「藍奇馭,答應我不要再打人了,你不需要用這種方法證明自己。」76Please respect copyright.PENANAqzUn6xs0Us
我睜開眼後與天花板對視了幾秒。76Please respect copyright.PENANAGr13QFACld
又夢到老師了。76Please respect copyright.PENANAHR9uPHqIEa
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天氣變得寒冷,我們也換上了冬季制服。76Please respect copyright.PENANAGYR77a5fQn
終於不用再一直穿外套了。76Please respect copyright.PENANAX6SSMiF9vK
雖然話是這麼說,但我並不喜歡冬天,在冷的打哆嗦的天氣卻被迫只能穿著上衣,誰也不會喜歡。76Please respect copyright.PENANAEKkY2JnIVn
啊,現在不用這麼做了,只是仍然不喜歡而已。76Please respect copyright.PENANADrawo7mfIf
正好段考剛結束不久,同學們都在歡愉的討論著該去哪裡玩時,我看著手上的紙沉思。76Please respect copyright.PENANAk3EhJ7IPgs
藍奇馭同學,XX月XX日請到教官室,這是紙上寫的內容,時間則是今日的午休。76Please respect copyright.PENANAhCs7x1kQlg
我沒有做什麼事吧?這次的段考雖然沒有拿到第一,但還在班級以及學校排名前段。76Please respect copyright.PENANAbUtPcAjSZM
逃過班導師的問話,卻逃不過教官嗎?76Please respect copyright.PENANAv03pjFFm0v
忽然間,鐘聲響起,像是提醒著我該去面對現實了。76Please respect copyright.PENANAChWPTTTESG
由於已是午休時間,走廊上沒有其他學生,就只有我,教官室亦是如此。76Please respect copyright.PENANARxDfJeC6aZ
「來你過來這裡。」一進去,教官像是與我認識許久一般,帶著我到教官室裡的小房間。76Please respect copyright.PENANAG9lKmXEMEL
只有軍訓課看過幾次吧。76Please respect copyright.PENANAatyfyGBiWf
教官跟著我一起入內,將門帶上後,我們坐在裡面的木椅上,他詢問著令我意外的問題。76Please respect copyright.PENANAyypI1Y6DJP
「你有遇到什麼事情嗎?」76Please respect copyright.PENANAp1yn25irQA
我一臉茫然。76Please respect copyright.PENANAdUCxaFLLjN
他見我的反應如此,又問了下一個問題,「我看到你的手了,可以告訴我發生什麼事嗎?」76Please respect copyright.PENANA2PxbYn5q0B
聞言,我心臟跳動的非常大力,不用想也知道他在說我手上的傷口。76Please respect copyright.PENANARWs2o3rKU0
但我都是穿著外套,現在天氣變冷也都是穿著長袖制服,為什麼?76Please respect copyright.PENANAU6IWQ4y5JD
難道是段亞音?她通報教官嗎?因為我拒絕去看精神科?76Please respect copyright.PENANAqHKAkrZGN4
「藍奇馭,我不是在逼問你,只是想知道遇到了什麼事而已,你願意說出來嗎?」他眼神極其柔和,與段亞音不相上下,但我依舊無法放鬆心情。76Please respect copyright.PENANAKDsRm6NjeL
準確來說是我不知道我遇到什麼問題。76Please respect copyright.PENANAGpEnwv9Kwp
就只是...好想逃避一切。76Please respect copyright.PENANAPybiQrt357
整場面談我幾乎沒說什麼話,而教官他最後似乎有點不知所措,說了句會讓我去輔導室,我就回教室了。76Please respect copyright.PENANAhdC49ZqN0I
為什麼大家都喜歡問我遇到什麼事。76Please respect copyright.PENANAJL0InUjq4w
我真的不知道。76Please respect copyright.PENANAmjo33GarrM
可不可以不要管我,就這樣讓我一個人,然後慢慢淡出。76Please respect copyright.PENANARAccq5dx0d
淡出這個世界。76Please respect copyright.PENANAbjepJ8ZGTs
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「結果她竟然說,我又不像妳一樣,長得漂亮成績又好,我聽到的時候不知道該回什麼欸。」76Please respect copyright.PENANA6m2JNMMJBm
