我和傾姐坐在沙發上，一同蓋在被子下。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMQKdln9y8e
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0IGG8ruY9e
拉上被子，右手拿出麥提莎，放進口裡。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡok5rWy0tYk
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE785XYSbw9
「咬下——」明白了。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡimcGQ2szYV
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1c2IbrbGTM
目前，我知道了她和蔣少的關係。基本上，蔣家和家裡給予她的壓力，使她過著一個沒有自由的人生。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdYZDgXssJU
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc0LTGHWq5D
難怪，她會向神許願，祈求能夠脫離現有的生活。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWNLk2XtxnX
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkjYQxtcc3X
脫離現有的生活？慢著，那不正是我做過的，最誇張的一件事嗎？748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡImcg2LrpBC
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5SC6wufleb
封閉自己的內心，流落孤島，徹底地脫離原本的生活。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlcA2Z5aqMi
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2cMWJnDv2Q
神是不是故意的？748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡThLHaHAZ4q
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyRZvAwjG8X
竟然……安排這種測試給我。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjHj8myLdft
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoy997j1s96
我望望時鐘，時間奇怪了。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGuWQYmQrsE
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpKUV0ZpZoW
牆上時鐘還沒到達兩點，顯示著一個奇怪的時間。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqw9g6iPxrV
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsPu3OFLZLd
「雖然你好想幫我，但其實我唔係一個值得幫嘅女仔嚟。」傾姐訴說。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcquA0ViMee
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOdZsvelRgG
「點解咁講？」我問，準備再取下一粒。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGBJUrkGRU2
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqQKJrnMNUt
「因為欺凌同學嘅人，唔止得蔣少，我都有份。」她自白。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5KfMiey7Zz
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUCevS6fO6E
「唔止有份，我仲縱容陳菲菲佢地去蝦其他人。」她繼續說，「就好似之前，要逼李可兒除底褲咁。」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJSkN8MsimG
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXjGFh2Xx5l
「我做過嘅壞事，一啲都唔少。」她說，「如果唔係，啲人都唔會咁驚我，我都唔會有傾姐今日嘅地位。」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL2im7VDBh3
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi6gmtkbUXY
「有一次，中六蔣少啲friend想約女仔出去玩，希望我介紹幾個畀佢地，我都介紹咗。」她黯然說，「雖然……我明知會發生咩事。」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm57lxsc6rH
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIyiKCCBneB
「唔好再講喇。」我說。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHUmvimLxRX
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGktwwtrOp1
「如果你係想幫我嘅，至少，我想你知道真正嘅陸傾兒係一個咩人。」她認真地說。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡleAxF4nSec
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkxW7lnUvhC
然後我沒有再阻止她。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFaLu9o1tdJ
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeNrzPfIiqQ
讓她一直說著自己的壞，說著自己欺負了多少人，威脅了多少人，傷害過多少人。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHjrezsAgVl
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOurixKJkVO
聽著，我聽到了熟悉的聲音。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtO7Q2gl6VU
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOIYOltbFXy
不是我也做過這些事，而是我也說過這些話，一些自責的話。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjlFL06VXAF
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxI4vRjoCPn
透過用言語來責罰自己，讓自己好過一點。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS5AZet3trC
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwE3ZD1T2Bb
除此之外，在寂靜的夜裡，受著海風的吹襲，以虐待自己的方式來受罰；透過惡言惡語，破壞別人對自己的印象，讓別人討厭自己，也是懲罰自己的方式。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ965PeeFs2o
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBEFvz0lXaQ
如今她正企圖破壞自己的形象，破壞她在我心中的印象。彷彿期望著我拒絕她，同時又期盼著我接受這樣的她。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYINI5kin5X
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWqPkzIOc3Y
聽著，聽著，聽見了哽咽。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKd3c0eWuwz
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4SR3NMSB3u
「Sorry。」她垂下頭，「你聽完，覺得點……仲想唔想幫我？」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7NQ0uPaY4l
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmHAwjxS3yB
「定係……」她自我形象低落，幾乎抽泣，「你已經想即刻趕我走？」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZH98wO51Op
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡox3pHhPh9z
