等我能見到他時，又過了一個月。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXe5IekooPS
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUu6q0smJri
深呼吸了好幾口氣，練習了幾次微笑，我才踏進病房。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpWdNW5YvAB
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Y6zD5iUFm
他盯著我走近，待我在床前站定，見我微微一笑，他便咧開嘴笑了。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYujnqjvOuE
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmPLZ39VByf
「我妹怎麼變這麼漂亮啦？」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7EJ8YwBPB2
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiGm2y9Me8L
我沒理會他的玩笑，只是看著臉色蒼白的他，當下覺得自己的微笑只是一道不讓自己哭出來的防線。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT2c3XxZuRH
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMA6PiZTy5L
我查過他的病，既然已到末期，治癒機率已經極低，幾乎是零。也知道他會長期處在各種疼痛裡。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡauYXARqGlG
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ogdZpR672
所以我無法開口問他還好嗎，也沒辦法要他振作，更不能祝福他康復。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlzuWHmETBs
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5sRZvRnjqf
只是他仍然對著我笑，笑得那麼真。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ37sst13FUs
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSkQ8kjbmCJ
「幹嘛傻在那裡，過來這邊坐啊。」他指指床邊的椅子。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBpiO6rrt7K
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXcOx7la13M
我走過去，把椅子拉近病床，坐下。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKLlg7IrUZj
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJR6IMfMeQE
我們幾乎是同時伸出雙手的。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzF8Mt1VkeT
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwpg6p8ZRix
碰到他的手時，我的鼻子就酸了，眼睛也模糊了。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQrJN64H1CB
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTkcp753rxN
「不是答應我不哭了嗎？」那句話有著溫柔的指責。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvv5bFkJL2W
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxuBhzqDGih
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRTUxkAEHvX
「現在有沒有哪裡會痛…？」我開口問。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRfvQIQwpST
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmfjaQgNRJz
「每天都在痛啊，肚子也痛、頭也痛，骨頭也都會痛…」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJxmISAiuAw
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1IPuY5obpN
他數家珍地說出，而我的眉頭也因此糾結。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Cc1AB4RXC
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡarSs7sxXVR
「現在不痛啦，看到妳都不痛啦。」見我皺眉，他胡亂地撒謊。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYZM0CzcWly
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9m0LJwPkn8
我揉著他的手，好像有很多話要說，但又覺得沒什麼好說。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoRexK9RAL2
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCpqpCkaav
「爸…妳爸爸，有說什麼嗎？他知道嗎？」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDArcRa0Jvm
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnIGsMBvQ1q
我愣了一下，沒想到他會問這個問題。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbYoEa0Ljhd
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzroMleLNyk
「他應該知道，但他沒跟我說什麼…」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpgGwOk7tAp
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcbSCYxRubK
「是嗎…我想也是啦。問問而已，妳不要多想。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT6AfH0ngdj
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡayfbI51R8E
那一瞬間，我覺得父親的無情是無法被原諒的。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhTL8Xe9M98
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSHsnfU9YBf
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrVjDHTf8Ar
我拿出那晚編好的手繩，放到他手裡。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ShqZfVY7R
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO9T3Ve7ihQ
「這是新編的。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhYlHLslSaN
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTK2mCJ11nq
他看了看手繩，又看看我。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR33EhR3wcM
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUcI5dbBnCH
「妳幫我拿櫃子裡的皮夾出來。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRaGci8Na2b
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhdefMUYj3Q
我把皮夾遞給他，他從皮夾裡拿出了…好幾年前的那條幸運手繩。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ii9VMjxs6
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmgSYYwNNqp
白色的線都變成灰色，已經髒髒的了，他拿出來時還是小心翼翼。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqDOEzdE0aw
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlq1gpRA8f0
「妳看。」他得意。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7TLD8ghWlA
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaCA2kDlreT
「虧你能留那麼久，我之前皮包掉了，你的照片也搞丟了…」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe4jgQLnfYf
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoysjLamScx
「幫我戴新的在手上。」他說。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOMrq7kZv6m
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡayTG5Di5dx
我一邊把手繩綁上他變得好細的手腕，一邊說著…539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNb75VruMBA
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhZ9UXV6tEM