「她絕對是嫉妒妳。」76Please respect copyright.PENANADuztLKgRRG
「對,她嫉妒妳。」76Please respect copyright.PENANAyN3giQR7Df
自從我與段亞音去醫院縫針的那天之後,她與其他兩位好友都會到我位子上聊天,好像是希望我也能加入她們一樣。76Please respect copyright.PENANAnZnGXWcnpf
即使她們每節下課都自然的來到我的位置上,我卻依然無法加入她們。76Please respect copyright.PENANAFQ0z10u6fp
「是你沒有努力吧。」腦中聲音響起。76Please respect copyright.PENANAYyAWQSpTgu
大概是,我也沒有認真的想參與話題過,只是不斷的被動接受她們在說的話。76Please respect copyright.PENANAdjvmX4Jgkw
她們在說些什麼,我好像也不知道。76Please respect copyright.PENANA2tU0hbFBB2
「啊對了,藍,我要答謝你上次段考前幫我補習。」段亞音忽然叫了我。76Please respect copyright.PENANA1Fe2kIXKL5
我回神過來。76Please respect copyright.PENANAcRNCgOjFGK
「我也是,謝謝你。」76Please respect copyright.PENANADzAYQ69dgk
「我也。」76Please respect copyright.PENANABbydPVhfGZ
除了段亞音外,她的兩位好友突然對我道謝。76Please respect copyright.PENANAzz9AMBGgrl
「我沒做什麼。」這是事實,畢竟會在這個班上的人,本來底子就很好,而我也只是提點了一下她們不會的地方而已。76Please respect copyright.PENANAUJbeXpOouU
「哪會沒做什麼,你的教法一點就通,很好理解。」76Please respect copyright.PENANA1Dl4dymbIP
「對呀對呀。」76Please respect copyright.PENANAH3ACDzgQPO
被誇得我不知道該回答些什麼,但是,我的排名好像比她們後面。76Please respect copyright.PENANAcFwaFyyBMa
「好像還害你自己沒有考好...。」這回換段亞音發言,她雙手食指繞呀繞的,帶著些許歉意,接著又馬上開了新的話題,手則是放到了桌上,「為了感謝你,我們今天放學請你吃好吃的,你喜歡吃什麼。」76Please respect copyright.PENANA6wwrsMeA57
在她左右邊的兩位同學睜大眼睛看著我,三個一起對我眨眼睛的畫面使我非常不習慣。76Please respect copyright.PENANAaoYZoEplwJ
不過不是不好的感覺。76Please respect copyright.PENANAr9j9PLMZ8c
「我...沒有特別喜歡吃什麼。」我答道。76Please respect copyright.PENANAjMl9HyFLHO
「都沒有嗎?總會有一兩樣東西是你吃到覺得好吃的吧。」76Please respect copyright.PENANAUIiWJ5lEQL
她們繼續眨眼。76Please respect copyright.PENANA4SUktRfcm7
「沒有。」我並沒有說謊。76Please respect copyright.PENANAe6iTrrWTpP
沉默了數秒。76Please respect copyright.PENANAbf7UyupRAp
「那...那我知道佐明國中那邊有一間好吃的。」76Please respect copyright.PENANAOLfLucNnoo
是我的母校。76Please respect copyright.PENANAtMqFW5eJ8d
她們分別觀察著我,像是害怕觸碰到什麼禁忌一樣。76Please respect copyright.PENANArRiemXpibO
然而我並不在意,那只不過是母校而已。76Please respect copyright.PENANABjhY2Bdkew
我點點頭表示同意她們的提議,她們三個相視一笑,接著也對我莞爾。76Please respect copyright.PENANAgML4bPW1GV
看著她們,明知道她們沒有惡意,我卻還是沒辦法發自內心對她們微笑,而只好硬是勾起嘴角。76Please respect copyright.PENANAsc1Yna6OlY
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段亞音、葉易真以及簡菲羽,三個人是很好的朋友。76Please respect copyright.PENANAdRtvL722Yb
不包含我。76Please respect copyright.PENANAVmJD95HFID
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#76Please respect copyright.PENANA4cDKi4aDfR
