暑假篇：釋懷579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNTs5qBKWV6
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「你真喺Alvin啊？」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB4Z2gVeehp
那名女生仍然一臉難以置信地問著我。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡypHhQLQvDk
其實此刻，在我心一樣徘徊著同樣的問題「你真喺Ivy啊」。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzrZ4GplGHH
但是對於記性好的我來說，當然知道她就是Ivy了。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCVOCdUVtv5
雖然她把過往的長髮修剪為及肩短髮，並開始佩帶起眼鏡。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTgwwm6usq4
然而她那張熟悉的臉孔，仍然存在於腦海之中。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMnrXPiU6r9
最糟糕的就是……我在一瞬間也回憶起，她哭泣著的容貌。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMVtWrjPR7S
亦都是多年前，我最後一次看見她的時候……579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡULaTWm1r2s
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「我哋好耐無見啦！有無……有無三年啦？」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0T7QdLx4eo
Ivy在一陣驚訝過後，便隨即臉帶笑容說道。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNFHM6AgBUu
再見時是哭著，現在重遇卻是笑著，是多麼矛盾的事情……579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0LZjEdglw4
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「正確嚟講應該喺四年啦。」我回應她。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOMq1H4IAUG
而她在聽到我的更正後，也立即數著手指：「一、二、三、四……喺喎！原來已經四年囉，嘻嘻！」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwCiF0fF3Nx
看著她傻笑起來的樣子，我的心中卻逐漸產生起一種感覺。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmq1IH6Bios
一種難以形容的內疚感。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ5VsY4DKLN
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而在她的一陣傻笑過後，她似乎也察覺到了我並沒有多說話。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlIpph9ZHJB
於是她便接著再說：「Alvin，你成個人成熟咗。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMKJOEfOTg7
「喺……喺咩。」我稍為避開了她的目光說道。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYnqUfAyIQP
隨即視線也落在她的長袖衣上。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbr1PGT2imd
明明現在是夏天，外面三十多度，但她還是穿著長袖。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGtKyZTFCph
是用來遮掩著手臂嗎？579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRWZIbgI5ed
是用來遮掩著手臂上的傷痕嗎？579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4VgDGcxuvS
是用來遮掩著手臂上因為我而弄出來的傷痕嗎？579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW47Uvi4j7M
單是回想起昨晚Mandy所說的畫面，我便不禁倒抽了一口氣。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYWVLxV52eP
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「Alvin，你介意緊以前嘅事啊？」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFPXsYahXY9
Ivy很快也發現了我的目光落在她的衣袖上，於是隨即便把衣袖卷起。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡly3IWFeiMA
展露了手臂上的數條疤痕。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWoGh3Gti62
這一瞬間，我的心涼了。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIGVDSw1HoT
原來這就是我當時的決定，而導致的後果了嗎……579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC4ToJUpgDN
我沉默了數秒，接著也開口說：「對唔住。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8T315DeLCI
道歉，因為當時我傷害了她的心。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgwlI5XHox0
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「哎呀！做咩道歉啦你？」Ivy立即愕然地說道。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgxivJPsOQj
我沒有回應她，只是繼續沉默著。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbVWXKj6BMK
使得她隨即也皺眉頭起來，並思考了數秒後說：「睇嚟Alvin你真喺好介意以前嘅事……真喺好對唔住！」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1N8ZzZdtyC
然而在她話後，她卻立即向我九十度鞠躬道歉起來。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGdJ6b4xaXW
這次輪到我感到錯愕起來並立即說：「做……做咩突然道歉啦？！」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbxcNOsdg89
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「因為當年我一時嘅衝動，搞到Alvin你原來一直都介懷於心！真喺好對唔住！」Ivy繼續面朝地板說著。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzJxgoJFRDb
使得我都開始有點不知所措起來，只能不斷揮動手臂，示意她快抬起頭來。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwAbbw35Oud
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於是Ivy也快速地把頭抬來，然後雙眼注視著我說：「如果喺一年前嘅我，我諗依家一定喊哂口。不過依家嘅我已經對一切都釋懷，所以希望Alvin都唔好因為當年嘅事而怪責自己！」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgdaYAAUnle
「我自責緊……？」我疑惑地重複她最後一句話。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLK4gAS7vKd
而她只是隨即指向我並說：「我識少少心理學架！所以咪睇得出你自責緊！」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2VRCJ2Cnzr
是嗎，原來我一直都在自責著……579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcLmjibnpKh
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「其實講真啊，我都估唔到我哋會咁樣相遇翻，突然之間覺得所有嘢都好似喺琴日發生咁。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZrcSlLiEPL
「如果當時我唔拒……」當我打算開口說道的時候，Ivy卻再說：「唔可以。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo3eeaKpfY0
「吓？咩唔可以？」我瞬間愣住。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ80zTPsZhA9
而她只是搖一搖頭，並說：「唔可以因為要迎合其他人，而強迫自己失去咗自我。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOloPp3fjbi
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她的這句話如同子彈一樣，一下子打穿了我的大腦。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRSCiqhl4E7