「我們以前還說要一起合照，但都沒有做到…」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbhOsZmx1C3
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmJFiVIxULd
「現在拍。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX45kvxnKB7
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIyJnZ2KeiG
「啊？」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmIE4UJUlkO
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDQ6TV53lph
「現在就拍啊，妳手機有照相功能吧？」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjFFjWvuLzt
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3afIZzfnAJ
「有。」我拿出手機，翻開摺疊螢幕，開啟相機功能。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAOrLQyxLfp
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvrRMkyOSiw
「等一下等一下。」他伸手拿了旁邊的眼鏡戴上。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDsAdVxm4vI
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7CXVlumlSt
「我這樣看起來比較不像流氓吧？」他又在笑。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnd07vlZZjt
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡslLW7RJBH9
我笑了，起身貼近床，把頭靠在他臉旁，拿著手機對著我們倆的大頭拍了一張照片。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFCnraP9h7n
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfayng8zS7Q
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7pAilgIzVM
我坐回椅子上，有那麼一段時間，我們都沒有看著彼此，也沒有說話。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKpEinSGwj1
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfw1doel6yh
「我離婚了。」英傑突然說。
「我被抓後，妳嫂子自己提的。」
「簽字是一定要簽的，拖著她也不對。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiosbESa16a
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgDKXpPWJND
我想起那個沒有喊過他「爸爸」的兒子，但我沒有勇氣開口問。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN9Nu7unM9X
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqEMnf019kw
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSswW7dZt3t
「妳還有在寫小說嗎？」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwQipwyqcL4
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKQzfRBkRok
「…有寫一些小故事。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk7vpPKQx9S
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiwNEd0PrOU
「那就好，不要隨便放棄喔。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdhjsuvjEto
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPbTtdho0Sl
「嗯。我好久沒看到你寫的詩了。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFxJcMHwkIj
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFfsYVVONog
「我太久沒寫字啦…字已經不漂亮，腦子也沒東西了。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFyfSX1EeQY
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQeq35WNDWc
「不會啦，字跡不會隨便改變的。」情感也是。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYHsXuJAcwe
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAiXr3Eydo1
「妹。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBy3yu0jrIm
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡANND7BcrQp
「嗯？」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSCLQ9DN4uS
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrfkQn8dMUP
「人真的要走到末路的時候，才知道只有家人會無條件的陪在身邊。」
「所以妳一定要好好珍惜家人，不要交壞朋友，也不要太相信外面的人。」
「也不要抽菸、喝太多酒…」
「如果可以，就回去念書，這個社會還是很看學歷…」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTayiB1yeMJ
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡExcCfcYaC4
我突然意識到他正在做什麼。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh4zMbmtIcU
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpWueITgJBP
像是交代後事般的叮嚀，我聽在耳裡，痛在心裡，但我不能阻止他這麼做。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdEvxzPkfZV
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkTY8GGmcka
因為我甚至不知道還有沒有下一次見他的機會。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoPBGNLi8qF
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUUfO8zYipR
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLpQlj7WFCS
那天我在醫院陪他直到晚上才離開，他始終笑著，在我面前不表現出痛苦或難過。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfkZXjDSc1q
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgfi1Tf9D6y
他也答應讓我再去看他，只是要先跟他聯絡。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWvWCTvEmXV
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTXzZjMaEnL
「我媽有點介意，所以不希望妳們碰到面。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMBBWPhBgYG
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf8JhiAXUd2
爾後我又見了他兩次，其中一次他告訴我，他信了主耶穌。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaqDstsAPMs
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHtX6yEMKpR
我知道是身體病痛的折磨，讓他尋求精神上的慰藉。他親自寫了信給教會的小孩子，用自己的經歷告誡孩子們勿入歧途。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgmltOC8Aj7
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6VHZ7MT5Y5
我知道他害怕，知道他尋求救贖。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡthq8uwCZB6
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT2cwhU0NF1
我知道他就算把地獄或罪人掛在嘴邊，仍是害怕受苦的。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXmj39bvz1C
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7CIP1gloMS
我知道他也許到了這一刻才開始後悔。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiHFn85hHLL
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI3qCCcPQ4E
但我是欣慰的。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJd6E5iekSd
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Op7iR63FZ
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7NhmFg2rd