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熟悉的街道映入眼簾,經過以前每天上學都會走到的路,好像在提醒我回到母校附近了。76Please respect copyright.PENANA3jUiK9GVtP
一點都沒變,不管是學校旁邊的商店,早餐店,便利商店全都一樣。76Please respect copyright.PENANA2x4j7fwn5n
還有很多奇怪的學生這點也一樣。76Please respect copyright.PENANARx4q8NrQbx
佐明國中明明是間風評不錯的學校,在裡面卻有很多整天只會偷偷抽菸跟打架的人。76Please respect copyright.PENANA8SZIGAaLR0
「啊,巷子裡有人在打架。」葉易真大聲呼叫了一聲。76Please respect copyright.PENANAbjmdOEvDPG
在旁邊的段亞音以及簡菲羽幾乎是同時,她們趕緊將葉易真的嘴巴摀起來。76Please respect copyright.PENANA1n8gzNMV02
「小聲一點,等一下轉移目標到我們身上就不好了。」段亞音壓低聲音說道。76Please respect copyright.PENANAQs6JuDAWTJ
我不自覺的瞄了一眼巷子內,想一探究竟。76Please respect copyright.PENANAQF73ir2rsc
三位身材高大的男學生,穿著佐明國中的制服,而他們三位學生包圍著一個身材嬌小的女生。76Please respect copyright.PENANAFg6ir2QcMt
裡面那位女生沒有穿著制服,大概是想要搭訕她,但用這種方法,沒有人會答應的吧。76Please respect copyright.PENANAv1HpPB766S
再仔細一看,發現被包圍起來的女生年紀好像比較大一點。76Please respect copyright.PENANAIU4qc89xhW
總覺得哪裡怪怪的。76Please respect copyright.PENANAJDr65NtBmB
我直接走進巷子裡,無視段亞音她們的勸阻。76Please respect copyright.PENANAfQPUbEEhJM
而巷子內的所有人注意到有人進來,各個進入備戰狀態,他們上下打量我之後,可能見我身材矮小,又都鬆懈了。76Please respect copyright.PENANA3UklrMpcV6
「藍奇馭!回來!」76Please respect copyright.PENANAJFjucRNGiH
巷子外以段亞音為首,紛紛在乎叫著我。76Please respect copyright.PENANAu5c2dxkxYW
此時我只想救出被包圍的女生。76Please respect copyright.PENANACNB9ewr6p5
「同學,你很大膽嘛,怎樣,這是你馬子嗎,還是是外面那幾個。」其中一位學生挑釁著。76Please respect copyright.PENANA7csbAmNcWI
「再靠近就不要怪我不客氣了,又或是我對外面那幾個動手你會比較聽話?」76Please respect copyright.PENANAPJ0zzyXrsa
我抬眼瞪他們。76Please respect copyright.PENANAouhJC9jvhh
這眼神非常有用,在國中時非常常使用到。76Please respect copyright.PENANANvBRcZDEtp
看他們的反應,顯然是威力依舊,然而他們又想要裝鎮定。76Please respect copyright.PENANAjvd3WM9OjU
「你...你你那什麼表情!」語畢,他將拳頭舉起準備揮向我。76Please respect copyright.PENANAoROltIYWzq
我快步向前,拉出在他們身後的女生後趕緊跑出巷子。76Please respect copyright.PENANAR3Ji35LfLU
不可以打架。76Please respect copyright.PENANAMVRJsRZQoz
我答應老師了。76Please respect copyright.PENANAAsiMphzlTx
要忍住。76Please respect copyright.PENANAGK99c8DpLD
我很棒。76Please respect copyright.PENANAqYnXgDM7Rd
「藍奇馭?」76Please respect copyright.PENANA7wkX6A9aQu
當我以為是段亞音她們在叫我時,卻赫然發現聲音是從我後面出現的。76Please respect copyright.PENANAoyeu2Xpljh
而現在在我後面的正是我剛剛拉出來的女生。76Please respect copyright.PENANATqp5raPyfb
我回過頭,眼前的人先是讓我感到錯愕,卻又很生氣。76Please respect copyright.PENANASAYBQgfDrC
「老...師?」76Please respect copyright.PENANAoeJyWBtvMv
她正是我國中的班導師,我的恩人,我最喜歡的老師。76Please respect copyright.PENANAYuYXbe2mOi
