— No, I don't feel like it.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6qTtq9uwRw
— But yes, it will be fun.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSDotDAsClq
— What's the funny thing about going to school on a day when there's no class ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEp90vLEuHO
We have one of those discussions where I try to convince him to come out. This time, I set my sights on the Halloween party that the school organizes like every year on the evening of October 31st.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE4po9Nmdq0
I thought about his question for a moment. How can I make him give in this time ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvDxrPWuNMk
— The classes will be emptied of their desks. There will be entertainment, sweets… a ball.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ39IxBcy2J5
He raises an eyebrow and makes me understand that this is not a given.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Chapa37GM
— Do you see me dancing ? ! 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPNpKkx2bsK
I ignore his reply and continue mischievously : 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi9NeN5XL4Q
— We will be disguised, and you can annoy everyone who criticizes you from behind. Why else do you think I would go ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsNDIwqGOiy
I can see by his expression that I have a point.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMiLdAqqnNB
— Hello, Megan.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5JpgwoTRy7
— Hello, Elise, are you well ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI9KtYrXyKy
I spend so much time with Jessy that I have become very close to Mrs. Sutter. She is always happy to see me at their place and invites me to come whenever I want. I feel a bit like home there.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqwmfE9TceA
— Where will you go in disguise ? Asks Elise who heard my last sentence.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyoxUvBhzU8
— At the high school Halloween party.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgnoiCQU1ft
— Good idea ! 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgnCCrWJpVi
With one look, Jessy glares at his mother. Mrs. Sutter places a laundry basket on the dining room table where we are and begins to fold the clothes. I grab a T-shirt and spread it on the table to help him.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk7YQiitI7E
— It will do you good to go out and have fun, you stay too cooped up here ruminating.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV8RpzQRJGH
— I like to be alone with my thoughts, Jessy defends, grabbing the T-shirt I’m holding in my hands.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCYQaopU781
— Luckily you're here, Meg, otherwise he'd never leave his room.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNA6wfszbIl
I grab another piece of clothing and start folding it.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu1bPfEtS2w
— Mom, stop. It’s okay, you win, I’ll go to the damn party ! But Meg, please stop worrying about my clothes ! 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEQTF8C2OF2
I look down at the item of clothing I'm holding : it's one of his boxers. I let go immediately, but I already feel my cheeks turning red. Jessy grabs it and hides it behind his back. His face is as red as mine.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLILbkoPBtN
— Sorry… I’m… so used to doing it… at home, I said, stuttering.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ5FcCsR5rK
Mrs. Sutter bursts out laughing as she watches us.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8AuYjDotrN
— Mission accomplished, she comes to high five me.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNEiPKGKIcc
— What are we going to disguise ourselves as ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwtqlZtil5T
— There's no way I'm going to wear a suit ! 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ47pEiem2f1
Jessy responds quickly, looking at us in turn.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgWBiQHHAUE
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The next week, we're in the main hallway of the school during break time, talking about the Halloween party. I keep trying to convince Jessy to dress up but he remains stubborn.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF9mm1GvrLG
— I could see you as James Dean, I think out loud as I look at him.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3b7GHDqWaD
— Is it because I'm going to die young like him ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ75brQ54qEz
Immediately, I grimace.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwyQmPMK9rH
— Stop with that ! I was thinking of James because you are handsome and sexy like him but if you prefer to see the negative side...690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGRdtYmVNHm
— I was joking, he smiled. Beautiful and sexy, huh ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKW3UqI29Rd
I roll my eyes, smiling as my cheeks turn red. My words came out before I could hold them back. In Jessy's presence, I feel like I'm losing my composure. It is enough for him to stare at me with those beautiful green eyes for my mouth to respond without having the approval of my brain.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoBQqLRACr4
— I’m dreaming where your cheeks are all red, he mocks, pointing to my face with his index finger.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUQorMmd64N
I give him a little tap on the arm which makes him burst out laughing. I love hearing this sound. I have seen him so angry, sullen, lonely, that when he laughs I am happy.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAarRZsdY33
— At times, you remind me of my brother. You have the same dubious humor every…690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsPmgD9Dw7a
I leave my sentence hanging as my smile freezes when I see Amy passing near us. She gives me an icy look and completely ignores Jessy.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTyNRQKYmpf
— Why is Amy looking at you like that ? Jessy asks me.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBdqFCAYa3i
I turn to him, trying to ignore my former friend. I don't want her to realize how much her attitude hurts and disappoints me.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQKuPS3JuVS
— I don't know. Since I'm no longer with Chad, she doesn't speak to me anymore. To think that she was my best friend... As children, we were all together often : Chad, Amy and me. And today, I feel like I've lost a part of my past.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6GLMYIGaZ
