第五十九．五章739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFfoPEo4ieD
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「何鵬侑，其實你對我仲有無感覺？」739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡofhtizzk8b
我終於都決定要問一次，這一個一直埋藏在我心底裡的問題。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCxvFIiTCdH
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKvcEwr7ydg
我已經拖延了Alvin不少時間了，他可是還要回去為姐姐買晚飯的。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6RsNJ8HFZU
雖然心裡是這樣想著，但我還是把他從醫院帶來了車站，再由車站從帶到來了現在暫住的家樓下。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ51EZmN4nos
原因就只是希望能夠問道他這一條問題……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxPW9mAyxbd
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbcNakS9zPr
但當我問完後，只見Alvin思考了一會。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsGgORklsgq
拜託，你一定要回答「已經放下了我」。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCoz1C9Ya1G
這樣我才能夠有藉口都讓自己放下你的……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYBbJ4CsCfx
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE6CpBiF2y0
「你要我老實答嘅話，喺仲有感覺。」他思考完後，就看著我說。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF4cD1qOsCm
聽到他這一個答案，我的大腦頓時如同電腦當了機一樣。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkS3BVloq9U
他這個答案，完全打亂了我原先預定好要與他說的話……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhsE2VOPXU1
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlBjicfLOQP
我初初是希望他會回答我「已經放下了」。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeF6eBUtRMj
然後我就可以順勢假裝自己都放下，並與他再一次由「朋友」的關係，重新再來一次。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJVXJY8zBXY
但現在他竟然直接回答我「還有感覺」……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4SM8tETNCP
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY2naca17Ku
單單就是這一句，就足夠令我已經很想立即走進他懷中，然後跟他說，其實我都一樣還沒有放下……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFG4jCQErU4
雖然感性上，我真的想與他再一起。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFgp03bFVf7
但理性上告訴了我，一開始令他失望及傷心的人……是我。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq8B0QmJUlu
即使我知道一切都已經過去了……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjW5WOr8d5l
但是曾經的傷痕裂縫，是沒法輕易就能填補得到的。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCHKt6cg2Qc
我或許已經沒有資格，在他的心裡再佔上一格。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Puqs0jPXL
我更不能再在他的心裡刻上第二條傷痕……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVDhkDhcnN7
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAp4kNwNcpS
但是這刻情緒已經有一點開始湧現出來。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCNZJYkAn9O
然而，我都一定要假裝冷靜，不能讓他看穿我此刻的情緒。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBmzEFv81i2
於是我便深呼吸了一下，然後說：「都過咗成年啦……點會仲有感覺架……」739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOEZ2aAQSfu
我說著的時候，心裡其實都一陣隱隱作痛。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoB4C4g3QJQ
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ79CLVIjqox
「原先都無乜架啦，但同你相遇翻之後，個感覺即刻出翻哂嚟。」739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm5XosVHdqP
他回答著我。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlHk8FJe7Sw
為何你一定要說這些說話呢……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH34COOMPPH
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk4sO5KufqP
雖然心裡很難受，但我自己弄出來的問題，就必須由我自己來解決。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP8l49emHQZ
「問題就喺呢到啦！」我立即回應他。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVKwXAlFXDx
而他都很快就看著我問：「問題？」739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLCG9q5ROJA
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ39LArpkFk7
「我哋依家嘅身份仲喺前男女朋友，所以一見翻臉就自然會咩感覺都出翻哂嚟……明明大家都已經分咗手成年，但你仲喺好似move on唔到咁。」739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZoz2q77vyH
我都不知道自己正在亂說著甚麼……但我說完後，就立即轉身背向著他。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡntxZz6hHPK
因為我真的開始壓抑不住心中一直不斷湧現著的情緒了……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd8HapEu0Gd
每當我說一句與心相反的說話，我就變得更難受了。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4EjqYP29Tg
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1n8RoQhxYu
「你咁樣講，好似講到自己已經放低咗咁。」他又回應了我。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvHDJMHHTLZ
原來你認為我已經將你放下了嗎……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO1MR48kGeU
雖然，心真的很痛，但既然已經決定了，我就必須繼續演下去。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVNrAVaMbyb
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ15kC2vgO9j
「我……放低咗架啦！」我說道。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBuGuLlm0iN
但這時候，淚水都終於壓抑不住，從雙眼開始流下來。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOkMXqxmyLF
對不起……我撒謊了，但這都是為了你好。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡngufzo2CKw
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl9iBU2LAzk
「喺啊……你放低到咪好囉……唔似我咁。」他回答我。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡch883mjIw3
拜託不要再說這些說話了……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAEFQqssDN5
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdV40RgDDzq
