《赤足的庭院》（2）104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb0ufeD7hpd
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  我對故鄉的印象僅僅是印象。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuO0bShOQyr
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK1I2HCc8pI
  因為那裡的事物並不是被人實務性的記憶下來，而是作為更不完全的東西，留在心底的某些角落。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtUtyV0Etxk
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPBqZ9MsgOJ
  我記得潮水的味道和海浪等聲音，沙子的觸感，樹梢下刮起的微風，夜晚時絕對黑暗的地面，和成為那個時間裡唯一存在事物的星和月。魚腥味、油輪的廢氣、風雨來的時候，所感到的恐懼。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmP466CM8Vn
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP8xV5VYZG9
  我的故鄉作為一個印象，我記錄在腦中，知道自己總有一天會以某個型式的遠離它。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLInPfVsJUb
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0fcGx1twnU
  但那不是指現在。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCw8zkSXJs2
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHXbVX3GISB
  就算獨自一人逃到台北，看過了城市鮮豔的夜色，耳裡塞滿城市的吐和吸，我還是知道，自己並沒有真正的遠離故鄉。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvrmujuYtlH
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKCNDBKF0lC
  104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVs4hvej2j1
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5sIg6h3ncB
  「嗯⋯⋯可以問你的名字嗎？」小舫姐說她昨晚沒能睡著。在平常的那張餐桌上，她癱軟的用雙手撐著臉。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTDSjs1yMe1
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWhEI99gEDu
  我一邊解釋著自己的事，一邊看著她疲累的試著聽進我所說的。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd5aT0OOTuU
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0iAJfSIQle
  看她渴望睡眠的樣子，我感到有些內疚。她睡不好大概就是因為我。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFiePD7bi9v
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAlhcJpj7Hl
  昨晚，小舫姐讓我暫時待在她家借住一晚。公寓的房間很小，只有一張床鋪。我原本堅持要睡地板，不過被她拒絕了：「落到這副德性的人少跟我客氣。」。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡziaGNPZofa
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv8OJbiwj78
  多了一個人在床上，一定很不習慣。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGtjQee9D74
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF8eFuhS0PD
  但是昨晚，還好我實在是筋疲力盡，不然大概會整夜無法入睡。年紀的問題。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIx6imbC6Cd
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  「李靜。」104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlGfaXGYeAQ
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrrD599SLhF
  「噢，好娘。李靖或是李欽不是更適合男孩子嗎？」104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiCBcxGk22W
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAEw1YyiHwr
  「⋯⋯」104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXjAOp4kRNn
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9MT0u8sLy6
  「不過還好。要是是李靖或是李欽的話，昨天晚上我大概就危險嘍。」我說。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsX6syQDiPR
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIXb0Dc3vNN
  「哈⋯⋯」104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRS7kdH3X5l
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWNiM0MjgZ
  當然，昨晚的我本來就沒有對他抱著任何期待。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiH0BBYHD6T
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwUcnAX8nZK
  只是回想起來，那確實是很荒謬的決定。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnS7vWTNxex
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Mep9ye6gy
  「一個23歲的女人，讓16的陌生少年上了自己的床鋪。」104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwpVSerAgMB
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSB2iExR9LG
  寫成文字或是作為台詞被唸出來，大概都不會影響它的離譜。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIuVneTah0F
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1SM2qSzBcr
  「那麼，李靜。你打算就這麼住下來嗎？」她問，十分嚴肅的。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFLn0xkbgXw
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoOE4YTRpDD
  我搖搖頭。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcZEY4Z3Bfg
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhmKFptIYpo
  「靠著你偷出來的錢，青年旅館還能住多久呢？要是在那之前，你依然不想回到自己的故鄉，你打算怎麼辦？」還不想，的話。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ59ShR4Xmux
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCDdChpUBMp
  面前的少年低著頭，一語不發。我大概知道他在思考著什麼。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7sQEoU4M7U
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡou3eahpXRG
  「我遲早會遠離我的故鄉⋯⋯」104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDO2D7QrEC7
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgX2gMHDm3T
  「但不是由這個方式。對吧？」104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOJ75iwplbz
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYrv59wVc0T
  「是的，所以⋯⋯」104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQOVW1k0orT
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGiMa3fzVl0