— People change and evolve differently over the years. She'll come back to you one of these days.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbMAwxIcEna
— You think ? I ask him, hoping he's telling the truth.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJoHx42Dye
— I'm sure. Who could give up a friend like you ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyXXNpkZGDi
— Yeah, a friend, I breathe with annoyance while scrutinizing him.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ZBoZYbq7i
I would really like him to see me as something other than his friend.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEQB7exKwgW
— And with Chad, where are you ? He questions casually.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2DNugvkcG4
— Nowhere. We haven't spoken in several weeks. I turned the page on him. On the other hand, I continue by staring at him. There are three other boys who asked me on a date.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT1DFhExctM
Am I dreaming or has his expression suddenly changed ? He lowers his face, staring at the ground as if it holds all the answers in the universe.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1XD86DEY1e
— Did you agree to go out with them ? He whispers in a strangled voice.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3lhUuAPZKV
— No, I refused. You're the only guy I want to spend time with at the moment.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPdYiq8XdFz
Suddenly, he lifts his face and smiles. I observe him carefully. Maybe he doesn't really see me as a friend after all. It’s enough to make me smile again.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtpSqKg3IxK
— You and Chad broke up shortly after I arrived in town, but there was one thing that struck me from the few times I saw you together.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbCujQA8uEV
— Ah good ? What ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoCZWktL6Ni
— The distance there was between you. I mean, you were never in each other's arms or making a move to touch each other.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFuppcd2BuU
— Is that what you did with your exes ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9F9BpSLJIG
I scrutinize him to read his reaction which does not take long : 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ww747wZIt
— No, but I have never been in love.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm3plOrCegi
— Maybe Chad didn’t like me that much, I shrug. Or that I'm not the type of girl that guys like to hug.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuX81q50Be7
— Oh yes, any man would be happy to be able to hold you against him, he says without a shadow of hesitation.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMrlNpYYddb
So why don't you do it ? ! I want to ask him.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7GiVbWeSR
But suspecting that this would turn him on, I just stare at him and remain silent. However, I am happy with his admission, so I continue with a smile : 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCiv7gqkEJL
— So for Halloween, what are we dressing up as ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7d1wiMBTAx
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On Friday evening, I found my parents in the living room while waiting for Jessy to arrive. I enter the room and turn around asking them : 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ3CB4nVNWx
— Is my dress okay ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBSrU52GMft
— You are very chic, admire my father.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNR3UbKT8QQ
For the occasion, I opted for a black Charleston— style dress, and my hairstyle is adorned with a white feather. It's not my favorite outfit, but Jessy only agreed to wear a very classy suit jacket.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsHCZds0rYD
— Megan, why do you have a mask in your hand ? Nina asks.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz3X2HUmWbt
— I'll put it on when I get to school. I promised Jessy that, under cover of anonymity, he could annoy the students who criticize him.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPCAN4EwQXH
My mother laughs.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK8kkgWaSf5
— That’s definitely your idea ! 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ14seJ1JcdL
— It was one of the arguments to decide him to leave his house.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ76h9y4YbcK
— You two spend a lot of time together, my father comments seriously.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2i95Kww9NJ
— Yes, he’s great ! 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyncGvE4Lar
— You know we love Jessy, but we're worried about you.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNEoREnUMhk
— We are just friends.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDALlBVF4NA
— I'm not talking about that. Losing someone close to you is difficult.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdCTSIcuaBM
— I know. I know that one day he may no longer be here, but if that were to happen, I would have time to prepare for it. And he's my best friend, I can't stop seeing him, that wouldn't be fair to him or me.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQOcE183kSx
— Are you sure it’s just friendship ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ08aDK2wRtR
My father examines my face which immediately turns purple.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwf7f8JfECp
— I preferred Chad, my sister objects, sulking.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwaCOE23MVC
Without meaning to, Nina makes me smile again and distracts my father's attention. Admitting to myself that I'm in love with Jessy is one thing, dropping this bombshell in front of my father is another. I already know the moral lesson that would await me.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlBMitVilyw
— And I find this school rule stupid which stipulates that you have to be fifteen years old to be able to attend this evening. I would have liked to go there ! She says, crossing her arms over her chest.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0WjOetR0fC
— Then you should have asked Chad to invite you ! I said, provoking her.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3RMjd7n2Z5
In response, she taps her foot on the ground while the doorbell rings.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeSQcd0zUmd
— I go ! 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyZfX7OZCKL
I rush to open the door to Jessy. And I literally stand there glued to the spot when I see him in his black suit with a white shirt, black tie and hat. In his hand he holds a white mask similar to mine. He exudes a particular charm that disturbs me even more than usual, which is saying something.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZRuhUNRLdp
