我和傾姐坐在沙發上，一同蓋在被子下。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpiG5uYPvxB
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPxJ9g5WM5N
拉上被子，右手拿出麥提莎，放進口裡。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHsjs41YV2G
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「咬下——」明白了。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2nRGZLYgFG
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目前，我知道了她和蔣少的關係。基本上，蔣家和家裡給予她的壓力，使她過著一個沒有自由的人生。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNdm1Nwgr2s
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5W7i49kNNT
難怪，她會向神許願，祈求能夠脫離現有的生活。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBRtAgoktXf
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFZXjFz6tzV
脫離現有的生活？慢著，那不正是我做過的，最誇張的一件事嗎？693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0jQBpzkkct
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGYY6tq7OwR
封閉自己的內心，流落孤島，徹底地脫離原本的生活。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA0y3vDA22v
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdhkGk2yUip
神是不是故意的？693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGsEomiqQoV
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTvUjUwx576
竟然……安排這種測試給我。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcI5Yy28LPU
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoOdCdOys2L
我望望時鐘，時間奇怪了。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡujLhg0lkUz
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwCsIm1ouN7
牆上時鐘還沒到達兩點，顯示著一個奇怪的時間。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiJEy74ubjQ
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbjrV91NlRR
「雖然你好想幫我，但其實我唔係一個值得幫嘅女仔嚟。」傾姐訴說。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZPFFkwaEow
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuFKmIB1bft
「點解咁講？」我問，準備再取下一粒。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSX7ES28QUz
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeowc0DnoPq
「因為欺凌同學嘅人，唔止得蔣少，我都有份。」她自白。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzCmaYyxncL
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFeFOnHTDfb
「唔止有份，我仲縱容陳菲菲佢地去蝦其他人。」她繼續說，「就好似之前，要逼李可兒除底褲咁。」693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzj1l15jLce
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEOw4gKKGf2
「我做過嘅壞事，一啲都唔少。」她說，「如果唔係，啲人都唔會咁驚我，我都唔會有傾姐今日嘅地位。」693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3JsYMjlqUE
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQre1kKH9ND
「有一次，中六蔣少啲friend想約女仔出去玩，希望我介紹幾個畀佢地，我都介紹咗。」她黯然說，「雖然……我明知會發生咩事。」693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE0jCGxyP4i
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJzyoCVt2tV
「唔好再講喇。」我說。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFzdMRZ8OnC
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS35zeeH6NJ
「如果你係想幫我嘅，至少，我想你知道真正嘅陸傾兒係一個咩人。」她認真地說。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMVuL6VtWcv
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXvfzVJBN3k
然後我沒有再阻止她。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNXNXnN38oX
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRPiNdG2pU6
讓她一直說著自己的壞，說著自己欺負了多少人，威脅了多少人，傷害過多少人。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxeHevy1H90
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLXHaCBzY8F
聽著，我聽到了熟悉的聲音。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3QhWBUJnGD
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Yvq3ELEQr
不是我也做過這些事，而是我也說過這些話，一些自責的話。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBk2keKwDK1
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1fbKjl01Q1
透過用言語來責罰自己，讓自己好過一點。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhkdxxsh0lk
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBay8ivNUAq
除此之外，在寂靜的夜裡，受著海風的吹襲，以虐待自己的方式來受罰；透過惡言惡語，破壞別人對自己的印象，讓別人討厭自己，也是懲罰自己的方式。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk4nhx79zac
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM2BMz1OmtT
如今她正企圖破壞自己的形象，破壞她在我心中的印象。彷彿期望著我拒絕她，同時又期盼著我接受這樣的她。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXwQMavqNpW
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmdMuVrPvRi
聽著，聽著，聽見了哽咽。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr0T0K6SBIP
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡokXnzwwzd9
「Sorry。」她垂下頭，「你聽完，覺得點……仲想唔想幫我？」693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFSEbiEwH4g
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJlC6S6mLBK
「定係……」她自我形象低落，幾乎抽泣，「你已經想即刻趕我走？」693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA96REUGrUx
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Bv2PTziOA
「做咩唔講嘢？」她問，終於望向我，「喂……」693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJElwcXbBHX
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl32jcMbJn6
我也正在難過。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ZSJCQm9Yq
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFmcz6xygbK
「啜泣……」我哭了，抹抹眼睛，「Sorry.。」693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcomLabpRB5
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxUcI9dWxTa
「你做咩喊？」傾姐問。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSVxdgyGVkT
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOLbgu2r4sE
「因為我好擔心你。」我照直說。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrE7nJibNmQ
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJO4Zy3L3gE
「點解？」她問。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMjzaeVPYjb
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf0XTRZDWqZ
怕你走上跟我一樣的路。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEOwMt1s9Bm
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBdApQp5FFn
「我驚你太過自責，之後會做傻事。」我說。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Wkihd4mJA
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAM6T57Ewl7
同是做壞事的人，同是不原諒自己的人。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjwjcxTGskd
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK24kRzwAZK
但是困在孤島的人、封閉內心的人，有我一個就夠了。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN7vN9jmOcf
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDReocSpR2a
「我亦都好感動，你肯講畀我知。」我說，收住了淚。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD6yxfT9Has
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsETDoZtYlO
只要說了出來，就不會鎖在心上了。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMlV02MvcNk
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoR5g40LAHk
「其實我已經做緊傻事。」陸傾兒說，「我上網識男仔，或者可能……都期望緊會發生意外。」693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXBB6BuhAvr
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJvl5ZQ6KAo
「如果我畀人非禮、姦咗，出咗醜聞，蔣少一家人可能就唔會再鍾意我，我就可以解脫……」她說，「從此唔再需要理屋企人嘅指示。」693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡudUaS5wHGm
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjpds59QGvF
這是……什麼爛方法？693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMGEopAYorQ
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn7D0wcERq1
即使要折磨自己，也不是這樣的吧！693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ48dcy2zwvE
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡylmVes2c8E
在被子裡的手，握緊了拳。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDJZNmn1nkd
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2MRd1VKX9e
「哩個都係一個方法嚟嘅。」我漠然地說，「只係，有一個條件。」693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwzXlco5YOT
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqYss9Q6WoY
「咩條件？」她問。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa5q8OQS2E3
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ5rx8NoCyZ
「搞你嗰個人，要係我。」我說，「除我之外嘅人，你諗都唔好諗。」693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPouVXZ6lR6
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvpDFOIjpyi
陸傾兒笑了，哈哈地笑了。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1txCXRWsJa
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfwf1GWiO9F
「點解？你同其他人有咩分別？點解要係你先得？」她笑著，笑容漸漸僵硬。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIswZagckdF
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOqG8vVpRK
「因為其他男人搞完你，就唔會理你，而我會繼續幫你。」我說，「雖然我未必可以長期係你身邊……」693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5lHJupIXgD
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡey2ihY2CvG
但即使我身在遠方，我都一樣會擔心著你，為你的人生而牽掛。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhpOx8K1Yxs
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxNUzpUx5xZ
「你可以點幫我？」她問，「撇除哩個方法唔計，你有咩方法幫到我？」693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIxNCdypxhc
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUTVGaf9DXi
「我已經答咗你好多問題，你已經知道咗我好多嘢。」她繼續說。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcmMCP4kP6b
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg9GgUOS3ao
「孫正直，你可以點幫我？點幫陸傾兒？」她問，很想知道。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPbvxw6EgZV
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW9piHsemGW
鬆開了麥提莎，我輕放在地上。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhpX2pVzIq4
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN6wZecEjWy
「我唔係神，冇可能幫你解決所有問題。」我說。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUzhrwX8irz
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvYZlEpOscT
「咁你可以點幫我？」她追問。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡst5HRvPoqN
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMKCnmSvVf7
她遇上的困境，不是耍一點小聰明就可以解決的。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlO9KzgTVJl