「老師妳為什麼會在這裡?他們對妳做了什麼?」我激動萬分,用著比一般時候都還要大的音量問著,連我自己都被自己嚇到,原來我說話可以這麼大聲。76Please respect copyright.PENANAWr00QK65gj
老師垂眸,淡淡的說,「他們是我的學生,沒有對我做什麼,你趕快走吧我沒事,你的朋友還在等你呢。」說完,他將我的手放開,輕輕把我推到段亞音那邊。76Please respect copyright.PENANADVGyP0kp9i
我想要移動,段亞音卻緊緊抓住了我的手,不讓我再次靠近。76Please respect copyright.PENANAHjuv39DxTv
老師笑咪咪的看著我,朝我揮揮手,「你們走吧,這是我跟我學生的事情,我們會自己處理。」76Please respect copyright.PENANAlK8urWeWx7
縱使我不擅長猜透別人的想法,現在老師的笑臉絕對是虛假的。76Please respect copyright.PENANAgDl7M4Px3G
就這樣,即使我很想留下來,但她並不希望我留下。76Please respect copyright.PENANAJEy2qV5IzO
而我更沒有看漏,老師的臉上,有一些皮肉傷痕。76Please respect copyright.PENANAZuSftBOxrI
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「那是你國中的班導嗎?」走遠後,段亞音似乎終於找到時機而開口。76Please respect copyright.PENANAUSdN6mEGDj
「嗯。」76Please respect copyright.PENANAqKpFjPKTb3
這裡有四個人,沉默時間卻異常的長。76Please respect copyright.PENANAeZ6aP0W8JY
我倒是不希望她們繼續問其他問題了。76Please respect copyright.PENANAuTWLt5xGuu
我在心裡默默立一個目標,決定要去調查老師的事情。76Please respect copyright.PENANAPvuLWVuZz2
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#76Please respect copyright.PENANAdIr4LuRBmP
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比起老師的事情,現在首先要面對的是學校。76Please respect copyright.PENANAieCst0F2AV
自那天去過教官室後,輔導室將通知單發到班上。76Please respect copyright.PENANAwvqvnIYqqr
「藍奇馭被叫去輔導室欸。」76Please respect copyright.PENANANKwTZxxOtF
「我有看到,一定是他又做了什麼事啦。」76Please respect copyright.PENANA5wq0sf4BWT
「我想也是。」76Please respect copyright.PENANAmkmn86vmkc
班上的同學一如既往的吵呢。76Please respect copyright.PENANALd0O0ANIu9
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進到輔導室後,其中一位老師隨即站起身,將我引領到一間房間裡面。76Please respect copyright.PENANAGt8qxxDbPM
跟去教官室有點像。76Please respect copyright.PENANAsc2aQ3TDST
不太一樣的是,這間小房間不是普通的房間,牆壁的材質很明顯是軟的,且有著凹凸不平的表面,照理來說在小房間內回音會很重,但在這裡卻沒有。76Please respect copyright.PENANArXiDU2M1gj
擺設也很簡單,有一張單人沙發,還有一張雙人沙發,在沙發前則放有一個小茶几。76Please respect copyright.PENANAFSN2WTklpd
是間隔音室。76Please respect copyright.PENANA7ZFWWAXaUp
輔導老師在單人沙發前停下來,比了比手勢示意我坐在雙人沙發上,她自己則是坐在單人沙發。76Please respect copyright.PENANAH65KKMONLu
「藍奇馭同學,我這邊收到教官室的通知,要把你找過來,你怎麼了,可以跟老師說嗎?」76Please respect copyright.PENANAvmvAFMgpLq
又來了。76Please respect copyright.PENANANZdqwMVkA7
每個都只會問發生什麼事。76Please respect copyright.PENANAiEwkLLbzLK
我蹙眉,忍住不把白眼翻過去,語氣不耐煩的說道,「我沒有怎麼樣。」76Please respect copyright.PENANAsQs3BmAqrR