「做咩唔講嘢？」她問，終於望向我，「喂……」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡihqu6U0BzL
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlLZw26vpwn
我也正在難過。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLE0fLcjxLA
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxUHRDUwpRU
「啜泣……」我哭了，抹抹眼睛，「Sorry.。」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡibXOJpBLNs
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjTo2Mx11uC
「你做咩喊？」傾姐問。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuaQVz9Pgui
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzwOsC6YZw9
「因為我好擔心你。」我照直說。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkONJ1BnguN
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh4cRtwFuFu
「點解？」她問。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXHttA0qkBE
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ51OI0UtJ7M
怕你走上跟我一樣的路。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ308KkkuHXK
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm6plh6xHro
「我驚你太過自責，之後會做傻事。」我說。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmIZcP7Rhyh
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnVTARrmd4A
同是做壞事的人，同是不原諒自己的人。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDaGi6wDEQQ
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHpHDh908uv
但是困在孤島的人、封閉內心的人，有我一個就夠了。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVCIVhy3Khv
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡINoceUkcLn
「我亦都好感動，你肯講畀我知。」我說，收住了淚。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4IheYSxVa
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMZ4XCvHkxO
只要說了出來，就不會鎖在心上了。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhqza7TdiYt
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwiH9oXZ19C
「其實我已經做緊傻事。」陸傾兒說，「我上網識男仔，或者可能……都期望緊會發生意外。」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVZDaxf9RpN
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFOpnJwnftV
「如果我畀人非禮、姦咗，出咗醜聞，蔣少一家人可能就唔會再鍾意我，我就可以解脫……」她說，「從此唔再需要理屋企人嘅指示。」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIciGfRmE4F
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJC1zktLNfb
這是……什麼爛方法？748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5CgY0bA6et
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQOaCjQhZ7
即使要折磨自己，也不是這樣的吧！748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmljDB0ZIGc
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoNJNx2fijz
在被子裡的手，握緊了拳。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRsE3Ghx2Mi
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWKN5c3Jk9T
「哩個都係一個方法嚟嘅。」我漠然地說，「只係，有一個條件。」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIkKRq4s6cN
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrDm63jjmgn
「咩條件？」她問。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn035daYLJy
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKn2b9JJs9i
「搞你嗰個人，要係我。」我說，「除我之外嘅人，你諗都唔好諗。」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNpUaeyn3rd
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFGuhSCbd3d
陸傾兒笑了，哈哈地笑了。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8hQSjN23Bt
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwJUZQ0nbXg
「點解？你同其他人有咩分別？點解要係你先得？」她笑著，笑容漸漸僵硬。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmIMWOeg1ke
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRXOuRGYFNW
「因為其他男人搞完你，就唔會理你，而我會繼續幫你。」我說，「雖然我未必可以長期係你身邊……」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5IkCFWj23v
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7byrCjM7Xu
但即使我身在遠方，我都一樣會擔心著你，為你的人生而牽掛。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK4axEJ2LdO
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLwuaK3e3im
「你可以點幫我？」她問，「撇除哩個方法唔計，你有咩方法幫到我？」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnCmvMQDC5m
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNwrfXoBZug
「我已經答咗你好多問題，你已經知道咗我好多嘢。」她繼續說。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ62SDZFgefe
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWjAYrxdgFt
「孫正直，你可以點幫我？點幫陸傾兒？」她問，很想知道。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ54GK3Z1qcu
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkVnP0hXrlI
鬆開了麥提莎，我輕放在地上。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ01JKMuhxbi
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKuiVAXpPZq
「我唔係神，冇可能幫你解決所有問題。」我說。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡabMSU3mVNF
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzB4KBIW1DE
「咁你可以點幫我？」她追問。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2BEcFfyhxw
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJAUZwzbxvH
她遇上的困境，不是耍一點小聰明就可以解決的。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0mj2lPt4ln
