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某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSO2pyBXj1X
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAlqmqID6aa
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原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLeGarIOH5S
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡch5sVJCXFq
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmK9MiVAUk9
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF7NHn7pHNP
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被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBfqf0pYQxT
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡokylKIjcFM
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAQBrMaNLQv
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrjBM3yrsvo
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「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCrkQsMpWvY
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaxt1Zxb9zE
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Ujyy2CKYu
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYXTS2FrGTv
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsTLEgxZpwH
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「你鍾意Alvin啊？」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDEYLNu5TYv
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrjM4pHQlYm
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9HmhNFfjmG
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXmGPEdgXlY
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv9mNuydmZ6
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTUMpEamb5O
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「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfPFdX9Vx1M
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgs5iwUvweT
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo85JmLOBOS
 524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBqQ5pOp5uj
接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF46WSsQG8j
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjFUqjlWG1G
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWmi48KH5kY
 524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXrO0cqOuBp
「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqisyRUFfgq
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXbC4ozydsM
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpgtsCPo6GZ
 524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMM8Cp5kK6B
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡErSojvPpo0
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0leVtZtpGu
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrp2R4PNJfI
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjvZkIdZPya
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQZBtlils4X
 524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAoUjuHzo8v
Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp0QvgpxIVk
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Qgae14BuB
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvjfEYy1JJR
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0vnMlahH6i
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3zAuQRkdp6
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIFOsG7KdmZ
 524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpV555tWYXY
「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiidWFeHuKB
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHxmlq9dw8c
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtHWj3ZDrYH
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpl1rwyaI5b
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數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjA86miEK8i
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHWLdumais6
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE8HWj4dVDP
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS45kjGXdQ8
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFEo6l3CZWZ
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ42B2JAeyxn
 524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwcQerdNymk
接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFbtE4QWzT0
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkfUyn6mvms
隨即二人也站在了原地。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6CUNUMrA2w
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS8zpAgZ1P2
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxoNI7JBBeQ
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4JS1gZvU8X
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv42yp4wtIi
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP0hKMJ0CEk
 524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsqxdhRYFbB
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8I0TZYEkyh
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4sY4sjRQKi
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這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbVMiKp425J
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Lvbh0IKPI
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEwhaoSI4Gx
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡThYMBvt8Zz
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQnvQHDs1Sv
 524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ23RXHOODJH
在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgZyePkb2yY
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqBGbwMSsIZ
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ5SKOI4POl
可是，她接著聽到答案是……524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuagQWWJ4l3
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7f2V2dXPax
 524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe8f2qvOtHE
聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbMbICnsivZ
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBqu7kVBRKQ
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0vqMGpwjHa
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvkLwbLF0IK
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡllijCoFBQi
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBoJK35kbrc
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5PB9jEQP1e
 524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXjFAYwaR2D
然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg3B0fVUpXW
 524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCPOVRUkzGS
正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53GbizzRrx
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOuunpU1XSa
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAer11CA8yx
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJcMy41C4Nn
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而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6wHola87pa
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAj8IkNzdP6
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmYZN0A172
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyU3Tk3QymS
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「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ1VDfc31FO
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZa5KkADVpS
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt51qVt2WHi
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBZ3BrhZnON
 524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbYJ1uF4PK1
接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhpQHBrA4kH
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYVCBx3kwz8
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2eAC9PeaPY
「嚓—」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO98KHyXFyD
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「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDCRHYW1T8g
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作者在此鄭重聲明：524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoabXrZaxyL
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkfKcK4xdXc
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX2O1IdDNhN
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWB8yjoCdGs
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAVMDV99yg4
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ13PYALgR5B
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRdzBmdYZhI
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作者閒聊：524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXexFTgquqB
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI7vNfAXqFs
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……524Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm7HkWFHrYN
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