自從上次遇見秋雨勝後,玲似乎有點躲避她,或許是源自覺得自己沒有好好保護好朋友的愧疚吧。459Please respect copyright.PENANAuKrnFzwzxA
但在她看來,一切都是源自於玲對自己沒花時間與她們想處的責怪,人的時間就像一大壺水,只能倒進有限的杯子中,雖然覺得愧疚,但她做出了自己的選擇,就要承擔對應的後果。459Please respect copyright.PENANA3O405s3NLP
少根筋的燦還是像平常一樣來找她聊天,可只要玲一離開,燦就會像隻小狗跟上,完全沒發現點到點中間的問題,他只擔心玲最近沒有以前開朗了,甚至連揍他的次數都減少。459Please respect copyright.PENANAeW3jIW0lLb
她望著他們離去的背影,希望他們可以得她得不到的幸福。459Please respect copyright.PENANAIstXSpNsT9
她想起G的一席話,其實要找個伴定下來,對現階段的她而言不難,她認識幾個不錯的男生後來都對她展開追求,可她就是不想,或許G跟K都說對了吧,她自始至終都只是想進行一場無謂的復仇,透過傷害自己的身體,好向老天爺報復對自己的不公平,其實到頭來這也只是幼稚的賭氣,可不這樣做,她覺得自己會爆炸。459Please respect copyright.PENANA9c7HGbqZ7D
她不自覺地又想起了秋雨勝,從機場躲開他以後,他們再也不曾說過話,聽說那天晚上他甚至打給燦問起關於她的事,可當燦告訴他玲已經跟自己說他跟學妹交往的事以後,他就再也沒傳過訊息。459Please respect copyright.PENANAjDwXBrKoOS
難道,他連解釋都不想解釋嗎?對他而言,自己究竟算什麼?459Please respect copyright.PENANAD9SaJYmQKO
以前她還會幻想,自己在大庭廣眾下咄咄逼人地問他到底憑什麼這樣玩弄自己的感情?到底為什麼要這樣對自己?最後在帥氣地給他一巴掌,可她始終沒有勇氣,是害怕答案嗎?還是連面對他都令人害怕?459Please respect copyright.PENANA0T4wNjvtUn
後來,她不再做這樣的白日夢了,只是致力於陌生化彼此的關係,她會選擇那些他不會走的路,至於球隊…她向教練暫時用其他理由申請只在男籃沒有練習時出現,她很喜歡籃球,不希望只是因為一個禮拜有一天秋雨勝也在對面的場一起練習就放棄,她為他放棄的,已經夠多了。459Please respect copyright.PENANAeBKyz7Ky0M
只是午夜夢迴時,她還是在做無謂的期待,期待有一天,他出現,然後誠懇地解釋,又或者當他知道自己所經歷的傷痛後,會擁抱她,一如從前他在她難過時給予的安慰。459Please respect copyright.PENANAN433urOTrH
她還是很愛他,很愛很愛。459Please respect copyright.PENANAIvxXKqsWkc
偶爾她會閃過這麼一個畫面。459Please respect copyright.PENANAN7bVBMvOhr
自己正被逼上一條沒有交流道的高速公路,在找到人生出口前,只能不斷向前狂飆…459Please respect copyright.PENANAe7CuCUkvCL
和那群人在一起時,世界變得簡單,喝酒、跳舞、挑逗然後做愛,在那些時刻,她覺得自己所向無敵,沒有什麼能夠打敗她。可再黑的夜,都有太陽升起的一天,北極的永夜換來下一個永晝,像是被陽光照到的吸血鬼,瞬間失去所有超能力,狂歡後的寂寞,更甚於從前。459Please respect copyright.PENANADazvI9yold
究竟要被一個人珍惜後傷害,還是從頭到尾都不懂被珍惜的滋味?她從來都不知道答案。459Please respect copyright.PENANA5wNtlUQkwZ
她只知道,自己越來越難適應原本的生活,像是將到過大海的魚,抓回小小的魚缸裡,她說不出誰對誰錯,只能看著泡沫中的倒映傾訴汙穢的話語。459Please respect copyright.PENANAtvkkOtUzLF
而冉冉上升的泡沫,自顧地潔白純淨。459Please respect copyright.PENANAL7EkHPB6KS
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