<忽然一陣敲門聲 – 我不知道門外將要進來的是誰> by 艾加。凱磊
(用博客來電子書)(原文寫於 2018冬)
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今天meeting整個被打趴在地156Please respect copyright.PENANAtro3piwoAI
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分屍挫骨156Please respect copyright.PENANA5mP2Coadgk
還丟到海裡被鯨魚吃的概念...156Please respect copyright.PENANAkVpSYBmLdK
沮喪到一邊吃水餃一邊想哭156Please respect copyright.PENANAgQolj5ux4W
但吃完收到日本來的回鍋肉真空包跟海鮮煎餅156Please respect copyright.PENANAjd0uRyevat
突然覺得有一點點回溫的暖意(很容易滿足跟感恩)156Please respect copyright.PENANAiWSuu3RAmI
回家啥事都不想做156Please respect copyright.PENANAQ8KcUbQlBC
只好寫心得156Please respect copyright.PENANAIOO5AAb3SI
自己辦的讀書會第一次讀書心得(自己挖的坑自己填)156Please respect copyright.PENANAsMHcgSdyp8
期限快到了 一直沒空寫156Please respect copyright.PENANAirsdh49rVI
拜meeting ko之賜 二十分鐘就寫完了156Please respect copyright.PENANAkKs5KTJqbW
就像<忽然一陣敲門聲>裡說的156Please respect copyright.PENANAwmTYAqWYHW
「會痛?那就別下床。還是痛?等著:如果不死,總會過去。」P137.156Please respect copyright.PENANAyk9RUkBMWD
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好的,痛完了,明天再戰!156Please respect copyright.PENANAJJzroaYNRW
<忽然一陣敲門聲 – 我不知道門外將要近來的是誰> by 艾加。凱磊156Please respect copyright.PENANAmAjFOWDy2C
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這真是我寫過最難寫的心得156Please respect copyright.PENANAo2OHDFsZ8T
但不是因為故事不好看156Please respect copyright.PENANAMEQdpj9rdv
相反的正是因為它的故事都很短暫156Please respect copyright.PENANASuhmsOglmX
卻又每一篇都讓人意猶未盡 充滿寓意156Please respect copyright.PENANAvVzSTnE7qM
讓人不停思考156Please respect copyright.PENANA7HpzVw9v3s
在故事結束之後156Please respect copyright.PENANAhZ8SmBcByk
那些人以及人生將如何繼續下去。156Please respect copyright.PENANA6yKRf0sdVm
以及某個人沒說的某句話156Please respect copyright.PENANAATspbTxz7m
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或是多做的某個動作是代表什麼意思156Please respect copyright.PENANAExhqQSyVdu
正是這種必須讀者自我思考的部分156Please respect copyright.PENANAJXM12hrfbS
沒有正確答案的問題充滿著整本書156Please respect copyright.PENANAwDsBsAPM11
所以才難寫出它的精彩在哪156Please respect copyright.PENANAf9UEOTf1H4
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整本書的故事都很短156Please respect copyright.PENANAguxQXCWqPs
短到第一個故事讀完156Please respect copyright.PENANADM4WJWxSj1
結束時我以為缺頁了…156Please respect copyright.PENANAfh16JMBfDE
又翻回去讀一遍156Please respect copyright.PENANAyb6oANyrnI
我相信讀凱磊的書有人會說充滿著藍窗簾156Please respect copyright.PENANAfAkmDXU8Ot
或是充滿著讀者的腦補156Please respect copyright.PENANA42mOKYebKd
但這味挺合我的156Please respect copyright.PENANAt0ipfItkqx
