「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGG0AHOqTwS
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaJh7TuG03Z
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG9v4srpKWu
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幼小我的父母就離異，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBjXnQWKJSE
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXb8AFyMysb
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對母親的記憶還是有，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeVqSPfwJwa
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記得她很常酗酒，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡinRiQwpsS9
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後來的日子，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyEjK8qaWQv
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZd6aRwrUYE
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忙於工作的他，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoVItY9L1C4
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyvtUiVVmwv
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到了上課時間再直接上課，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUMo74VIxBu
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkryd9E8yxt
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHkRKHYwZBM
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ204uAl7pLV
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYcoSFrS92L
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJpchgKtDML
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父親工作的地方不一定，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5DeqHrRCq9
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輾轉的換了三所小學，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxBv9bLUsoz
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡySQpuCObRp
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他開始會喜怒無常，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC53YVOmQW1
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWWJ776j4ff
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWHMexsibl5
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很小我就與異性交往，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPm5cuHoAVo
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWiFY4qajJa
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaq3Lijs5Jz
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlYj7edsXHf
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我會睡在工地，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAAB0B3eyKu
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsghCQK5FC8
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFbwIuvjwMD
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFf0t9q4yBz
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他開始會講貶低的話語，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFanN6J77LJ
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那些原本用來工作的用具，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZ29xgWCeW
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZlsOj8iVoH
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbwPiKHNG7y
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt9ZYDfsPgN
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5LDvfBExUj
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要我轉告給老師，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj3bmI4mxR0
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjJ1iotb15Y
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOVGsBV3MNP
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡidOTFQvFRY
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDNCGVwbMkY
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細細去回想每個片段，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdYUfyRQcb7
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyCRrpbcr7G
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU8nnsinuC8
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMHogaRAyJ
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡztsPb7TS3m
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeJbydviomB
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyQ91fNr7fg
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡro59e2IOVT
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsXp54alYiN
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8T0TnZ6rtt
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhcu7QICYnw
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCbPNa7VGpF
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正準備吃下第一口時，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdcMh4l5dT0
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRDoFTFuKz3
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。757Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs2tUZxVTTr
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