After a few seconds of examining each other, he leans towards me to hang a white rose on the strap of my dress.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ZcEChiV3o
— How pretty you are, he whispered to me.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiat7y7YJ2k
His hands brush the skin of my shoulder and I feel myself melting. I take a deep breath to force myself to pull myself together.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXoJygwhK6q
— Isn't that okay ? He asks me, visibly worried.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1RfbpNprgb
I can't tell him the truth. He was very clear with me when I let myself kiss him. And even though he hasn't spoken to me about it again, I still feel a burning shame. Since then I have restrained my actions and am content to be the friend he needs so much.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7XjuIaCoAr
— Yes, it's going very well. It’s just that it’s hot in the house and cold outside, the contrast struck me. Come on, just a minute, I'll get my coat.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNJw1Mdqw73
He nods and follows me to the living room where he politely greets my family as usual.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQjeZH9o446
— Wow, Jessy ! This costume suits you really well ! Launches my mother.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQB237mFenY
— Thank you, Mrs. Crawfords. Nina, I thought of you, I brought you a little thing to console you for not being able to come to the party.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJbR3saYTOl
He takes a rose similar to mine out of his pocket and hands it to my sister, who is speechless for a few seconds.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCdTNkvFlWY
— Thank you, Jessy, she finally said. Then looking at us, she adds : I take back everything I said earlier, it’s Jessy, my favorite ! 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvqtFTtvSUM
We burst out laughing.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqoIcl7LX6J
— Well done, Jessy, you managed to dethrone Chad ! My father is joking.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr60CyjGbwI
— It wasn’t won though, smiled the young man. — Here we go ? I ask him.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmtEOnuWT1
Jessy makes a hesitant face and answers me without much enthusiasm : 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNQ5EIkTDiw
— I would have done without it, but since I have to… let’s go ! 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK0CJkCb4HM
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Two hours later, I see that Jessy is having a good evening. We took the route of anxiety : a walk in the middle of the corridors of the high school which, for the occasion, were decorated as a house of horror with skeletons suddenly appearing in front of us, vampires thirsty for blood who throw themselves on those who dare to approach them or even werewolves who run after us in the feigned hope of devouring us. There are many activities, but Jessy doesn't forget his little revenge either. When we pass a tall dark guy dressed as Dracula, whom my companion immediately recognizes as one of his persecutors, he puts on his mask, approaches slowly and manages to drop off without anyone, except me, noticing. has a large rubber tarantula on his shoulder. A moment later, we hear a scream echo through the classroom as the guy in question squirms in every direction to escape the spider. Jessy and I walk out of the room laughing until we cry.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Y4INP6BpT
— I admit, he said to me shortly after in one of the corridors, when we caught our breath, that just for that, it was worth coming ! 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFAZcQcADmK
— See, I told you we’d have fun ! 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ84ZmQNIi1t
— You were right, thank you for forcing my hand. (He takes off his mask before staring at me.) Of all the people I know, you are always there for me, no matter what. For what ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHnzRcDgBQZ
He is suddenly serious.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX9gePfpYW4
Can't you see that I'm in love with you, idiot ! 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa104dKBbC7
I want to tell him, but I hold back.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYjRwzdkxZU
Instead, I answer him : 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1WRBepPTqE
— Why not ? You're my friend, right ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSbHc9Dw6vt
He nods, and his green eyes shine with a strange light.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUbkfbEYcmh
— Oh, Jessy, come ! 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzHc5O00ioG
Without waiting for a response, I grab him by the sleeve of his suit and force him to follow me into one of the classes that says : Come discover your future through cards.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqwRKhKBWCO
For the occasion, the room, deliberately darkened, was divided into three parts by curtains, thus constituting cabins where clairvoyants sit. We approach one of them.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡONCPM322nn
— Can we ? I said, pointing to the seats in front of her.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjRKuzDx5mB
— Of course, my children, come. Sit down.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtEKu0VkfCY
She is a small woman with brown hair, with a fairly fleshy build, who inspires confidence at first glance.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgZ02DLB7zb
— Who wants to start ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7PEtJoRHg6
Jessy and I exchange a look.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ08Pld0xifz
"Iron, Meg."690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRZaqBTXtTs
— OK, draw seven cards from the fan in front of you.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmNELSbb1ai
She turns the cards over one after the other, arranging them in a sort of large cross.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhM2n6sQr4v
— You are a nice girl, a little too serious at times, she said to me. You are always there for the people you love. This card, which designates the Empress, tells me that you are good at studies. I can assure you that you will go to university and study for a long time. A great job awaits you at the end.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ41k5mzEHgy
I'm happy, studies are very important to me.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyzDlHNMInv
