我在書枱前呆了大半日。熱茶已涼，但我未嚐半口，心思都在眼前電腦屏幕上——剛輸入的文字不停被刪。字越少，心越亂，人越躁。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqEPk62jjPb
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不了。受不了。我離座往廚房換茶去。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpuELJYtid
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxwK3rpHaQo
廳中老妻瞄我半眼，大概知道發生甚麼事，沒有作聲，繼續看電視。我對她的不表態不勝感激——她以最聰明的方法維護我的尊嚴。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbojajXCTl2
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滾水撞上茶葉，水仙香氣隨著冉升白煙溢散開去。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ277fA0ZBxX
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtcwHAjaQno
壓力似乎一併消散。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfsjZFybNux
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnkIwHSrG3k
茶盡。我再續杯。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWf9FzOHCNB
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添茶不是長遠之計——屏幕白頁上始終沒有片言隻字。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJRrFPSEUSC
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGdPnPIvW8g
嘆一口氣，慨嘆自己太天真可愛。怎麼會相信自己有寫作天分，而且一信就是幾十年。幾十年來，不停寫，不停發表，不停被無視。我只得不停安慰自己說旁人不識貨。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTejFFlu0WI
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUrbiAIfbot
口不對心。心裡其實清楚自己料子如何。但我還是堅持寫下去。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW32TObhWCE
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNqmf2ArYlj
是習慣、面子、尊嚴緣故，更是不想承認自己做了一個長達幾十年的白日夢。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqFyeQwTxgE
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夢醒一場空。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw99ebXH1ui
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7By0OtQKuT
我本平庸，無甚專長，唯獨寫作能力相對身邊友儕略高丁點。丁點而已，卻足以讓我樂透幾十年。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw9JQgFNsBA
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvDewrhy8CW
工作不順利時，我會告訴自己——我的專長不在工作上，所以被罵亦是無可厚非；人際關係不如意時，我會告訴自己——如果世人只能用文字溝通，我該是表達能力最好的人；走倒運時，我會告訴自己——我正在為快要誕生的偉大作品累積靈感……531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQo3kEhGwFk
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO6tB2gOTSi
一切都是有意義的。如果我真有寫作天分的話。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Z8uSXttbt
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPzTPkRb9y0
捧著熱茶回到座位。身在心在能力不在。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhL7Cp0F7Gi
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在刺眼的屏幕白頁前，我又嘆一口氣。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ183t6qZXyP
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhMMB1rXGoJ
我不曾長大，仍是幾十年前那個我，沉浸在中文老師讚賞的我。同學們紛表羨慕我的寫作天份，請教我如何想出精彩故事、練出動人文筆。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJrSp3fSqng
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我沾沾自喜。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLmDAL8zu83
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細心回想，我當時已覺竅門不在天分，而是努力。努力鑽研文字的運用，努力細味名著佳作當中的韻味，努力思考故事情節起伏，努力觀察分析人世百態……名副其實的將勤補拙。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBrKoG8yUnU
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但我沒有向同學們坦白。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWvqSZZjIax
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因為我喜歡被讚賞的感覺。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVh7IaWCSPR
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努力，努力，努力。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwHCZvTzP67
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4JmyN6spmP
我的寫作技巧與日俱增，亦在多個學屆寫作比賽中獲獎。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8TyiMYbBSR
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyasIr6s7qp
我以為自己將來鐵定能夠成為作家。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXm5d9XG8Pc
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以為。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA3kuEOobj5
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告別校園後，我成為一個普通文職。普通收入，普通打扮，普通生活。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZV6sl7Gv0F
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdYr9gBovfU
普通得輕易被取代。普通得難以承受。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdBhmOSIJTY
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUGF0PD7eLS
我不得不告訴自己我是多麼的有寫作天份！我是多麼的獨特！531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6jL1FrtP0A
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCpAd7amNr2
某夜下班回家，我泡了一壺水仙，乘著茶香全情投入寫作世界。沒有外物打擾，我的世界只有我。一切如願。那麼順心，那麼安寧，那麼快樂。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6D1ZT9lqr
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjeqs1QfFnP
我的作品感動了我。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSCLFyZROLp
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC1fXF3lpwi
我希望藉此找到更多懂我的人。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9u6dorQnYR
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAFOSWc496Z
幾十年來，不停寫，不停發表，不停被無視。我的世界與真實世界不斷相互碰撞。面對無止境的打擊，我不曾問自己為何堅持。因為一旦心生此等疑問，變相在內心種下「自我質疑」的根苗，一發不可收拾。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmqxrYnzyzY
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFFwTrai4Mr
無法接受自己幾十年堅持建基於一個沒可能實現的夢想。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVgcGmkBX9K
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9dN3Ve5sFM
無法承受自己生來就是如此普通、平凡、平庸……531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgLWNEdrNXa
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgHcr1tLSRw
熱茶又涼了。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1fsTAmF9YU
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfYyT3jQRgP
屏幕白頁上始終沒有片言隻字。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBcSIhsjd7U
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCGjqLPUbui
老妻繼續以不表態維護我的尊嚴。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxc4Hy8KfOS
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxe4Lz6ALYo
我的作品只感動了我。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlUslxPcpJz
531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhHzX61vK3
因為我的感受只有我讀得懂。531Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLOBWqr8uVC
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