I wish I could understand why I feel this way371Please respect copyright.PENANAS0DaiDUjXd
Why flying doesn't feel the same 371Please respect copyright.PENANAhk50CjNU6P
And the lows don't seem to fade371Please respect copyright.PENANAK7fxZ1lriB
They just linger and remain
I find myself trapped with no incentive to fix it, to rewrite the narrative 371Please respect copyright.PENANAB0U1O7AG9E
Instead my mind picks it apart, going straight for the heart371Please respect copyright.PENANAyxNbw3lqc6
I gotta give it to them, they play it pretty smart
I wish I could tell you everything that makes me hurt 371Please respect copyright.PENANAhcKle5I8C8
I wish I could convert it into something better, avert from the inevitable 371Please respect copyright.PENANAekR6AMylwr
I'll convert this pain into something that works 371Please respect copyright.PENANAH3Ekt0yYml
Something that works to be charitable to my health, make my pain more revocable and severable 371Please respect copyright.PENANA6vyetC1Bra
Because after several years of being rendered inseparable from this feeling 371Please respect copyright.PENANAI0KcHbIuGp
I finally feel like I'm worth freeing 371Please respect copyright.PENANAuK6WfZVW8j
That this pain made me bleed, but it can't keep me371Please respect copyright.PENANAaXqTTLxraJ
I'm finally fleeing
But my superficial confidence is fleeting as my heart slows its beating 371Please respect copyright.PENANABCnr8IsiEp
The breathing turns to drowning 371Please respect copyright.PENANARWbvkHDG2L
The seconds I'm counting, turns to shouting 371Please respect copyright.PENANAggN2tcLxSm
I'm pounding on the walls, sounding my alarms371Please respect copyright.PENANAeYGqUo1i0b
But no one welcomes me with open arms371Please respect copyright.PENANABcarleeEak
Their love is fictitious 371Please respect copyright.PENANA0m9bf8aUE0
So thus, restarts the vicious cycle371Please respect copyright.PENANA2REclG0Uxt
I try to focus on my survival, but I never see its arrival 371Please respect copyright.PENANAaQt9RD3m8n
So I lay here, my body limp and my heart slowing 371Please respect copyright.PENANABq6RRmNFPU
The deprival of blood, of color, of feeling 371Please respect copyright.PENANA8IVlnlWkZY
My life is fleeting, like the confidcence I once had 371Please respect copyright.PENANAiWlv8BdYLt
I never meet my revival
But no one understands, no one offers a hand 371Please respect copyright.PENANAsFqpeIqL0U
I try to stand, my lungs expand, only to to be stuck in secondhand smoke371Please respect copyright.PENANAg7Ttfqvnr6
My voice broke as the smoke filled my lungs and covered my eyes like some sort of cloak 371Please respect copyright.PENANA9uNSv22UUi
I tried to yell, to call out for help, but all I did was choke
Falling on my knees, right back to the ground, I look around 371Please respect copyright.PENANAvrCZszNfUN
Listening to the elaborate planning of everything demanding a change 371Please respect copyright.PENANAF9p16xBvMn
They get their way, nothing remains the same371Please respect copyright.PENANAAKGETcOuAZ
All I feel is shame as I call out every name, hoping for someone to see everything slipping away 371Please respect copyright.PENANAgeSPS9vWsM
But no one comes my way, I'm disregarded and pushed away 371Please respect copyright.PENANAvkQiSO0X7G
I guess no one wanted me around anyway
I give in to the deadly game, as if I was ever given a choice 371Please respect copyright.PENANAjvHcxL30pF
But maybe my only claim to fame would be that I'm pretty damn good at playing this game 371Please respect copyright.PENANAZicxukRETl
Even if it feels like I'm locked in a cage371Please respect copyright.PENANA6pWh0qRYIX
The game of push and pull with the demons in my mind371Please respect copyright.PENANAzdR2p5oCPm
Darkness covering my eyes, I'm blind 371Please respect copyright.PENANA1ETWcSJ0qu
But full of myself and always on time 371Please respect copyright.PENANAWrWfGuQohS
I admit that the crime is mine 371Please respect copyright.PENANAwFXqA64UNs
Now I'll serve my time
I thought, maybe if I quit it371Please respect copyright.PENANAnPCJQ7BbLl
The devil will lose his incentive 371Please respect copyright.PENANAQMzr7fauim
The weak little girl, poisoned 371Please respect copyright.PENANAIeDsLxRc0S
Too bad for his game of tainting the good
But even then he just pulled down my walls 371Please respect copyright.PENANAgc5IdAe48f
Brick by brick 371Please respect copyright.PENANAbJm37hCSta
And now I'm back in this smoky pit, the light drained from it 371Please respect copyright.PENANAU66H2kavlV
Smoke filling my lungs and ripping the sight from my eyes 371Please respect copyright.PENANA4DUi3ilukx
Once again, I'm blind
Even when I believe it's over371Please respect copyright.PENANACQbhH8ABS6
That the thunder has passed me by, the storm subsiding 371Please respect copyright.PENANAgRtvVDcMea
It's still right there 371Please respect copyright.PENANAOWIv68nlsq
The devil on my shoulder