No Plagiarism!8T9HIVap5XdFkdTAi3inposted on PENANA 最近,阿謙的心情很好。8964 copyright protection460PENANAzLFUzNprFg 維尼
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他點開交友軟件,跟網友一個一個地回信,說很久沒有上線、抱歉了。其中,在Tinder上認識的女生Ceci,更因長期聊天而成為了他的筆友,她嚷着說手寫的文字才有溫度。不久前,他才將寫給她的信寄送。8964 copyright protection460PENANADkjiTtIa8Y 維尼
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起初,他只覺得她很奇怪,因其頭像是鄭則士發呆的樣子,可能也因如此,與她在交友軟件上成功配對的人很少;但她的簡介上寫「不見面、不戀愛」,吸引了他與她聊天。8964 copyright protection460PENANAa7AQa5iLmS 維尼
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阿謙說:「我可以喺現實中同女仔傾到好耐嘅偈啦。」8964 copyright protection460PENANAwmyZT8Sx4P 維尼
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Ceci問:「邊個咁叻女?」8964 copyright protection460PENANAlnhNqme0xk 維尼
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「唔係新識嘅,係以前就認識嘅中小學同學,而家住對面。發現同佢見面好開心。」8964 copyright protection460PENANA1xym3ImzUV 維尼
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信裏,他已寫過與翩翩重遇,但是,因怕到頭來以友誼萬歲四字收場,於是便沒有形容更多。當時,他實在不敢說自己有心儀對象,免得失敗,惹人發笑;尤其他知道,在Ceci心中,他甚至有點社交障礙——8964 copyright protection460PENANAUiFPjUNEzx 維尼
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「咁所以除咗佢,你都係冇辦法同人傾偈?」8964 copyright protection460PENANAJKostHAoPU 維尼
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「唔係……唔好講到我冇社交能力咁啦,我只係唔鍾意同人傾咁多、傾咁耐啫。三唔識七,冇理由要講咁多嘢啩?」8964 copyright protection460PENANA1SVlFCCakX 維尼
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他不是無法與人聊天,只是,意欲很低。他總是覺得別人的話題很無聊、或不適合他說,對於他們的主動靠近,但覺無趣。8964 copyright protection460PENANArLlNZf0byd 維尼
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孤獨的時候孤獨怕了,不孤獨的時候,便不怕孤獨。8964 copyright protection460PENANAP8CfZebgnr 維尼
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他回想起難受的日子是誰人陪他呢?很久以前是翩翩,未升讀大學時是偏偏是你。他無法覺得別人更好,因這些無聲而不刻意的陪伴,就算旁人眼中不過爾爾,但對他來說,異常珍貴。8964 copyright protection460PENANAURpnxWfBAR 維尼
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Ceci續問:「咁你個女仔點啊?」8964 copyright protection460PENANAdNkLOgiIRd 維尼
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「約咗佢去踩單車,聽日先見。」8964 copyright protection460PENANAC7NkPmDnhn 維尼
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「真好,係愛情!佢鍾意你嗎?」8964 copyright protection460PENANAZadltUd6Zr 維尼
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鐵樹開花。8964 copyright protection460PENANAUT9yXkaJ8O 維尼
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雖然她知道,阿謙曾經在網上交友、認識女生,甚至聊天頗為投契,但他總說「唔啱feel」,少了一些緊張、心動;據他的形容,如果他渴望戀愛,其實根本不至於流連網絡,現實中不乏女子對他有好感——8964 copyright protection460PENANADefkyNSNXZ 維尼
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因他一米八二的身高和柔和的長相。8964 copyright protection460PENANAoWL051FQdN 維尼
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多虧這副皮囊,他從來不愁選擇,所以難以被吸引。有時,他有點自大,內心暗暗地在夜晚放煙花,卻不會彈出任何火光讓他人注意。他相信自己已然脫胎換骨,擁有足夠的魅力,耀眼奪目。8964 copyright protection460PENANAyJMH4GqewW 維尼
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但他依然非常喜歡玩交友軟件,因為二人都只專注在對話內容,他覺得很純粹。8964 copyright protection460PENANAiFuvJjUkgO 維尼
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「我唔知啊,佢前排先話有鍾意嘅人,但最近又唔鍾意啦。」阿謙猶豫地說,他只能如此相信。8964 copyright protection460PENANA1AqdHY5dve 維尼
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「因為你?」8964 copyright protection460PENANAXksgOuVGKo 維尼
