By the law of child safeguarding you were responsible as the only adult present here to prevent harm and risk from coming to these children. You failed and provided them with pornography. Amelia, put aside our whole history and look at the bigger picture. A 13 year old has read your erotica in which men. Have detailed anal sex. Do you not get how serious this is? You had to have known this was a possible outcome yet you did it anyway. This is serious.