  「怎麼辦呢？」這次不是為了捉弄人，她露出溫柔的微笑。「在錢花完之前，你得思考噢。來到這個混亂的場所，你能得到什麼？或是追求什麼。」她說。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFhZKe6jpDl
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1PbYq0q9Cp
  「小舫姐，妳常常離家嗎？」他突然一臉佩服的看著我。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWZH77q4YeX
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbKSU0v7k03
  「這是什麼蠢問題？」啊，說錯話了。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQIT6oRWro4
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiOi4iWQ5g3
  「嗯⋯⋯不是，總感覺妳很熟練的樣子。」104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN1JczC5nGw
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeDH89WNoxy
  「怎麼可能。」她說。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT6YVTXuy1w
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVVrd9KgRJf
  然而這是事實。16歲之前，我離家過無數次，每次都是無功而返，只帶回挫折跟疲勞的身體。然後，到了他的這個年紀，我幾乎像是投降了一樣。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxrit0R2OlN
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW0dy88BiK3
  好好的準備了考試，盡了全力去考大學。畢業之後也找到了穩定的工作。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI02RPBC0KR
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4eYX4KgACr
  這7年來的生活十分穩定。而且那是不容置疑的正確。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsT39somVtC
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVIxM7Zk7IH
  直到他出現的那天。我再次質疑起自己作的決定。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN6iypHgq2j
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU8vHG8xhxn
  長時間離開過我的這份自我懷疑又找上門來，然而我絲毫不比之前的自己成熟或是冷靜。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjLm9B8N6Wm
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCuycTpryo
  但是看著他，我總有一種感覺。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWNCVmVmRUf
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZlq4wyfAe6
  「大概沒問題的。我想⋯⋯。」104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVfy29jcAu7
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKYUtTd7YOo
  沒有理由的，我這麼相信著。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeNknsgUkUp
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDEsBlmEN2Q
  因為，注視著她時，海嘯和風的呼嘯聲就會從腦袋中消失。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3XZW1sCNk2
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104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4BSfj2jpcx
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH52D0xNVLE
  「阿靜，你是獨生子嗎？」最近每到中午，她都會走到我身邊，把我從樓下的那個陰暗的角落，帶到樓上的用餐區。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡii0BZgsbaK
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqAehtf7yF1
  「是啊。」我吃著員工餐，回應的問題。到台北之後，這是我第一次吃到泡麵以外的熱食。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwSvUMhEoIY
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvMSCPvdtKx
  「好吃嗎？」她用頭指了指我的盤子。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP0Bu57hLK7
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDmUpZdOXy9
  「嗯，非常美味。」104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgYifdT7iba
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEjMHS8Luxi
  「那就好。」她又塞了一口飯到口中。「你看這個。」她拿出手機。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7T3pRQZCG7
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvrcIJmAmfx
  滑開桌面，她打開某個定期回報全球衛星雲圖的程式。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgh3lnGxErx
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw9Hr4UQ0yp
  不知道為什麽，程式剛打開所指定的地方是新幾內亞，但是她好像不太在意。說實在話，我也不太在意，我滿腦子在想桌面照片是哪個作家的書。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAfCM2JVdyz
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWOrGf9UVvZ
  然後她讓我看了台灣附近。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDvqxSOV1i0
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtjvlUzCOka
  「一次來兩個颱風噢，很要命對吧？」104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9OFrq0f327
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXzhQ7wDI3n
  「嗯⋯⋯。」104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxsTneElv84
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMockRtGFTW
  「可是啊，你看這個。預測路線說，它們會剛剛好⋯⋯像這樣，一個往上、一個往下，躲開台灣噢。」她用手指畫出線條，語氣雀躍的說。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHLLkeygn1M
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLvUFlaNWuF
  「真的是這樣就太好了。」他皺著眉頭說。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHA808sMLzn
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPq76kZAT9d
  肯定沒事的。看到她笑著這麼說，我的心不知為什麼就這麼安心下來了。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW2wh5DDgxr
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjalWKu2ydQ
  我從二樓的圍欄往一樓看，看到不少人離開座位，或是把書本丟在一旁，往樓上來。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRrarjNPyFz
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd8n4cXDAdr
  離席的人一個個往同一個方向去，每個人離開前的習慣和走路的姿勢、服裝的外型，從腳的移動到眼神，每個人都有所不同，卻做著一樣的事。我很喜歡這幅光景。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCQfiOaTHhh