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNWQNeMJxTp
也不是叫她離家出走、自食其力、無視家人等，就可以過上美好的生活。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPskWrtuQCr
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAUT1Kb3auP
「我都冇咩方法可以幫你。」我說，淚水情不自禁，「但係……」693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLvfkO1TOeB
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4kd9agPVvq
「當你凍嘅時候，我會幫你戴一條頸巾。當你想講嘢嘅時候，我會靜靜地咁聽。當你想喊嘅時候，我可以借個膊頭畀你。」693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6E8pqJYxg
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgoUeIUQpcp
「今晚嘅我，只係可以……今晚嘅我只可以……做到咁。」我抽泣地說，「對唔住。」693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6GbuZ4BFPP
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8sKmpcRwmS
說完，她聽完。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuZhI1T38JE
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHqnoHnrHzb
「明白，我明白。」她說，「好多謝你今晚可以陪我，好多謝你，可以為我喊。」693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLNyAPQ2ns3
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRb7sNxa8Xf
「我成世女，都冇人為我喊過。」她誠懇地說，準備離開，「好多謝你，孫正直，我有少少感動。」693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbNLyyIG88o
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeyhgJUmhAW
等等，時間還沒到兩點，仍然是1點35分而已。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡINTGvGwi9a
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwX7e4T4VI3
「你係第一個為陸傾兒喊嘅人。」她看著我說，「你值得我，畀一個獎勵你。」693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjT7iKqgrqO
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ZZm7FXFVS
被子從她身上落下，露出了她的頸巾、衣服，和手上的電池。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj8XuEFgNgu
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPFthFI8Xat
「個鐘粒電，我係你去廁所嗰時拆咗。」她還給我，「唔好意思，因為哩個係唯一阻止時間流逝嘅方法。」693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEhoeG990oZ
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLC0V7PFbeV
「但我依加要走喇。」她說，「實在太夜喇，聽朝仲要早起。」693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoI0BwfA635
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJK8TEibGiw
「陸傾兒……」我說。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWpzqxD0Qbr
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmSiozfUmCA
「我畀你揀啦，一個獎勵，當最後一回合係我輸咗，而我揀大膽。」她睄一眼空酒瓶。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQN0FXpuVGO
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ZAfzPCL4C
「揀咩都得？」我問。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLanCjdpvZj
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSE7aCk2a3w
「你揀之前，我仲想講一樣嘢就係，你雪櫃根本有勁多啤酒，我搵到嘅開瓶器，就係係你雪櫃個蛋格到搵到。」她說，「但你唔想我飲，寧願呃我話冇酒。」693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfUg6LDImXd
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlIuoq8ZPrA
「哩個世界點解會有你哩啲咁嘅人？」她泛淚，卻微笑。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSO5o3rnldH
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnhHFuoqz0n
而我不懂回答。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXnDHxY55zl
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJHNlVnK1Yi
我是知道有酒的，昨天就知道了。我也知道時鐘被拆了電池，只是不說破而已。我猜她也知道我知道，才會在默契之下，延長了時間。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3PTLeYaYuj
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWp0lXvEVOJ
「陸傾兒，我揀……」我準備說。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrNoaeTxc0h
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqWih8n1C32
「你會唔會想揀錫我一啖？」她先說，站在我的面前。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD89cz23J2L
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbzoxtNidsZ
我展露微笑，問，「你覺得我敢唔敢？敢唔敢揀哩樣？同傾姐錫一啖。」693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU35Jtke1I8
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNNFwKu4mr5
「視乎你驚唔驚死。」她說。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmMRQmpBOQt
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfuIgamtybL
「我驚死，我當然驚死。」我說，慢慢翻開被子。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIUy7Ae6yub
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKGEgb6ARmj
「但唔係今晚。」我也選了大膽。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ69Yf0OAcX9
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU031UCeMZG
過後——693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWPUmltMfJO
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡidFOCQYgxM
沙發上只留下一條米黃淺啡間條頸巾。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW26g547HPo
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVQiGQKKC9r
屁股坐下。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9o7gYfsDJH
693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg6o5lHo3hD
還有開了一瓶啤酒的我。693Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqYV6FrfT1W
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