我有個習慣,就是喜歡寫文章,或者說寫日記。41Please respect copyright.PENANAghfMKZQomT
尤其,我最喜歡紀錄跟祂的對話。41Please respect copyright.PENANAW0oHbprMe7
「我該怎麼稱呼你?」跟祂相處了這麼久,我沒想到高三畢業這一天第一次問祂的名字。41Please respect copyright.PENANAc52NGaUQXL
我記得有人守護靈是天使,有人守護靈是貓、狗,有人守護靈是自己早已逝去的親人。
「死神。」祂淡淡說了一句。41Please respect copyright.PENANAH7XUXuY6QW
這句話讓我震驚,緩了好久才開口。41Please respect copyright.PENANAAnoRfkYXN5
「你是死神?我的守護靈是死神?」我驚訝地說道。41Please respect copyright.PENANARTZMhqq7OQ
祂不再說話了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAcOwK6JNHtq
「你倒是回我呀。」我難得情緒激動。41Please respect copyright.PENANApST2r9e86L
我知道祂的不凡,但怎麼會是位死神呢?41Please respect copyright.PENANA5wxlT50Cr7
難不成那些人的死亡,都是我害的?只因我的守護靈是死神?41Please respect copyright.PENANAdJ5VZvKMbD
我不禁如此想著。41Please respect copyright.PENANAyXNQVrZAZV
畢業典禮進行著,我的心卻忐忑不安。41Please respect copyright.PENANAjXwLQrkEBU
偌大的場地,我隱隱看到好幾個人身上的黑霧已經快要到達致死量了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAm6UwmVMmlS
我突然感覺自己乘載著無數生命的重量。41Please respect copyright.PENANALbX4tRwnmZ
那感覺好沉重。41Please respect copyright.PENANAEgZXHSntdh
「死神阿死神,你是神,為何還要管理死亡呢?」我腦中浮現出好多問題。41Please respect copyright.PENANAa6eA4wnlHa
「我就是管理死亡的神。」祂說道。41Please respect copyright.PENANAVA1FGTx7N2
「如果當初是其他人快死了,你是不是會出現在他們身邊,成為別人的守護靈。」我問著,腦中浮現起當年的畫面,從遠處看著自己的身體被急救著。41Please respect copyright.PENANAv30FVbUg5H
「死亡」真的不是每個人都能體驗的。41Please respect copyright.PENANAYIwuF6fXJ6
「不會。」祂如此說著。41Please respect copyright.PENANAMVoBAxIncb
「為什麼。」我疑惑地問。41Please respect copyright.PENANAOn9lvQ7JBi
「因為那人是你。」祂回答。41Please respect copyright.PENANABbIorrWVxV
同樣的話語,跟那時同樣的回答。41Please respect copyright.PENANAlHFdM9ilCh
我不懂自己有何特別的。41Please respect copyright.PENANAZJF5ChQKd1
難道死過一次,才能擁有死神當守護靈嗎?41Please respect copyright.PENANAiKTjeK6CDf
「還有其他人有死神做守護靈嗎?」我又問,我發現自己有時挺煩的。41Please respect copyright.PENANAhE4ODbiz1k
「沒有。」祂的語氣也是冷冷的。41Please respect copyright.PENANAGJybXsrlcg
其實要接受這一切也不算太難,或許是因為早就猜到了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAvmn71cMB4e
死神守護靈,聽著也挺酷的,但就是不能說出去,太中二了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAaVm5BppvsN
「擁有你,我就是特別的,是嗎?」41Please respect copyright.PENANAFdKcUusZZN
「是。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAntcxtErVEE
我突然有點開心。41Please respect copyright.PENANAsfGwUPlaEs
這讓我想起第二次跟祂見面時的場景。41Please respect copyright.PENANAxA58eHdPnD
自從死亡過後,我就再也沒見過祂了,只能看見一點黑霧。41Please respect copyright.PENANAyzuc6ibi7G
第二次見到祂是死後的一年。41Please respect copyright.PENANAP4CWgzjMpr
我在房間內,開始靜心冥想。41Please respect copyright.PENANA1LmLqtvPLA
那時我才八歲,但我不知道為什麼,當下就是盤著腿深呼吸。41Please respect copyright.PENANAUllngb1no5
後來,我看見窗戶邊有一道黑影。41Please respect copyright.PENANAHsR03XvmU4
「你好。」這是我對祂說的第一句話,正式的第一句話。41Please respect copyright.PENANAp4fxAOlaMp
而祂只是點了點頭。41Please respect copyright.PENANAwfWtA4lMXk
後來我只要想見祂,就會開始冥想,看著那道黑影劈哩啪啦地說一堆話。41Please respect copyright.PENANAGx5r7h5FqR
祂都沒回,但沒關係,至少祂仍願意靜靜地聽我說著。41Please respect copyright.PENANAgjufEqLTDW
時間長了,我漸漸地在日常看見祂了,或者是祂願意讓我看見了吧41Please respect copyright.PENANAw9qx38pyIY
我笑了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAvEkyRuQ7kG
想起這些片段的我笑了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAdrGJi1okby
「你是不是有些傲嬌。」我開口問。41Please respect copyright.PENANA3fVfB423Ub
而祂依然不說話。41Please respect copyright.PENANAw5yllttIxe
這樣也好,有人靜靜聽我說話,這樣就好。41Please respect copyright.PENANAOSDB0RasFq
「以後再見。」典禮結束後,一群人哭著抱成一團。41Please respect copyright.PENANAN4g7YxxA3O
而我跟陸子雲也約好有空就一起聚。41Please respect copyright.PENANAwlGjto9ldN
但我知道的,子雲,未來天涯路遠,我們不一定再有機會見面的。41Please respect copyright.PENANAWdvJlD2oVs
我很想說你是我兄弟。41Please respect copyright.PENANA5qI7Sw88EM
但陪在我身邊的,一直是祂。41Please respect copyright.PENANA81NwSnuhfL
那晚,我睡得很好,只是做了一個夢。41Please respect copyright.PENANAyERnY2cm19
夢裡是一位戴著眼鏡的女生,被一輛車撞上的畫面。41Please respect copyright.PENANAFARoXur0fH
那個人,我不認識,那就算了吧。41Please respect copyright.PENANAqCXMukntxs
那就算了吧。41Please respect copyright.PENANA9iryv4poc4
算了,嗎?41Please respect copyright.PENANAhaNeZw0FnY