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「唔係啩,個男仔衰,佢死心啩……」8964 copyright protection460PENANA2fkwLkY3yV 維尼
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「個女仔係點嘅人?我同你做咗Pen friend成年,都冇見過你真人,只知道你唔鍾意同人面對面講嘢,但好沉迷玩APP。」Ceci不知道,上次她收到的信,正是由翩翩寄出。8964 copyright protection460PENANAF9GkXfpe50 維尼
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「好特別,好鮮活,好生動嘅一個女仔。」8964 copyright protection460PENANAJzEnrOgDGw 維尼
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「生動?你啲中文我睇唔明。」8964 copyright protection460PENANAug65CPdeF2 維尼
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「Umm,啫係,其實你會見到佢唔係嗰啲咩完美女神,感覺到佢有啲缺點,但優點都好明顯,個人醒目,好講得笑,心地幾好;以前返學有人蝦我,係佢幫我趕走啲人。好似內心戲好多,塊面好多表情,成日有啲得意嘅諗法咁。」8964 copyright protection460PENANA10ZQw8HhGz 維尼
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有時,阿謙自慚形穢。8964 copyright protection460PENANAmW7DMX6wAd 維尼
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自大過後,他內心深處的自卑又會閃出,煙花的璀璨需靠夜色襯托。他覺得自己的內在甚少變化,然而遭到的待遇卻與以前很不同——唯有認為,他的性格涵養未能衝破外表、被人認識。對此,他有種說不出來的鬰悶。8964 copyright protection460PENANAax4MB8gtuT 維尼
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所以,當他見到翩翩,便生起由衷的因素。8964 copyright protection460PENANAaLHDIkxqhz 維尼
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她是好X可憐的女主角,無良作者不給她天然光環。翩翩長得不美,是本小說最不好看的角色;年少寫作成名,但就算有天份也要肯寫數年而不放棄;性格若要令人深刻,也要跨出勇敢的一步:保護他人、放生黃蜂、與人對抗……其他相對好的條件也非平白擁有,書是努力讀,贅肉給努力減了;尚有愛而不得的青葱愛戀,被男神羞辱外型,然後保持清醒。8964 copyright protection460PENANAZVdcue8clN 維尼
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所以,她吸引他,原因很簡單,她活着的姿態很動人。8964 copyright protection460PENANAbl6osB2cDL 維尼
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Ceci譏笑他:「你話你未來女朋友有缺點,GG。」8964 copyright protection460PENANAyMeCUcz41P 維尼
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阿謙說:「咁真係有嘛,雖然心地幾好,但成日都猶豫幫唔幫人。而且都好記仇,一發惡就好惡,哈哈哈,實唔敢激嬲佢。不過咁,好似更加真實咁,你唔覺咩?」8964 copyright protection460PENANAjGD5g97pgR 維尼
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他不需要完美的伴侶、朋友、家人,因他清楚自己也不是這樣的人,可是他覺得翩翩能夠理解。他又補充:「鮮活同生動就係咁解,好有血有肉咁。」8964 copyright protection460PENANAdiLerbelfz 維尼
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而她比煙花燦爛。8964 copyright protection460PENANAinxJ0TUftJ 維尼
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「少少難想像。男仔——尤其係你呢A0青頭,唔係成日幻想女人唔屙屎,心上人永遠最好咩?」Ceci懷疑。8964 copyright protection460PENANA8zrTxeOt9e 維尼
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「屙屎就代表唔係最好咩?如果唔識屙屎,臉色應該好恐怖。」8964 copyright protection460PENANA5nZ4nHQUR6 維尼
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「個女仔好幸福,你竟然覺得佢啲缺點係very make sense.」8964 copyright protection460PENANAJTVyBtlKJl 維尼
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「冇缺點好假……」8964 copyright protection460PENANAf3WXPljxqJ 維尼
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阿謙忽然笑笑,他想起翩翩說,王子是那種乍看之下的完美男神;然後他又自滿起來——我怎樣也比他好吧!8964 copyright protection460PENANA2r0lmstJY3 維尼
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「多謝,本小姐都係超虛偽的。」8964 copyright protection460PENANABlq15HiLd7 維尼
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「可惜我心上人已經係最好。可能真係有少少初戀情意結,好似除咗佢之外,我都冇辦法同現實中嘅人相處得咁開心。好似可以做返自己咁,覺得佢會完全接受到我。」8964 copyright protection460PENANA84Ycq8FRkR 維尼
