我和日朗在一起。836Please respect copyright.PENANAhlcQAkMViK
836Please respect copyright.PENANAD3t4AHhz4E
他對我很好,好得我要向他學習怎樣愛人;在他之前,原來我只愛過父母親,只有他們能帶給我痛楚,也只有痛苦也能實切地證明這份感情的重量,只有快樂的話,不過是一種娛樂,那並沒有厚度。836Please respect copyright.PENANA1k9Wfdhjml
836Please respect copyright.PENANA2hScuOmXII
我與別人交往的時候,只有開心,只有自我關照;但講到尾,其實我並不關心別人怎麼活。836Please respect copyright.PENANA4Te8YteTfs
836Please respect copyright.PENANAIFSgz58hCW
他們開不開心、好不好,我不在乎。836Please respect copyright.PENANAYQOk5C3TaQ
836Please respect copyright.PENANAT47kcl5HUE
為什麼我要管他們呢?他們只是提供愛給我的一種工具。836Please respect copyright.PENANAsEZ9QvepfR
836Please respect copyright.PENANA24eTbDwOw5
但日朗不同。我喜歡他。836Please respect copyright.PENANAHS4yXuisea
836Please respect copyright.PENANAZn0OfscoIB
感覺是完全不一樣的,我想知道他怎樣看待我——836Please respect copyright.PENANAlnGzpKPi15
836Please respect copyright.PENANA1y0IiUwYjm
我想知道,佢會鍾意我幾耐?佢覺得我點?同其他人比呢?836Please respect copyright.PENANANBbzOHhlUd
836Please respect copyright.PENANAxFYLWiAZGi
但是有些事,我是絕對不會讓他知道的,譬如我收很多觀音兵。如果他發現,我想,我會說:836Please respect copyright.PENANAeRaKKkr382
836Please respect copyright.PENANAHEXAueKxZW
「我唔係有心㗎,咁人哋鍾意我吖嘛?係咪?836Please respect copyright.PENANA7lBpskKZGZ
836Please respect copyright.PENANA84NZjvTe4e
你原本都係其中之一嚟㗎咋,只係,我鍾意你咋嘛。」836Please respect copyright.PENANAhZGdHBu4w1
836Please respect copyright.PENANAtVucTzZ8jz
這種說法是不是值得欣賞呢?我不知道,但如果是我,聽時會很開心呢,畢竟對方肯定了我啊,是不是?836Please respect copyright.PENANA3ajckzuipI
836Please respect copyright.PENANAA67wmcxx2x
我喜歡他,明明我喜歡他——我看到他的時候會心動,別人靠近他時我會吃醋,也會在他沒空陪我時感到委屈。如果這都不叫愛,那怎樣才是呢?836Please respect copyright.PENANAaFtz5bNuwx
836Please respect copyright.PENANAhmdrLj3rCg
可是,我受不了。836Please respect copyright.PENANAQTeVW8ouvJ
836Please respect copyright.PENANA63XItHGWzP
慢慢,他要求我:836Please respect copyright.PENANAKqpRzEUkdz
836Please respect copyright.PENANA1gE7dgeX17
「你可唔可以唔好遲咁耐到?」836Please respect copyright.PENANAfvZQfPT3gE
836Please respect copyright.PENANAQZpGdDfAio
「下個月先買俾你好冇?我做緊part-time㗎啦,但宜家未有咁多錢……」836Please respect copyright.PENANAvfVVpGmuB0
836Please respect copyright.PENANASPMDsJtkNY
「喂,你唔好嬲啦,明明係你錯,點解你可以嬲番我轉頭嘅?」836Please respect copyright.PENANAc2FFf1NcCZ
836Please respect copyright.PENANAW9iuZgYei4
我開始失落。836Please respect copyright.PENANA0nM3wAQNLK
836Please respect copyright.PENANAwtB3epQ6Ia
我覺得,他不夠喜歡我,如果真是足夠喜歡,為什麼會對我有那麼多不滿?為什麼不能更多的包容和忍讓?別人都只唯唯諾諾,為什麼他就不可以呢?從來沒人這樣說過我啊。836Please respect copyright.PENANAXKQ7E282Km
836Please respect copyright.PENANA84efKMeWN9
難得我已努力向你證明:我愛你。836Please respect copyright.PENANAu2AiNAKKSK
836Please respect copyright.PENANAcpSEzW0bpl
我賣力地和你口交、公開和你戀愛、不再接受他人的美意——很明顯了吧?836Please respect copyright.PENANAE1B9AtghFs
836Please respect copyright.PENANAKR7CWZAc4L
為什麼你這樣貪心呢?這種美意還不夠嗎?836Please respect copyright.PENANAM8WMyNs6T3
836Please respect copyright.PENANAcypjAZ7W6d
「我明嘅……你可能唔太識得點愛人,咁不如我哋一齊學,好冇?」836Please respect copyright.PENANAo7yyGKAh0h
836Please respect copyright.PENANAlFcGiRahEF
日朗温柔地牽着我,但口中所說的,對我而言卻是嚴厲的苛責。836Please respect copyright.PENANA3NYk8sD1k1
836Please respect copyright.PENANAunPXZtxWlO
我不懂愛人?836Please respect copyright.PENANAEoqoXHaPEc
836Please respect copyright.PENANAmqxOIBdT5U
我不懂愛人——是的,那是因為,一直都是別人愛我嘛,我看別人付出已足夠了。去到自己愛的時候,好像也因而不那麼的得心應手呢?836Please respect copyright.PENANAWuJt5YGpWL
836Please respect copyright.PENANAh1QdbJ3lpQ
日朗說我懶,懶得不願向他多走幾步;我跟他生氣:喂,我已經努力咗㗎啦,咁多人裏面,你已經得到咗最高待遇,點解你唔滿意呢?836Please respect copyright.PENANALx2eHpIKhO
836Please respect copyright.PENANAdqb1rrpM1J
係咪因為——836Please respect copyright.PENANADFvitsyxsZ