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrONcYAyy1h
那一天來的又快又急。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDRgP0O2tMy
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2OOUvKFeh
「妹…」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBnR4nv9zzi
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrCwkbgWq2t
我接起電話，只聽到英傑喊了我，然後是沉重的喘息與啜泣。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3tgqWMXSmd
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZbvKe5tU59
「你怎麼了？怎麼了？」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtondjsg8mI
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoNgLnCbMDc
還拿著手機和他說話，我已經起身準備出門去醫院。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpFUK1iBmdr
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTcxNq6CrSt
「我還不想死…」他哭著說。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyiVXj3hVhE
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5zQAsrPkmX
那句話狠狠地撕裂了我的胸口。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyuyruHShJo
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHFv892WCiY
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUIJbOq77sx
我跑進病房，英傑似乎剛剛才穩定下來，吊著點滴、眼眶泛紅、面容消瘦，也比上次更加蒼白、手臂上都是青色與紫色的瘀青。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcLxwdGuc4W
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb5RXYkr8dS
他的母親與姐姐看見我，臉色明顯地不自在。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLICPWIbHhq
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo3ZtzZid8f
英傑打那通電話給我的時候，她們是不是也在呢？539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmuysKs0pqW
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡolIzjPXJPW
她們小聲地和英傑說了幾句話，就走出病房，留給我和他說話的空間。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBV4Q1oddBC
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgBfXQWOAJv
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmcX8HhceJT
我坐到上次的位置，握住他的手。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWft7UenkWe
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmn17SUEV91
那雙手已又更瘦更冰冷了。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVbKWZp0Scv
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLXTtiZ5WiI
「我真的，還不想死。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJN8otunQ0x
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZMxY651hvE
我握著他的手出了點力。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡow4b4f17j9
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp5w4gHe3GP
「我很害怕。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9OoNpP7Qvh
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkLOedLsfw4
「我很怕死…」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6My0pdB1ol
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ59bFeJpb97
他沒看著我，只盯著手。說完，他的眼淚就掉下來。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzesplXqJM3
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvA5NO6X5C9
那是我第一次看見他掉眼淚，也是最後一次。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDfHXXIrdPP
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgaWYEuiVrN
「你已經悔改了，你一定會去天堂的。」我已經滿臉淚水，但還是看著他的眼睛說。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDTWFAimEQW
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI6xJ2jMA3Q
「全身都很痛…」他終於抬頭看我。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4otXcKoG6N
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDphAyZqLNL
我趕緊抽幾張衛生紙擦他的臉，他的雙頰與眼窩都已經凹陷，我的手盡可能地放輕力道，就怕他疼。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgzhb0RVNje
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6LcqBIEaW
「你很努力了，我知道你很努力了…」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwNUbDdzeLA
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ99YdNwJ3WS
我抱住他，驚覺他已弱不禁風的事實。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPVloFbWf8W
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaf8ggHHa5y
這讓我倏地停止了自己的眼淚。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYEXHgY3iTL
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfbgmjh0sBi
「沒事的，你的主會帶你離開，之後就不痛苦了。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa0atSDxQxa
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfEvFeC666i
英傑在我的臂彎裡哭泣了許久，才安靜下來。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTtX9CLUyzd
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6y4r4oN3He
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjVZvHgW4Tb
「妹。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjy47ZDF6cQ
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJJxflX7An1
「嗯？」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQjaWBnCtKi
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkDVVdVFWf4
「抽屜裡有一封信是給妳的。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv1MRn25Eza
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEdvdERmRVD
我打開抽屜，拿起那個信封。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbpuTGhD2sV
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「回去再看。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSbnC8Mcwvh
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「好。」我收起信。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnswAiHq3WA
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「妳回去吧。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzO8qfkp0fI
