《我喺街執咗個失憶嘅女仔返屋企》 - 未來篇：五分之二

兩年前，剛考完公開試的我本來收到美術大學的取錄通知，不過母親以前途為由，要求我留在出生地完成會計學位。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJuxn970EEB
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要說一點後悔也沒有的話，那是騙人的。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0wM9ill5lo
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只是，我知道希望我讀完會計學位的不只有母親。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbkeTK8XsNd
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畢竟從父母的角度想，把女兒交給一個以漫畫家這種虛無飄渺的職業為目標的人，會感到不安也是人之常情。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXmYrbsefEl
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所以，我讀這個會計學位不只是為了母親，更多是為了我和她。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX7CFcyPEaW
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我搖頭：「點會？又冇人規定要讀美大先可以畫畫，就算我而家讀會計，一樣可以畫呀。」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhXLw2iO8jc
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她定眼看了我一會，良久吐出：「咁好啦。」說罷開始把玩起手上的iphone。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYswcVd43f4
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我以背向她的姿勢躺到床上，把屈曲的手臂當作枕頭。我想望著漆黑的晚空會讓我快點入睡。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE357mt3ZBF
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除了因為明天早機以外，還要趕在我的理智消失，對旁邊的她做出什麼之前。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAgkxkRZMEU
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額…雖然這樣說很奇怪，畢竟我和她在一起已經一段時間，但長期分隔兩地的關係，像這樣子睡在同一張床的機會少之又少，那種事情當然也是一次也沒有做過。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuRfOyifD73
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不知是否太少親近她，每當我鼓起勇氣想要做什麼越界的事（說是「越界」絕對也很奇怪…），總會在最後關頭被無謂的羞恥心給阻撓，每次也不能成事。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Wc7d7KSik
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我甚至想，如果再是這樣子下去，我或許要看心理醫生了吧…538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyIqhUiv4y9
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旁邊不時傳來她的輕笑，大概是在ig瀏覽著那些無聊的迷因圖。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbaTgR7ChK9
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忽爾，背後傳來她的聲線：「要唔要熄燈呀？」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUpfOx0Sd6m
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被她這麼一說，我才想起——的確還沒有關燈。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSwHvaqx5X4
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房間的燈掣長在比較近她的床邊櫃上，不好意思勞煩她的我只好把手臂繞過她的身體，去觸碰那些遙不可及的按鈕。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ17r4QMZ7pt
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把身體湊向她時，她好像瑟縮了一下。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtjsUfJVTht
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嚓——房間陷入漆黑一片，只餘下光線柔和的小夜燈。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0hWKKPKpAF
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她依然目不轉睛地望著iphone屏幕，在白光的反射下，她的睫毛顯得比平日更為修長，我不禁看得入神。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWgxKvnb6Y
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在黑暗的籠罩下，她大概沒有察覺我的視線，然後大概是看到了什麼爆笑梗圖，發出了凌碎笑聲。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvDdFx1brfy
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我禁不著問：「睇到咩咁好笑呀？」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6RhEvIRU6t
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她把iphone翻轉，讓我看到屏幕那方。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFEqtEdgvHe
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我花了兩秒才認出照片裏那個正在奔跑的男生正是自己，背景是不知名的荒山野嶺。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0IxrkHqLqG
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「…聯校宿營嗰陣嘅相？」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX7BMLiCuKc
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她聳了肩：「咁啱見到就影低咗，你唔覺得你個表情好得意咩？」說罷又笑了兩聲。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ55jjnNhDNl
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「得意？on9咋掛？」望著那張呆頭呆腦的臉，除了這個形容詞，實在想不到其他合適的。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ6G4j3wuhm
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「唔係，係閃閃發光。」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtZA8N961q7
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這什麼形容詞啊…。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3twrj3Pchu
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「…傻妹。」我拍了她的頭。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPxNu2IiKbF
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她雙眼悄然垂下：「嗰段日子，真係令人懷念。」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCPoPcYw5to
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聯校宿營，充滿回憶的兩日一夜。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7KgHiGXUGK
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我把照片往左邊掃，才發現這傢伙私藏的比我想像還要多，儘管拍的角度不同，動作和表情也有著微妙差異，但每一張的共通點都是那時候我的一副呆相。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDT9TU1iXU0
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「點解碌極都有，你影咁多做咩？」總感覺，有點害羞…538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9sevvPZVvh
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「因為鍾意囉。」538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbYb3jhnasL
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乜你鍾意影相架咩？——即使再笨拙，我也說不出這樣的話，尤其和她一起這段時間，我知道她是偶爾會發出一記直球，把我弄得面紅耳赤的類型。538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb6fT6wi0Vi
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換言之，為了避免她說出「我係指我鍾意你」之類令人害羞的說話，我選擇閉上嘴巴。