我就是喜歡自己想像那些故事未盡之處156Please respect copyright.PENANAQr4JMGwVHV
還有那種當時沒有講明白156Please respect copyright.PENANAeC7iqanHCg
一陣子或多年之後某一刻因為某件事或某個人156Please respect copyright.PENANAgaABgRX7nU
你突然領悟那時檯面下所沒有直訴的善意或惡意156Please respect copyright.PENANAUDf4TXUOW8
我喜歡那種了悟當下的心裡的雞皮疙瘩156Please respect copyright.PENANAwFo1PO7YMB
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第一個故事似乎寫出了作者自己踏上寫作之路的原因156Please respect copyright.PENANAlzomn94tHx
故事中一位作家被三個人上門恐嚇156Please respect copyright.PENANA9SeD7TQIdb
要他寫出一個故事來156Please respect copyright.PENANAX19XTyjqXx
故事總在 「突然一陣敲門聲」出現時156Please respect copyright.PENANAPt1P02d6vn
(故事中)真實的世界就會出現一個敲門的人156Please respect copyright.PENANAzDo1LH2DOE
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每個人都需要故事156Please respect copyright.PENANArBxhkj3p34
因為所有人都需要有個出口156Please respect copyright.PENANA4o8ujyGSFV
作者經歷兵役 更在服役時親眼看見摯友自殺的慘狀156Please respect copyright.PENANAEndtZeUZS3
他訴說當下回到房間156Please respect copyright.PENANArMICUxGxJe
他只能一直寫 胡亂地寫156Please respect copyright.PENANA9aYcFAbrKB
否則他將失去理智156Please respect copyright.PENANA2C8kDLWapt
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每一個故事都是我們心中對外界的反應156Please respect copyright.PENANARDz8mzwXVN
猶如書中說的「無中生有是憑空捏造,沒有價值,誰都能做;有中生有卻表示東西一直都在那裡,在你裡面,你只是發掘出它的新面貌而已。」P16.156Please respect copyright.PENANAG8CAZEvD0x
故事帶給我們逃離現實的機會156Please respect copyright.PENANA8GlOTCapSI
更是我們鏡射反省自己的“有中生有”的方式156Please respect copyright.PENANAU6OE0j8WbU
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猶如銀翼殺手中說「每一個人曾經有過的每一個想法都是真的…」p304156Please respect copyright.PENANAddnIMrVUpU
包括故事156Please respect copyright.PENANA9beuKAJDoa
包括我們所說的每一句話156Please respect copyright.PENANAQPfDBRT4v1
每一個謊言156Please respect copyright.PENANAtwqdOHRc1N
我想到書中第二個故事「謊言之地」156Please respect copyright.PENANAJpvUUr5Wvy
我特別有印象 也特別喜歡156Please respect copyright.PENANAP5neQ0uCXX
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它訴說一位男孩在人生第一次媽媽給錢要他去買東西時156Please respect copyright.PENANA0es0ejQLRq
他把錢拿去買了冰淇淋156Please respect copyright.PENANAGHa0eFGbAN
並把找零的錢藏在家後院的大石頭下156Please respect copyright.PENANAntjvF9AIei
回到家他跟母親說156Please respect copyright.PENANABI9SK9SGiJ
錢被一個紅髮的巨大的缺了門牙的男孩搶了156Please respect copyright.PENANAS3mLKARTK8
母親信了156Please respect copyright.PENANAZO4HQS6ckZ
也開啟了他一生謊言的開始156Please respect copyright.PENANA46b231ykOE
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為了逃兵請假說遠方來的阿姨得了癌症156Please respect copyright.PENANAPQKhG7nC0R
上班遲到他虛構出了一隻車禍被撞斷後腿的狗156Please respect copyright.PENANADB3BGdeX0B