— This card, she continues, showing me the Lover, — tells me that you are hesitating between two boys. One has the key to your heart and the other relationship is more controlled by your reason, the first boy completely capsizes you, the second rather symbolizes security.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxSFdDdH98T
I feel myself blushing from head to toe and, silently, I thank the heavens that the room is just lit by candles. Jessy and Chad ! Only I'm not in love with Chad and I'm banking on love... I feel Jessy's gaze weighing on me, but I don't dare respond.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGhhUhYXkJf
— I can't tell you more, it will be up to you to choose between these two men, she places her hand on mine.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQkN1LNKyZ
— Thanks.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTtDiTMSi0
— Your turn, young man, announces the woman, shuffling her cards before spreading them again on the table.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4JAT4ZS9Sj
As I did, Jessy takes out seven cards from the deck and turns them over as she goes.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ANh8VxAkM
— You are a kind boy, very sensitive, who has suffered a lot, but you do everything to keep it from showing. You play tough to hide your heart of gold. You are gifted in studies, but this card, it points to the Moon, leads me to believe that you are especially gifted in the arts. The drawing ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0PKjC9vD1N
— I painted a lot, but I stopped for a while.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNBJlkNNJVD
— You should start again. You are an anxious boy, and this would calm you down.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpiGrlzKLfM
She turns over another card : the Hermit.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAQQK1hnPSA
— This one tells me that you tend to run away from others. You like to be alone and, at the same time, you experience this solitude as if you were afraid of the world around you. Yet you are not alone... There is someone in your life that you love, but, for I don't know what reasons, you seem to be running away from this love that life offers you.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSxX903z77s
I see Jessy growing nervous next to me as he stares intently at the cards.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡni01zu5xnv
The clairvoyant turns over the penultimate card : the Nameless Arcana. Despite myself, I flinch.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡucFkqHnOnq
— Don't worry, the lady is reassuring, this card is scary with the skeleton reaping it represents, but it rarely means physical death. Above all, it is a sign of change in life. Your existence will be turned upside down, you will succeed in overcoming your fears to fully live your destiny.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2zz07Hvw4y
She turns over the last card : the World.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1cxJEFVEII
— In the coming months, you are going to be very happy young man, much more than you imagine, but for that, you must open your heart to accept the gift that is being given to you, said the clairvoyant, looking Jessie.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfuxHMW17CB
— Thank you, Madam, he stammers, visibly embarrassed.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhl0HJnFosW
— One last thing : Concerning your health, just live day to day without worrying too much. Destiny is destiny, you cannot change what will happen.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj8lLuc6cHT
Jessy nods, looking serious, even though my heart is pounding. Has she just confirmed his imminent death ? His words are enigmatic to me but not to690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa029zXJozQ
Jessy who gets up quickly and leaves the room, I follow suit.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWk71CHvD10
— Jessy, are you okay ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRXzqaBp15P
— Yes, very good.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJWt6eUip5t
— I'm sorry. It was a stupid idea to go see a psychic.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrJne8XDruV
He stops and turns to me.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdhEUfjK7te
— Don't worry, she told us an ending that you and I already know.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSH6eYmKUvO
— It wasn't that clear to me.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6lUyFBmxvu
— Yes, but you are always overly optimistic while I…690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡexHjBFSXBV
— You are disarmingly pessimistic.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0zA9dqoxKe
My reply makes Jessy laugh.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYn3Y3ScoGc
— It's true. Between the two of us, we have the perfect balance.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwgGTQkUFot
I smile in turn, thinking about how we complement each other perfectly.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyCNzFnljYe
— Seriously, are you sure you’re okay ? If you want, can we go back ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA4VEbpwFQp
— No, we're having fun. Come on, come on ! 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNlC84a63kp
He gives me a reassuring wink. For the first time, he takes my hand, which suddenly makes me feverish, and guides me towards the gymnasium which has been transformed into a ballroom. Black and orange garlands cascade from the ceiling, paper pumpkins have been installed on the tables where soft drinks are served. In the four corners of the room, plastic skeletons held by wires move like puppets. In the center of the room, students wiggle to the rhythm of a wild Rolling Stones song.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAd2T0KwuIy
— You are thirsty ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrpSU9iFWtl
I nod with a nod. Jessy leaves me to go get two cups. I look around the room. In a corner, I see Chad dressed as a vampire, and his friends. Apparently they are the ones responsible for leading the anxiety journey. Then a tall blonde girl comes and kisses him full on the mouth. Despite her Marilyn Monroe disguise, I recognized Amy immediately. That's why she's been running away from me since we broke up, she did everything to seduce him and it worked. Chad quickly forgot me and her, that traitor ! Jessy returns with the cups. I drink mine dry.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNlYhuHSf9e
— What do you have ? He asked in front of my furious face.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwo5qgBaY90
I nod and show him Chad and Amy.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjrFz3knxo
— Oops, is the only sound that comes out of his mouth.
