78Please respect copyright.PENANAagShbn9hCk
「我想她一定會原諒你的。」
78Please respect copyright.PENANANeDFyZpvBI
那人佇足原地,思緒被稱不上朋友的同學單單一句善意話語給侵佔,久久不能自己。78Please respect copyright.PENANAJm1oZGeCiX
78Please respect copyright.PENANAZPu5XhtsUe
白雪輕降,灑落一片冰涼,覆蓋在排列整齊的墓碑上、少年輕眨的睫毛上、已無溫度的心頭上。78Please respect copyright.PENANA9PVNO1l2PQ
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即使安高愛已經祭拜完離去多時,獨人仍跪在墓前。78Please respect copyright.PENANATMWiUGnZbN
78Please respect copyright.PENANARBw5l2c8Va
「茉紅梨,妳願意原諒我嗎……」78Please respect copyright.PENANAoFLA5yXTGS
78Please respect copyright.PENANA32dSpfaQt7
呢喃中摻有些許哽咽以及沙啞,這是時流獨人這輩子第一次如此向人示弱。78Please respect copyright.PENANA5pBnoA8gVb
78Please respect copyright.PENANArwpkLx0uRc
……卻得不到任何回應。
78Please respect copyright.PENANAFv47NVhQUO
78Please respect copyright.PENANAC1kcEMO9j0
這一天可真漫長,他感覺渡過了數日,天色卻僅僅只是由亮白轉為暗橘。78Please respect copyright.PENANAFDngL7h8Un
78Please respect copyright.PENANATZTY9jIlHM
「獨人?」78Please respect copyright.PENANAg0Rh1YJU1a
78Please respect copyright.PENANA13WMj585ZK
又是他,是只要來此處便能遇見的那人。78Please respect copyright.PENANAkLBkWXldh4
78Please respect copyright.PENANA8bAlIFYUqB
伊堂春菅,一名低調過了頭的英雄,無法排解喪妻之痛而長期駐守墓園。78Please respect copyright.PENANA8aEHLDTQCX
78Please respect copyright.PENANAG1hEyNQHmd
「真少見,竟然在傍晚看到你。」78Please respect copyright.PENANAh5AYJF4q6C
78Please respect copyright.PENANAwoqPTcf81K
「我出獄了。」78Please respect copyright.PENANALBWpsxAOJJ
78Please respect copyright.PENANANZm7RpJuoN
春菅愣了一瞬,眼前這名少年太常出沒了,導致他根本就沒有散發受刑人的氣質,而且一般也不可能如此自由。78Please respect copyright.PENANAsHQYApYLnc
78Please respect copyright.PENANADFsSR1y1mu
不過殺人可是重罪,身為英雄、親自將多名敵人送入監獄的春菅對這點觀念還是有的。78Please respect copyright.PENANABJZs2KFoNX
78Please respect copyright.PENANA0BH1GIA5Jj
恢復了平靜眼神,本想道聲恭喜的,卻馬上意識到他們兩人身於何處,而少年又是為了何事才入獄又出獄。78Please respect copyright.PENANAWZJnjW98Mx
78Please respect copyright.PENANARFP7SbmyQZ
想到這,春菅就吞回原本的祝賀,改成沒什麼起伏的回應,「這樣啊。」78Please respect copyright.PENANAbAXr6V2qhC
78Please respect copyright.PENANA55Lb5euBHR
兩人呼著白色霧氣,吸入相同的冰冷,位於此處的他們有著相同的孤寂。78Please respect copyright.PENANAM1EZcxlHL1
78Please respect copyright.PENANA2mGa9jybiO
沈默維持著,明明見過數次面卻沒話可聊,但春菅也不是會為此感到尷尬的人,他就是生性活潑健談。78Please respect copyright.PENANAzRXZBQOHxa
78Please respect copyright.PENANAlwzQnD8hoD
在只剩彼此鼻息的無語寧靜中細細思考,該開什麼話題才好呢?78Please respect copyright.PENANA9Jz4XtQxfm
78Please respect copyright.PENANAynn51Bf3Xm
思念之人?不,對獨人來說這可是禁忌話題。78Please respect copyright.PENANAuYYvlWpE0I
78Please respect copyright.PENANAEz95UC31Yo
仔細想想他還真是對獨人一無所知,那談談經歷吧?嗯……還是算了,對過去最後悔莫及的人肯定非獨人莫屬了。78Please respect copyright.PENANAUZjYw6beeL
78Please respect copyright.PENANAVIfm7BaJAN