她說得沒有錯，我一直以來都是在扮演著一個只會迎合其他人的角色。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0aujpmDWig
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「以前我一直都會諗，如果Alvin你無拒絕我，究竟之後會點。」她說道。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8YydFlWorU
而我思考了一會後，便說：「我哋會一齊咗，跟住就唔會發生之後嘅事？」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq2RA1a4EDI
「喺，我哋喺會一齊，但喺一切都只喺因為你唔想hurt我，而強迫自己同我一齊，咁樣嘅話，我哋根本就唔會過得開心！」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjKsfvLszBG
她說著的時候，語氣明顯變得有點激動起來。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡstfgkqnpPz
但她仍然繼續說道：「咁所以，唔好再因為我嘅事而怪責自己啦！我依家過得好好，識咗一班好室友，佢哋仲教識咗我好多唔會嘅正向觀念。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaCc6yXJbbK
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而在她的一番言論後，我便合上嘴巴，並閉上雙眼，大腦開始思考起來。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡALfjLdPZg4
因為當初Ivy的事件，我變得開始只會迎合他人。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTRm7alfGhR
後來與Mandy交往後，我開始執著於承諾。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH3mOP5i3iz
結識依玲及Venus後，我仍然只是一直在配合著她們對我的心意而行。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ6PBluvtdR
一時是好朋友、一時是前度、一時是曖昧對象。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVvuYmk3r1X
到底我的真正想法是甚麼？579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeru43P27XK
而為什麼，我又會落得如此的地步呢……579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDYD78SXWBI
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想著想著，我便不自覺地冷笑了一下。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjFfZKYUMpv
而Ivy也隨即說：「所以希望你唔好再自責啦。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj4gIkIYxYC
我慢慢地張開眼睛，然後看著她說：「多謝你，我諗我諗通咗啲嘢啦。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvtguykGFAa
其實一直迷失著的人，原來就是我自己。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHBWfb9EYRJ
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「見翻你，可能喺種緣份，喺上天安排我哋再相遇翻，然後解開心結。」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡElMExjdiKU
「心結？你唔喺話你釋懷咗啦咩？」我好奇問道。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV183kIL3gQ
但Ivy接著卻突然面紅耳赤起來，並說話變得有點口吃起來：「對你喺釋懷……但對另一個人唔喺……」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa5RPHfQ3uE
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「喂！學生妹原來你喺到啊！」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpMgr0eY2wF
此時，從我的後方傳來了一把男聲。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNwy7bIbKGi
於是我便立刻扭頭過去查看，發現原來是剛剛那位受我邀請完成任務的Youtuber以及他的另外兩位朋友。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhbJn26OGnk
而從他剛才的對話推斷，他們應該是認識Ivy的……579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYyvLYradhi
莫非Ivy所說的室友就是他們嗎？！579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH2XtvMNREh
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接下來，其中一名男生更走到我們的身旁時，並稍為打量了一下我。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6KUwXilx20
然後就一臉恍然地向Ivy說：「哦！原來就喺佢！」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBVmeRdppbf
「嗯？」我立刻擺出了一個疑惑樣子。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNVsGYeP6VX
甚麼原來就是我？579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7QyqdW1e7O
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然而，那名男生並沒有理會我的反應，只是繼續與Ivy說：579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSGsXcT8BS9
「你要講嘅嘢喺咪講哂啦？」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKigFuvlriz
「講哂啦！」Ivy立即回應對方，並表情瞬間變得更害羞起來。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0V4XoDd617
而我對於他們的對話，仍然感到萬分不解。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8hAVOlfkB5
但是那名Youtuber也隨即向我說：「我哋幫你哋做完任務啦！記得subscribe同like多啲我啊！」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVNJCjzYcvB
接著，那三名男生便與Ivy一同向我作了一個簡易的道別。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡordYwdb5NY
然後就轉身從圖書館的另一個出口離開了。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwWx39WRYkV
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與此同時，也只留下了完全摸不清頭緒的我並自言自起來：579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGh3DL2Smwo
「到底講緊咩啦……」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5PL5QIcdpJ
不過既然今天能重遇Ivy，並得知她至今還過得挺好的。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRkemKc2CIj
我想……應該是時候要放過一下自己了。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXA3Ohzj0kv
當年的內疚，應該都會逐漸消散了。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrxjxOBSg8c
這算是解決了我人生其中一個遺憾了吧？579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM1rFkoqbF3
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但是，在解開了過往的困惑同時。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqdBQo92kdh
也提醒了我，在未來，我將再次需要作出選擇。579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmRdnjvbZTi
而且還是三個那麼多……579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ZOUYFGuO8
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「只有釋懷，才能夠走更遠的路」579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0JoJDieh4a
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作者閒聊：連動篇總算告一段落了。在不久將來，Ivy還是會再次出現喔，不過那已經是第二個故事了~579Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFjII37OtuG
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