836Please respect copyright.PENANAHZrLcszlGn
你唔夠愛我呢?836Please respect copyright.PENANAyQWW8HRRiz
836Please respect copyright.PENANAm4kZYKP259
這個念頭成了一顆種子埋在我心間。日朗對我很好,但慢慢,我就沒有安全感了,我覺得他不夠別人那麼無條件愛我。836Please respect copyright.PENANAMUgHkh8ksJ
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對,就是這樣。836Please respect copyright.PENANASNb6rY9sam
836Please respect copyright.PENANAlLZR9GvD8a
我的心再一次與他疏離。836Please respect copyright.PENANA7c6zu8c7kM
836Please respect copyright.PENANAsvjUL9Mo28
我突然看不起他。明明並沒有那麼愛我,卻裝出一副委曲求全的樣子。836Please respect copyright.PENANAlcq4cBh4Lr
836Please respect copyright.PENANAal2N0wRsLH
但是,我還繼續和他在一起,因為他太好了,如果別人知道他喜歡我,也會在心裏高看我幾分。人性如此;而他本身,也算是頗盡心盡力地對我好的,如果我提出要求,他也會努力做到。836Please respect copyright.PENANA0k3tFVjHvf
836Please respect copyright.PENANAzBYXWoiGFz
只是,不似別人舉重若輕。836Please respect copyright.PENANA6Gr9h6Mafu
836Please respect copyright.PENANAdPxWVRlEJ1
而像我這樣的女神並不會滿足於此的,我要得到很多很多,才能區分我自己和別人的差距。836Please respect copyright.PENANA4JtuO1jJmx
836Please respect copyright.PENANAOBp78UFUQj
所以我出軌——836Please respect copyright.PENANAhqhijZbTaT
836Please respect copyright.PENANAPPqI8jMSld
其實這也是一種貼心吧?我想要的在日朗身上得不到,方才另覓他人,提供我所需,填補我和他的空隙;又不需勉強他勞苦自己,他既可以繼續愛我,我的私心又可繼續被滿足,一舉兩得。836Please respect copyright.PENANAqL01aHJekX
836Please respect copyright.PENANAEJmsZa7jqG
本來,日子很好,我也因為得到別人的疼愛而變得更柔和一點,沒有再對日朗提過分的要求、沒有再輕易地發脾氣,總覺得自己要有觀音的氣量。836Please respect copyright.PENANAf7N8G7ELFa
836Please respect copyright.PENANA52LwLTZGU2
直到,日朗發現我出軌。836Please respect copyright.PENANAqhZzTHUdar
836Please respect copyright.PENANAcqMAaT6R3b
他很激動。他不明白為什麼我要這樣做,他覺得他已對我至好,為我獻出全部;我只說,我要更多,他給我的還不夠。836Please respect copyright.PENANAa0tHqezMS4
836Please respect copyright.PENANAy5jWOyvjgF
那一刻,平常冷靜沉穩的他突然捨棄了自尊,雖然,他指出我的不對:836Please respect copyright.PENANAT0t0nFklxZ
836Please respect copyright.PENANAcDDopWajEU
「你唔滿意點解唔同我講?如果唔鍾意,應該係分手而唔係出軌?」836Please respect copyright.PENANAjK3ApH21n2
836Please respect copyright.PENANACPsDiERMII
但是,很快,他又自責地和我說他會改,即使他也不一定知道自己錯在何處。836Please respect copyright.PENANA1MYl8b7IMP
836Please respect copyright.PENANA8WP7WXbbG8
結果,他不斷付出。836Please respect copyright.PENANAMy3oBHEfGy
836Please respect copyright.PENANAm3t6QN0NCK
而我看見他這樣,又覺得他的魅力不比往昔了,我比他高級,心慢慢地飛走;或者,不在他那處。836Please respect copyright.PENANA451BcwEdyg
836Please respect copyright.PENANAeBlRVGTvaX
他說:「你唔好同其他人一齊,我哋重新開始好冇?」836Please respect copyright.PENANAMNeFThaYmd
836Please respect copyright.PENANA4Ym7sIAm39
他說他愛我,想和我共偕連理。836Please respect copyright.PENANAVqgJ8vB6Qh
836Please respect copyright.PENANA4aS8UgBeoB
「咁……算啦,對唔住。」836Please respect copyright.PENANAZYly33WK7w
836Please respect copyright.PENANAehSPt6OrCe
我開始覺得心煩,突然,我不需要他的愛了,我喜歡的是光芒萬丈的程日朗,不是這個垂頭喪氣的男人。836Please respect copyright.PENANA5rIeP75D5P
836Please respect copyright.PENANA6T1C6Kl3DL
唉,真令人無奈。836Please respect copyright.PENANA1o8jqJJ2CQ
836Please respect copyright.PENANAewjJRYs9yQ
我有別人給我的愛了。836Please respect copyright.PENANAgdLQ8mn3lv
836Please respect copyright.PENANAqkuRhiz8JA
而且,他不能接受我有別人,不能包容我的廣交——836Please respect copyright.PENANAlJWl0dNGcN
836Please respect copyright.PENANArRQWCvqydt
唯有再見。836Please respect copyright.PENANArgqaExSK0i
836Please respect copyright.PENANAJPuT111deA
再見。836Please respect copyright.PENANA23ScwY68Z8
836Please respect copyright.PENANAzWT8uKESMu
只是,後來,我又念記他。836Please respect copyright.PENANAPBqumSkkfO
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《相愛十年》//《結咗婚十幾年,好似已經唔太愛。》
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