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「什麼？」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Q2Sq6h0Do
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「謝謝妳來…可是不要再來了。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBwjHmhpX30
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「為什麼？」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmHaW7haJGf
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「我不想要妳送我離開，妳會很傷心，我也不想要看到妳那麼傷心。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHYen5yXnp5
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「……」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAyifVyHYqC
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「回去吧。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSnIAFrqnf8
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他看著我，又對我笑了，那個笑看起來很費勁，也是他一直以來對我的溫柔表現。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlX7iDycfg3
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不讓我送他走，也是哥哥對妹妹的溫柔。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvEip431Uya
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我又抱了抱他才離開。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXMqMW26SDE
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當天晚上十點多，我收到他姊姊的簡訊。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdYf5cBmAcE
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「英傑已經走了。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBM4eWsdtbx
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那一瞬間我向心裡所有知道的神祈求，希望英傑能到更好的地方，希望他不要再受苦了。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡggmxatN1IZ
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我打開信封，裡面只有一張書籤大的紙。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNelV1Oal0t
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「Dear 妹：」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG5QrgF7wCw
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「妳永遠是我的天使，539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Nm9l9j5wO
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請不要忘記我。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd7fDlziS1U
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「哥 英傑」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkxQIqxZcTX
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我抱著自己，放任自己哭到睡著。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtmXDaFxALQ
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之後的每一年，我不選在英傑的忌日，而是在他的冥誕當天悼念他。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWljct9lbIu
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每一年的五月三十，我都會寫一封信，表達我的思念，讓他知道「我沒有忘記他」。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX09bOHKnvF
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前幾年每到這天，我總是哭，總是放任自己因為想念而哭得泣不成聲。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡemR62h3oQz
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後來的後來，我漸漸不哭了，但沒有改變在這一天寫信的習慣。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcwhmPEP6BK
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英傑的回憶有時像巨石背在背上，有時像羽毛沾在胸口，無論哪一種，都是無法遺棄。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq6vTpRkmpp
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他走後，我便不再輕易評論一個人的好與壞。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfGXznMMtKx
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曾經我在英傑的新聞底下看見很多網友的謾罵、抨擊甚至是汙辱，我感到憤怒與心痛，想一個一個回應他們「你們什麼都不知道！」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlq9pRdu22N
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但我什麼也沒做。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfeWs0zC89x
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因為那些人不認識他，也永遠不會認識他。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9pv1JHSv24
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所以我再也不對任何新聞或社會事件做評論。因為我知道，我不認識當事人，更不能體會當事人的親屬心情。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy7wniR16Z2
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我回去念書，考進了大學，年年以取得獎學金為目標，只為不要白學。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ58VCAeB8t9
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一直沒有放棄創作，可能也是因為惦記著他說過的話。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE80DlkQIx0
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說起遺憾，大概是我喊他「英傑」比喊他「哥哥」的次數要多更多了吧。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBCdgagAe5L
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去年，我沒有寫信。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6zVd56krSR
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我選擇在當天完成他的故事。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaOeQnfQWVs
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他是一隻孤傲的鷹，獨自在天空闖蕩，受盡風霜，最後回巢，在家人身邊闔上眼。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWMhBtZWg1i
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我是活在地面的狼，只能抬頭望著，用我的爪在沙上畫下他在天空翱翔的姿態。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLrAoB8RfKx
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這是，我哥哥的故事。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNgOmF8Pc3F
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