日復一日156Please respect copyright.PENANAyh2Abxv9mT
直到有一天他夢見過世多年的母親156Please respect copyright.PENANAQbdeFOUsLi
在夢中要求他給她一顆在扭蛋糖果機裡的糖果156Please respect copyright.PENANACPFurX2Bpr
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他說他沒零錢156Please respect copyright.PENANAlB4dLEQkcw
母親說 說不定零錢還在後院的石頭下156Please respect copyright.PENANAAPKSB9IqNr
他醒來後 因為夢裡過於真實156Please respect copyright.PENANAm8DTqPDIQO
於是他半夜的開車到以前的家去(已經成了超商)156Please respect copyright.PENANATJhb71ykDP
到後院找到石頭156Please respect copyright.PENANALunerBtUTK
搬開卻沒有錢156Please respect copyright.PENANAUQjQfAukU9
只有一個洞156Please respect copyright.PENANAKv9mvmUICU
他伸手進去摸到了扭蛋的鈕156Please respect copyright.PENANAxaSyt6KJ4c
一轉 眨眼間就來到的另一個房間156Please respect copyright.PENANA69IfghIAqq
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而他還未反應過來156Please respect copyright.PENANAg1w3JSh84W
就有個人重重地踢了他一腳156Please respect copyright.PENANACxWv1Qhhj7
他一抬頭 是一個紅髮的高大的男孩156Please respect copyright.PENANA0uch1byfaI
他問「你是誰」156Please respect copyright.PENANA7JvtTC4MM7
男孩露出缺了門牙的笑容說156Please respect copyright.PENANAjDMKpe1OOD
「我是你第一個謊」156Please respect copyright.PENANA6IKdFDI9sa
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他走出醒來時的小房間156Please respect copyright.PENANAp0pkaZALUI
路上遇見許多人156Please respect copyright.PENANAi4UOFRWO0s
有的是他的謊言 有的不是156Please respect copyright.PENANAXEI0aiL1bn
但大部分的生物都過的不太好156Please respect copyright.PENANAQIcjaxuzHZ
包括那隻為了他上班遲到而只能拖著兩條後腿走著的狗156Please respect copyright.PENANAjRDzFhQ3ex
(牠看見他依然開心的舔著他)156Please respect copyright.PENANAwwh2v1Yfag
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後來回到真實世界後156Please respect copyright.PENANAMMezUxHaTl
男主就漸漸少講謊話156Please respect copyright.PENANAVzfeN04gPb
即便要說 也盡量是說好話156Please respect copyright.PENANAxNbHlEixOn
但「正面的謊話只有一個問題,就是比較難編,要編得可信並不容易。一般來說,如果你跟人家講的是件壞事,人家立刻就會相信,因為感覺上很平常;如果你講好事,人家反而會起疑。所以,漸漸地,羅比就不太說謊了,主要是懶得說。」P23.156Please respect copyright.PENANAhqGKZGzyh5
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故事還有後續156Please respect copyright.PENANAp5vA7LlhDP
但不重要了156Please respect copyright.PENANAY4YPvMP7ZH
作者塑造出一個即便是謊言中存在的人156Please respect copyright.PENANASm4GGrv1ts
也會有自己的世界跟生命156Please respect copyright.PENANAKhIqJdnn39
我們每一個念頭都是真實的 不論善惡156Please respect copyright.PENANAx1cvOwjJwW
(大概是佛家說的 一念三千)156Please respect copyright.PENANAzfQ2zPypmv
而在我們可見 不可見的人生折疊處156Please respect copyright.PENANAqDGorg8gql