輔導老師嘴角下垂,聽得出來是強行讓自己保持友善的語氣,「沒有怎麼樣為什麼要自殘呢?」76Please respect copyright.PENANAbuhKWN18qA
「因為這可以讓我放鬆。」我不假思索的說。76Please respect copyright.PENANAYsi72SHR5z
她表情比方才還要更加不悅,「做這種事怎麼可以放鬆呢?你就老實說吧,是不是因為這次考試考不好,還是你就只是想要引起別人注意,覺得自己這樣很可憐嗎?」76Please respect copyright.PENANAIeKtNbrGAE
似乎是意識到自己說錯話,她馬上轉換語調,變得柔和萬分,「我不是這個意思,老師是希望你有事好好說,不要想用別的方法。」76Please respect copyright.PENANA00C19mUITd
我看著她的眼睛,自己也不知道我現在的表情是怎麼樣,就這樣注視著她不發一語。76Please respect copyright.PENANAv8HuC26zCS
「藍奇馭,你不講的話事情沒有辦法解決喔。」76Please respect copyright.PENANAjmODP2uCIN
「沒有什麼好說的。」76Please respect copyright.PENANANXuMI8Mygl
發現對話沒有任何進展,她默默從茶几上拿了一張小小的名片,遞給了我。76Please respect copyright.PENANASKMYBLzqst
「以前也有很多學長姐,可能考試壓力大會也一些不好的行為,有些人選擇去這裡,改善了不少問題。」76Please respect copyright.PENANAWFPZPmirts
光輝精神科。76Please respect copyright.PENANAsCNLofllcu
名片上寫著這幾個字。76Please respect copyright.PENANAkXTWVXHpQ4
我的腦中突然浮現段亞音的臉,她滿臉擔憂的要我去看精神科,在此時她的臉與我面前的人重疊,頓時一陣反胃感襲來。76Please respect copyright.PENANA1su19qpV0V
原來,我在你們眼中就是一個有病的人啊。76Please respect copyright.PENANAjGvf6y0wvw
「謝謝老師,我會參考的。」我將名片收起來,眼睛瞇起,嘴角上揚到我快要支撐不住的角度,給出一個大大的笑臉,隨後便站起身來,走沒兩步路便到了門口,將門把轉開。76Please respect copyright.PENANAKje4VneLxJ
「藍奇馭!你每天都要來這裡報到!我會一直送通知單過去的。」老師在我身後吼著。76Please respect copyright.PENANAnyQ1rnmrs2
我回頭,莞爾道,「我會來的。」接著走出輔導室。76Please respect copyright.PENANA9s3qz59AZf
「還是你就只是想要引起別人注意,覺得自己這樣很可憐嗎?」76Please respect copyright.PENANAJ8V0PBmtQf
「還是你就只是想要引起別人注意,覺得自己這樣很可憐嗎?」76Please respect copyright.PENANAhhCz4IKJbr
「還是你就只是想要引起別人注意,覺得自己這樣很可憐嗎?」76Please respect copyright.PENANADdUrI2PyQz
「還是你就只是想要引起別人注意,覺得自己這樣很可憐嗎?」76Please respect copyright.PENANA0I8zJ7kpWz
「還是你就只是想要引起別人注意,覺得自己這樣很可憐嗎?」76Please respect copyright.PENANA7Qx5f3vxcV
「藍奇馭,你不講的話事情沒有辦法解決喔。」76Please respect copyright.PENANA349oL6fHyI
煩死了。76Please respect copyright.PENANAPMA7rAYV5d
聲音,又關不掉了。76Please respect copyright.PENANApdkLbDcLqm
我躲到學校的頂樓,望著風景,閉上眼睛,靜靜吹著寒風讓自己冷靜。76Please respect copyright.PENANANDMcbUA5yf
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後面的日子去到輔導室,我全程放空,老師問什麼我都予以笑臉回應。76Please respect copyright.PENANAsibSAhBuY1
日復一日。76Please respect copyright.PENANAItisjmpLhA
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#76Please respect copyright.PENANAJr4FhW6Ms0
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期中考時當監考老師真是無聊,正當楊佳良教官冒出這個想法時,巡邏著一年一班的他,卻發現有位學生袖子底下藏了許多傷口,偷偷對了一下座位表確認了他的名字--藍奇馭。
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