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某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnQjdfr3wkc
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIjx1ARKvCc
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原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsiJDbjziNA
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxoT2RpdLVU
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTDtZvyUXEd
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMrE6itP7jl
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被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBE5oqz4GUH
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3RP7pStTlh
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡggUykKwbLe
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcXvunKy1Ri
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「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmaXVouieHu
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3D4Zlj2PLr
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWOHwdpt4mh
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRgIB9n9Izy
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEwDbUSxRa6
 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXr72j3ciOG
「你鍾意Alvin啊？」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNEutmOI1qn
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsWbQWEsTuy
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDfsPwLgZ2R
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeNiKxpbODe
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYK2pfgND21
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3J8ftCBFCd
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「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQQHby99Ira
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT4vPsFXXkK
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAdkOWBqe5d
 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrj7rSfGixA
接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh3cjfcF1gW
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcDUQTF5Sak
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhrcZ3wPUuy
 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp0NmkaOPih
「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZfS3UEivbR
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBYWShxZihI
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEM8HrNxs6k
 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3bwQ3AK3cC
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZlaVWxzg4z
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY94hz2O0l6
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEcOeTK7odR
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzFuB9cbdU6
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoQKprdJiDQ
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Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJQsPDKPQPC
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY0BJdFRaJX
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHDvCfeO6Ff
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSTPXfyvdrl
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwyeOlsHCH9
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgPMvl5c2VU
 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbgmLx8kC76
「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn2sV4Qa0UU
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyiWDwoQLNy
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKDR9mAKfya
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcM2vVfZITl
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數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNzcjxMGQa4
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbVfsigJyPC
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡflKp2mzA4J
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiM9rkVIjHJ
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6RM9kPK1dy
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYhNm9OgK6F
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接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1fijEBz751
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60ZzNORyfX
隨即二人也站在了原地。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDDTFFBtH9l
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCB2qGV7Bti
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiuTrCyri72
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpcHMEQdCsH
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXPtSEF6UP9
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRKT8jd3Jz5
 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3j2C9PJSE0
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhukyE5x0Es
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6uZfT62MtD
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這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAwbsRjuImd
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzXquj4LhE8
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxCwUhXkfT8
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGsrZiFt6O
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpTXRaXWnbZ
 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMcTtDrZ965
在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQUE5wSMHMg
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrs8C9GizVY
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiXJTayBXA7
可是，她接著聽到答案是……545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlNNlX5A1Mh
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0p0k47yuiW
 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0RaqyKzJDp
聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsq9FpBi1EP
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiU7S4BtXz4
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6s1I2eebS0
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7OVERiGO3z
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5D4FsN4J8q
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVBhjS1nBRK
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLbT2CsH4PX
 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL05piTls4T
然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu1mXzcUfH5
 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc8WcPmlPpP
正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBm0pa8Uf4A
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIwsF6HecYC
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjbzTXKI3rI
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGAOS9okPpZ
 545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm37w3mziaH
而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDzbW6dH6pA
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ90HUGKEr1e
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRub41QVfva
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVHR4xKAt7g
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「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPuK1OniTal
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4GfxzZVSmN
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡREG5EF1sge
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCYotMMXmGB
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接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT8aSv0wYYi
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHZT7XWJM8H
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoHG0eoKoAA
「嚓—」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLlSlQv8ROe
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「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOb1L6rUrGT
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作者在此鄭重聲明：545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9WPk2whVI3
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvigaap9Fq
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWgLBfOzLdi
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgHY9s79dQ1
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNbHJzTC8gC
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZt6BNSWS4E
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCMIgSZmB3F
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作者閒聊：545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHivBtZwNzP
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv3pqdsWnUk
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……545Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO3lnPt8xve
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