總也有人為我們說的謊言而付出代價156Please respect copyright.PENANAuVRSJdEEnB
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「痔瘡」這個故事的文筆可以排上我其中最愛的故事前三156Please respect copyright.PENANAYWNDX1wzSm
實在把人生的齷齪跟無厘頭表現的太好了156Please respect copyright.PENANAfgYPbN90ye
故事中從一個人跟他的痔瘡的角度描寫人生的“掙扎”156Please respect copyright.PENANAL5W5KuVu4h
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「活著就是受罪,活著就是冒汗,活著就是一種你他媽忘不掉的痛。因此,別人做重大決定時候會傾聽自己的良心,他傾聽的對象是痔瘡。而那個痔瘡,跟其他痔瘡一樣,會給那人一些屎意見。」P104.156Please respect copyright.PENANAFlZH5VRURO
(讚嘆譯者,屎意見翻的太好了)156Please respect copyright.PENANAI4AaBnrxXR
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「活著就是要盼望,活著就是要發燙,活著就是要把事情搞砸然後等著翻身。痔瘡會聽那人的話。就像別人聽肚子咕咕叫就吃東西一樣,痔瘡對那人也相當順服。多虧那人,痔瘡努力去相信自己能活也能讓人活,能學會原諒,能忍住不去鄙視人家,就算口出惡言也不會提及人家的母親。」P104.156Please respect copyright.PENANA5DU6sIhTUk
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最後一個故事結束在「你是哪種動物?」156Please respect copyright.PENANAIObzAUEglN
再度收尾在故事可以讓殘酷的現實生活156Please respect copyright.PENANAdmn0ZpWx2E
得到一點紓解156Please respect copyright.PENANAxBXATNFBDH
一點即便是表象的美好對快要崩裂的人來說156Please respect copyright.PENANAbdDqtJPV29
也足夠暫時可以把齷齪的現實擋在外面156Please respect copyright.PENANAujZ1LXLond
撐過多一秒 多一瞬間156Please respect copyright.PENANAZQ0mCCUedE
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其他的故事也都很棒156Please respect copyright.PENANAirWOjGPlfV
「健康的開始」跟「你會向金魚許什麼願?」156Please respect copyright.PENANAMXmqbaVnaC
都表現出了人的寂寞156Please respect copyright.PENANAqO9O77dMb6
有時我們都很想成為別人156Please respect copyright.PENANAgY8IaV6tmz
成為那個生活中可以被一個人愛或恨或花時間一起吃頓飯的人156Please respect copyright.PENANAW2Jn2iNcb6
而不是自己這個孤單無助的生命
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「瘋狂膠」 這故事詭異到太討喜了 我喜歡156Please respect copyright.PENANA36uMvUrIb4
「拉開拉鍊」說的是我們都有另一個自己156Please respect copyright.PENANAglV7MAUpNY
「越界」這故事結尾耐人尋味156Please respect copyright.PENANAjItf4cCNaQ
到底是他死後變柔軟了 還是成了他殺的那些被他唾棄的人156Please respect copyright.PENANAqKu1fo3LI4
那才是一個殺手真正的地獄156Please respect copyright.PENANAbvFuURfz5j
也都是很吸引人的故事156Please respect copyright.PENANAn2qh1vGiZx
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當然也有幾個故事很“深”156Please respect copyright.PENANAoIm1LXYbfE
還需細細思考156Please respect copyright.PENANAGfztc3Wn5N
例如「神秘感」、「這個故事大獲全勝」跟「只要$99.99含稅含郵」156Please respect copyright.PENANAJe2H432xdE
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總之這是本故事短短的156Please respect copyright.PENANAogawcK0UUN
但思考跟餘韻卻長長的書156Please respect copyright.PENANAxcRkOqFKhL
