#1 Entry: Why I Started This.756Please respect copyright.PENANA81loQgUCVg
This is actually personal. And I don't expect anyone to read this. It's a surprise that you are so. And no, this entry is not about the bad-ness of smoking, drinking or doing weed. Not yet, anyway. It's about what happened, fifteen minutes ago.756Please respect copyright.PENANAKAeMJX63IL
A while ago, I got so effing frustrated at a guy I almost dated. We didn't date- why? Because he wasn't ready to make it official, even after six months of him knowing that I really liked him. 756Please respect copyright.PENANAmOIWtxohZi
His excuse: He found me adorable. And in his bucket list, it was to stay single till college graduation.756Please respect copyright.PENANAh1mR7x0Q7l
Thinking about it, that sounds like an excuse right about now. Why was I so stupid? 756Please respect copyright.PENANAhHFPEI25rC
Moving on to present day, two months after I called it off (though, there was nothing to call off), the following happens. 756Please respect copyright.PENANAEJi4rSkooZ
It's a bit immature, but tell that to him. 756Please respect copyright.PENANARRaYXnVROz
I commented on his frequent change of instagram username. and well, he tells me to F.O. for it. 756Please respect copyright.PENANAIcqtOzY1YS
So yeah, apparently we're still in highschool. 756Please respect copyright.PENANA3pfHBrsQKW
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And I wanted to RANT about it, you know?756Please respect copyright.PENANAIM3uRCznW5
Throw my hurt feelings out to the world, so my heart feels empty.756Please respect copyright.PENANAUYnl4p3tvV
But I couldn't use Facebook (he's a facebook friend). Instagram. (same reason). Nor Twitter (I don't tweet my feelings, duh.)756Please respect copyright.PENANA8KOoUSbT91
So I came here. and TADA! A blog. 756Please respect copyright.PENANASQGZtnmxpH
I'm so glad. But I can't type as fast as my thoughts. And I feel pretty damn bad about it. It's stupid. I know. 756Please respect copyright.PENANAZX08IbddZv
But he shouldn't be the one to get all riled up about it. Right?756Please respect copyright.PENANAX1uhwLv5JR
I mean. He didn't want to commit. When I was so ready. 756Please respect copyright.PENANAn7wsZ33BvM
So calling it off, was it that bad?756Please respect copyright.PENANA4aKmZHQ8fI
Though the way I called it off was pretty damn stupid, bad and outright mean. So maybe yes, I deserve this. 756Please respect copyright.PENANAMe71b1NcjA
BUT. A huge BUTT- I mean, butt. But. (sorry)756Please respect copyright.PENANA0fZZyHxW3c
But. It's been two months. It wasn't like he was in love with me or I broke his heart. 756Please respect copyright.PENANAHxsn4GWAvv
If he wanted to be with me, he could have just EFFING taken the step. 756Please respect copyright.PENANANYjotajieC
But no. So now. His friends, who were also my friends, don't talk to me. 756Please respect copyright.PENANAUI3Xoa9Xc6
He once mentioned that the entire class hates me. Which is not a shocker, really. I had that coming. 756Please respect copyright.PENANAIMxOwwqFm4
So. All these frustrations have now led me to bottle up and almost burst like Mount Vesuvius. 756Please respect copyright.PENANA8dBLH3LfWg
Henceforth, we have this. 756Please respect copyright.PENANA9tgfnj6aoD
Thanks for bearing with me. 756Please respect copyright.PENANAWDO4lvtf51
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