最後,春菅無奈輕笑,嘆了一口白煙。78Please respect copyright.PENANAJwkLRIG3bg
78Please respect copyright.PENANAolhirBw7zo
「獨人,你未來想做什麼?」78Please respect copyright.PENANAE7kGWVxtCu
78Please respect copyright.PENANAfrPOUN6JSZ
原來他最終也只能問這種大人的制式問題,春菅不禁覺得想笑。78Please respect copyright.PENANAxWJtVVIZNX
78Please respect copyright.PENANAX0Uqb7EerU
「……未來?」78Please respect copyright.PENANAihAy826Skk
78Please respect copyright.PENANAhKKx3yZC4A
「對啊,既然順利出獄了,得到重啟人生的機會,那更應該想清楚未來的出路吧?」78Please respect copyright.PENANAK81egoTV3Y
78Please respect copyright.PENANAFTZ8iRiY7L
獨人瞪大了眼,像是腦袋當機般發愣著。78Please respect copyright.PENANAq76ETpB7E9
78Please respect copyright.PENANAqXtIEenCrz
他從未思考過未來。78Please respect copyright.PENANAtEOaC56pBn
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因為他眼裡只有回到過去的路。78Please respect copyright.PENANAM8ZIo8Qlwj
78Please respect copyright.PENANAiWQ905f3zx
說來可笑,費盡心思博取他人的敬重,嘔心瀝血才換來了「天才」的稱號,獨人卻從未想過自己究竟想做什麼。78Please respect copyright.PENANA9R7N1bGjH3
78Please respect copyright.PENANAcFLWaLi7h5
國小作文課在全班面前發表的題目——我的夢想——當時寫了什麼?他似乎不記得了,反正肯定是寫了個會讓眾人羨慕的職業吧。78Please respect copyright.PENANAK0KKXKHYNn
78Please respect copyright.PENANAXOYqf9QQYR
那此刻的他呢?78Please respect copyright.PENANAcoXYSlbBUL
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腦袋一片空白,他想不出任何答案,而且越是努力探索內心,腦海越會深刻浮現出茉紅梨不諒解的面容。
78Please respect copyright.PENANAV4beI48mr9
「我已經沒有未來了,你憑什麼有呢?」
78Please respect copyright.PENANAgCtEC9oVFG
喉頭發出吞嚥口水的聲音,獨人沒有任何回應。78Please respect copyright.PENANAyhc8omwnv6
78Please respect copyright.PENANA2t5B1LWzqH
春菅無法靠這片沈默理解對方內心,於是繼續道,「那你的個性呢?」78Please respect copyright.PENANAXEpDLHy9d6
78Please respect copyright.PENANAmdgdzhFQqz
「……」78Please respect copyright.PENANARL2PkRDKKl
78Please respect copyright.PENANAvzuFAdSobS
「如果沒有想做的工作,也可以找跟自己個性相關的來考慮。」78Please respect copyright.PENANAxGPT6nQwkG
78Please respect copyright.PENANAbMJEF21vFv
「一般人要取得英雄執照才能對他人使用個性,這是常識,對吧?但很多時候如果個性可以運用在工作上,也能由公司去申請許可證。其實電力公司裡面一堆電氣系個性的人,真羨慕那些傢伙,哈哈!」78Please respect copyright.PENANAL7WldkLfiN
78Please respect copyright.PENANA5qhfR3KyVg
雖然知道自己講這些很像愛管閒事的老人,但這也正是成年人的諫言,春菅希望這名已經悔過的少年,能夠光明磊落走完剩下的人生。78Please respect copyright.PENANAECTJQxwjiA
78Please respect copyright.PENANAV6SKE4bezz
「……我沒有個性。」78Please respect copyright.PENANACRaDPruPow
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只是他完全沒有料到會得到這樣的回應。78Please respect copyright.PENANAXsRRJ62K77
78Please respect copyright.PENANAzJdCHqB1Ru
「這、這樣啊,不過沒關係啦,大部分的人個性也沒有運用在工作上。就像我要是做一般工作,這個性大概頂多也只能讓我睡過頭也不會遲到吧。」78Please respect copyright.PENANAkl0S0ca6b6
78Please respect copyright.PENANAVd4u1hOYSQ
春菅平常就看得出來性格隨和多話,只是今天明顯是拼命在找話題,這反而讓獨人不太能理解。78Please respect copyright.PENANAE6HzdKp11O