Jessy looks over to the corner where Chad and Amy are watching us, seeming to be watching for my reaction.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVgkr6xzhyn
— Come Dance.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1xbDIz5Iug
He takes my hand again, which has the effect of calming me down immediately.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNf3JQ9H9VR
— I thought you didn't dance ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuWZmF10Qtd
— I never said that.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlNmQxK99Pp
His smile completely melts me. I let myself be guided to the dance floor. The music starts with a soft song. Like every time I'm in contact with Jessy, my heart starts racing. Without thinking, I put my arms around his neck, while he places his hands on my waist. Soon my head is resting on his shoulder. I breathe in its sweet and intoxicating scent, a mixture of flower soaps and aftershave. I feel wonderful, everything is so natural with him. But he stops abruptly. His gaze is focused on a girl, small in stature, with bobbed red hair, who turns her back to us and is chatting with friends a few steps from us.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX7dpaupMs8
Jessy doesn't take his eyes off her as I feel his shoulders tense.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDVlZHbl0d3
— What is…690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeAGsUxdbvD
The girl turns around, revealing her face to us. Jessy takes a deep breath before turning his attention back to me.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRtFSvxEplV
— I need to get some fresh air, he tells me, white as a sheet.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWe7o1Nf8j3
We push through the crowd to the parking lot where he takes a deep breath. A cold wind rose, carrying with it the dead leaves from the trees to our feet.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRyjwZkHOCE
We lean against a car.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsn3ualnfqo
— Why are you shaking ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQZ6JV4JSl
I question him timidly.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4U3OK5bunC
— I don't really want to talk about it.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeVXsiMVm8W
— But you are livid ! 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtcFzT4g0St
— I don't want to talk about it. Let's forget that, okay ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8oEeku0YeT
— Agree as you like.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj2cBOQ4qts
He raises a questioning eyebrow at my resolve. It's not like me to give up so quickly. Usually, I insist that he talks to me, but now, I'm afraid to know the truth.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWcFNApFpVe
— Shall we go back ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2QwWc3VyXX
— Yeah, I think it's better after all that.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEuy5TqbquL
We set off. The high school is only a few blocks from our homes.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVDstAHMjx2
— All that ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ99K9XbuEf
— Between the clairvoyant, Chad and Amy…690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfKnH9oDbIZ
— And your latest conquest, I tell him, not being able to contain the feeling of jealousy that has invaded me since he saw this girl.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxCNGnzLsrh
Jessy turns to me.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwRNDkCaeFc
— It's not what you think. I thought it was Haley... The girl who gave me AIDS.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlgHElElbZt
— Every time you talked to me about the virus, you told me you were handling it all. But after seeing your reaction tonight, I think you're handling things the wrong way. You didn't solve the problem with her. I think you should see her again, or at least talk to her.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc4O7UNFkVx
— I don't see how that would help me. You know, it was just an adventure, but one that I will regret for the rest of my life... — Think about it.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXm8sjbO22Y
He nods silently.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdKqWw9PutL
I don't add anything. It's his story, and only he knows whether he wants to look straight ahead after settling his scores, or stay immersed in a past that gnaws at him.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHEdXN1fcg1
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The next day is Sunday; dressed in my coat, a scarf and my gloves, I leave my house, determined to face the morning cold which has suddenly fallen on the region.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTqQtEpyobH
A black car stops next to me.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJpwLermA3N
— Hey, a familiar voice calls out to me.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKfX4NpBSVs
— Hi. Jessy, do you have a car ? ! 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPwiNjg8ucK
— Eh yes ! I've been talking to my mom about it for a while, and this morning she came back with it. She was so happy to see me out of the house ! You come ? I'll take you.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIL8kbrcbQX
He starts and, quickly, I see that he is heading towards the highway ramp.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ZC8QNG0ET
— Where are we going ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmJvQrhB7ol
— It's coming ! 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKQugbTJWcR
— At the cinema ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2CMTVBN8xA
— Non. 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9iVoxzBM7L
— Take a walk in the forest ? No, that's not the road. So, maybe visit a museum ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡczuL55hQu5
— No. You'll see, it's a surprise, and he gives me a big, innocent smile.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKVEBavf5Ql
— OK, anyway, wherever it is, I'm up for it.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXaAznVQo6v
— Your parents won't be worried ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxeMKwJlGMQ
— I told them I was going to see you. They suspect that I'm going to spend the day with you.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMFJmSu0PTH
— And that's going to be the case, because we're not going very close. I don't think we'll be back until tonight.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl9ZHBa3x3a
Still want to come ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg3fwT6b5ZZ
He gets onto the highway.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN9Myh33kN9
— Totally ! 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfy8coODDWa
— I want to show you Allentown. Today, we are going to walk in the footsteps of my past...690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxGBDj4xts0
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After driving for almost three hours, Jessy parks in a small suburban street that seems very nice. All the houses are undoubtedly owned by wealthy people.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgBq5PRG5Kb
— We have arrived, he declares, getting out of the car.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe4WsF2MFvE