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原來安心才能開心。8964 copyright protection460PENANAebnyWnxIMi 維尼
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「你話你減咗好多嘛,又自稱靚仔。我諗冇人會抗拒靚仔,萬一你肥返呢?」Ceci問。8964 copyright protection460PENANAAecjpbEuWA 維尼
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「咁如果個樣係我吸引到人嘅因素,我實會努力keep佢~」8964 copyright protection460PENANA6GImG41kOJ 維尼
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雖然阿謙時常懷疑內在的價值,但他卻非常感激決心瘦下來的自己;世間現實,他遭到的待遇確實與以前相差甚遠,光是隨便穿衣站立,已有一番氣場。他不一定想受到注目,但絕不想即使走走動動也被無視、或被不屑的目光看着。他也不想承認外表的重要,但是無法否認。8964 copyright protection460PENANABjG4XGFzW9 維尼
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「救命,你真係好鍾意個女仔喎。」Ceci感歎。8964 copyright protection460PENANAGNL5DXK5tr 維尼
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「我唔敢咁講……但如果話,世界上我最鍾意邊個,我會答係佢。」8964 copyright protection460PENANAV3WuVDoh7f 維尼
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阿謙難得勇敢一次,可是又想,他應該表白嗎?還是再明顯些、主動些?翩翩明瞭他的心意嗎?他已頗明顯了——至少,她是他的唯一。她沒有抗拒,即是他可以再進一步?8964 copyright protection460PENANAFhfTuYtRPo 維尼
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「咁咪好。之後就可以戒咗APP佢啦,玩得多APP都唔好呀,呢啲地方多衰人,好人好者做咩流轉網絡,唔正正經經識返現實嘅朋友啫?」Ceci調侃着。8964 copyright protection460PENANAIJHsNjNoDj 維尼
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「咁你又唔好咁講自己。」8964 copyright protection460PENANA6EssRm57jO 維尼
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二人結束對話。8964 copyright protection460PENANAvJRLIbdZJs 維尼
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父親再婚後約見阿謙聊天——這件事,在阿謙告訴翩翩後,便將想法釐清一遍,再寫到信內告訴Ceci。8964 copyright protection460PENANAuvsSiQzaCn 維尼
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他希望,下次寄信給她,會有好消息。8964 copyright protection460PENANACfKs1cMA7Q 維尼
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放下電話,阿謙從抽履裏拿出了久違的親密物品。8964 copyright protection460PENANAvGgWehn7N9 維尼
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「呼——」8964 copyright protection460PENANARV7sT8eLhL 維尼
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瞬間,煙霧迷漫,他再吸一口,再呼出。他食電子煙,從他轉校、被欺凌開始,便認識到這種減壓方法。為了弱化危害健康這印象,他都會選甜美的白桃烏龍、巨峰提子味。偶然想起那時,他每每抽煙,就像——8964 copyright protection460PENANAT46DYTQTSW 維尼
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那些欺凌者、瞧不起他的人、軟弱的他本人,也要參與他被衰敗內臟的煙霧侵蝕的過程,一同殺死舊時的他,全部人都要淪為罪犯。8964 copyright protection460PENANAGbiJspzUvE 維尼
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他沒有煙癮,不會定期拿出來抽,也沒有在任何人面前抽過。8964 copyright protection460PENANAcY5P87YwTo 維尼
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只是忽然,他想念這種迷糊而寧靜的感覺。8964 copyright protection460PENANA6mYiswukqx 維尼
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「聽日幾點?」翩翩傳來訊息。8964 copyright protection460PENANA3wTbGNBZsE 維尼
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「兩點出門,OK?」阿謙回覆。8964 copyright protection460PENANAQLw6sfiesC 維尼
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「See you!」8964 copyright protection460PENANApxYqtSV7w5 維尼
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下一秒,他吸入更大口煙,再舒坦地呼出。他發現,已很久不需要吸煙。8964 copyright protection460PENANAg5NCq4A0AW 維尼
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