Julia, I hope you eventually went to that guidance counselor. I know I never got up the courage to do something like that, but I know that it does help. I hope you feel better now, like many of us in this contest, and know that you are loved by all many, even if some are just online.
"Diary of a Broken Teen" was my online diary I kept for two years (but I stopped writing in it a few months ago.) It's not word for word so I could match the prompt, but a lot of it was definitely from it.
Thank you again! You are also very much loved <3