作者對人生中閃現的那些人物156Please respect copyright.PENANAmKaZET43WQ
以及他們背後可能的故事的描寫很細膩跟精巧156Please respect copyright.PENANAXOxSZhL47f
可推156Please respect copyright.PENANAeYf83i4v1q
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註:作者的故事將要被拍成電影,紀錄片的短短預告156Please respect copyright.PENANA6UQrfdu6CX
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-mw3tRGit5I&feature=youtu.be156Please respect copyright.PENANAk5IYsKE2W0
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p11. 他在十八歲時服了三年兵役,親眼目睹摯友自殺,腦海中只留下好友額頭被子彈貫穿,整個人被釘在樹上的震撼畫面。他剛結束十二小時的執勤,接下來四十八小時都得在房內獨處,他說當時自己只能在紙上不斷地胡亂寫,投身於另一個世界,才能免強找回繼續活下去的動力156Please respect copyright.PENANATzm9warHsc
p11. 「逃離現實」是他開始寫作的契機,也是我們需要這些故事的根本原因156Please respect copyright.PENANA0plbXlRr5D
P11. 再搜亂語戰爭頻發的以色列居住,人們經常會感到不安與緊張。我們於外在築起高牆,為了維護高牆內的信念而戰鬥,但內在被壓抑或忽視的感情卻嚴重阻塞。我認為我的小說正是一道排水口,讓人們得已排遣這樣的情緒。156Please respect copyright.PENANAAGGOssZWFW
P16. 無中生有是憑空捏造,沒有價值,誰都能做;有中生有卻表示東西一直都在那裡,在你裡面,你只是發掘出它的新面貌而已。156Please respect copyright.PENANAxq9KbcOvdO
P23. 正面的謊話只有一個問題,就是比較難編,要編得可信並不容易。一般來說,如果你跟人家講的是件壞事,人家立刻就會相信,因為感覺上很平常;如果你講好事,人家反而會起疑。所以,漸漸地,羅比就不太說謊了,主要是懶得說。156Please respect copyright.PENANA10qLo72EyE
P72. 有些人從三樓掉到屋外,除了背後瘀青,沒有大礙;有些人下樓梯一個不小心,就進了醫院,上了石膏。大衛和她想必都屬於後者。156Please respect copyright.PENANA0gPZK8VKux
P72. 我鼓鼓滿滿的口袋裡放的就是這個:微乎其微的機會,能夠說「有」而不避遺憾的機會156Please respect copyright.PENANAPgJtJkX1Ym
P87. 他想,癌症是什麼,不就是來自天上的恐怖攻擊?神做這是不就是要恐嚇我們,對我們所做的…某些事表達抗議嗎?那些事太過崇高,156Please respect copyright.PENANAfnt9xdAlqd
超出了人類的知識範圍,我們無法理解。156Please respect copyright.PENANAXMetP6GT2Y
P87.多年來,生活似乎不過是個陷阱,是個迷宮,不,連迷宮都算不上,只是一塊圍在牆裡的空間,沒有門。他一直想,堅持要想出點什麼來,總有什麼事我希望會發生的吧,就算不可能辦到也沒有關係……他逼自己站起來,心想:「要是那天她們去上班,要是我開車送她,現在她就會活得好好的,和我一起坐在廚房裡了。」156Please respect copyright.PENANA6TiRsKYipv
P93. 若是他遇上會說畫的金魚,那麼別無所求,只求能把魚放進大玻璃缸,永遠擺在架子上,成天和牠說話。要講什麼都可以,可以聊運動,也可以聊政治,金魚愛聊什麼他們就聊什麼。聊什麼都行,那俄國人說,只要別讓我孤單一個人就好。156Please respect copyright.PENANAZwPxd9xEzm
P104. 活著就是受罪,活著就是冒汗,活著就是一種你他媽忘不掉的痛。因此,別人做重大決定時候會傾聽自己的良心,他傾聽的對象是痔瘡。而那個痔瘡,跟其他痔瘡一樣,會給那人一些屎意見。156Please respect copyright.PENANASDl42CniuP
P104. 活著就是要盼望,活著就是要發燙,活著就是要把事情搞砸然後等著翻身。痔瘡會聽那人的話。就像別人聽肚子咕咕叫就吃東西一樣,痔瘡對那人也相當順服。多虧那人,痔瘡努力去相信自己能活也能讓人活,能學會原諒,能忍住不去鄙視人家,就算口出惡言也不會提及人家的母親。156Please respect copyright.PENANANV8Ooa6y9u
P137. 會痛?那就別下床。還是痛?等著:如果不死,通總會過去156Please respect copyright.PENANAFi99q7tnC5
P143. 我兒子問那個德國人:「妳是哪種動物?」我幫他把問題翻成英語。「我不是動物。」她一邊笑,一邊用長長的指甲梳頭髮,「我是怪物,來自海的另一邊,專吃你這種漂亮小孩。」「她說她是會唱歌的鳥,」我把她的話翻譯給兒子聽,態度自然,無懈可擊,「她說她是隻紅色羽毛會唱歌的鳥,是從很遠很遠的地方飛來的。」
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