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFzTr86v9Ip
也不是叫她離家出走、自食其力、無視家人等，就可以過上美好的生活。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNCRNIvgIlF
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡak0p6S2qKk
「我都冇咩方法可以幫你。」我說，淚水情不自禁，「但係……」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzmRW15XhdS
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmGvObev9wq
「當你凍嘅時候，我會幫你戴一條頸巾。當你想講嘢嘅時候，我會靜靜地咁聽。當你想喊嘅時候，我可以借個膊頭畀你。」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOnfINJVvbm
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡicNntHRQEG
「今晚嘅我，只係可以……今晚嘅我只可以……做到咁。」我抽泣地說，「對唔住。」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRzouOpAPnW
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOGA8JySDx
說完，她聽完。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ZpVdXxalv
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJsRIYILsH9
「明白，我明白。」她說，「好多謝你今晚可以陪我，好多謝你，可以為我喊。」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqvYQUGFeYQ
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdYXvo9mbbU
「我成世女，都冇人為我喊過。」她誠懇地說，準備離開，「好多謝你，孫正直，我有少少感動。」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuPm2qNhsX4
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeHZPK9UGyS
等等，時間還沒到兩點，仍然是1點35分而已。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcad2PSNUzW
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjILC9r85xH
「你係第一個為陸傾兒喊嘅人。」她看著我說，「你值得我，畀一個獎勵你。」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdADkyrGfSm
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3IO22fqGeo
被子從她身上落下，露出了她的頸巾、衣服，和手上的電池。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQ2d4FSZLq
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLy2NnBmZiC
「個鐘粒電，我係你去廁所嗰時拆咗。」她還給我，「唔好意思，因為哩個係唯一阻止時間流逝嘅方法。」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ40ruF4f6p1
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1lU9UuYjb0
「但我依加要走喇。」她說，「實在太夜喇，聽朝仲要早起。」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPXRYYyAwd8
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz6rW4s9kxb
「陸傾兒……」我說。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcaJH4zsweQ
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH6lKUHUplP
「我畀你揀啦，一個獎勵，當最後一回合係我輸咗，而我揀大膽。」她睄一眼空酒瓶。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpJjCk6tdHI
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw8JnRLyyEn
「揀咩都得？」我問。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqFstV0S7Iv
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYKaefMqzBb
「你揀之前，我仲想講一樣嘢就係，你雪櫃根本有勁多啤酒，我搵到嘅開瓶器，就係係你雪櫃個蛋格到搵到。」她說，「但你唔想我飲，寧願呃我話冇酒。」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ69vEpe3l0R
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqvvIdYorzz
「哩個世界點解會有你哩啲咁嘅人？」她泛淚，卻微笑。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXQZIdKQgum
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRLJIYhLgjo
而我不懂回答。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Kdpkc94vd
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFSR8Oqm2Bm
我是知道有酒的，昨天就知道了。我也知道時鐘被拆了電池，只是不說破而已。我猜她也知道我知道，才會在默契之下，延長了時間。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ6plUG7CvG
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGTWoDqrc2C
「陸傾兒，我揀……」我準備說。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDWTdJWVaQ3
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqgo6CcSJBf
「你會唔會想揀錫我一啖？」她先說，站在我的面前。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHbYieuy6gp
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtl3t84ge9e
我展露微笑，問，「你覺得我敢唔敢？敢唔敢揀哩樣？同傾姐錫一啖。」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0CjdhdoKJy
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj21cjzFSL2
「視乎你驚唔驚死。」她說。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJczjq6A69X
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡosoHxtov6C
「我驚死，我當然驚死。」我說，慢慢翻開被子。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQxhFBS7pPn
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp2WrBCCSCR
「但唔係今晚。」我也選了大膽。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcj5rjtoRIf
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx6napRBIuT
過後——748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡttd4SHkEkL
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3T8L2Vcyth
沙發上只留下一條米黃淺啡間條頸巾。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOp25vTiz5f
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjrLiUeDGei
屁股坐下。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl8kRpolA8y
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVJy6JqPZ2o
還有開了一瓶啤酒的我。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBbceHztjqY
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