White sheets stained red in a hotel bed534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKriXjruUZm
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuZoz4tgjQ0
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmttTscr4Dl
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsQuZkLDG2F
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw3HoIxXi2N
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf1GkRSGhbF
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9gWFCRyPtN
Vivid visions invading my rest 534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIDqgsYxcVu
I can't sleep because all I see is death534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn79iPaHM0V
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM9NwWOehqh
Thinking about death at such an early age534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd4iqepOL2S
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkwt66znLqm
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡInQ6cMe5KR
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ01Dphu6VcI
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9DFpTCks5w
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHizcoch3bb
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFScgklPD2z
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUYYnsw8seB
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6zZHCMV1Et
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRWdpAY7stu
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBg2Ks3Fx57
Nobody actually cares until you're dead534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1xupbKhIuv
Until you're another headline in the news534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlEleI1lpiO
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG8ggCQXnY4
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE2T0sHY4uu
"I miss you today" 534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYl6kmMzRHB
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWPzxICsSM2
But they care now, 534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhpC47xE7Fe
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFBvd5naBLU
Mixed signals is all they send534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKgYEwGIPSC
One day I matter to them 534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmfKkLtJIQt
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIL6p3brNEY
A few months ago, I felt like flying 534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2eFlXhJ3Zo
A few months ago, I truly felt alive534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRQGsNwEs4W
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFQF3WSFqOD
It's hard to explain with words,534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡekYpXBmrXu
How the silence kills 534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTJDiD4hHnG
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2CkaEswH4o
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqQ5tNUpQgG
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI8cphajrLZ
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW1RtZ6arSP
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvI00Mj9Rkd
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjBT0oPrxgZ
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJW1YOQDzvO
The little voice in my head, it screams it534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXIifOkYedH
"This was their choice"534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPnUUaCOqAY
And to be lonely all the time is mine534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyxmE6WI1we
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeLmI0XQ7gB
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ79vIQmfKik
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLnjLZEttaf
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaEVHdsF8Os
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlitNVhFror
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaO2GTsWXYK
I wish somebody would call534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIXj4m5ne5W
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeySk8JTfi8
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrQPYCu4Q2o
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡODV3gbJmvS
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY259ymX15j
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOtHppIob7H
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 534Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh9Ino7RNqt
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
and then Add to home screen.