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhNMKzOkb8e
  「阿靜，獨生子是什麼樣的感覺啊？」我的注意回到她身上。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnboh2M4N96
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjhyWDFhG1Q
  「什麼？」104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiqoD63mMam
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhDf0kO5ito
  她又問了一次。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡefJPuSVi1V
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5xq0VXP1Z4
  「啊⋯⋯獨生子啊，不知道，小舫姐不是獨生女嗎？感覺很像啊。」104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ920m3dRAG5
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ27af8TndtZ
  「什麼意思？」104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡULoKfBnRtt
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPW91cHGRUl
  「對那種需要一個人鑽研的事物比較感興趣。」孤僻的怪人。我從來沒看見她和其他圖書館員熱絡的交談過，說不定，她在這唯一的朋友就是我了。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI2AmPAaIax
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwroZ8mLdGn
  「噢，這樣啊⋯⋯還有呢？」104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNsjISbllpZ
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYGxK5cJbZ0
  「感覺很有自己的想法。」不顧別人的感受。從來不看場合的捉弄人，不管話題或是氣氛，只要她覺得好玩就好。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLfF2mY1VRt
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ2cE8SfbCw
  「這樣啊，可是我不是噢。」她笑著說。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNHWsbkQ84R
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY2LGfzx66l
  「是嗎？」104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZsWyalzW6
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUcJZjvrcAf
  「嗯，我有一個弟弟⋯⋯長得跟你很像噢。」104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU26rY5EJrc
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaeGUr4Uz9V
  她這麽的同時，皺起眉頭，仔細的觀察的我的五官。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFwDALhnLpO
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKR8j7xwuW
  104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ69QxaGldhV
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡosJ1KL0Rpu
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  果然很像。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwhdOZVtY3G
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKcwwWWeX7g
  午餐時間結束，他作為暫時的圖書館員，整理書架時的那副神情，和弟弟替我收拾行李時的表情一模一樣。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA8idLuAa9C
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCAaHolFDJU
  那是我第四次的離家出走。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3DUBRVffCn
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ70bD5V6kCp
  準備離開家門前，剛升國中的弟弟，突然擅自打開我的行李箱。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz5rffAvTIL
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB3Y3u05XLK
  我害怕會錯過父母不在家的時間，對他斥責了幾句。但是他很冷靜，說要替我檢查。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJJm0zoHLRh
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEA8BbEtu9M
  「少了牙膏和食物⋯⋯啊，火車上要看的書呢？姊，妳沒有書活得下去啊？」這時的我，為了大學的志願在鬧家庭革命。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO94BIDA04R
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt2gWj377TY
  我喜歡文學。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrZfrhUbPfR
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgFSZGzhde5
  那個時候，驅動我一切不成熟和自私的動力，都來自這麼一個模糊而膚淺的理由。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzu5CY10uXk
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ041257gGL4
  因為這個尚未成形的夢想⋯⋯那個時候，更適合的詞可能是妄想。因為它，我把自己的容身之處給否定了。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4PjiRdit39
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxwcr3il0m0
「 我無法待在那個否定我一切的地方。」我那個時候是這麼告訴弟弟的。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIwR8wMCybR
104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZuMnBq57LD
  我看著他替我收拾書本和盥洗用具後，他堅持要送我到車站。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHZ6ANoMSov
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  於是我在車站冷冰冰的塑膠椅上，用極為平淡的語氣對還是國中生的他說。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuUaQpw1bUu
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  「我希望妳能快樂。當然，我也希望爸爸媽媽快樂⋯⋯嗯⋯⋯怎麼辦呢？」他笑著對我說。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh7r1jNhp4u
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  那時的我沒有意識到，他的笑之後有著多麼巨大的重量。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRSyf99XOLO
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  也許因為我，他時時刻刻對自己的存在感到矛盾。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3slWyLbJkd
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  雖然是很少、很細的冰線，但那確實，是貨真價實的雪。104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXOTKh2i3L0
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  「小舫姐⋯⋯這個算是小說學術類還是偉人自傳啊？」104Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNhgkMQvdYx
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