I'm happy that he trusts me enough to show me the places that mattered to him. I get out and look at the house we are parked in front of. It is a single storey white villa with a well kept lawn. Large bay windows let the sun shine through, and a solid oak door welcomes visitors via a small path which splits the lawn into two parts.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnnxJLcwU1j
— Is this where you lived ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ0LeeLfBzz
Jessy has an enigmatic smile.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmAgJf7Hdcv
— No, it’s not my place. We're at Haley's.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSXJOZgWMcH
He gestures with his chin towards the beautiful house. I suddenly have a pit in my stomach.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCqqTjLjZsO
— What ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGix2p5QYYf
— I found her, it was very easy, actually. She told me her name and what neighborhood she lived in, a call to telephone information was enough.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQo4GOdagUa
He leans back in his car, staring at the house like he can see through the walls. Little by little, his enthusiasm seems to diminish. His face turns pale...690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMXrBfZ5iJu
Suddenly, Jessy comes around the car and announces to me : 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEjTnJqX2pe
— Come on, let’s go.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwLtH5BWqUX
I remain stunned.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtxDtF2Dryx
— Oh no, we didn’t come all this way to leave now. You need to go talk to him ! 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjl0fS9sJU9
He stares at me, his face frozen.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Y7nxpeUgY
— I am scared.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLqjehJkykc
— I know, but if you don't go, you'll be left with everything that's on your heart for a long time to come. You need to move forward Jessy, you can't stay stuck with all these emotions.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJY4PWKjMvg
He nods and, taking a deep breath, heads towards the house. I see him approaching the door, taking the small gravel path. I'm afraid for him. It rings and only waits a few seconds before the door opens. Jessy enters. I'm not really thrilled that he's seeing one of his ex girlfriends again. What if he fell back into her arms ? This scares me as much as imagining him screaming horrors at him.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYAOVJ7i7UE
After all, she is HIV positive, he could perfectly well have a real relationship with her. Not just a friendship like with me. Now I'm almost wishing I was sick, my God, I'm really going crazy ! 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTPpZx5QGpX
During his absence, I also wonder about his behavior. Just the day before, when we talked about the clairvoyant's words, he repeated to me that he had nothing to offer a woman who, in any case, would quickly tire of only being able to kiss him. I managed to tell him that some relationships go beyond that. But he remained firm in his positions. Lost in my thoughts, I don't see him coming back. I jump when he opens the driver's side door and slides behind the wheel. I see right away that it's not going well. He is even paler than when he went to ring the bell, and his hands are clinging to the steering wheel as if his life depended on it. His whole body is shaking. I feel him at the end of his nerves even though he tries to control himself. I ask him half— heartedly : 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf3xe2C1w3y
— Did it go wrong ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLWVHMaGVRq
— It was his mother who opened the door to me...690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHwu2KMYLSP
His face expresses such hatred that I immediately think of the evening on the bridge when he was hanging above the void, screaming. I would bet that at this very moment, he would let himself fall under the wheels of vehicles rather than live another minute on this Earth. He struggles to speak, but I don't do anything to rush him.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD6jWARvbwz
— Haley died five months ago.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzJvmU68TpV
I immediately understand the dark thoughts going through his head at that precise moment.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRmjHTrPNIm
— Is that all his mother told you ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLRndBkSWeg
— Oh no, he gets angry. She told me she is sorry that her child infected me ! She also gave me a letter that Haley wrote to me before she died. We're getting out of here ! 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6de6W4u7Qr
He starts off with a bang and rushes through the streets which, apparently, hold no secrets for him.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa6J2psvyHU
— Jessy, please slow down a little, you’re scaring me.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ188usSlgl7
He doesn't respond, but I notice that he raises his foot. He drives like this for several minutes, in silence. We enter downtown Allentown. He takes the main artery then branches off several times before stopping abruptly in a small street. On either side, tall buildings block out most of the daylight. Along the buildings with their gray walls, rusty iron fire escapes make the place even more sinister.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfTMcMyjpX0
Jessy gets out of the car and slams the door. I'm. I am so afraid that he will try to end his life. He walks to the center of the street, where metal garbage containers are piled up, and hits them with all his might several times.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9sKqfj8fTK
— Jessy, please calm down, I’m begging you.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrQN3LszQc0
— For what ? Can you tell me what all this is for ? What's the point of living ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3iE67uTTJY
— Stopped. (I place myself between him and the trash can on which he pours all his anger.) You are alive ! You hear me ? Are you still alive ! And by the time the disease breaks out, perhaps doctors will have found a treatment. But the force you put into hitting this container, you have to put into fighting yourself.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaTU0J0E5tN
— But why ? What is keeping me on this planet ? Don't you understand that I'm going to end up like Haley ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdqfZSyN3yq
He pushes me away with one arm before knocking again.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVTCXjKhW5A
Soon his fist is bloody.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTaZ9zSZRf6
— But why are you hitting this trash can ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqslP8WJkOH
— Because I'm angry, and even then, angry is an understatement for what I feel.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXEQjibZlrP
— For what ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8HAFuNk1kl
He, usually so secretive, finally decides to confide in me while now kicking the poor trash can.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKl0J9KzUxX
— This is the place where my life changed, he said to me, out of breath.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡESSFL9ln4G