此刻，聽完他的說話後，我的心真很痛，很痛，很痛。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh5HpGzbgKn
但是我還得繼續演下去……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCtmRvo9yyB
於是我強忍著眼淚，並轉身看著他。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6JKL6P8gK0
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIB0mx2ctUR
幸好，這時旁邊的的路燈剛好因時限而熄滅了。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0on37oMERl
這麼暗的環境，他應該是看不到我的表情的……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSf8mu5OaUK
於是我便立即向他說道：「所以我覺得點解有時我哋喺班房到會有啲尷尬就喺因為我哋身份嘅問題。」739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsk2KGxzbqK
句子之間完全沒有停頓，因為一停頓下來，我就會又想哭了。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvkLHpvfILq
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVBFWsEgcAF
「身份嘅問題？」他問道我。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk7X2YEXxxi
「你仲覺得我喺你前女朋友，所以有時喺交流上先會有啲尷尬……你應該好似我咁放低哂，然後就以一個新嘅身份去面對你！」739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYrw3Ywu5L4
我看似很有道理地說著。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCdFt3y26ww
但其實我根本就沒有放下過對他的感情。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUbCJz0LKhD
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbwmSddDrCC
接著，Alvin竟然沒有回應我。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg0LGlLZItL
於是我都只好繼續說：「不如我哋重新嚟過，唔喺曾經嘅戀人，唔喺前男女朋友，而喺重新由朋友呢個關係再開始過。」739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsAvYe9qIVs
本來這一句說話，是打算一開始在他回答我「已經放下了」後，就接著說的。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5yonGM4npN
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3dfpYEI7ul
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE4IshU1JoA
雖然我都希望我們能從「朋友」再重新開始過。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5FhILPMp0N
但至少都讓我有一個藉口去先放下對你的感情吧……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcubSx5nKXr
現在這樣反而讓我更不想去放下對你的感情了……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvPSqfm0t66
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAla6VJVlD3
「你嘅意思即喺我哋做翻朋友，好似啲典型嘅分手對白咁。」他又開口說道了。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ85jucNHhl
「咁唔好咩？你又可以放低我，而我哋又可以繼續正正常常咁交流……」739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHHQvEAwYl0
這對現在的我們來說，應該是最好的解決方法了。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn3I3jrUpz1
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgM3hob9fTQ
接著Alvin都沉默了一會，看來他都應該是在思考著這個唯一的解決方法。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡttwyCBiSkG
而很快，他都彷彿想通了一樣開口說：「好啦，我哋做翻朋友啦咁！由今日起，我哋就只喺朋友。」739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa3Rxi0yd1u
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd5457yfBqt
當我聽到他說我們只是朋友時，我就知道「何鵬侑與蔡霜玥」這段關係，在這一瞬間……完結了。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW2lP8VaR0z
雖然這本來就是我的目的，但為何當我聽到他所說後，我反而更難過……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwrEN0WD3O5
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoiDUrlVHB2
我的眼淚又開始從雙眼流下。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzQkOvGBmI8
但現在與他這麼近的距離，他一定會看得見我臉上的淚水。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOE9EqQviHp
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrN35cbUwTm
因此，我只好立即轉身，並強忍著淚水說：「好啦……時間唔早啦，你……快啲翻去買飯比家姐啦，我都要上翻去煮自己份晚餐啦！」739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEpmWWz0ipb
接著，我就背向著他揮手，並往前面的方向跑去。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG4XpOyWM3d
我必須離開他，因為我實在不能再忍耐下去了。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaX0eXFVdQV
再這樣下去，我一定會在他面前痛哭出來的……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtmq4OyMuMk
我不想他後悔。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzM3AdvBRim
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgqD5s35IeK
我跑著的時候，並沒有理會身後的Alvin是站著還是轉身離開了。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCB4ijbMiFD
淚水已經不斷從雙眼滲出，而我都只能加快腳步走回家中。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4oK3ZFujYG
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡezwHHQoocJ
接著，當我成功回到家，打開了門進到屋內，並閉上門的一剎那……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7esVck8tGi
我直接跪在地上，大聲地哭起來……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh81D5St22v
對上一次，我會這樣大聲哭出來，應該是與Alvin提出分手後……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5uujaZ1PAb
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3DaeSTpwL6
「好痛，好痛，好痛……」我哭著的同時一直說著。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfBJvfoCjjY
這一刻，並沒有任何人能在我身邊能夠安慰及陪伴著我。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡniB5c95z7c
而我都只能一直痛哭著，直到淚水流乾涸為止……739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVqkHTwIWF5
 739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh4TKCp7ejt
對不起，何鵬侑，是我親手摧毀了我們這一段感情的。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiClDOIEW39
過去你所認識的蔡霜玥，將不再存在。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJxSSDhlA0
而接下來的蔡霜玥，都只會與你以「朋友」的身份繼續相處。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqDzgRBLwKY
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