78Please respect copyright.PENANAFiBS2BJ82W
他們又不是什麼朋友,安慰自己對春菅可沒有好處。78Please respect copyright.PENANAg3nm3gADrM
78Please respect copyright.PENANAOUhz1ZfGuG
剛剛對未來的提問已經讓獨人煩心,現在已經完全沒心力理會春菅了。他沒有回話,甚至將頭轉回,繼續凝視茉紅梨的墓碑。78Please respect copyright.PENANAz4v7O7qgWc
78Please respect copyright.PENANA7Zun2nO1zt
「唉,不過,我最羨慕的果然還是『回到過去』的個性呀。」78Please respect copyright.PENANAiOJEzw7V5i
78Please respect copyright.PENANAxjslW1xb7Q
「……?」78Please respect copyright.PENANAP8J5vUe8K7
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頭皮瞬間發麻,獨人像是卡榫生鏽的機械一頓一頓地看向春菅,他已經在妻子的墓前盤腿坐好,為彼此各倒一杯酒,握起小酒杯搖動,瞧著在容器內泛起漣漪的透明液體。78Please respect copyright.PENANAIlKj7UlqGn
78Please respect copyright.PENANAvJSJzLKnot
「要是能回到過去,我肯定會想盡辦法阻止我妻子的悲劇。」春菅將酒杯高舉至眼前,無高光的暗綠雙眸將所有期望寄託於杯中反射的光芒,「就算犧牲這條命也在所不惜。」78Please respect copyright.PENANAomWo8XB42V
78Please respect copyright.PENANAsgJB83I8xG
最後那句話甚至刺進獨人心底深處,嘲笑著他只顧著反悔,卻沒有一點覺悟的窩囊樣。78Please respect copyright.PENANAXqmF1ZUO8W
78Please respect copyright.PENANAIBDJZy0xCG
欲言又止了一番,獨人最終鼓起勇氣啟動雙唇,「伊堂先生你……難道不會害怕嗎?」78Please respect copyright.PENANAAWM1HViYyC
78Please respect copyright.PENANA6JZHSizI8F
「害怕?為什麼?」78Please respect copyright.PENANAmjelm1daOy
78Please respect copyright.PENANARX5xvmthdi
「害怕回到過去之後,你妻子怪罪你為什麼沒來得及救她……」獨人越說越沒自信,音量逐漸減小。78Please respect copyright.PENANAGF2cwLaL3N
78Please respect copyright.PENANAOhFf9Hm6zF
「都回到她還沒出事的時候了怎麼可能會怪我啦?」春菅笑道,一口飲盡小酒杯裡的清酒,「不過倒可能怪我馬桶蓋又沒放下來就是了。」78Please respect copyright.PENANAipbXriMVSI
78Please respect copyright.PENANAhpO4pKGHed
幽默緩頰沒有奏效,獨人仍被困在自我怪罪的循環裡,微弱卻快速地喘著氣。78Please respect copyright.PENANAZJ2fohIBRc
78Please respect copyright.PENANA6vcUIiJrwY
「我也想回去,一直都想……是真的真的很想回到過去……」78Please respect copyright.PENANAuMU577oiNV
78Please respect copyright.PENANAsLKqLGV5ty
聲音哽咽著難以發出,摻雜些許啜泣,語氣裡盡是懊悔。78Please respect copyright.PENANAXzYryxrHil
78Please respect copyright.PENANARZAhumyA9u
獨人因為劇烈心痛不自覺緊抓胸口,就算衣襟擠出深深皺摺仍得不到緩解,眼角堆積淚水,不用兩秒便溢出。78Please respect copyright.PENANA0krjFHWqPR
78Please respect copyright.PENANAaoVwYyc2Rp
「我想回到她還活著的時候……!」哽咽使他聲音變得尖銳,卻莫名令人心痛。78Please respect copyright.PENANAB6GTwXnscu
78Please respect copyright.PENANACfXJhzOFX3
春菅已經沒有剛才開玩笑時的笑容了,被獨人的悲傷渲染著他根本笑不出來,而且就算沒有提及也知道那個「她」指的是誰。78Please respect copyright.PENANA9pkherC4xx
78Please respect copyright.PENANAHANfIKGJfV
「可是,就算回到過去,就算她還活著,我犯下的那些過錯也已經無法改變了。」78Please respect copyright.PENANAXeg570HI9b
78Please respect copyright.PENANATctLIrHtOn
十幾年來的言語霸凌是何等程度的罪孽,心智早已成年的獨人再清楚不過了。78Please respect copyright.PENANAVtX3cBZsjc
78Please respect copyright.PENANAHC9WmPV79H
他已經不討厭茉紅梨了,甚至想要補償她,但這只是獨人自己單方面的想法。78Please respect copyright.PENANAB6ZQeFym4l
78Please respect copyright.PENANAJTiJgck6ws