He stops knocking and points to a spot near the right wall, a little further away.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc0ZYcuDjUZ
— Do you see there ? This is the place where my father, my real father, died. He was killed by a local gang who wanted to steal his money, they dragged him here before shooting him. When I was little, I was terrified of losing my parents. I don’t know where this anxiety came from, it was unreasonable, it woke me up at night. My father reassured me, constantly telling me that he would always be there to protect me, and when I was five, suddenly, he was no longer there. He let me down. He didn't protect me ! Things would have been very different if he were still here. And now Haley is gone ! And it pisses me off because, even if it’s wrong, I would have liked to scream at him with all the rage I have in my heart ! And all I have instead is this damn letter ! 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWG423eDyfG
He takes the missive out of his coat pocket and shakes it in the air, as if he wants to get rid of it but is unable to.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXJZosd2Mlc
— I understand that well ! But when you calm down, you will want to know what she had to say to you. Your father didn't get to say goodbye to you, Haley did it through these words in this envelope.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7vMbEWTRv2
My voice is choked with sadness. Jessy looks at me, searching in my eyes for the reason for my sudden emotion.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbRAP18PrEG
— You’re right, he whispers, looking at the letter still in his hand. I must not condemn her, she was not the only one responsible for what happened that evening, he said more calmly.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoOBhZcIBC7
— It's true. She didn't know she was sick at the time. But on the other hand, I can't help but feel relieved that you didn't see her again. I know, it’s awful to think that ! 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNK0quxpB23
I turn away, I don't dare look at him anymore. I just told him about the fear that filled me the first time he mentioned Haley. Even though she infected him, he had a history with her, he was closer to her than he will ever be to me, and it breaks my heart to admit that.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFEl47KU7s5
Jessy stands in front of me and examines my face.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZVn9eNdgFl
— Why do you feel relieved ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ7bTI9UHYL
There is no longer any trace of anger in his voice, just curiosity.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtl7aO0dyIq
— For nothing, forget it.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRDZVbdHhl0
— Yes, tell me, he breathes softly. I hesitate, watching his piercing gaze.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4x5hy5DazE
— Because I was afraid you would get back together with her.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQsM0Ml19Lb
He looks at me, incredulous.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAIpu9ilvOC
— I know..., I continue but I quickly interrupt myself, no longer knowing how to continue without admitting my feelings.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRu4chL1WaX
Jessy stares at me for a moment that seems to last forever.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhsYoFJGlQo
— When you were with Chad, I said to myself : "Nothing will ever happen between us while he can do anything for her. "690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTe9L8yJd2E
I remain in shock, did he just tell me that he is dying to be with me or was I dreaming ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxC6AVUCfRK
— I'm not going back with Chad.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡspXYaD9UJt
— It's true ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ847CGize2O
I nod, grabbing the lapel of his coat.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR1IqRrKqMJ
— Chad has never been an obstacle between us. He's not the one I want to be with.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4aRbyshdW
He wipes his forehead where beads of sweat appear and looks at his damaged hand.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8NvPNLlcMu
— Actually, I mainly thought that it would scare you to be with me.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwE8TX6nH5s
— Maybe you should have asked me ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfPfbUq6lHU
I fiddle with a button on his coat.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIr9xYCPK1Q
— It's true.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1rAGfQ9uHP
He purses his lips and says : 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE9GYO7Kot5
— Do you want to go out with me ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡov0yMhvEaV
Finally you decide ! I smile. Of course I want to be with you, that’s all I’ve thought about since we met.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnBj6RJFwwc
Jessy gives me a big smile.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJvVHGP96xi
— I don't know how long I'll stay alive.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8rzI32SHBA
— We'll see. We're going to make every day count.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDOnZHSTR68
— And with Chad, is it definitely over ? Are you sure ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRc9zI8p2Rp
— Jessy, Chad and I broke up because you came into my life and offered another horizon to my future. When I met you, I realized I never really loved him. He's just a friend. That’s the real reason… At least for me.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqSs2Jcb8Ne
I hand him some tissues which he wraps around his scratched hand, which has already stopped bleeding. Then he puts his arm around my shoulders, kisses my forehead and leads me towards the car, putting the letter in his coat pocket.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Y1CDfWMo1
— I suspected that I was somewhat responsible for this story, he said, winking at me.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy5jEFBNtxH
Suddenly, he hands me the car keys.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0UcjB4zSaI
— I don't feel like driving after all this, would you like it ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡayLzzP7hbV
Too happy to be able to get behind the wheel, I eagerly grab the keys.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWBMphWxQh1
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We enter Millisky, the town is deserted at this hour, only the street lights give a semblance of life to the streets. I glance at Jessy, lost in thought. Suddenly, instead of heading towards his house, I change direction and head towards the hill. I can't let him go home like this. Having reached the top, I stop the car. Jessy snaps out of his thoughts and looks around, surprised. He doesn't know this corner of the city where I myself rarely go.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDS205gT8iH
— Where are we ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpamPx3LrTd
— Come with me.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCPbo9PgZBa
We are on a small dirt road bordered by a security fence. Tall grass protrudes from the slope overlooking the town. Jessy joins me in front of the car, I take his hand and lead him past one of the sumptuous mansions, which offers a perfect view of the sleeping city.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAoWTGuAmma
