70lofRCj
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「…我唔想入青山…」童桐是認真的感到恐懼。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRhovWzEvaO
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我笑道：「點會，只係見下社工，心理咨詢之類，記唔記得睇戲個種，坐係度同你傾計就收你貴一貴個種，哈哈。」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2NKHumLmZT
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「…嗯…呀遊，今晚可唔可以開燈訓？」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Qmhc1JQg7
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「梗係可以。」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaGHEZMVyqd
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「講個秘密你知。」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbxHoMfmSib
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「仲有咩秘密我係唔知？」我說。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnSiuWeqz0n
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「其實我驚狗。」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡar1233AcvV
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「下？」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfmLHxjupAj
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童桐說：「記唔記得細個，有一次我媽咪黎探我，我覺得佢唔想見我就離家出走出左後山個度涼亭度？」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFOmAKhucUo
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「哦個次，你仲偷偷地收埋學校個種膠水飯盒添。」我說，那次我上山找童桐，結果和她一起被狗追，還好我爸找到我們。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsGkoc2VRC0
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「個次咪俾野狗追既，好在叔叔救左我同你…我個次之後就好驚狗。」童桐說，「所以我好珍惜亞基，難得我唔會驚佢，但我諗都應該係因為你…所以我唔想自己以後都驚佢…」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNeTzI7KSQm
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「慢慢克服。」我說，「我…我細個都驚坐過山車喇，依加咪又唔驚。」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡflt8t7f4Nl
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不過原理應該不一樣。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcAiGKx3Qdu
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「咕嚕…」童桐肚子悶響。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡETiX8G7FVI
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「…童桐，你上次食野係幾時？」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡecvoszwYca
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「係差館，菁婷小姐買左兩餸飯俾我。」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIKsQeQPISN
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「你依加肚餓？我去煮野俾你食。」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCiiwEEimkO
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「唔啦。」童桐搖搖頭，「刷左牙，唔想刷多次。」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡapXRlmu9Nl
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看她心情也吃不下吧，還是不要強逼她好。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBGOe5xEOe4
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童桐成個人都憔悴了不少，很難想像一個人在一晚之間能這樣落魄，下午和她去放亞基時她還精神奕奕，傍晚出事到現在凌晨，童桐卻已經變成了一個愁眉不展，鬱鬱不歡的少女，看著我便心痛。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWd2RY0Tg7R
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我真的好想她能高高興興，像過去十多年一樣。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDFOLiUkGH
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我緊緊抱住她，她沒有回抱，但也沒有抗拒。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0YxilurAkN
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「唔好有事，童桐，求下你。」我在她耳邊說。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ63ZJNYcrbC
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「……」她卻沒有回應。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvdNat0mUQG
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只要颱風一過去，便帶童桐去看醫生。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpMpLyklpgy
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這和傷風感冒是一樣的，都只不過是病。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2nK25QGuos
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只要是病而不是甚麼不治之症，便能治，也必需要治。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZQC8klSQg4
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「…三號風球預計於明日日間大部分時間維持，天文台預計超強颱風氣槽將於明晚凌晨時份改掛八號風球。天文台形容，超強颱風氣槽風力強勁，速度緩慢，結構完整，堪稱完美風暴Prefect Storm.」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoFUyA8aHPT
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只要風球一過，我便要帶童桐去看醫生。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6JWwi89PQR
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「…繼續返黎我地既節目。」電台主持人接話。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa3YuUK1g3G
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「即使風暴再強，即使風暴再完美，都唔好忘記晴天就在烏雲之後守候。」他帶有磁性的聲音格外叫我聽得入神。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI6C7MZnIun
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「世界上或者有所謂既完美風暴。但係唔會有永恆既暴風雨。風暴再完美，都會消散既一日。」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3K1pJLHzc0
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「風暴再完美，我地都要記住總會再次見到晴天。」1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkBTa3z3yX0
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眼角泛淚。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiBdQgML7gz
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「呀遊？」童桐問。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhqreUf5t7t
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「…無事。」我把眼角輕蹭到童桐身上，感受著她的心跳，她的脈動。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ02V4o8PFMU
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在我失去意識墜入夢鄉前我聽到電台在放著一首歌，最後的歌詞也呼應著窗外的完美風暴，我也擅自將之代入到我們的困境中。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIl0kak5OlP
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／／還能互安慰1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9XXfe3doTp
不必天氣多清朗1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrZmdnTMMxR
狂雨暴雪一起對抗1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaLsIDv2UuJ
任歲月再壞 不致心慌／／
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第二天早上，屋中卻只有冷清。1171Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2h6RVfDslA
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床上只剩我一個人，我打開童桐家中每一扇門，爺爺嫲嫲在聽著粵曲，卻沒有童桐的身影。甚至有亞基在的我家，也沒有童桐的身影。
童桐不見了。
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然後按「加至主畫面」