茉紅梨肯定很討厭自己,獨人打從心底畏懼,如果妹妹看著自己的眼神充滿憎恨,他真不敢面對。78Please respect copyright.PENANARJogTga6Ae
78Please respect copyright.PENANAjXBB4F4e7Y
其實也有想過如果回到更早呢?如果再次回到四歲,自己所做的一切就會歸零,那些罪孽就不存在了呀。78Please respect copyright.PENANACNy6CUqnbK
78Please respect copyright.PENANAYojUf0hdzW
然後這數年來的「獨人」也將不復存在,所有努力白費只剩下空蕩蕩的軀殼,一切從頭來過,自己仍然什麼都不是,而茉紅梨依然被眾人擁戴。
78Please respect copyright.PENANAhpUOArZjte
他感覺自己會再壞掉一次。
78Please respect copyright.PENANABDPn7UzWwc
「我希望茉紅梨能活著……但我害怕她的存——」78Please respect copyright.PENANACyRa1gpY5t
78Please respect copyright.PENANARvGSHJdulQ
「我不知道你們過去發生了什麼,不好隨便做評論啦。」春菅以他成熟的磁性嗓音打斷,隨後嘆了一口氣,「不過,會害怕是因為你承認自己的錯誤了吧?」78Please respect copyright.PENANAQVM00Wm9dy
78Please respect copyright.PENANAz4zQTNZZEZ
他慢悠悠地將給妻子的酒一口乾掉,隨後把兩個清酒杯酌滿,收回盤起的腿起身,拎著酒杯將其中之一放到茉紅梨墓前,「吭啷」的敲擊聲有些突兀。78Please respect copyright.PENANAGP6EdwXNfo
78Please respect copyright.PENANA0boKVBg0px
春菅蹲下,這樣便能與跪在墓前的獨人平視。78Please respect copyright.PENANAuZWCNpCifH
78Please respect copyright.PENANA9ZVhI57nJq
「既然承認做錯事了,後續再害怕都要勇敢面對,要當個負責任的男人嘛。」78Please respect copyright.PENANAhidrEkjeWd
78Please respect copyright.PENANAlprMfuzcg5
感受到手中傳來溫熱卻冰冷的觸感,獨人才發現春菅正把另一杯酒塞到自己手中。78Please respect copyright.PENANA5ECQG4OzMM
78Please respect copyright.PENANANQjSgI4xlD
春菅的手有些粗糙,壓緊獨人握杯的掌後連帶抬高,乍看之下獨人像在與茉紅梨敬酒。78Please respect copyright.PENANAaUmrpy6eGQ
78Please respect copyright.PENANAySs4ifVHt2
「茉紅梨她……在最後一定比你更害怕,是吧?」78Please respect copyright.PENANA7hLRnJ1o8W
78Please respect copyright.PENANAKkUFmWw9GR
春菅的手一脫離,缺少了支撐,獨人握著杯的手便瘋狂顫抖,清酒隨著晃動不斷沿著杯口滲出。78Please respect copyright.PENANAAhHWmSHh2N
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是的。78Please respect copyright.PENANAOqG3ZPmobs
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茉紅梨在最後肯定很驚恐,竟然被哥哥拿刀攻擊,怎麼可能不嚇到。78Please respect copyright.PENANAmFaNWKBPZU
78Please respect copyright.PENANAsEaUiPKVrG
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——而且與自己不同,她再也沒有機會害怕了。78Please respect copyright.PENANAQaCIEah5HT
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「……嗯。」獨人發不出聲音,只能用力點頭,擠出奇怪的悶哼。78Please respect copyright.PENANARkT3AuTZrS
78Please respect copyright.PENANA4uBQugh9ka
他將酒一口飲盡,咕嚕一聲,酒精順著喉結下滑。78Please respect copyright.PENANA8OVUlHsUMp
78Please respect copyright.PENANAVN2YiDClyU
率先感受到的是來自喉嚨的灼燒感。78Please respect copyright.PENANAzgA06cvYwt
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隨後則是沿著雙頰流入嘴角的鹹味。78Please respect copyright.PENANA9Jwd5KRJFT
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就像他的人生一樣既辛辣又死鹹,難以下嚥。
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而茉紅梨墓前的酒杯仍透著傍晚夕陽的暖橘,熠熠生輝。
78Please respect copyright.PENANAud2xw30rzv