— I know you’re not in good spirits and I understand perfectly why, I assure him. I also know that you're waiting until you're alone to read Haley's letter. But I'm not going to let you do it, I don't want you to be upset, alone, in your corner while I'm worrying about you. Please, Jessy, do this for me. I'm not asking you to read it, I just want you to read it in my presence because whatever you think about it, you're going to need support afterwards and I want to be the one to hug you to make sure that everything will be alright.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEb1512AogN
With tears in his eyes, he nods.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtyPXtNU7Kn
I move a few steps away to give him his privacy. He takes out the envelope, hesitates for a few seconds then opens it. From the first words he reads, I perceive the change in his expression, he seems to be decomposing. Quickly, I see tears rolling down his cheeks while I hold myself back from going to join him because I feel so bad for him. A few seconds later, he stops reading, leans over to lean on the safety barrier as a loud sob escapes him. I can no longer resist and will hug him. My arms are around his neck, my face on his shoulder.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkaafSeTOnE
I'm here, Jessy, I'm here, I whisper in his ear.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrmHkPT8URF
He stands up, turns around and hugs me as if I were the only thing holding him back on earth.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAFNWhsQKOM
— Here, he said, handing me the letter.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0N8sxqFHKk
— No, it’s meant for you.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUcAaaQV7B8
— I don't want to hide anything from you about Haley, not after what you admitted to me earlier.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyUkElBqpde
Although it bothers me, I grab the paper.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQXaeGSoFXc
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Jessy, 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxNBFNxUV9K
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If you are reading this it is because I will no longer be here to speak to you in person. It’s also that you are looking for answers to your questions, explanations. I will try to answer it.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmAcgEP3XDM
First of all, I wanted to tell you that I am deeply sorry for having infected you. If I had known that I was carrying this virus, I would never have hit on you that evening. As I told you during that famous evening, I wasn't looking for anything serious, yet when I saw you, I liked you straight away. If I left so quickly once we slept together, it was because I could have had feelings for you and coming out of a difficult relationship, I didn't want that.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrqNlQSGxjZ
If you are wondering how I became HIV positive, it was precisely this ex that I had such a hard time forgetting who infected me after cheating on me. He didn't know he was sick either.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4xPdvXeg7N
As I write these words to you, I am in the hospital. I don't think I'll get through it. I'm not telling you this to inspire pity, but to tell you that I pray that you never experience the same thing. I sincerely hope that medicine finds a cure before the virus manifests itself. In no case did I want to condemn you to live in this hell, neither you nor the two other boys whom I also infected.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJTSNubDESE
I'm going to leave consumed with guilt. I pray that God forgives me, that you will be able to forgive me one day.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtnzpIv5y8i
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These words upset me because they seem so sincere to me. I turn to Jessy who has wiped his eyes but still seems disturbed.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnSeaNtLhmi
— How are you feeling ? I ask him.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV3KyEAK0pn
— Sad and relieved at the same time. In fact, I feel like life will never give me any gifts and that every one of my hopes will be disappointed.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2HboasFDkK
— You are wrong, Jessy. You see that ? I point to Millisky lit up in front of us. This is your life today. It is no longer a dark alley in Allentown, nor even a state of the art residence in which many misfortunes hide. No, your life is here now. As for your future, I don't know what it will be like, just as I don't know my future, but there is one thing I am certain of : I will be with you.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfF8iqbDLyc
He leans towards me, I kiss him full on the mouth. This time he kisses me back forcefully. His body presses against mine, making me shiver. From my lips, he lets his mouth slide slowly down to my neck. I savor this kiss, this desire that pushes me to want him ever closer to me. Then he takes my mouth again with a mixture of tenderness and eagerness. With the tip of his tongue, he parts my lips, his tongue caresses mine while he sucks in my breath. No boy, no even Chad has never kissed me like that. I feel faint in his arms, my legs have difficulty supporting me. He moves slightly away from me, staring at me. I can read in his eyes that I won this first battle, he regained faith in life, in my love for him. For the first time since I've known him, he's happy.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb7voKMAu60
Behind us, in the house, the group Divinyls can be heard with their songI’m on your side. 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhzmj0ARbfs
— Miss Crawfords, will you give me this dance ? 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjEq0mzCO5T
He holds out his hand to me. 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlx6pxa9WUW
— With pleasure.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcmoSfC6laP
« I’m on your side 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡylwSrmUlJy
You know I’m not the enemy. » 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE0vww15STb
It's not hot tonight, but sheltered in Jessy's arms, I'm not cold.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQROwEyHjtx
« I love you, babe » rises in the silence of the night.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrnsneoHREB
Jessy moves back a few inches and looks at me with a mischievous smile.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSetQ3blDMc
— So in the end, who won ? The heart or the reason ? He asks me, quoting the words of the clairvoyant.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6MFRWXOUXw
– You are the heart, you always have been, I answer him forcefully.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqNhvFB7wBz
« I’ll hold on to you. » 690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6wcU8TBs2L
This is how, snuggled in each other’s arms, the music rocks us.690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5BSTwATwGz
« I love you babe, I love you babe, I’m on your side. »690Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZelOEsWorE
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